English

English is not everything!

At one time, I have the thought that think that English is a language that carries status, class and standard~ and that without English speaking/writing, means no standard or low quality.

Now that I understand, and learn more about more societal levels, to have the grasp of English is an advantage, BUT, it's just not everything (unless, that is the ONLY language u communicate with ppl).

English, in lower societal level seems to be something great, highly recognized, and respectable~ but in higher societal level, ppl that are fluent or that have some standard of English education seems to forget the presence of the lower level, and that those ppl with "English" think that those ppl without "English" MUST have English in their life.

It's just not true~
We have to greatful about wat we know, ALSO, at the same time, the "disadvantage" of other ppl should be taken into consideration, don't think only for urself, but for others !

ENGLISH IS JUST NOT EVERYTHING!

Remember who u are!
Remember where is ur root!
Be greatful!

短见 vs. 远见

人生本来就不是那么好混的~

就因为“你”一个人觉得：
“你们告诉我如此这般的，我把他完成，就相等任务成功！

如果一切的一切都是那么简单
那~或者就很废。。。很废~
再来，就是人类的脑袋的存在根本就是一种侮辱！！

是的~
我的人生根本算不上有什么考验
也算不上有什么很大的烦恼
可以说是无忧无虑~
不用烦明天打开眼睛有东西可以吃吗？
或是明天会下雨/太阳太大
或者明天就一分钱都没有。。。之类之类的~

但~也不可以因为如此的生活而不必/不想相信“远见”这东西~

对~
目标很重要~
但，达到目标并不相等成功
就因为世界，人生不是那么好玩的！！

“你”懂了吗？
觉得你还是一样~
从来就不觉得，也不知道自己错在那里~
还有~
你这样说话~你可有想过？
你只顾虑到自己是否OK，是否我的生活很简单？
我们的感受如何？
你身边的人的感受如何？

p/s: 世界没有一个人是个体，也没有一样东西是个体~
Please~~有点远见好吗？证明给大家看你已成长好吗？

新年快乐！！

人人都说：新的一年，新的开始！
但，如果没有空无一物，心无杂念，何来开始？
呵呵~可是~我做到了^.^

我的2009年的开始~
是在于安稳的睡眠当中~
整整睡了11个小时！！
没有倒数，没有烟花，没有亲朋戚友，没有电脑，没有手机~
就只有我~还有我^.^

就因为我的2009是一个超级"零"的点~
所以~我的人生就在此时真正的从 0 开始^.^

p/s: 还以为关机睡觉醒来时会有一拖拉库的简讯, 或是msn信息~
结果~什么都没有^.^
真的一点都没有失望~反而~很开心的有一个最真诚的开始^.^

2009 新年快乐!!

家

“家”
一个对我来说很重要很重要的字~

对外人~
我可以以不理不睬
或是~一点都不放在心上
但~一扯上家我就会一路追到底

痛彻心扉~
是我不久前才深深体会到的感觉
就是一种比与男/女朋友分手还要痛的感觉

怎么说呢？
就是~ 一种让你又气又恨，又疼又爱，又同时担心与失望~
喉咙里卡着一颗不上又不下的一团热热得球状物~
一种想哭~但，有哭笑不得的感觉~
一种觉得他人很不会想，但又觉得自己是啥东西的感觉~
一种~连听你最爱的音乐，做你最爱的东西都在痛的感觉~

嗯。。。。当怒与哀交际。。。
当烦恼加上不安。。。
当泪水加上一团气与不甘。。。

明明~
一切的一切真的与我一点关系都没有
但~
就因为一个字：“家”
而打乱了我人生的步伐~

我只能告诉我自己~
这是上天给与我一连串的考验~

勇敢地面对~
不逃避~
挨过了，一切的一切都是我的！！

科学洗脑篇

话说~前天晚上：
---
祺：我觉得~你的整个set和我朋友的整个set不一样~ 他要得和你能给的得不一样& vice versa
华:你为什么要把事情搞得那么复杂? 你读太多书了啦~ 世界上不是每个事情都像科学的程式, 还有set还有这，那的~
---

