End of Training

Its the last day of training^.^
Seems to be I just started the whole journey in HLWE, but 2 months, 9 weeks had passed just like that~

What I have learned cannot be described in words...maybe becoz I am lacked of experienced and that everything is super interesting to me^.^
Politics, communication, relationship, responsibility and of coz~ study related knowledge are learned and upgraded to a higher level. Another main thing that I get from this whole 9 weeks is friendship^.^

Friendship earned is like building bridges~ There are staffs working in different department and have different thoughts and knowledge in different fields, trainees that have different attitude and thoughts towards their own future....bla bla bla~=.='''
Maybe I have earn a place in ur heart, become a trainee to be remembered~ =.='''
As always~ I lack security when I didn't get any feedback on who I am, or telling me where I stand. But, nobody will ever tell any1 the truthful, bottom of the heart opinion towards him/her. Even if did so~ that 2nd fellow won't trust the 1st fellow also~ =.=''' Complicated!

Maybe I became more matured and improved my relationship skills, also~ brightens my dimension of knowledge~ But~ I think I am still the same =.='''

The main point of the whole story??
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

p/s: photos attached~ only got 3 =.=''' tak ada masa~ tak pergi ambil satu satu...pai sei la^.^
Mr. Leong and gang^.^
From Rt: Jeff, Aik Aun, Me, Steven, Mr.Leong, Huei Huei, Janet, Weng Foong, Kia Huey and Jasmine

From Right: Ms Cheng, Aik Aun, Me, Janet and Kia Huey

With the most Leng Chai in the lab~ Ah Soon :p

Down syndrome

There are always 2 main things in controversial of each other, always fighting with each other in our mind~ which are reality and imaginary~
Imaginary stuffs are as in dreams~ and reality are wat u are doing now, even its a total opposite of wat u dreamt for.
When reality overcomes imaginary side of u, and that u cannot cope with that emotional side of u, wat u get is "down" syndrome^.^

"Down" syndrome~ the combination of signs and symptoms as follows: u will feel very down, of coz~ feeling uneasy, hates wat u are doing now, hope for things that meets ur dream, angry over small little things that come ur way, donno whether u should move towards ur dream or take reality as it is...etc....etc....

The cure will be....almost none~ erm~ maybe force urself to be "happy go lucky", taking things easy, and just be who u are~
In my case, I am immune with the syndrome kind of thingy....as to the extend that autoimmune come to take place, where I myself make myself go crazy easily~ imagining things that are super unnatural^.^ but I love this autoimmune disease that attacks me without notice every now and then^.^

Note: Misused all those scientific words~ just for fun~ I don't think any1 can understand wat I am trying to convey here~ so~ some of u must be thinking~ wat the "tut" do I post up to blogger then? Its where I express myself~ choy meh :p

sprained

Ever sprained ur ankle before? or~ ur hands??
The question is~ how do u sprain ur finger or worse.....ur toe =.='''
That~ happens to me =.='''

Where is there a person can be so clumsy as to sprain his/her toe even when climbing the staircase?? ridiculous, but yet, there is this clumsy little gal~ ME ^.^

At 1st, I thought its just a slight knock and the pain will go off in a bit, but here it is, after 24 hours and its still there~ wat more that the 爱美不要命(wan to be pretty and don't wan life) me~ wearing heels for 3-4 hours~ going gurney :p Then~ kind of make the thing worse~ i think...but no regrets wat-so-ever~

Hopefully the pain will go off in like~ a week's time?? hahahaha~~~
Just bare with the small tiny pain for now~ its nothing compared to cutting one's body with a knife rite ^.^

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k~ its saturday "again"~ wat have I done?

nothing much~ bz"ing" the whole week....but even have time to do silly stuff =.='''

I have lots and lots of things to be expressed, but I can't do it in the blog~ I can't tell my family members~ my fren is away in msn~ and its like no body can share wat I have in mind with me =.='''

Maybe~ if "something" have happened~ IF~~
but everything is still in "tut"

Regret

Remember those things I found in 21st October? I found more of them today =.=''' Maybe its all becoz I have very short memory that I forgot "something" when I did that so called "smart" thing last year~ making me regret now =.='''

Memories are memories~ it will always be that even we have stepped furthur in life, having new thoughts and wat so ever~
Its not that I want anything from it, but~ they make me thought of wat I have went thru, remind me of wat I did in the past~ that's y~ after I throw a lots of things away, gave back some of them to "those" ppl~ so~ there left not much with me....and those left overs are now seems to be so precious, even a small "rubbish" paper seemed to be invaluable like diamond or gold of some sort.

