Aniyohaseyo~
Back online~ Back from Korea+Hong Kong~
As usual with the other trips, I learned lots of things that I can't explain or describe and I got lots of thins that I can't grab in my hands~ so~ the purpose of going for trips are.....fun, enjoyment, making my life wonderful, learning, making me clear that world is not just a dot, and of coz~ its all becoz I'm lovin' it ^.^
k~ Back to the topic --> New Year~
The new year of 2007 was just like yesterday, and CNY was like a tab n the finger, and...erm....everything was like glimpse away~ "meaning": I have had a packed, great year 2007, that I enjoyed so much that I miss looking at the clock and counting the dates~ "I M LIVING"!!
As usual~ the wish list for this coming new year in 2 hours time will be:
erm~~~can't think of anything more than wat I have ^.^
wat about.....world peace??? >.<'''
p/s: posts bout the trip will be posted back dated later when "I am free" :p
December 31, 2007
December 16, 2007
Reason/Point
There's always reason/point that make me do a particular thing, its like~ I seems to be doing nothing, wasting my time, but actually, my presence some where, some time have a particular meaning.
Why I bring up this issue? coz, I am still repeating the same old scene in my brain since this morning~
I can't just take the "kena" on my like that~ Its like, do I look like I have nothing better to do than standing nowhere, listening to all those "hehe" and "haha"s? Ok, fine~ I know I look dumb and have a nothing-better-to-do face on me, but~ hello~~ I am tryin to be friendly, kind and respect the presence of u guys. Do I seems to be such a bz body to u? >.<''' Chek Ark!
Fine~ watever~ as long as u guys are happy, and that everything have nothing to do with me, keeping my parents face, my face and u, u and ur face~ no appreciation wat-so-ever~ great!
Final word: Watever~
Why I bring up this issue? coz, I am still repeating the same old scene in my brain since this morning~
I can't just take the "kena" on my like that~ Its like, do I look like I have nothing better to do than standing nowhere, listening to all those "hehe" and "haha"s? Ok, fine~ I know I look dumb and have a nothing-better-to-do face on me, but~ hello~~ I am tryin to be friendly, kind and respect the presence of u guys. Do I seems to be such a bz body to u? >.<''' Chek Ark!
Fine~ watever~ as long as u guys are happy, and that everything have nothing to do with me, keeping my parents face, my face and u, u and ur face~ no appreciation wat-so-ever~ great!
Final word: Watever~
December 15, 2007
公主
不久前，有位友人对我说我是个温室里的小花~ 她问我如果有一天我再也过不到我无忧无虑的生活，再也做不回“公主”了，那我该怎么办？
我发现我的生活有点像个公主~我是个温室里的小花~ 唯一不同的是，我没住在皇宫里，睡的不是公主床，吃的不是山珍海味，穿的不是公主服，没有公主的气质，没有公主般的倾城倾国。。。等等，等等。。。。
可能，我活在我自己的童话里~~ 有时，我是个灰姑娘；有时，我是三只小猪的猪猪；有时，我是卖火柴的女孩；有时，我是希望变成天鹅的丑小鸭；有时却像关在塔上端的公主。。。
December 11, 2007
Suppose
Hihi~ I said that I will only be back after a few weeks, but here I am again~ That's me~ always contradicting myself =.='''
Back to the topic~
There are things that I supposed to do and I should do~ but then, in real life its really hard to apply the suppose into action. Living a life is really hard, especially when it comes to making decision, controlling emo and controlling mind and thoughts~
Its really hard~ making me feeling sick, even with myself >< *vomit*
Maybe~ some day~ the "suppose" will be done
Maybe~ some day in future, living is better of
Maybe~ some day~ self-control can be said and done just a flip of the fingers away
Conclusion: Jia lat =.='''
Back to the topic~
There are things that I supposed to do and I should do~ but then, in real life its really hard to apply the suppose into action. Living a life is really hard, especially when it comes to making decision, controlling emo and controlling mind and thoughts~
Its really hard~ making me feeling sick, even with myself >< *vomit*
Maybe~ some day~ the "suppose" will be done
Maybe~ some day in future, living is better of
Maybe~ some day~ self-control can be said and done just a flip of the fingers away
Conclusion: Jia lat =.='''
December 10, 2007
Holiday
Its been 1 week since my last post~ y? coz~ its finally come to the time where real holiday comes^.^
Its not that in real holiday, I sat at home everyday, doing nothing, having nothing in mind and met nobody except my laptop and my bed:p; BUT, I do have loads and tonnes of things that I do everyday....seems to be that I am a bz person, however, they are just nothing to be proud of or that anything that is special to be said and write about =.='''
So, maybe I'll be back on blog only in a a few weeks' time....
Till then~ happy "holidays", Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year then :p
Its not that in real holiday, I sat at home everyday, doing nothing, having nothing in mind and met nobody except my laptop and my bed:p; BUT, I do have loads and tonnes of things that I do everyday....seems to be that I am a bz person, however, they are just nothing to be proud of or that anything that is special to be said and write about =.='''
So, maybe I'll be back on blog only in a a few weeks' time....
Till then~ happy "holidays", Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year then :p
December 1, 2007
mouth
When some1 asked for ur help in something, and u missed doing something as what the person wished for or that u made a mistake in some way that u think its ur responsible to get things to its right track again~ offering ur help, figuring ways of making things the way it should be so as to take things into ur responsibility.....
But, ppl kept saying that u are doing it the wrong way/not the rite way, and things get messy in the middle of the way of u doing it....again and again, trying to make things rite....and in the end, wat is the return? A loud anger, saying that the thing should be going into the dustbin instead of continue keeping it....wat the "tut"?
Its like, I did another bigger mistake than the 1st 1 that I did, and all the repetition of me doing things again and again, all my hard work belongs to the drain~
Ok, I can try another time to make things moving to the rite path...but then here comes again, all the rite and wrong come to take place, no thank, no appreciation and all anger knock hard at my head, slapping me in my face, killing me with knife stabbing me rite thru my heart!
Fine~ nothing ever happened, and I am totally cool with it!
For next time~ I will still help out, coz I will have respect for u, even I didn't get any respect in return.
Thanks anyway~
But, ppl kept saying that u are doing it the wrong way/not the rite way, and things get messy in the middle of the way of u doing it....again and again, trying to make things rite....and in the end, wat is the return? A loud anger, saying that the thing should be going into the dustbin instead of continue keeping it....wat the "tut"?
Its like, I did another bigger mistake than the 1st 1 that I did, and all the repetition of me doing things again and again, all my hard work belongs to the drain~
Ok, I can try another time to make things moving to the rite path...but then here comes again, all the rite and wrong come to take place, no thank, no appreciation and all anger knock hard at my head, slapping me in my face, killing me with knife stabbing me rite thru my heart!
Fine~ nothing ever happened, and I am totally cool with it!
For next time~ I will still help out, coz I will have respect for u, even I didn't get any respect in return.
Thanks anyway~
November 30, 2007
End of Training
Its the last day of training^.^
Seems to be I just started the whole journey in HLWE, but 2 months, 9 weeks had passed just like that~
What I have learned cannot be described in words...maybe becoz I am lacked of experienced and that everything is super interesting to me^.^
Politics, communication, relationship, responsibility and of coz~ study related knowledge are learned and upgraded to a higher level. Another main thing that I get from this whole 9 weeks is friendship^.^
Friendship earned is like building bridges~ There are staffs working in different department and have different thoughts and knowledge in different fields, trainees that have different attitude and thoughts towards their own future....bla bla bla~=.='''
Maybe I have earn a place in ur heart, become a trainee to be remembered~ =.='''
As always~ I lack security when I didn't get any feedback on who I am, or telling me where I stand. But, nobody will ever tell any1 the truthful, bottom of the heart opinion towards him/her. Even if did so~ that 2nd fellow won't trust the 1st fellow also~ =.=''' Complicated!
Maybe I became more matured and improved my relationship skills, also~ brightens my dimension of knowledge~ But~ I think I am still the same =.='''
The main point of the whole story??
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!
p/s: photos attached~ only got 3 =.=''' tak ada masa~ tak pergi ambil satu satu...pai sei la^.^
Mr. Leong and gang^.^
From Rt: Jeff, Aik Aun, Me, Steven, Mr.Leong, Huei Huei, Janet, Weng Foong, Kia Huey and Jasmine
From Right: Ms Cheng, Aik Aun, Me, Janet and Kia Huey
With the most Leng Chai in the lab~ Ah Soon :p
Seems to be I just started the whole journey in HLWE, but 2 months, 9 weeks had passed just like that~
What I have learned cannot be described in words...maybe becoz I am lacked of experienced and that everything is super interesting to me^.^
Politics, communication, relationship, responsibility and of coz~ study related knowledge are learned and upgraded to a higher level. Another main thing that I get from this whole 9 weeks is friendship^.^
Friendship earned is like building bridges~ There are staffs working in different department and have different thoughts and knowledge in different fields, trainees that have different attitude and thoughts towards their own future....bla bla bla~=.='''
Maybe I have earn a place in ur heart, become a trainee to be remembered~ =.='''
As always~ I lack security when I didn't get any feedback on who I am, or telling me where I stand. But, nobody will ever tell any1 the truthful, bottom of the heart opinion towards him/her. Even if did so~ that 2nd fellow won't trust the 1st fellow also~ =.=''' Complicated!