所谓的科学，就是教导我们生活的方式~我们生活的每一点，每一滴都是科学的创立品！！
在我的生活方式里~analysis/analytical mind 就是出于科学的程式~
So~~我有一亿五万个为什么 ^.^ 任何事/物，我都会问：为什么？？

Example of 我的为什么：
- 为什么人要找另一半？到最后，又这样辛苦，又为了什么？？
- 为什么人总是说一套做一套？举例：常说要活在当下，但，却忧虑那看不到的明天/晚年？？明天还会醒来都还不知道，为什么要忧虑这么多？
- 为什么人人要成为unique的~ 但，就是要放弃自己的固执与坚持，变成他人所希望看到的？
- 为什么人要去八事不关己的事情？
- 为什么一个人就相等孤独？她那一个人就可以与世界联系，要那么多麻烦来做啥？
- 为什么别人就活得好好的~你要为他洗脑？你有何着数？ 分享？屁！
为什么？为什么？为什么？

我就是个怪人！你拿我怎样？
说我太过于固执，导致别人不是说不过我，而是不想再跟我讲？so? 就是因为道不同，所以不相谋！
说我觉得自己很聪明？ 嗯~去问问认识我的人,我除了讲笑假厚脸皮时说我聪明外，其他，我都再而三的强调我是super idiot!

所以？结论？
我是科学怪人！
WATEVER!

初生之犊

Qi: Sometimes, I felt bad after I talk a lot~ especially after telling ppl the anger and unsatisfactory in me, or after a long talk about someone I have stories about.....
Pipi: If u have a blog, there is nothing to fear of to tell somebody anything.

Sometimes, I just feel....not right~ felt bad bout talking too much~ afraid that I might hurt someone, or make someone angry, and that's the only thing I am super afraid of. These few days, it seems like, I am mentally a bit stressed out, and even when I am asleep, I have all things and plans working in my brain~ so, its kind of mentally very tired, and if this is when I will say something that haven't went thru my brain, and then, I will feel bad about it =.='''

So~ the best thing is that I keep my mouth shut, and its really not ok if ppl wanted to get me start talking, coz....something bad might happen to u, or, to me~ Its like~ I haven't been having nice talk with my parents since last wednesday, and~ tonight, I have been talking non-stop since almost 10pm to almost 12 midnight =.=''' But, this kind of situation is still controllable, coz they are my parents and that they know me super well enough that I can't really say something wrong that will make them angry with me, or anything that hurt them. On the other hand, since I have been working since like 2 weeks ago, so~ I am quite afraid that I might say something wrong to my colleague, made them angry, or beh syok with me~ I am really Sorry~. Maybe~ as I have been telling myself over and over again, to keep my mouth shut! Unfortunately, its really very hard, but I should start applying the "Keep my mouth Shut" theory=.='''

Ok~ wat is the初生之犊about??
犊can be literally translated as a calf, a young cow
初生之犊means a newly born calf~
That describes me very well, becoz I am born in the year of cow/bull, in which, I am very cow/bull, as I always describe myself, coz, a bull will only move a little if some one whipped them once. So, a bull have to be continuously whipped, so that they can get work done.
I am a calf, which have no fear of what-so-ever. Whatever comes to me is "Ok", "No problem" and I will try my very best to get things done in a very cow/bull"ish" way. The only problem in me that I need to improve is my temper, my mouth, my stubborn"est" and learn how to coorperate and live in group.

Quite a lot for me to learn~
Hope that with my attitude of "No Fear", I can overcome obstacles in front of me.