Regret is wat I can say~ no wonder "u" want to keep everything untill ur room filled with all "rubbish"~

p/s: I wonder if I can...erm.....erm.....I'll tell "u" later :p

Allergic Reaction

hehe~ long time haven't seen my fren visiting me d~ Who are they?? the allergic reaction, making me get itchy anywhere in the body...haha~~

Why?? its all caused by the prawns~ too much for the day already i think....2 for lunch, 2 for tea and 2 for dinner^.^ Yum Yum!!

Hopefully, I can get rid of them by eating more and more "dose" of prawns.... :p Gambateh ne~

Its all about FOOD!!!!

It's been a great week for me~
Having to see types of real organs right in front of my eyes, and that I can learn lots of stuffs about them, the tumors, normal and abnormal tissues...etc....etc....

U guys out there must be curious~ y is it that I don't feel geli bout all those bloody, organ, tissues, pus, body kind of things~ Y?? coz I relate all of them to FOOD!!! wahahaha~~
Examples: uterus, which have to be cut open so that formalin can go inside the organ and fix all the cells and not only the surface cells, looks exactly like meat balls~
Uterine/liver scrapings for biopsy purposes looks super like "liong fun"~
Prostate scrapings are super like potato chips we munch~
Colon is super yummy-like pig stomach/intestine~
Etc....etc....

So...its kind of interesting for me, coz I love organs~ I think the most beautiful thing god actually created is human body and its component^.^

For today~ its also about food~
Went for the my 2nd favourite after chocolate~ cheese fondue!!! yum yum!!!

Jay on the Run

finally~ Finally~FINALLY!!!

After multiple attempts I finally got the CD in my hands~ it all must be becoz of the "tut" censorship board =.=''' Donno wat idiotic stuff they are going to censor this time round =.='''

Later only write a blog bout the new album la~ now no time~ :p

mom don want to fren me liao~ coz I go "fill in petrol"...hahahaha~~~ crazy crazy stuff do happen in my house ^.^
And then~ my room looks even more jia lat then a cow barn~ hahahaha~~~
the toilet~~ =.=''' just don't wear glasses inside
My books~ are like mount everest
My clothes and closet....still considered neat and nice ^.^
My laptop ~ still have things to install and all the files to put into order
My frens ~ all still in exam....so~wish them luck
My training~ =.=''' I'll have to re write the report of the week, and then read up something for the coming week

Conclusion: JIA LAT!!!

Alone

Sometimes, I miss those days I have in KL~ being alone, no one bothers bout wat I do, wat I eat, whether I slept enough, where I went, wat I am doing, whether I study or not, if I am emo or I am happy....etc....etc....

Maybe it's all becoz of this little "thingy" that bothers me, making me feel like want to shout at ppl no matter who they are; making talk nonsense to ppl around me, even ppl that are just brush shoulder punya colleague; seems to be easily irritated with questions that make me feel "irritated"; feels like....I am angry!!!!

Its a love-hate relationship btw me and the "thingy"; me and ppl around me; me and myself (at times); u~ u~ and U~~
Everything irritates me~ I am an angry person!!!

I want to be alone~ just don kacau me ok?

One more thing~ just open ur eyes, and close the other 5 holes on ur head~ serious!

Finished "the" book, after 6 months =.='''

Phew!! after 6 months of on and off reading the same old book, I finally finished the whole thing. The title: History of Medicine, from Hypocrites to Gene Therapy~
Its a fun to read book, having quite easy to understand scientific terms and all the basics and the findings in medicinal science~

As it states: The disciples of Hypocrites~ I take it as to mean ppl that have the passion towards medicine and health science, making themselves as to continue to find out more about live, biological stuff and to make human life better in a way.....
So~ maybe, I can make myself, as a disciple of Hypocrites ^.^ and my religion will be stated Hypocritesm~

hahahaha~~~

Time

There are a lot of times, I think y ppl have so much time to do something I love doing, like read books~ and that I don have so much of them =.='''

Now I know....I am easily distracted by something very entertaining, like games, tv, drama, movies, shopping and chit chatting, for examples =.='''

There are too many things that I hope I can do, but at the same time, I am just wasting all the time in the world I have just like that~ Its such a sad sad thing~ how pity that I just don't have self control over myself.....

f*cking fake of me :p

Its syok to go shopping alone today~ though I love the companion of my super great cousin, but being with myself is undescribably enjoyable.

Why lea???
Coz, if I am with some1, which doesn't really knows me in deep, and have some expectation out of me....its like...I have to act the way how they think of me, wat they expect from me.....etc....etc.....
When I am with myself, I can change my attitude towards things from seconds to seconds without any consideration of anything wat so ever.... also, with that I can observe ppl around me, and have fun with that^.^

ei?? am I still repeating myself?? maybe~ but I don care.....I just want to talk~ BLEK:p