Maybe I became more matured and improved my relationship skills, also~ brightens my dimension of knowledge~ But~ I think I am still the same =.='''
The main point of the whole story??
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!
p/s: photos attached~ only got 3 =.=''' tak ada masa~ tak pergi ambil satu satu...pai sei la^.^
Mr. Leong and gang^.^From Rt: Jeff, Aik Aun, Me, Steven, Mr.Leong, Huei Huei, Janet, Weng Foong, Kia Huey and Jasmine
From Right: Ms Cheng, Aik Aun, Me, Janet and Kia Huey
With the most Leng Chai in the lab~ Ah Soon :p
November 29, 2007
Down syndrome
There are always 2 main things in controversial of each other, always fighting with each other in our mind~ which are reality and imaginary~
Imaginary stuffs are as in dreams~ and reality are wat u are doing now, even its a total opposite of wat u dreamt for.
When reality overcomes imaginary side of u, and that u cannot cope with that emotional side of u, wat u get is "down" syndrome^.^
"Down" syndrome~ the combination of signs and symptoms as follows: u will feel very down, of coz~ feeling uneasy, hates wat u are doing now, hope for things that meets ur dream, angry over small little things that come ur way, donno whether u should move towards ur dream or take reality as it is...etc....etc....
The cure will be....almost none~ erm~ maybe force urself to be "happy go lucky", taking things easy, and just be who u are~
In my case, I am immune with the syndrome kind of thingy....as to the extend that autoimmune come to take place, where I myself make myself go crazy easily~ imagining things that are super unnatural^.^ but I love this autoimmune disease that attacks me without notice every now and then^.^
Note: Misused all those scientific words~ just for fun~ I don't think any1 can understand wat I am trying to convey here~ so~ some of u must be thinking~ wat the "tut" do I post up to blogger then? Its where I express myself~ choy meh :p
Imaginary stuffs are as in dreams~ and reality are wat u are doing now, even its a total opposite of wat u dreamt for.
When reality overcomes imaginary side of u, and that u cannot cope with that emotional side of u, wat u get is "down" syndrome^.^
"Down" syndrome~ the combination of signs and symptoms as follows: u will feel very down, of coz~ feeling uneasy, hates wat u are doing now, hope for things that meets ur dream, angry over small little things that come ur way, donno whether u should move towards ur dream or take reality as it is...etc....etc....
The cure will be....almost none~ erm~ maybe force urself to be "happy go lucky", taking things easy, and just be who u are~
In my case, I am immune with the syndrome kind of thingy....as to the extend that autoimmune come to take place, where I myself make myself go crazy easily~ imagining things that are super unnatural^.^ but I love this autoimmune disease that attacks me without notice every now and then^.^
Note: Misused all those scientific words~ just for fun~ I don't think any1 can understand wat I am trying to convey here~ so~ some of u must be thinking~ wat the "tut" do I post up to blogger then? Its where I express myself~ choy meh :p
November 25, 2007
sprained
Ever sprained ur ankle before? or~ ur hands??
The question is~ how do u sprain ur finger or worse.....ur toe =.='''
That~ happens to me =.='''
Where is there a person can be so clumsy as to sprain his/her toe even when climbing the staircase?? ridiculous, but yet, there is this clumsy little gal~ ME ^.^
At 1st, I thought its just a slight knock and the pain will go off in a bit, but here it is, after 24 hours and its still there~ wat more that the 爱美不要命(wan to be pretty and don't wan life) me~ wearing heels for 3-4 hours~ going gurney :p Then~ kind of make the thing worse~ i think...but no regrets wat-so-ever~
Hopefully the pain will go off in like~ a week's time?? hahahaha~~~
Just bare with the small tiny pain for now~ its nothing compared to cutting one's body with a knife rite ^.^
The question is~ how do u sprain ur finger or worse.....ur toe =.='''
That~ happens to me =.='''
Where is there a person can be so clumsy as to sprain his/her toe even when climbing the staircase?? ridiculous, but yet, there is this clumsy little gal~ ME ^.^
At 1st, I thought its just a slight knock and the pain will go off in a bit, but here it is, after 24 hours and its still there~ wat more that the 爱美不要命(wan to be pretty and don't wan life) me~ wearing heels for 3-4 hours~ going gurney :p Then~ kind of make the thing worse~ i think...but no regrets wat-so-ever~
Hopefully the pain will go off in like~ a week's time?? hahahaha~~~
Just bare with the small tiny pain for now~ its nothing compared to cutting one's body with a knife rite ^.^
November 24, 2007
--..--..--..
k~ its saturday "again"~ wat have I done?
nothing much~ bz"ing" the whole week....but even have time to do silly stuff =.='''
I have lots and lots of things to be expressed, but I can't do it in the blog~ I can't tell my family members~ my fren is away in msn~ and its like no body can share wat I have in mind with me =.='''
Maybe~ if "something" have happened~ IF~~
but everything is still in "tut"
nothing much~ bz"ing" the whole week....but even have time to do silly stuff =.='''
I have lots and lots of things to be expressed, but I can't do it in the blog~ I can't tell my family members~ my fren is away in msn~ and its like no body can share wat I have in mind with me =.='''
Maybe~ if "something" have happened~ IF~~
but everything is still in "tut"
November 18, 2007
Regret
Remember those things I found in 21st October? I found more of them today =.=''' Maybe its all becoz I have very short memory that I forgot "something" when I did that so called "smart" thing last year~ making me regret now =.='''
Memories are memories~ it will always be that even we have stepped furthur in life, having new thoughts and wat so ever~
Its not that I want anything from it, but~ they make me thought of wat I have went thru, remind me of wat I did in the past~ that's y~ after I throw a lots of things away, gave back some of them to "those" ppl~ so~ there left not much with me....and those left overs are now seems to be so precious, even a small "rubbish" paper seemed to be invaluable like diamond or gold of some sort.
Regret is wat I can say~ no wonder "u" want to keep everything untill ur room filled with all "rubbish"~
p/s: I wonder if I can...erm.....erm.....I'll tell "u" later :p
Memories are memories~ it will always be that even we have stepped furthur in life, having new thoughts and wat so ever~
Its not that I want anything from it, but~ they make me thought of wat I have went thru, remind me of wat I did in the past~ that's y~ after I throw a lots of things away, gave back some of them to "those" ppl~ so~ there left not much with me....and those left overs are now seems to be so precious, even a small "rubbish" paper seemed to be invaluable like diamond or gold of some sort.
Regret is wat I can say~ no wonder "u" want to keep everything untill ur room filled with all "rubbish"~
p/s: I wonder if I can...erm.....erm.....I'll tell "u" later :p
November 17, 2007
Allergic Reaction
hehe~ long time haven't seen my fren visiting me d~ Who are they?? the allergic reaction, making me get itchy anywhere in the body...haha~~
Why?? its all caused by the prawns~ too much for the day already i think....2 for lunch, 2 for tea and 2 for dinner^.^ Yum Yum!!
Hopefully, I can get rid of them by eating more and more "dose" of prawns.... :p Gambateh ne~
Why?? its all caused by the prawns~ too much for the day already i think....2 for lunch, 2 for tea and 2 for dinner^.^ Yum Yum!!
Hopefully, I can get rid of them by eating more and more "dose" of prawns.... :p Gambateh ne~
Its all about FOOD!!!!
It's been a great week for me~
Having to see types of real organs right in front of my eyes, and that I can learn lots of stuffs about them, the tumors, normal and abnormal tissues...etc....etc....
U guys out there must be curious~ y is it that I don't feel geli bout all those bloody, organ, tissues, pus, body kind of things~ Y?? coz I relate all of them to FOOD!!! wahahaha~~
Examples: uterus, which have to be cut open so that formalin can go inside the organ and fix all the cells and not only the surface cells, looks exactly like meat balls~
Uterine/liver scrapings for biopsy purposes looks super like "liong fun"~
Prostate scrapings are super like potato chips we munch~
Colon is super yummy-like pig stomach/intestine~
Etc....etc....
So...its kind of interesting for me, coz I love organs~ I think the most beautiful thing god actually created is human body and its component^.^
For today~ its also about food~
Went for the my 2nd favourite after chocolate~ cheese fondue!!! yum yum!!!
Having to see types of real organs right in front of my eyes, and that I can learn lots of stuffs about them, the tumors, normal and abnormal tissues...etc....etc....
U guys out there must be curious~ y is it that I don't feel geli bout all those bloody, organ, tissues, pus, body kind of things~ Y?? coz I relate all of them to FOOD!!! wahahaha~~
Examples: uterus, which have to be cut open so that formalin can go inside the organ and fix all the cells and not only the surface cells, looks exactly like meat balls~
Uterine/liver scrapings for biopsy purposes looks super like "liong fun"~
Prostate scrapings are super like potato chips we munch~
Colon is super yummy-like pig stomach/intestine~
Etc....etc....
So...its kind of interesting for me, coz I love organs~ I think the most beautiful thing god actually created is human body and its component^.^
For today~ its also about food~
Went for the my 2nd favourite after chocolate~ cheese fondue!!! yum yum!!!
November 11, 2007
Jay on the Run
finally~ Finally~FINALLY!!!