忍

有个友人告诉我，她忍无可忍了~
嗯~ 我就说~
既然回头了选择已下了，
就只有忍！

我人生唯一一段感情~
就是这样~
忍了又忍，让了又让~
就这样，
换回来的是：分手！

说起来~
这样的结局到目前为止，我觉得。。。。
可能过太久了吧~
我对感情事有点麻木了~
对于我所付出的，不是没有回报
因为~感情是互相的。

所以~
我就送了我那朋友一个字：忍！
要不，我的想法就是：
人，为什么要这么犯贱？皮痒？
活得好好的~
没事要找事来烦？？

结论？
还是：忍！
要不？
就是让自己麻木，事不关己~
不能活？
我还不是好好的~高兴快乐的？^.^

Post-Industrial Society

Living in the post-industrial society, information is wat ppl sell, buy and need. The importance of information can be observed even at home, where all family members have their eyes locked to the computer screen, hands on keyboard, and sharing of information thru mouth, without looking up from the screen ^.^

The flow of new information is so great that no1 can actually know everything and is "smart" enough that they know everything, coz even if u know something at time A, at time A+ 1 second, information found might be equivalent to rubbish/nonsense, coz its outdated already. Hence, we humans have to be humble in learning/listening, eager to learn and absorb new information and not to be greedy to want to know a lot of things, otherwise, wat u get is just not applicable as well.

What info this post suppose to send over is~ mom, even internet is very interesting, rest ur eyes~ don see silly silly stuff, ok? ^.^

Time Factor

When we have all the time in the world, we tend to have the idea of "lets just let things be done tomolo". When we have just little time to spare for some work, we tend to have the the idea of "y do we want to accumulate so much work until now?"

When our time is "free", we just donno how to take control of the situation, make use of every seconds of it so as to make life work in a smooth flowing, proper way, until we got stuck in a corner, having only just minutes to spare, then, suddenly~ all planning "machinary" in our brain come into action just like that!

I am born in the year of Bull/Cow, in which, as it is, I need to be pushed or forced, then only I will take one step ahead.
For example~ it was ages since I last have my toilet+wadrobe properly tidied, and the whole place have spider webs, dust and some dirt that cannot be cleaned with pure cloth alone. But, when my cousin, staying over at my place say that the whole place is "dirty", then, I start to brush the whole place with a TOOTHBRUSH!! TWICE in a week!! =.=''' Which means, I am that kind that do things to its best when my body start working, but won't even move my finger tips when I am not in the idea of doing anything.

Well~ I can be considered......determined~ as in.....if I want to do something, it will be close to perfect (coz, I am not a 100% person); or~ as in...if u ask me to do something, and I say "OK", means, the thing will be done on time, no matter wat on earth happens.

I M One of a Kind^.^

Cute tortoise at home

Hiding in a tiny shade

Nemo, the tiny fish and Squirt, the turtle >.<'''

Good Enough

Sometimes~ one might think/feel that he/she is good enough to do something, and that they are able to handle something to its very best. However, nothing on earth is that easy as in words. Lessons have to be learned and applied, but it all depends on how fast things are absorbed and analyzed. I am quite a slow learner, where I don't actually absorb things when they 1st came to me, but over a period of time, I will get the whole picture, understand, learn and never forget.

In this fast pace world, no matter how fast one learn something, one will never be fast pace enough to be good enough. Information flow is faster than the speed lightning, millions of new information is send across the globe millions of times every single minute, and no one will ever be good enough.

My solution for my case?
To be beaten, evaluate, work out, then becoming stronger.

Erm....wat will I do now?
Hanging on the net, play, eat and sleep! =.='''
After all, I am the one that is desperately in need of something, but earth still work on its own path no matter I exist or not.

Nitez!!

Rainie day

I've been missing like ages ago~ Just drop by for some typing exercise^.^

It's been raining since the dawn of Monday till evening of Tuesday~ Erm....raining is not a big deal, but I am quite scared and worried about flood. Now~the thermometer shows temperature of 24 degrees, which is almost the normal temperature of Cameron Highlands^.^ Loving that, but...I am still sweating =.='''

Another thing is: Sometimes, some little thing just provoke me, make me want to smack u in the face, but~ wat I did is to use words that I meant to make u know that, it's just not the right way to start off a conversation, or it's not a right way to converse with ppl. However~ maybe I don't actually say things directly, coz: firstly, I am not any1 to tell u that, coz that's ur own attitude; and secondly, it might be just me and myself, who just don't like the way things go.

