初生之犊

Qi: Sometimes, I felt bad after I talk a lot~ especially after telling ppl the anger and unsatisfactory in me, or after a long talk about someone I have stories about.....
Pipi: If u have a blog, there is nothing to fear of to tell somebody anything.

Sometimes, I just feel....not right~ felt bad bout talking too much~ afraid that I might hurt someone, or make someone angry, and that's the only thing I am super afraid of. These few days, it seems like, I am mentally a bit stressed out, and even when I am asleep, I have all things and plans working in my brain~ so, its kind of mentally very tired, and if this is when I will say something that haven't went thru my brain, and then, I will feel bad about it =.='''

So~ the best thing is that I keep my mouth shut, and its really not ok if ppl wanted to get me start talking, coz....something bad might happen to u, or, to me~ Its like~ I haven't been having nice talk with my parents since last wednesday, and~ tonight, I have been talking non-stop since almost 10pm to almost 12 midnight =.=''' But, this kind of situation is still controllable, coz they are my parents and that they know me super well enough that I can't really say something wrong that will make them angry with me, or anything that hurt them. On the other hand, since I have been working since like 2 weeks ago, so~ I am quite afraid that I might say something wrong to my colleague, made them angry, or beh syok with me~ I am really Sorry~. Maybe~ as I have been telling myself over and over again, to keep my mouth shut! Unfortunately, its really very hard, but I should start applying the "Keep my mouth Shut" theory=.='''

Ok~ wat is the初生之犊about??
犊can be literally translated as a calf, a young cow
初生之犊means a newly born calf~
That describes me very well, becoz I am born in the year of cow/bull, in which, I am very cow/bull, as I always describe myself, coz, a bull will only move a little if some one whipped them once. So, a bull have to be continuously whipped, so that they can get work done.
I am a calf, which have no fear of what-so-ever. Whatever comes to me is "Ok", "No problem" and I will try my very best to get things done in a very cow/bull"ish" way. The only problem in me that I need to improve is my temper, my mouth, my stubborn"est" and learn how to coorperate and live in group.

Quite a lot for me to learn~
Hope that with my attitude of "No Fear", I can overcome obstacles in front of me.

工作 vs. 做工

已经工作超过一个星期~
但，在我脑海里的我从来没有当工作/做工 as a 必要 or a 需要
工作/做工对我来说是一个。。。怎么说。。。
是个人生的一个过程
是个经验累积的程序
是个学习的旅程
是个精神上的训练。。。

刚好，今天，薪水的一天~
可能使我不当工作是为了赚钱
或，可能我从不当我所付出的所有需要回报
或，可能我做事只要有人肯定，对我来说就是最好的回报
当我看到我的 payment slip~
我很惊讶~
为什么会得到如此多钱~
我到底做了什么？
高兴的~回家告诉我老哥我赚的钱好多哦~
他看了看我的 slip,说：
虾咪！你每天做工就这么少钱？
我说： 就是这样啊~ 我的工作就只能赚到这么多~但，我很满足^.^

Expectation~
当一个人从没有对任何所付出的要任何物质上的回报~
满足感会让你活得很高兴，很幸福！！

忽然觉得我很酷
做人很潇洒~
或许
许多人或许会问我：
你就赚那 <鸡水甘多>，你可又想过你的未来？
你够花吗？
储蓄呢？
嗯~~我的回答？
人常会在书写上说~<<活在当下>>！
所以？就酱^.^

Good Enough

Sometimes~ one might think/feel that he/she is good enough to do something, and that they are able to handle something to its very best. However, nothing on earth is that easy as in words. Lessons have to be learned and applied, but it all depends on how fast things are absorbed and analyzed. I am quite a slow learner, where I don't actually absorb things when they 1st came to me, but over a period of time, I will get the whole picture, understand, learn and never forget.

In this fast pace world, no matter how fast one learn something, one will never be fast pace enough to be good enough. Information flow is faster than the speed lightning, millions of new information is send across the globe millions of times every single minute, and no one will ever be good enough.

My solution for my case?
To be beaten, evaluate, work out, then becoming stronger.

Erm....wat will I do now?
Hanging on the net, play, eat and sleep! =.='''
After all, I am the one that is desperately in need of something, but earth still work on its own path no matter I exist or not.

Nitez!!

To learn and to be taught

Lesson of today:
To learn is our responsibility as a trainee in labs or anywhere, but to teach is not others' responsibility. We have to have the initiative ourselves to be taught by others and for others to teach us~ Sounds complicated?? I don't think so~

Maybe it's because I have great colleagues who are very helpful and eager to teach me stuffs, even to find things for me to do to fill up my free time, so that I won't be bored^.^

Thanks to Miss Koay, teaching me how to use new machines and how to run new tests today...Love ya~
And to...erm...sorry I still can't get ur name, Miss X, thanks for letting me do the filing for u~ it get me more time to sit on the chair^.^

Training~

Yesterday was my 1st day in Lam Wah Ee hospital for my training~
I was tired, ached on both the sole of both legs~ but then~ its interesting....Not bored, not sleepy, and blood in my hands^.^ Love that:p

Wat interest my is that...its my 1st experience working in the society...erm~ don be jealous and say that I am a mama's gal or that I am dumbo or something... u r just super jealous of me...BLEK:P
Learn quite a lot there, maybe its coz my colleague are great~ taught me quite a lot in details and even trust me in doing some test on my own...super thanks to Kak Sue, especially ^.^

Can't say much here....if u wan to know more bout wat I have learnt so far...erm~ view my training report at the end of my training :p But, I don't think u guys have any chance in doing so.

Conclusion: great day, great experience, enjoying it, its fun and I might get bored with it some day to come, but then~ I am still learning^.^(for the time being:p)