After multiple attempts I finally got the CD in my hands~ it all must be becoz of the "tut" censorship board =.=''' Donno wat idiotic stuff they are going to censor this time round =.='''
Later only write a blog bout the new album la~ now no time~ :p
mom don want to fren me liao~ coz I go "fill in petrol"...hahahaha~~~ crazy crazy stuff do happen in my house ^.^
And then~ my room looks even more jia lat then a cow barn~ hahahaha~~~
the toilet~~ =.=''' just don't wear glasses inside
My books~ are like mount everest
My clothes and closet....still considered neat and nice ^.^
My laptop ~ still have things to install and all the files to put into order
My frens ~ all still in exam....so~wish them luck
My training~ =.=''' I'll have to re write the report of the week, and then read up something for the coming week
Conclusion: JIA LAT!!!
After multiple attempts I finally got the CD in my hands~ it all must be becoz of the "tut" censorship board =.=''' Donno wat idiotic stuff they are going to censor this time round =.='''
Later only write a blog bout the new album la~ now no time~ :p
mom don want to fren me liao~ coz I go "fill in petrol"...hahahaha~~~ crazy crazy stuff do happen in my house ^.^
And then~ my room looks even more jia lat then a cow barn~ hahahaha~~~
the toilet~~ =.=''' just don't wear glasses inside
My books~ are like mount everest
My clothes and closet....still considered neat and nice ^.^
My laptop ~ still have things to install and all the files to put into order
My frens ~ all still in exam....so~wish them luck
My training~ =.=''' I'll have to re write the report of the week, and then read up something for the coming week
Conclusion: JIA LAT!!!
November 10, 2007
Alone
Sometimes, I miss those days I have in KL~ being alone, no one bothers bout wat I do, wat I eat, whether I slept enough, where I went, wat I am doing, whether I study or not, if I am emo or I am happy....etc....etc....
Maybe it's all becoz of this little "thingy" that bothers me, making me feel like want to shout at ppl no matter who they are; making talk nonsense to ppl around me, even ppl that are just brush shoulder punya colleague; seems to be easily irritated with questions that make me feel "irritated"; feels like....I am angry!!!!
Its a love-hate relationship btw me and the "thingy"; me and ppl around me; me and myself (at times); u~ u~ and U~~
Everything irritates me~ I am an angry person!!!
I want to be alone~ just don kacau me ok?
One more thing~ just open ur eyes, and close the other 5 holes on ur head~ serious!
Maybe it's all becoz of this little "thingy" that bothers me, making me feel like want to shout at ppl no matter who they are; making talk nonsense to ppl around me, even ppl that are just brush shoulder punya colleague; seems to be easily irritated with questions that make me feel "irritated"; feels like....I am angry!!!!
Its a love-hate relationship btw me and the "thingy"; me and ppl around me; me and myself (at times); u~ u~ and U~~
Everything irritates me~ I am an angry person!!!
I want to be alone~ just don kacau me ok?
One more thing~ just open ur eyes, and close the other 5 holes on ur head~ serious!
November 8, 2007
Finished "the" book, after 6 months =.='''
Phew!! after 6 months of on and off reading the same old book, I finally finished the whole thing. The title: History of Medicine, from Hypocrites to Gene Therapy~
Its a fun to read book, having quite easy to understand scientific terms and all the basics and the findings in medicinal science~
As it states: The disciples of Hypocrites~ I take it as to mean ppl that have the passion towards medicine and health science, making themselves as to continue to find out more about live, biological stuff and to make human life better in a way.....
So~ maybe, I can make myself, as a disciple of Hypocrites ^.^ and my religion will be stated Hypocritesm~
hahahaha~~~
Its a fun to read book, having quite easy to understand scientific terms and all the basics and the findings in medicinal science~
As it states: The disciples of Hypocrites~ I take it as to mean ppl that have the passion towards medicine and health science, making themselves as to continue to find out more about live, biological stuff and to make human life better in a way.....
So~ maybe, I can make myself, as a disciple of Hypocrites ^.^ and my religion will be stated Hypocritesm~
hahahaha~~~
November 4, 2007
Time
There are a lot of times, I think y ppl have so much time to do something I love doing, like read books~ and that I don have so much of them =.='''
Now I know....I am easily distracted by something very entertaining, like games, tv, drama, movies, shopping and chit chatting, for examples =.='''
There are too many things that I hope I can do, but at the same time, I am just wasting all the time in the world I have just like that~ Its such a sad sad thing~ how pity that I just don't have self control over myself.....
Now I know....I am easily distracted by something very entertaining, like games, tv, drama, movies, shopping and chit chatting, for examples =.='''
There are too many things that I hope I can do, but at the same time, I am just wasting all the time in the world I have just like that~ Its such a sad sad thing~ how pity that I just don't have self control over myself.....
f*cking fake of me :p
Its syok to go shopping alone today~ though I love the companion of my super great cousin, but being with myself is undescribably enjoyable.
Why lea???
Coz, if I am with some1, which doesn't really knows me in deep, and have some expectation out of me....its like...I have to act the way how they think of me, wat they expect from me.....etc....etc.....
When I am with myself, I can change my attitude towards things from seconds to seconds without any consideration of anything wat so ever.... also, with that I can observe ppl around me, and have fun with that^.^
ei?? am I still repeating myself?? maybe~ but I don care.....I just want to talk~ BLEK:p
Why lea???
Coz, if I am with some1, which doesn't really knows me in deep, and have some expectation out of me....its like...I have to act the way how they think of me, wat they expect from me.....etc....etc.....
When I am with myself, I can change my attitude towards things from seconds to seconds without any consideration of anything wat so ever.... also, with that I can observe ppl around me, and have fun with that^.^
ei?? am I still repeating myself?? maybe~ but I don care.....I just want to talk~ BLEK:p
October 27, 2007
Lantern Festival
Went to Juru's auto city for the 1st time...Its like~going out of the kampung the 1st time, donno wat to do there, and being amused and attracted by the lights and shops =.='''
The lantern festival is comparable with that of ice carving in Harbin, though 1 is ice and 1 is lantern, and 1 have a huge area and amazing, the other have a smaller area and a bit of finish the whole field in 1 sight...
So~ wat attracted me to the festival?
This
The theme of the lantern festival is Hari Raya~ so, they have a bit of Malay stuff, like:
Ok~ enough of nonsense....Here's more picture:
The lantern festival is comparable with that of ice carving in Harbin, though 1 is ice and 1 is lantern, and 1 have a huge area and amazing, the other have a smaller area and a bit of finish the whole field in 1 sight...
So~ wat attracted me to the festival?
This
The theme of the lantern festival is Hari Raya~ so, they have a bit of Malay stuff, like:
Ok~ enough of nonsense....Here's more picture:
Life's short
Even though I am just 22, doesn't really achieve much, doesn't really do anything that can be seen and touched, but it seems like I my life is *tut*...(censored for pantang purposes :p)
Life's actually very short~
Its like, I just came back from Harbin 2 weeks ago, and then now, I am doing another planning for the up coming year end trip.
Its like, Chinese new year was like weeks ago, and now, we are here looking forward for Deepavali and then for Christmas already.
Its like, 2007 is just here and new, yet, 2008 is just around the corner waiting for the hailing of "Happy New Year".
Years passes there and then~
Its now new year, and then, in like a few weeks later, it become past tense already.
But, there are ppl that doesn't really live life, but the life is living them =.=''' Sound confusing~ I also don't really know wat I am talking about....haha~~~
Anyway, wat I really want to convey here is that..."Living in regret is better that regret after u don live any more".
No matter wat happens, its life~ And, that to suffer is part of it^.^
Lets work out our life^.^
Life's actually very short~
Its like, I just came back from Harbin 2 weeks ago, and then now, I am doing another planning for the up coming year end trip.
Its like, Chinese new year was like weeks ago, and now, we are here looking forward for Deepavali and then for Christmas already.
Its like, 2007 is just here and new, yet, 2008 is just around the corner waiting for the hailing of "Happy New Year".
Years passes there and then~
Its now new year, and then, in like a few weeks later, it become past tense already.
But, there are ppl that doesn't really live life, but the life is living them =.=''' Sound confusing~ I also don't really know wat I am talking about....haha~~~
Anyway, wat I really want to convey here is that..."Living in regret is better that regret after u don live any more".
No matter wat happens, its life~ And, that to suffer is part of it^.^
Lets work out our life^.^
October 26, 2007
Lines
It always seems to me that there's distance btw me and other ppl, frens and family is quite far, that I feel myself being tiny and unimportant, but then, i think the lines in btw is drawn by me myself =.='''
Lines~ its drawn and applied by me to my surroundings, "protecting" me some how from "harm" and unwanted nuisance...erm....maybe that's wat I do, coz I really don't know y I draw lines.
Its makes me feel safe, living inside the line drawn, but sometimes makes me wonder if I ever existed in this world/reality of life.
Maybe, sometimes I should step out of "my territory", looking back at myself~
Maybe, I actually exist, but its only me that think too much~ always thought that I am unimportant...
Maybe its all just becoz I am just not confident enough bout myself.
Its some "u know who" makes me thought of that I emphasized too much bout "this something".
Lines~ its drawn and applied by me to my surroundings, "protecting" me some how from "harm" and unwanted nuisance...erm....maybe that's wat I do, coz I really don't know y I draw lines.