So~ the conclusion??
WATEVER!!!!

Sounds like Dad

Suddenly~ after the phone call with my younger cousin sis, I feel I sounded like my dad.

Erm....how should I put it.....well....its kind of~ when u are thinking more, or considering more than ppl younger than u, and u feel like its your responsibility to analyse thing for them, but at the same time, they have to put that analysis into real consideration.

And~ now, I can catch a little bit of how my dad feels and wat is going in his brain when he is trying to convey something to me, while at the same time, I am making fun of the whole conversation. It feels like....I am talking serious now, and wat I say is for your own good~ y can't you think for yourself and analyse things in a rational way, and some more I am the one having increasing blood pressure and analysis piled up in my brain~ while, u are making fun of wat I am saying =.='''

Sorry dad~ but I am really big enough now that I can settle things of my own myself. When situations are in the safe side, I will do things by my own independently; and if things are a bit serious, I will go to my bro for help, and if things are really serious, then only I will seek your opinion. But, of coz, I will consider things well enough, that I won't consult u only when it's between live and death.

Ok~ back to the topic....well~ I already did wat I could~ and I have carried out my responsibility with the best effort I can.

Aih.....it's really hard to be some sort of parents or guardian~

天使 vs. 恶魔之战

我的世界里
住着三个不一样的我~
《天使 。 恶魔。 “我” 》
每每到了考试
三个我就会开打
续千年前的三国战~
天使~总要我努力奋斗尽我的全力打到底~
恶魔~总要我无所谓 自暴自弃 懒散~
这时“我”就出现了~
“我”就是不喜欢被强逼做东西
所以，“我”对另俩的抗压法就是：
我就做我的~你管得着吗？哼！

所以，结果肋~就是~
半桶水 + 还好 + 就酱 + 堕落 + 无一是处！

加油！！人生的另一个阶段就靠这个礼拜了！！
甘巴跌！！

The truth and nothing but the truth

Lately, the trend that is spreading all over on everything named on earth is "the truth". Everything named on earth includes, entertainment industry, politics, relationship with people, technology.....erm....almost everything~

Of coz, lies are still said and done, and those lies are lies that we know that its a lie by itself, and we know that it is "for our good" and "their own good". Some are acceptable, but some are just sickening.

With the fast evolving technology and network, making human connection so far, but yet so near, how long do u think a lie and remain undetected, unseen, unheard and unknown? Words and doings are all over the net just minutes after an action is taken. There is a saying: "The spread of words is worse than the spread of disease", and now, we have everything on our finger tips, so, anything one say, is a "pandemic", spreading around the globe.

Erm....as I say~ its a trend now, that the truth is wat ppl wants to see and hear. Lies are just disgusting in this trend (erm...that's wat I think la~).

HOWEVER, how much truth can one bear?

p/s: pls help me out with my 1st poll^.^

Accusation

I think I am quite an easy-going, no problem, "anything", "whatever" kind of person~ but~ when it comes to accusation, question or suspect wat I have been doing or wat I say, that is when the fire in me flame and the blood in my veins boil.

I am that kind that if I say something, I will surely do it~ if I leave some doubt between me and the things I can achieve, this means I will try my best~ and if there are words I play around with when I answer your question, means I make it the easiest way for you to understand wat I am trying to send across by not directly hit the bulls-eye. In short, I do and say only things I have serious grasp and control, and all that come from me are with serious consideration with a full length of plan and effort in them.

