I just felt tired and restless even I have had slept for almost 10hours a day~ I think I am nuts.
I just can't control myself, and I have a lot of things to do, as I stated in the last blog, but I just can't make it, I am very lazy and felt very tired to do anything-does any1 want to punch me until I am awake?? just forget it, I will still be lying on the floor for no reason....
Help me...I have all the things on earth to be finish up~
Maybe...maybe I just need an extreme "recharging" of energy...like a tour, a super shopping spree, or....hm....maybe just to use up a lot a lot of my money will make me feel better:p:p
February 28, 2006
February 27, 2006
Weeks and days
People around me just think that life is too short for them, as they have so many things in the world for them to finish off, but they just don't have enough time to do them all.
However, as for me, I just have so much time left for me to rest, to do things that I wanted to do, and sometimes I just felt too free that I am afraid that I might have no thing to do to past my time. On the other hand, I have so much things for me to finish up, e.g., to prepare notes for all subjects I am taking, to read up some extras, to do my assignment, to have my room clean....etc, etc. This things here seems to be very ignorable that I sometimes is so lazy to do them. Hm...but sometimes, I just think that I managed my time so well that I have so much time left for me to do a lot of things, and therefore, I always hope that time passes faster for me to finish my 3 years of study in UTAR.
Thinking of that, I felt depressed, however, I have so many frens here, and the things I am studying now is what I wanted to study....very confusing and contradicting...
Nvm, time will past as days and weeks past. Hope I will enjoy the things I have now, and not to always want to have things I don't have...
CHEERS!!
However, as for me, I just have so much time left for me to rest, to do things that I wanted to do, and sometimes I just felt too free that I am afraid that I might have no thing to do to past my time. On the other hand, I have so much things for me to finish up, e.g., to prepare notes for all subjects I am taking, to read up some extras, to do my assignment, to have my room clean....etc, etc. This things here seems to be very ignorable that I sometimes is so lazy to do them. Hm...but sometimes, I just think that I managed my time so well that I have so much time left for me to do a lot of things, and therefore, I always hope that time passes faster for me to finish my 3 years of study in UTAR.
Thinking of that, I felt depressed, however, I have so many frens here, and the things I am studying now is what I wanted to study....very confusing and contradicting...
Nvm, time will past as days and weeks past. Hope I will enjoy the things I have now, and not to always want to have things I don't have...
CHEERS!!
February 18, 2006
Busy life(tension) with hard to go to sleep nights+ Dreams
I am not actually as busy as other people might have beed carrying on with their lifes, because I am handling and planning all my time for myself and not for other people or events. I planned my time so as to make my life easier,e.g.: I write a set of notes which is understandable to myself that I only have to read through once when exam comes. However, I don't know where does my stress comes and I also don't know what am I afraid of, even I have made well preparations for what I wanted to do.
As in such conditions, I don't have enough sleep at night although I have "been sleeping" for almost 9 hours. My brain kept repeating the situations occur that day, and events which may happen in future. I just can't just switch off my brain process just like that. How????I am desparate to get a good night sleep....
Dreams--> I kept having dreams which occurs at different situation, place and event. But the same thing which is inside those dreams is that I felt very tired and don't have energy to get to a targeted place,e.g., last night, I dreamt that I have to go to the car park with my mom to get her car, to go back home. However, I am very very tired and can't even walk to the car park, but to crawl all the way there.
You see, it's weird...how can such dreams always comes into mine??
What does it represent?
Aih....cannot get a good sleep at night dee, still give me such nonsense dreams....BAD LUCK!!
Hope good luck will come to me soon:D
As in such conditions, I don't have enough sleep at night although I have "been sleeping" for almost 9 hours. My brain kept repeating the situations occur that day, and events which may happen in future. I just can't just switch off my brain process just like that. How????I am desparate to get a good night sleep....
Dreams--> I kept having dreams which occurs at different situation, place and event. But the same thing which is inside those dreams is that I felt very tired and don't have energy to get to a targeted place,e.g., last night, I dreamt that I have to go to the car park with my mom to get her car, to go back home. However, I am very very tired and can't even walk to the car park, but to crawl all the way there.