Its makes me feel safe, living inside the line drawn, but sometimes makes me wonder if I ever existed in this world/reality of life.
Maybe, sometimes I should step out of "my territory", looking back at myself~
Maybe, I actually exist, but its only me that think too much~ always thought that I am unimportant...
Maybe its all just becoz I am just not confident enough bout myself.
Its some "u know who" makes me thought of that I emphasized too much bout "this something".
October 25, 2007
Relationship with ppl
There's no where in the world that one can find every1 standing at the same view point as us, and there is no where to find ppl that will always be frenly, good and easy to get along with. There is always ppl that stand on our nerve, make us feel uneasy or even make us feel like vomiting =.='''
Humans, there are many kinds~ me and u, me and them, u and "all of us" are one of a kind. So, just bare with all those ppl around us, accepting every1 as a "unique" human being, possessing different brain and heart, treating every1 in equal status and level.
My fren sms me saying that "some1" is very fake~ but then, turn the table over and see things, if that "some1" is fake or we see them as "vomit" stimulating human, BUT, we still smile when we see them and we still talk and mix with them like there's nothing happen, then....who's more fake in the end?? ^.^
In relationship with ppl around us, or ppl that just passes us, just brush our shoulder, its nothing that can be called "easy". There are our own different ways of treating different kinds of ppl. It all depends on who we classify ourselves as and how we classify others.
~Lesson learnt~
Humans, there are many kinds~ me and u, me and them, u and "all of us" are one of a kind. So, just bare with all those ppl around us, accepting every1 as a "unique" human being, possessing different brain and heart, treating every1 in equal status and level.
My fren sms me saying that "some1" is very fake~ but then, turn the table over and see things, if that "some1" is fake or we see them as "vomit" stimulating human, BUT, we still smile when we see them and we still talk and mix with them like there's nothing happen, then....who's more fake in the end?? ^.^
In relationship with ppl around us, or ppl that just passes us, just brush our shoulder, its nothing that can be called "easy". There are our own different ways of treating different kinds of ppl. It all depends on who we classify ourselves as and how we classify others.
~Lesson learnt~
October 21, 2007
Memories
Cleaning cupboards and drawers in my room last night, throwing rubbish papers and nonsense collections away....then, found some old memories in those boxes~
Such as~
- The 1st paper that "u" wrote for me, teaching me chemistry when preparing for STPM
- Some papers and drawings that I make it myself, thinking that I have done something meaningful when I scribble them, but thinking bout it, I so 无聊 haha~~
- Found the 1 and only prize I go for my life
- look thru those cards and letters my "frens" wrote for me, still felt touched after reading them over and over again^.^ I have frens after all~ but then, its just that I don't make the effort myself to maintain them =.=''' What a silly gal
- Refreshed my memories thru all little gifts, presents and miniature things in those boxes. Reminds me a lot about wat I have went thru in the past 10-20 years ^.^ (coz 20 is the most I have...haha~~)
However, thinking bout wanting to throw away lots of "rubbish" away, but they are so precious, that even the worse memories are worth to kept in heart and mind.
Humans~~ gals~~~ the unpredicted, unknown, never being understood living creature^.^
Note: "u" = the known and u know who
"frens" = those real frens, best frens, some donno if they are fren, some over the std of fren line punya fren, some btw fren line punya fren, relatives that seems to be like frens and frens that seems to be sort of brother ^.^
p/s: complex fren circle :p
Such as~
- The 1st paper that "u" wrote for me, teaching me chemistry when preparing for STPM
- Some papers and drawings that I make it myself, thinking that I have done something meaningful when I scribble them, but thinking bout it, I so 无聊 haha~~
- Found the 1 and only prize I go for my life
- look thru those cards and letters my "frens" wrote for me, still felt touched after reading them over and over again^.^ I have frens after all~ but then, its just that I don't make the effort myself to maintain them =.=''' What a silly gal
- Refreshed my memories thru all little gifts, presents and miniature things in those boxes. Reminds me a lot about wat I have went thru in the past 10-20 years ^.^ (coz 20 is the most I have...haha~~)
However, thinking bout wanting to throw away lots of "rubbish" away, but they are so precious, that even the worse memories are worth to kept in heart and mind.
Humans~~ gals~~~ the unpredicted, unknown, never being understood living creature^.^
Note: "u" = the known and u know who
"frens" = those real frens, best frens, some donno if they are fren, some over the std of fren line punya fren, some btw fren line punya fren, relatives that seems to be like frens and frens that seems to be sort of brother ^.^
p/s: complex fren circle :p
October 15, 2007
Hari Raya Holiday
Having long weekends, 3 days in a row~ don't have to go to work, its super happy^.^ But then, this kind of happiness and excitement, only occur if one have to go to sch, work or to do something that he/she can't have control of her own time, then suddenly, there's holiday and free to do anything he/she wants^.^
Wat have I done??
Erm~~just laze around, relaxed, read books, watch a bit of drama (I really read more than I am with drama, ok!!!).... then, having flu, I have to rest quite a lot, taking medicine, and drink tonnes of water, plus, non stop eating anything I see, coz there's a saying: "starve the fever, and feed the cold". So, I make it like, if I eat more, then I will heal faster ^.^
Have to go work again tomolo =.='''
Its not that I hate working/training, but then, its like the whole day is finished just on 1 thing, and that its supposed to be my holiday...year end holiday!!!
wat to do??
sleep early tonight lor~~
Aahhhh CHIEEEWWWW!!
Wat have I done??
Erm~~just laze around, relaxed, read books, watch a bit of drama (I really read more than I am with drama, ok!!!).... then, having flu, I have to rest quite a lot, taking medicine, and drink tonnes of water, plus, non stop eating anything I see, coz there's a saying: "starve the fever, and feed the cold". So, I make it like, if I eat more, then I will heal faster ^.^
Have to go work again tomolo =.='''
Its not that I hate working/training, but then, its like the whole day is finished just on 1 thing, and that its supposed to be my holiday...year end holiday!!!
wat to do??
sleep early tonight lor~~
Aahhhh CHIEEEWWWW!!
October 13, 2007
Summary of the week
Its been a very tiring week, working from 8.30 to 5 everyday without income~ makes me don want to do anything at all after coming back home everyday, even to on the computer seems like going to space to me~
Monday~ Got 2 juniors from UTAR go to HLWE for training today, quite easy talk to gals. Went for belly dancing at night^.^ I know it sounds weird that I go for dancing class, but then, I take it as an exercise class, which, help me to learn to coordinate my body, to slim my body, to avoid accumulation of fat on my waist, also, its fun^.^
Tuesday~ nothing much of interesting stuff, well~~ quite much learnt in HLWE everyday, but then, to share with ppl of wat I've learnt its like talking in alien language, coz it will contain too many scientific terms and also....sometimes, I think some are really catch my attention, but then, it just don stimulate any brain cells of u guys. So, I'll just keep everything to myself^.^
Wednesday~ went to pasar rahmadan to buy dinner, coz I am lazy to cook, also, its almost Hari Raya d~ and that no more pasar rahmadan will be going to be seen any where d~
Watch Malaysian's 1st astronaut sent to space live on tv~ its quite touched....erm...emotional looking at the screen, seeing the rocket being shot up the sky. But then, after that, when I know all those facts bout him being sent to "space" have some story behind =.=''' AIH!!!!
Thursday~ nothing much interesting
Friday~ Feel a bit of sore throat, but then, still ajak my cousin sis to go for western food at night^.^ coz just feel like eating :p
Saturday, today~~ having sore throat finally *duh*. Got myself medicine for sore throat, then trying to finish my comic the whole day, but.....erm...still working on it... want to go clean my room 1st~
Ja~~
Monday~ Got 2 juniors from UTAR go to HLWE for training today, quite easy talk to gals. Went for belly dancing at night^.^ I know it sounds weird that I go for dancing class, but then, I take it as an exercise class, which, help me to learn to coordinate my body, to slim my body, to avoid accumulation of fat on my waist, also, its fun^.^
Tuesday~ nothing much of interesting stuff, well~~ quite much learnt in HLWE everyday, but then, to share with ppl of wat I've learnt its like talking in alien language, coz it will contain too many scientific terms and also....sometimes, I think some are really catch my attention, but then, it just don stimulate any brain cells of u guys. So, I'll just keep everything to myself^.^
Wednesday~ went to pasar rahmadan to buy dinner, coz I am lazy to cook, also, its almost Hari Raya d~ and that no more pasar rahmadan will be going to be seen any where d~
Watch Malaysian's 1st astronaut sent to space live on tv~ its quite touched....erm...emotional looking at the screen, seeing the rocket being shot up the sky. But then, after that, when I know all those facts bout him being sent to "space" have some story behind =.=''' AIH!!!!
Thursday~ nothing much interesting
Friday~ Feel a bit of sore throat, but then, still ajak my cousin sis to go for western food at night^.^ coz just feel like eating :p
Saturday, today~~ having sore throat finally *duh*. Got myself medicine for sore throat, then trying to finish my comic the whole day, but.....erm...still working on it... want to go clean my room 1st~
Ja~~
October 7, 2007
Grandmother story
Looking a few blogs back, I seems to be telling grandmother's story, elaborating something over and over again.....