The thing is I am not that kind that say A and do B or C~ or that kind that promise you to get things done, but ended up I send you an "737"~ the only condition is --> remember to note my word, coz every word counts, either I am playing with words, having doubt in the accent or between words, or I am making a direct hit (a statement).

So~ with that, I would like to end with --> I hate being question or being suspicious over wat I said and done, or being accused!! Another thing is~ I am very particular in words, sentence or accent of any conversation, including SMS. Every little thing counts.

p/s: trying to relief those few incidents in one blog~ *Phew*~

Badminton Finals (Olympic)

At last~ the 1st medal for Malaysia in Olympic 2008~
21-12, 21-8

Though its a bit disappointing, with all those mistakes made by Lee Chong Wei in the match, but seriously~ Imagine carrying hopes and pressure from 24.8 million people on your shoulder~ its really tough!

Ok~ back to some comments to be made.
After 7 years of life in badminton (if not mistaken), Lin Dan became "handsome"er than that I 1st saw in years back, with the body tone and stuff, well~ I guess he gets all the appreciation from the country~ Getting back to Malaysian (with Lee Chong Wei, 6 years of battle on the court)~ after so many years of struggle on the court, erm....I mean....we can see the difference in the whole image of our player.
Well~material support really make some difference~ mentally and physically, as to say.

To End:
CONGRATULATIONS MALAYSIA~
SILVER@.@

P/S: Lee Chong Wei is currently ranked 2nd in Badminton and Lin Dan ranked 1st according to stats.

Stupid me~

I was talking to some1 about my future and wat I wanted to do after my final exam~ when I found wat I actually need to do during that period.

In my imagination, there are so much for me to catch up with my life after I end the whole Biomed thing. E.g.:
1. To learn languages, for my future usage.
2. To get my body moving, by signing up for some aerobics or dance class.
3. The most important thing, to support my own life, by getting any job, related or unrelated to my field of study, as long as I can get money for me to sign up for courses and for my food.
4. The super important thing, is to strengthen my foundation, by reading things I missed out during these 3 years of study and EXAMs.
5. At the same time, searching and getting ready to fly myself to my target^.^

Will I be able to fulfill my imagination?
I am not very sure bout that....coz....the more I know about life, the more I think I am stupid and such an idiot.

腻

本人，算是一个很容易对某事或物觉得腻的念旧之人。。。

怎么说呢。。。
就是~有些事，不能出现在我的眼前太多次，因为。。。 就是：闷，腻。。。
有些梗，不能玩太多次，因为，很没点~ 简称：老梗！
有些话，不能出现太多次， 因为， 玩多了就显得：无聊， 很假！

就是。。。。。
反正，就是那些我心情好，又无聊时， 我会陪你玩一下下，然后随便打发你走； 心情不好，还有东西在脑子里时，我会突然爆发，炸得你体无完肤，管你去死！

拜托~不要整天丢老梗！
我受不了啦！！！！

p/s: 锵锵~~误会就要在此诞生了~~ 嗯。。。*无言* 就。。。有点对某事。物。有点腻~就酱~~

Convo

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

Congrats to all my frens who just graduated early this week, or during these few weeks~ great job in getting thru obstacles on ur journey in getting the 1st ever degree of ur life^.^

1st, I need to apologize for not being able to attend the convo of u guys, where ever u guys are, UM, USM, UKM or UPM~ coz I am really quite in the "pek chek" time zone. My time is packed with assignments, reports, presentations, future....etc...etc.... there are too much for me to get done. I know~ they are all excuses, that I made up for myself and for u guys to forgive me~ Sorry~

The thing is~ I am that kind that easily flood my eyes.....so~ that's one of the reasons I don't really like to attend such events, unless its my big bro's thingy~ or family thingy that I can't exclude myself out. Though I know that I will get back wat I did to others, by having no 1 at all to attend my convo in the end~ but its really ok:D coz that makes the "touching" event minimise to its lowest extend.

So.....wat I can do is....congrats all of u out there thru the net~

Have fun guys^.^