You see, it's weird...how can such dreams always comes into mine??
What does it represent?
Aih....cannot get a good sleep at night dee, still give me such nonsense dreams....BAD LUCK!!
Hope good luck will come to me soon:D
February 16, 2006
anonymus??my valentines day
Even though I said that it is not a must for couples to be together on this day, and everyday is a valentines day if they love each other~
BUT....wat an unsignificant valentines day I have had this year~
nvm~~future is yet to come....hope I will get a memorable one soon:D
BUT....wat an unsignificant valentines day I have had this year~
nvm~~future is yet to come....hope I will get a memorable one soon:D
February 13, 2006
Valentine's Day
A Valentine's Day is it suposed to be like every pair, like boy friends and girl friends have to celebrate it together, give each other gifts or even to like, hm...sort of like a must and not like a surprise or a anniversary or whatever???
At one thought, I think it should be like a chance for those people who have not found their boy/girl friends yet to ask/sort of like "propose", ask for a chance to be into part of each others life.
For example, like a boy does not have a girl friend, but he have a "target" girl, which he thinks that she is the one that he wanted. So, he does not know when to ask/when is the time to tell her he likes her, so, the time??VALENTINES DAY!!
He can sort of like give a small gift, or send a valentines day card to ask her to be his valentine or sort of things like that.
Then, maybe the relationship might continue, or the boy might get rejected, BUT, it's good for that poor guy, atleast he knows the girl does not have any good impression on him and he don't have to waste more time on that, so that he can set another "target".
However, on the other hand, if a boy/girl have had "the other half", he/she will surely dream or wanted something(gift) from him/her.
So, in the end, they will both get each other a gift, so that him/her won't be dissapointed.
At the end of the day~what happen???The sales person, the people who sells flower/small gifts get their "bonus of the year".
Anyway, hopeyou guys will get what you want for this Valentine's Day. And for those who haven't have a partner, hope you will get one very soon:D
HAPPY VALENTINE"S DAY!!
At one thought, I think it should be like a chance for those people who have not found their boy/girl friends yet to ask/sort of like "propose", ask for a chance to be into part of each others life.
For example, like a boy does not have a girl friend, but he have a "target" girl, which he thinks that she is the one that he wanted. So, he does not know when to ask/when is the time to tell her he likes her, so, the time??VALENTINES DAY!!
He can sort of like give a small gift, or send a valentines day card to ask her to be his valentine or sort of things like that.
Then, maybe the relationship might continue, or the boy might get rejected, BUT, it's good for that poor guy, atleast he knows the girl does not have any good impression on him and he don't have to waste more time on that, so that he can set another "target".
However, on the other hand, if a boy/girl have had "the other half", he/she will surely dream or wanted something(gift) from him/her.
So, in the end, they will both get each other a gift, so that him/her won't be dissapointed.
At the end of the day~what happen???The sales person, the people who sells flower/small gifts get their "bonus of the year".
Anyway, hopeyou guys will get what you want for this Valentine's Day. And for those who haven't have a partner, hope you will get one very soon:D
HAPPY VALENTINE"S DAY!!
February 10, 2006
PTPTN loan and my dissapointment
I can finally get to relief my worries in my mind for not getting PTPTN loan, because I have got RM31500.00 of study loan, which is about RM900+ more than what I will have to pay for all the fees for the whole course I am going to study-biomedical science in UTAR.
However, I seems a bit not satisfied to the amout they gave me, because my friends mostly get about RM50000 for the whole 3 years of study. Aih....bo huat~
It's raining now, and that's why I am still here, online. So, having onlined yesterday morning, I don't quite have anything to do online, except to check my mails, which I did not go through yesterday morning, but just to delete those unwanted mails. I go to seach for my dear dear's msn space, having never ever seen my name or anything mentioned about my existance, I am actually quite angry, and dissapointed.