Maybe its because that something just kept bothering my mind a lot =.='''
Bare with me guys~ I have to express everything out in blogs coz that's the only place I let my feelings out
Maybe its because that something just kept bothering my mind a lot =.='''
Bare with me guys~ I have to express everything out in blogs coz that's the only place I let my feelings out
October 6, 2007
Training part 2
yay!!! I'm done with the 1st week....
Wat question do I get most in this whole week? Erm....Do u get any pay for the training period? The answer...NO~
"har" will be the reply =.='''
Money, pay and tired doesn't really bothers me much as usual, its just that life and everyday have to be interesting and enjoyable~ The most important thing is continuous learning. Learning bout life, having different and more in depth thought, more knowledge gained than that I have had in text books and classes, release my mind more towards freedom than constrained in the circle of having to do this and that...etc...etc...
I really don't care much bout wat others have and I don't, or even the levels that others have and that I haven't reach that level...its just that envy and jealousy always come to overcome my conscious mind, which makes me imagine and dream more than I should.
Life's just have to be interesting, enjoyable, happy and healthy~
Do u know?
When one have lots of things that he/she can do, he/she will lost their way towards their target, thinking too much than he/she should, hoping to get more, hoping for the imaginary, loss their self and lost their purpose of living.
When one have only 1 target and 1 purpose of living, he/she will strive hard, nv hope for the unknown, nv imagine more than wat he/she can get.
For me, my purpose of living....erm...learning?? and enjoying??
Wat question do I get most in this whole week? Erm....Do u get any pay for the training period? The answer...NO~
"har" will be the reply =.='''
Money, pay and tired doesn't really bothers me much as usual, its just that life and everyday have to be interesting and enjoyable~ The most important thing is continuous learning. Learning bout life, having different and more in depth thought, more knowledge gained than that I have had in text books and classes, release my mind more towards freedom than constrained in the circle of having to do this and that...etc...etc...
I really don't care much bout wat others have and I don't, or even the levels that others have and that I haven't reach that level...its just that envy and jealousy always come to overcome my conscious mind, which makes me imagine and dream more than I should.
Life's just have to be interesting, enjoyable, happy and healthy~
Do u know?
When one have lots of things that he/she can do, he/she will lost their way towards their target, thinking too much than he/she should, hoping to get more, hoping for the imaginary, loss their self and lost their purpose of living.
When one have only 1 target and 1 purpose of living, he/she will strive hard, nv hope for the unknown, nv imagine more than wat he/she can get.
For me, my purpose of living....erm...learning?? and enjoying??
October 3, 2007
To learn and to be taught
Lesson of today:
To learn is our responsibility as a trainee in labs or anywhere, but to teach is not others' responsibility. We have to have the initiative ourselves to be taught by others and for others to teach us~ Sounds complicated?? I don't think so~
Maybe it's because I have great colleagues who are very helpful and eager to teach me stuffs, even to find things for me to do to fill up my free time, so that I won't be bored^.^
Thanks to Miss Koay, teaching me how to use new machines and how to run new tests today...Love ya~
And to...erm...sorry I still can't get ur name, Miss X, thanks for letting me do the filing for u~ it get me more time to sit on the chair^.^
To learn is our responsibility as a trainee in labs or anywhere, but to teach is not others' responsibility. We have to have the initiative ourselves to be taught by others and for others to teach us~ Sounds complicated?? I don't think so~
Maybe it's because I have great colleagues who are very helpful and eager to teach me stuffs, even to find things for me to do to fill up my free time, so that I won't be bored^.^
Thanks to Miss Koay, teaching me how to use new machines and how to run new tests today...Love ya~
And to...erm...sorry I still can't get ur name, Miss X, thanks for letting me do the filing for u~ it get me more time to sit on the chair^.^
October 2, 2007
Training~
Yesterday was my 1st day in Lam Wah Ee hospital for my training~
I was tired, ached on both the sole of both legs~ but then~ its interesting....Not bored, not sleepy, and blood in my hands^.^ Love that:p
Wat interest my is that...its my 1st experience working in the society...erm~ don be jealous and say that I am a mama's gal or that I am dumbo or something... u r just super jealous of me...BLEK:P
Learn quite a lot there, maybe its coz my colleague are great~ taught me quite a lot in details and even trust me in doing some test on my own...super thanks to Kak Sue, especially ^.^
Can't say much here....if u wan to know more bout wat I have learnt so far...erm~ view my training report at the end of my training :p But, I don't think u guys have any chance in doing so.
Conclusion: great day, great experience, enjoying it, its fun and I might get bored with it some day to come, but then~ I am still learning^.^(for the time being:p)
I was tired, ached on both the sole of both legs~ but then~ its interesting....Not bored, not sleepy, and blood in my hands^.^ Love that:p
Wat interest my is that...its my 1st experience working in the society...erm~ don be jealous and say that I am a mama's gal or that I am dumbo or something... u r just super jealous of me...BLEK:P
Learn quite a lot there, maybe its coz my colleague are great~ taught me quite a lot in details and even trust me in doing some test on my own...super thanks to Kak Sue, especially ^.^
Can't say much here....if u wan to know more bout wat I have learnt so far...erm~ view my training report at the end of my training :p But, I don't think u guys have any chance in doing so.
Conclusion: great day, great experience, enjoying it, its fun and I might get bored with it some day to come, but then~ I am still learning^.^(for the time being:p)
September 29, 2007
距离
在网陆上看到这文章， 还附加了这诗。。。简直符合了我心里百般的思念，心里的痛楚~
~给那还在我心中的你~
诗如下：
世界上最遥远的距离
不是, 生与死
而是,我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
世界上最遥远的距离
不是, 我就站在你面前,你却不知道我爱你
而是,明明知道彼此相爱
却不能在一起
世界上最遥远的距离
不是, 明明知道彼此相爱,却不能在一起,
而是,明明无法抵挡这股思念,
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
世界上最遥远的距离
不是,明明无法抵挡这股思念，却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是,用自己冷漠的心
对爱你的人,掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠
“。。。这诗中的情感和苦痛，却是我自己切身的体会。我想对自己说，也告诉我思念中的一个人，无需说，无需求证，这世界上有一种情感叫做遥望。
我要写的就是遥望。无言的遥望，无望的遥望，不能分说的遥望，不可明言的遥望。
这样一首近乎于直白的诗-我甚至不认为它是诗。。。
。。。思念，人同此心的思念。
网络时代的思念，是世界上最遥远的距离。
现实有界，人生有涯，而人的思想是无限的。因而我说，所有的拥有都有限，只有思念无 限。那么思念又是什么呢？是否可以说，思念是一种由于时空阻隔而产生的渴望圆满而心神不宁的痛楚：你远在天涯，我不知道你在哪里，也不知道你变成了什么样 子。或者，思念是记忆留下的无法抹平的辙痕，时空产生的牵肠挂肚的追索。好比泰戈尔的吟咏：夏日的南风里有一股奇异的芳踪，让我想望得心痛。思念既由距离 所产生，又将距离进一步延伸。这个距离，便是心的皈依。爱到极限，思念就变成无穷。
蜡炬成灰，死而后已，所谓爱是不能忘记的。这既是情爱的慰籍，也是人生的无奈。这首诗，写了生之无奈，爱之无望。
事过经年，又到栀子花开满坡的季节；事过经年，多少良辰美景虚设。然而有些事无法放下，有些人不能忘记。当时的雨，当时的心境，依旧清晰可见。
于是我写了这篇文章，纪念一件爱却不能拥有的往事。”
~给那还在我心中的你~
Holiday vs Blogging
Holiday supposed to have lots of programs, and that should have a lot of stories to write about, lots of happy things to share with u guys, but then~for gals, happy things are really hard to be expressed in words, and sad frustrating things are very easy to slip out of our mouth...(erm~ I am classifying humans into gals and guys again~ sorry, but I think there's experimental support for that, including difference in brain of males and females^.^)
Days passes like lightning...its like, I just woke up not long ago, and then, here I am again, in my room, doing things that I should to end the day....I love that, but....not when I have so many things to do=.='''
Anyway, nothing much to complain bout the sky, the sea and the air that I breathe...coz...my life is really great, not like 2 years back, in which, everyday was really hard to pass, coz I only have 1 and only 1 thought filling my brain. WAIT~ pull hand break and reverse a bit! Its not that I don like my life for the past 2 years or that I suffer a lot in those days, its just that...my heart now is not as rough as the wave in the sea, but calm as breeze~ too calm sometimes that I fear that I might be too cold in every aspect, which might then bring me to a world, which is too winter, without something to cheer me or surprise me anymore~
Life's like that......
I laugh and smile not from the bottom of my heart, coz I can't see anything that attracts me that much.
Tears and sorrow doesn't come as often, as I now have better control of them.
Thoughts are my best fren, making emotion come and go as they like, not to let them interfere my life; round everything up in a very reasonable way; making my thought direct to the point, don have to consider anything "else".
Hm...seems like I have gone way too far from the topic :p & that I am still complaining bout this and that the whole way thru.... :p
Pai Sei la~
Days passes like lightning...its like, I just woke up not long ago, and then, here I am again, in my room, doing things that I should to end the day....I love that, but....not when I have so many things to do=.='''
Anyway, nothing much to complain bout the sky, the sea and the air that I breathe...coz...my life is really great, not like 2 years back, in which, everyday was really hard to pass, coz I only have 1 and only 1 thought filling my brain. WAIT~ pull hand break and reverse a bit! Its not that I don like my life for the past 2 years or that I suffer a lot in those days, its just that...my heart now is not as rough as the wave in the sea, but calm as breeze~ too calm sometimes that I fear that I might be too cold in every aspect, which might then bring me to a world, which is too winter, without something to cheer me or surprise me anymore~
Life's like that......
I laugh and smile not from the bottom of my heart, coz I can't see anything that attracts me that much.
Tears and sorrow doesn't come as often, as I now have better control of them.
Thoughts are my best fren, making emotion come and go as they like, not to let them interfere my life; round everything up in a very reasonable way; making my thought direct to the point, don have to consider anything "else".
Hm...seems like I have gone way too far from the topic :p & that I am still complaining bout this and that the whole way thru.... :p
Pai Sei la~
September 26, 2007
starting the day~
Starting my day at 8am~ erm~ don't really want to get up so early...but then~ maybe I have got enough sleep already =.='''
wat have i done this morning??
Make clothes in my closet in to order...its actually shift things here and there, so as to make it look more neat...no one's going to look into my closet, its only me, so...its just for my own "syok"ness :p
Done 2 machine loads of clothes, which is like, the whole washing area is full of my clothes hanging^.^
Then, cleaned my car....which every1 say its super "clean". I don't wash my car as often as u guys coz if I want to wash my car, it have to be hand washed by myself, which makes me proud of it to claim that I love my car, instead of "u", make other ppl wash it for u (BLEK:P)
Have to take a bath d~
My whole body is WET!
wat have i done this morning??
Make clothes in my closet in to order...its actually shift things here and there, so as to make it look more neat...no one's going to look into my closet, its only me, so...its just for my own "syok"ness :p
Done 2 machine loads of clothes, which is like, the whole washing area is full of my clothes hanging^.^
Then, cleaned my car....which every1 say its super "clean". I don't wash my car as often as u guys coz if I want to wash my car, it have to be hand washed by myself, which makes me proud of it to claim that I love my car, instead of "u", make other ppl wash it for u (BLEK:P)
Have to take a bath d~
My whole body is WET!
September 23, 2007
Time
Time seems to be fly fast~ but yet, it makes me feel very frustrated~~Why is it that the paper for microbe will be on Tuesday????Why~~~~
I kept hugging my own made notes~ drawing, scribble and highlight important points over and over again~ but then~~ its still Sunday =.=''' Why isn't today monday? why the paper is not on monday? why is it that the exam have to stretch from the 1st day to the last?? WHY~~~
Feel to tired, brain freeze, too many things learnt and processed...yet~ points still have to be packed into my brain....sien~tired~bored~and felt sleepy once notes is in my hands =.='''
Life's like that~ one day, I might look back and say:" wow~ I have had a great life back then...wished I am a student and have the feeling of sitting for exam again"....
Right~ wished that would happen :p
I kept hugging my own made notes~ drawing, scribble and highlight important points over and over again~ but then~~ its still Sunday =.=''' Why isn't today monday? why the paper is not on monday? why is it that the exam have to stretch from the 1st day to the last?? WHY~~~
Feel to tired, brain freeze, too many things learnt and processed...yet~ points still have to be packed into my brain....sien~tired~bored~and felt sleepy once notes is in my hands =.='''
Life's like that~ one day, I might look back and say:" wow~ I have had a great life back then...wished I am a student and have the feeling of sitting for exam again"....
Right~ wished that would happen :p
September 22, 2007
天使与恶魔的决斗
明明，理智已经把一切都分析好了； 时间已经可以用年来计算；脑筋非常的清楚~ 但是，感觉还是赢了。
自己与自己的决斗，不是一两天可以解决的~ 天使VS恶魔。。。
天使，为我开了新的一条路。。。前途光明，好像梦境一样。。。
恶魔，却一直把我那要踏进梦境的那脚拉回来~ 让我一直被捆绑在现实里。。。
那~到底恶魔是好人，还是天使是好人？
我~常想把自己带到梦境，无忧无虑，自由自在~ 但往往，身边有太多太多的恶魔~把我拉回现实。
我不要！！！
我喜欢骗自己，喜欢梦境，不要清醒， 不要记得。。。都不要~~~
理智啊~ 请你不要把我的梦粉碎~
我好想好想。。。就这样~就这样或在骗局里~
自己与自己的决斗，不是一两天可以解决的~ 天使VS恶魔。。。
天使，为我开了新的一条路。。。前途光明，好像梦境一样。。。
恶魔，却一直把我那要踏进梦境的那脚拉回来~ 让我一直被捆绑在现实里。。。
那~到底恶魔是好人，还是天使是好人？
我~常想把自己带到梦境，无忧无虑，自由自在~ 但往往，身边有太多太多的恶魔~把我拉回现实。
我不要！！！
我喜欢骗自己，喜欢梦境，不要清醒， 不要记得。。。都不要~~~
理智啊~ 请你不要把我的梦粉碎~
我好想好想。。。就这样~就这样或在骗局里~
如果
如果，我用我的一生来吃喝玩乐~
如果，我的一生是没有高峰低潮的~
如果，我的一生是平淡的~
如果，我没有出世~
如果，我一直都活在过去~
如果，我变成不是我了~
如果，我出过社会打工~
如果，我失意了~
如果，我是个美女~
如果，我很聪明~
如果，我从来不知道~
如果，我没有感觉~
如果，我叫体贴世相~
如果，我不承认是你~
如果，我早一点认识你~
如果， 我有得从新再来~
如果~如果~
如果，世上是有如果~那么，人生就不会那么精彩~
有如果，就不会有现在的我~
如果，我的一生是没有高峰低潮的~
如果，我的一生是平淡的~
如果，我没有出世~
如果，我一直都活在过去~
如果，我变成不是我了~
如果，我出过社会打工~
如果，我失意了~
如果，我是个美女~
如果，我很聪明~
如果，我从来不知道~
如果，我没有感觉~
如果，我叫体贴世相~
如果，我不承认是你~
如果，我早一点认识你~
如果， 我有得从新再来~
如果~如果~
如果，世上是有如果~那么，人生就不会那么精彩~
有如果，就不会有现在的我~
September 20, 2007
-void-
Have had exam on proteins and proteomics today~ the paper is ok~ I can do most of them, but then, damn the last question....I know how to do eh~ but time ends when I know how to do that question =.='''
After the paper~ went IKEA~ coz I want to buy some stuff to make my room look better, neat is the word~ but then...I think it will never happen~ at least, the word "neat" can still describe my room even for like....2 days?? :p money spent~ RM36.60 plus 14.50 for lunch and 3.80 for toll, plus fill in 1 full tank of petrol, and then pasar malam some more 10.50...total for today RM115.4 =.='''
went to kor kor's house...erm...can say~ for a visit. But then~ a bit pai sei lor~ no buy anything~ then go there, sit sit a while, then come back~ jia lat~
What stupid thing have I done today?
Erm~ went to pasar malam, want to buy something for tomolo's lunch, paid, but then forgot to take the food bought =.=''' luckily that auntie remind me~
What's interesting thing of the day?
- learning how to go Ikea, and my auntie's house.
- saw a boy in pasar malam, singing Lee Hom's song in the new album...erm~ pai sei to say that, that kid sing better than me, even know every word in the lyrics
- "over" heard ppl talking in Pasar malam~ thinking that I still love going places that I can observe ppl~ humans really make me amused and love living on earth with them around me^.^
Result of the day~
sleepy, tired, blurred pain eyes, empty brain and lazy body
Conclusion~
I am happy and enjoying living^.^
After the paper~ went IKEA~ coz I want to buy some stuff to make my room look better, neat is the word~ but then...I think it will never happen~ at least, the word "neat" can still describe my room even for like....2 days?? :p money spent~ RM36.60 plus 14.50 for lunch and 3.80 for toll, plus fill in 1 full tank of petrol, and then pasar malam some more 10.50...total for today RM115.4 =.='''
went to kor kor's house...erm...can say~ for a visit. But then~ a bit pai sei lor~ no buy anything~ then go there, sit sit a while, then come back~ jia lat~
What stupid thing have I done today?
Erm~ went to pasar malam, want to buy something for tomolo's lunch, paid, but then forgot to take the food bought =.=''' luckily that auntie remind me~
What's interesting thing of the day?
- learning how to go Ikea, and my auntie's house.