I know that he is not as free as I am, not having as much free time as I have, but....I just feel that he just don't want people to know that he have a girl friend, or simply wanted me to be sort of like "a woman behind a man". I don't want to be one. I wanted to be going through every step and having to share all his experience in life with him.
What do I get in return of all my doings?
1) get to be a girl who is not considerate
2) get to have all the sweet words from his mouth
3) never know much about his life
4) I don't know anything about his daily experience, until he is telling his friends about the event, and I am just happened to be there
I am not actually complaining, but I just want to know more, and to go as the same pace as he is going through. I don't want to be left behind, not knowing anything, until his friends tell me about it, or I am "just so happened" to be there.
Who am I in his life? just somebody? or nobody?
Dear,
I am not complaining or asking for more...I have tell u so many times that I don't want to say it again. It's just that, I think it's for me to know and for you to tell me.
It's not fair and not a point that I tell you everything, and that's the end of everything. SHUT UP AND CASE CLOSE!!
END OF STORY!!
However, I seems a bit not satisfied to the amout they gave me, because my friends mostly get about RM50000 for the whole 3 years of study. Aih....bo huat~
It's raining now, and that's why I am still here, online. So, having onlined yesterday morning, I don't quite have anything to do online, except to check my mails, which I did not go through yesterday morning, but just to delete those unwanted mails. I go to seach for my dear dear's msn space, having never ever seen my name or anything mentioned about my existance, I am actually quite angry, and dissapointed.
I know that he is not as free as I am, not having as much free time as I have, but....I just feel that he just don't want people to know that he have a girl friend, or simply wanted me to be sort of like "a woman behind a man". I don't want to be one. I wanted to be going through every step and having to share all his experience in life with him.
What do I get in return of all my doings?
1) get to be a girl who is not considerate
2) get to have all the sweet words from his mouth
3) never know much about his life
4) I don't know anything about his daily experience, until he is telling his friends about the event, and I am just happened to be there
I am not actually complaining, but I just want to know more, and to go as the same pace as he is going through. I don't want to be left behind, not knowing anything, until his friends tell me about it, or I am "just so happened" to be there.
Who am I in his life? just somebody? or nobody?
Dear,
I am not complaining or asking for more...I have tell u so many times that I don't want to say it again. It's just that, I think it's for me to know and for you to tell me.
It's not fair and not a point that I tell you everything, and that's the end of everything. SHUT UP AND CASE CLOSE!!
END OF STORY!!
February 9, 2006
Back to normal university routine
Have to get myself back to the state and mentality that I have to accept the fact the I have to continue my study(What kind of sentance is that??), although still want to have fun and enjoy my life at home.
However, it's not as bad as it is to be back at Setapak, I don't always have to decide what to eat, or don't want to have anything to go into my stomach, thanks to my grand aunt and all the friends I have that I have good food to eat and can explore places with all my friend here.
Yesterday, we ended our class at 11am, because the biochem class from 12-1 has been cancelled. So, we decided to go shopping at Sungai Wang- for valentine's day gift. It's kind of an excuse, because, even if we go back home/room, we don't quite have anything to do, but to study/ sleep- but we don want to do either of them.
oh ya~I have not tell you guys my friends(or group members) names yet right?
They are:-Nay Wah, Darren, Kwan Yi, Aik Aun, Sai Weng, Vincent, Michelle, Novem....did I miss anyone's name??forgive me if I missed your name on the list. pls tell me so that I can add in...
Lastly, why am I at Utar so early in the morning, even I only have class at 12noon? because I want free aircon, also, I can read up some notes when I am here. If I am at home, I don't think I will study anything.
p/s: saw some clouds on the way here. I am so happy. coz last few days I don see any on the sky. Hope it rains:D
it is terribly hot this few day, and the newspaper said that it will continue till mid march.
However, it's not as bad as it is to be back at Setapak, I don't always have to decide what to eat, or don't want to have anything to go into my stomach, thanks to my grand aunt and all the friends I have that I have good food to eat and can explore places with all my friend here.