- saw a boy in pasar malam, singing Lee Hom's song in the new album...erm~ pai sei to say that, that kid sing better than me, even know every word in the lyrics
- "over" heard ppl talking in Pasar malam~ thinking that I still love going places that I can observe ppl~ humans really make me amused and love living on earth with them around me^.^
Result of the day~
sleepy, tired, blurred pain eyes, empty brain and lazy body
Conclusion~
I am happy and enjoying living^.^
September 19, 2007
男女平等
这个话题~已经快越年代，经过几十年的辩论，成为男女争论的原点。。。
曾经听过：“你们男人都是这样的”，或 “这就是女人的天性” 等的话吗？该是常有的事吧~ 因我嘴里也常会出现这话：P （歹势啦~）
男女平等，是女人说要争取的~但~女人们就是从未想过男生并没有对女生有歧视的意识阿~ 可能，歧视是有，但~都已经什么年代了， 歧视的心理应该也平复了吧~
女人就是这样~ 我自己是女的也不帮自己了~ 想要平等， 但偏偏就是会有那：“男人本来就应该这或那的~ 然后，一回头又说，要争取女人的权利，要男女平等的~
世界，本来就是圆的，不是四方或平面的~ 所以，根本就没有所谓的公平存在。
说真的~要公平，要平等，就不要把世界分成男女，或是中性人。因为，人，本来就不是女的，就是男的（撇开中性不说）~所以，只要部分种类，不分你我，就该世界和平了吧~
说得容易，但，人的思想就是很难去改正过来的~
结论：男或女，只是基因的塑造成的。。。所以，那差别，就只在那X 和Y~ 人，本就是同个祖先进化而成的~
所以，本是同根生，相煎何太急呢？
曾经听过：“你们男人都是这样的”，或 “这就是女人的天性” 等的话吗？该是常有的事吧~ 因我嘴里也常会出现这话：P （歹势啦~）
男女平等，是女人说要争取的~但~女人们就是从未想过男生并没有对女生有歧视的意识阿~ 可能，歧视是有，但~都已经什么年代了， 歧视的心理应该也平复了吧~
女人就是这样~ 我自己是女的也不帮自己了~ 想要平等， 但偏偏就是会有那：“男人本来就应该这或那的~ 然后，一回头又说，要争取女人的权利，要男女平等的~
世界，本来就是圆的，不是四方或平面的~ 所以，根本就没有所谓的公平存在。
说真的~要公平，要平等，就不要把世界分成男女，或是中性人。因为，人，本来就不是女的，就是男的（撇开中性不说）~所以，只要部分种类，不分你我，就该世界和平了吧~
说得容易，但，人的思想就是很难去改正过来的~
结论：男或女，只是基因的塑造成的。。。所以，那差别，就只在那X 和Y~ 人，本就是同个祖先进化而成的~
所以，本是同根生，相煎何太急呢？
September 17, 2007
Finally finish revision~
Finally~ after torture my brain for 2 days straight, I manage to look thru the notes twice as planned....whew!!! its such a relieve.
However, finish studying and knowing everything is just not the same thing~
As I said, finish the 3rd, forgot the 1st~ its really frustrating....very frustrating, even chocolate can't help to increase dopamine release in my brain to make me feel better~
I've already did my best in studying and revising....it's true and I can swear that I really did the best d~
The rest....have to wait till tomolo after the exam, then only I can tell if the 2 days of torturing is worth it or not =.='''
Felt so tired....its like the whole brain is going to collapse anytime....
p/s: don't blame me if I really can't get the CGPA u guys expected me to get....coz~ I have my own target also~ but then, reality and imaginary is always not the same thing....
However, finish studying and knowing everything is just not the same thing~
As I said, finish the 3rd, forgot the 1st~ its really frustrating....very frustrating, even chocolate can't help to increase dopamine release in my brain to make me feel better~
I've already did my best in studying and revising....it's true and I can swear that I really did the best d~
The rest....have to wait till tomolo after the exam, then only I can tell if the 2 days of torturing is worth it or not =.='''
Felt so tired....its like the whole brain is going to collapse anytime....
p/s: don't blame me if I really can't get the CGPA u guys expected me to get....coz~ I have my own target also~ but then, reality and imaginary is always not the same thing....
Neuro
Now~ brain is super packed with facts from notes....its like have to know every word from cover to cover, no tips, no area of importance, no past years, no nothing~
Its like assuming that our brain have full capacity of 20GB or something~
HOW CAN U DO THIS TO US???
Its really torturing~ afraid to drop anything out, continuing load things into brain even felt very tired~ then~ after finish the 3rd notes, forgot the 1st 1....
Wat's the point actually to make us study like that?? Then some more pura-pura say that: I am here to help u~ not to burden u".
Damn him!! Shit him!!! Curse him!!!
Thinking of want to hack his computer with the trojan horse I have in my computer~
wahahahaha~~~~~
P/s: this sem sure teruk....very, superly, surely teruk..... =.='''
Its like assuming that our brain have full capacity of 20GB or something~
HOW CAN U DO THIS TO US???
Its really torturing~ afraid to drop anything out, continuing load things into brain even felt very tired~ then~ after finish the 3rd notes, forgot the 1st 1....
Wat's the point actually to make us study like that?? Then some more pura-pura say that: I am here to help u~ not to burden u".
Damn him!! Shit him!!! Curse him!!!
Thinking of want to hack his computer with the trojan horse I have in my computer~
wahahahaha~~~~~
P/s: this sem sure teruk....very, superly, surely teruk..... =.='''
September 15, 2007
Grandpa still fresh in mind
I think grandpa is smart~ when he was alive, he just sat there at "his place", watching tv, sleep or think on his own....he doesn't kacau ppl unless he need help to do something, like buying things to eat, or to go to take something for him. He's like...exist, but we don't really go to talk to him when seeing him everyday~ only, when enter the house, call him, then say bye when going back home~
Erm....like I said last time~ I still remembered the last phrase he told me, and the last angpow he gave me....insisted to give it to me himself, even the angpow is with grandma~ aih....tears start filling up d~
Anyway~ wat he's smart about is that....he existed like he doesn't and he doesn't exist anymore now, but then~ feels like he is still sitting at his corner in his house....
In Buddhist saying: 色既是空，空既是色~ I think he some how made it in that way....
Though he might not remember and recall wat good things he did when my dad once asked him~ but...hehe....wat he replied is interesting~ he say~ he donno wat good things he did, but he say he certainly never did anything that he should not^.^
My dad then say something that I don't quite agree...but then~ nvm...my dad is that kind of person that is wat I am exactly the same as...that is~ we will nv accept other ppl's thought and advice if we have our own stand in our mind :p
k~ back to the topic.....
As I recall a lot of things....I can feel grandpa is just beside "us", all family members~ inside our heart....
I can feel u grandpa ^.^
Erm....like I said last time~ I still remembered the last phrase he told me, and the last angpow he gave me....insisted to give it to me himself, even the angpow is with grandma~ aih....tears start filling up d~
Anyway~ wat he's smart about is that....he existed like he doesn't and he doesn't exist anymore now, but then~ feels like he is still sitting at his corner in his house....
In Buddhist saying: 色既是空，空既是色~ I think he some how made it in that way....
Though he might not remember and recall wat good things he did when my dad once asked him~ but...hehe....wat he replied is interesting~ he say~ he donno wat good things he did, but he say he certainly never did anything that he should not^.^
My dad then say something that I don't quite agree...but then~ nvm...my dad is that kind of person that is wat I am exactly the same as...that is~ we will nv accept other ppl's thought and advice if we have our own stand in our mind :p
k~ back to the topic.....
As I recall a lot of things....I can feel grandpa is just beside "us", all family members~ inside our heart....
I can feel u grandpa ^.^
September 14, 2007
Difficult to get out of bed??
Feeling sick that u wake up late everyday, late to class/work~ keep pressing snooze button become ur habit??
Here's an invention for u --> Clocky~
Though~ I think its only sold in US, but then...u may order it can get ship to ur house "GUA"~
I don't have that kind of prob, lazy to get up of bed....thinking don't want to go to class kind of thought as often as u might think it happen~
I just think a clock that running round the house may sound cute ^.^
Check it out at http://nandahome.com/products.clocky.html
Enjoy^.^
Here's an invention for u --> Clocky~
Though~ I think its only sold in US, but then...u may order it can get ship to ur house "GUA"~I don't have that kind of prob, lazy to get up of bed....thinking don't want to go to class kind of thought as often as u might think it happen~
I just think a clock that running round the house may sound cute ^.^
Check it out at http://nandahome.com/products.clocky.html
Enjoy^.^
September 13, 2007
Exams
Know the consequences of having exams and preparation for exams??
Loads of junk food to keep u awake, face full of pimples, maggee is the time saving fren, speaker gets frustrated working long hours, walkman kept getting hungry, nightmares over the whole nights (even dreamt of Dr. Anthony haven't finish giving his lectures =.='''), easily get angry over tiny matters....even the stomach gets bloated (my weight increased by 2kg....OMG!!!) the whole day and the result of too much junk -->
And~ wat I have for my tea??
Notice the background of the sandwich?? NOTES!!! the sick, allergic, irritated, never ending notes.....ARRHHH!!!
Continue study~
DON'T ASK SILLY QUESTIONS THAT MAKES ME FELT IRRITATED!!!
But then~ pls forgive me if my intonation in communication sounds irrespectful~ its just not the time to talk to any1......
Loads of junk food to keep u awake, face full of pimples, maggee is the time saving fren, speaker gets frustrated working long hours, walkman kept getting hungry, nightmares over the whole nights (even dreamt of Dr. Anthony haven't finish giving his lectures =.='''), easily get angry over tiny matters....even the stomach gets bloated (my weight increased by 2kg....OMG!!!) the whole day and the result of too much junk -->
And~ wat I have for my tea??
Notice the background of the sandwich?? NOTES!!! the sick, allergic, irritated, never ending notes.....ARRHHH!!!Continue study~
DON'T ASK SILLY QUESTIONS THAT MAKES ME FELT IRRITATED!!!