Yesterday, we ended our class at 11am, because the biochem class from 12-1 has been cancelled. So, we decided to go shopping at Sungai Wang- for valentine's day gift. It's kind of an excuse, because, even if we go back home/room, we don't quite have anything to do, but to study/ sleep- but we don want to do either of them.
oh ya~I have not tell you guys my friends(or group members) names yet right?
They are:-Nay Wah, Darren, Kwan Yi, Aik Aun, Sai Weng, Vincent, Michelle, Novem....did I miss anyone's name??forgive me if I missed your name on the list. pls tell me so that I can add in...
Lastly, why am I at Utar so early in the morning, even I only have class at 12noon? because I want free aircon, also, I can read up some notes when I am here. If I am at home, I don't think I will study anything.
p/s: saw some clouds on the way here. I am so happy. coz last few days I don see any on the sky. Hope it rains:D
it is terribly hot this few day, and the newspaper said that it will continue till mid march.
February 4, 2006
A week of CNY holiday
A week is actually not enough...
What have I been doing? go to visit all people that I have to visit in chinese new year, meet up frens from everywhere, have a good chat with my best fren, seeing my dear dear a lot, have a good time with my family, online, playing games, sleep, eat all the good food in penang, drive, discuss homework, etc,etc...
I have been doing a lot of things, but it seems that I want more. However, if I keep getting wat I want in life- which is to enjoy all the way till the end, I won't miss everything I have in life, and will keep complaining on things I don't have.
I have a lot of things people don't have in life. I have a good family which brought me up into a person who knows how to think before I act and have all the love I need from a family; I have my 1st love which is sweet and bitter at the same time, but filled with all the love which people wish to have in their relationship; I get to study wat I wanted to study, and decide wat I want to be in future; I get all the things I should have in life, not to say all things a rich person should have but they are just things that is necessary to have an enjoyable life; I have frens who I can have fun with, which I never notice when I can have them all the time last time; I have enough money for me to spend wisely.....I really have a great life, it's just that I am human, and I do wat human use to do, which is to complain about the things they don't have but not to apprecitiate things they have in life.
I should learn to enjoy and have fun...not always to complain, and not satisfy.
A person feels rich because they are satisfy with the things they have in life, on the other hand, felt poor because they always want to obtain things they can't afford/does not satisfy with things they can afford to have.
Be humble, satisfied easily but with target in life, enjoy life with smile always on the face, and, don't complain on what you have in life, but to thank god on what god give you on the time being....
Cheers~~
What have I been doing? go to visit all people that I have to visit in chinese new year, meet up frens from everywhere, have a good chat with my best fren, seeing my dear dear a lot, have a good time with my family, online, playing games, sleep, eat all the good food in penang, drive, discuss homework, etc,etc...
I have been doing a lot of things, but it seems that I want more. However, if I keep getting wat I want in life- which is to enjoy all the way till the end, I won't miss everything I have in life, and will keep complaining on things I don't have.
I have a lot of things people don't have in life. I have a good family which brought me up into a person who knows how to think before I act and have all the love I need from a family; I have my 1st love which is sweet and bitter at the same time, but filled with all the love which people wish to have in their relationship; I get to study wat I wanted to study, and decide wat I want to be in future; I get all the things I should have in life, not to say all things a rich person should have but they are just things that is necessary to have an enjoyable life; I have frens who I can have fun with, which I never notice when I can have them all the time last time; I have enough money for me to spend wisely.....I really have a great life, it's just that I am human, and I do wat human use to do, which is to complain about the things they don't have but not to apprecitiate things they have in life.
I should learn to enjoy and have fun...not always to complain, and not satisfy.
A person feels rich because they are satisfy with the things they have in life, on the other hand, felt poor because they always want to obtain things they can't afford/does not satisfy with things they can afford to have.
Be humble, satisfied easily but with target in life, enjoy life with smile always on the face, and, don't complain on what you have in life, but to thank god on what god give you on the time being....
Cheers~~
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