But then~ pls forgive me if my intonation in communication sounds irrespectful~ its just not the time to talk to any1......
September 12, 2007
IQ
I did 2 IQ tests online today~Both shows the result that I have IQ of above 126, which means that I am included in the upper 10% of IQ of the human population....YAY!!!
IQ is tested to show that wat is the age of ur brain in relative to ur age...and after calculation, I found out that I have brain power of bout 27 years old....
So~ what can I do with that IQ of 126 and above??
Erm....simply nothing :p I will still be doing wat I love doing~ nv put full effort on things~ doing everything half way thru~ being a normal gal~ etc...etc....
So~ y care bout wat status of IQ I have anyway?? coz...coz....I want to prove to myself that I am not dumbo, and I am smart enough to survive on earth....haha~~
Do u know that in selection theory of evolution, one don't have to be super great. One only have to be good enough to survive ^.^ I am part of evolution, and that I just have to be good enough to survive ^.^
Erm...u might say that if I have a normal, simple life, and that I am not great, only good enough, and that in future, I won't have any story to tell ppl or my future offspring, and the following family tree....But then~ think bout that, every1 have their own individual, unique story bout their past~ its just that u take it as interesting or boring~
Even if u have wonderful, colourful life, and that u don't even know how to express urself in story or in words~ they will never become fairy tale ^.^
So, live with watever u have~
p/s: just very happy with my IQ of 126 and above ^.^
tell me that u have IQ of 130, 200 or watever~ I just am good enough to be me^.^
last~~did u ever know that Shakespeare have higher IQ than that or Einstein?? I am so shock with that.....Einstein have above 160 and Shakespeare' was above 174!!
IQ is tested to show that wat is the age of ur brain in relative to ur age...and after calculation, I found out that I have brain power of bout 27 years old....
So~ what can I do with that IQ of 126 and above??
Erm....simply nothing :p I will still be doing wat I love doing~ nv put full effort on things~ doing everything half way thru~ being a normal gal~ etc...etc....
So~ y care bout wat status of IQ I have anyway?? coz...coz....I want to prove to myself that I am not dumbo, and I am smart enough to survive on earth....haha~~
Do u know that in selection theory of evolution, one don't have to be super great. One only have to be good enough to survive ^.^ I am part of evolution, and that I just have to be good enough to survive ^.^
Erm...u might say that if I have a normal, simple life, and that I am not great, only good enough, and that in future, I won't have any story to tell ppl or my future offspring, and the following family tree....But then~ think bout that, every1 have their own individual, unique story bout their past~ its just that u take it as interesting or boring~
Even if u have wonderful, colourful life, and that u don't even know how to express urself in story or in words~ they will never become fairy tale ^.^
So, live with watever u have~
p/s: just very happy with my IQ of 126 and above ^.^
tell me that u have IQ of 130, 200 or watever~ I just am good enough to be me^.^
last~~did u ever know that Shakespeare have higher IQ than that or Einstein?? I am so shock with that.....Einstein have above 160 and Shakespeare' was above 174!!
September 11, 2007
study OR drama?? ^.^
finished the whole series of 宫 (princess)....so that I can really concentrate on my notes, not to be distracted by anything else....
Cried the whole way thru the last few chapters...feels like a dumbo, sitting alone, staring at the screen, then sob, cry, and tears rolling :p
Its really fun though~ really a great series...especially like those shots taken from different angle, the director really knows how to consider angles, making scenes not just story, but art~
Love those arrangements of bears...making them impose the characters in the drama...^.^
I'll be watching the series again after finals....^.^
Something to share with u guys....I find it interesting~
Know wats great bout Malaysians generally? They desperately NEED shade and protection from sun~ hahaha~~
Cried the whole way thru the last few chapters...feels like a dumbo, sitting alone, staring at the screen, then sob, cry, and tears rolling :p
Its really fun though~ really a great series...especially like those shots taken from different angle, the director really knows how to consider angles, making scenes not just story, but art~
Love those arrangements of bears...making them impose the characters in the drama...^.^
I'll be watching the series again after finals....^.^
Something to share with u guys....I find it interesting~
Know wats great bout Malaysians generally? They desperately NEED shade and protection from sun~ hahaha~~
September 9, 2007
jusco
Interesting thing of the day --> money
went secret recipe, jusco to meet Darren....doing some genetics stuff~
Eat, study, then pay (with cash), leaving RM14 with me....
Then, wat stupid thing I do??
go buy junk food in Jusco....cost....not enough to pay =.='''
Then, thought coz I have jusco card, so, no need to pay the parking.....but the screen show...50 cents...alamak!! where can I go find 50 cents??
So~ I tell the gal I go to my car to find 50 cents for her....luckily...and lucky for me that I love simply put money here and there...wahahah~~~
=.=''' see la...I so poor, 50 cents also don have
hahaha~~~
went secret recipe, jusco to meet Darren....doing some genetics stuff~
Eat, study, then pay (with cash), leaving RM14 with me....
Then, wat stupid thing I do??
go buy junk food in Jusco....cost....not enough to pay =.='''
Then, thought coz I have jusco card, so, no need to pay the parking.....but the screen show...50 cents...alamak!! where can I go find 50 cents??
So~ I tell the gal I go to my car to find 50 cents for her....luckily...and lucky for me that I love simply put money here and there...wahahah~~~
=.=''' see la...I so poor, 50 cents also don have
hahaha~~~
September 8, 2007
^......^
still stuck in study week, in the middle of no where~
I seems to be weird that my brain's empty of thoughts, emotion and crazy ideas for blogging stuff...as u know~ my brain is always filled with crazy, silly ideas that can make life colourful...or i should say~ with ice and snow falling above u head...haha^>^
the main point is that my brain is void of emo and thoughts...which can be a good thing OR a bad 1....seems like I am having another "period" of jumping from 1 particular stage to the other....
today is the day with notes, drama and chatting~ nothing much interest me...except the rain, outside the window....
By the way~ i just had my supper....
here's the geli geli thingy i ate^.^
nitez
I seems to be weird that my brain's empty of thoughts, emotion and crazy ideas for blogging stuff...as u know~ my brain is always filled with crazy, silly ideas that can make life colourful...or i should say~ with ice and snow falling above u head...haha^>^
the main point is that my brain is void of emo and thoughts...which can be a good thing OR a bad 1....seems like I am having another "period" of jumping from 1 particular stage to the other....
today is the day with notes, drama and chatting~ nothing much interest me...except the rain, outside the window....
By the way~ i just had my supper....
here's the geli geli thingy i ate^.^
nitez
September 5, 2007
Study week
Back in Penang~ very tired throughout, but enjoyed all the way. Of coz, includes study in my schedule, but its really frustrated when I have to study the same old thing over and over again, looking at the pages which seems to be like I just studied that yesterday.
Things got worse when there's a lecturer that doesn't seems to have mercy to us~ want us to study every single word in his notes, coz he say its all important and "interesting". Its sort of like~ I really enjoyed his class, and really love the subject, but then~ exam, to read thru notes over and over again, have to memorise all facts in the notes is just not my kind of stuff. It really makes me sick~ made me get nausea looking at those notes.
However~ luckily its just one subject that I am "allergic" with. All the others are "cute" and fun studying for finals, coz there's tips given, which makes our life simpler, and they have less facts to memorise, only understanding is important...that makes life even easier~
Talking bout tips~ Its not that I am lazy or wat~ its just that...study is bout enjoying the lectures, exploring and learning new stuff, gaining knowledge and making us realise that life is not just about ABC, making us have the basics of the basics to read up books, exploring the world other than notes and text books~
It really make me feel sick, make me hate exams and make my life miserable with kind of thinking that exam is to make us remember, memorise every single thingy in notes and text. Understanding is one thing~ remember or not is the other =.=''' Chek ark!!!
Anyway~~
CHARGE!!!!!
p/s: by the way~ I also got my room a new look~ Here's the picture attached:
Things got worse when there's a lecturer that doesn't seems to have mercy to us~ want us to study every single word in his notes, coz he say its all important and "interesting". Its sort of like~ I really enjoyed his class, and really love the subject, but then~ exam, to read thru notes over and over again, have to memorise all facts in the notes is just not my kind of stuff. It really makes me sick~ made me get nausea looking at those notes.
However~ luckily its just one subject that I am "allergic" with. All the others are "cute" and fun studying for finals, coz there's tips given, which makes our life simpler, and they have less facts to memorise, only understanding is important...that makes life even easier~
Talking bout tips~ Its not that I am lazy or wat~ its just that...study is bout enjoying the lectures, exploring and learning new stuff, gaining knowledge and making us realise that life is not just about ABC, making us have the basics of the basics to read up books, exploring the world other than notes and text books~
It really make me feel sick, make me hate exams and make my life miserable with kind of thinking that exam is to make us remember, memorise every single thingy in notes and text. Understanding is one thing~ remember or not is the other =.=''' Chek ark!!!
Anyway~~
CHARGE!!!!!
p/s: by the way~ I also got my room a new look~ Here's the picture attached:
September 1, 2007
Rush Hour 3
Watched Rush Hour 3 today~ its funny from the beginning till the end. Chris tucker is especially funny....Jacky Chan's movement and the way he does his action is still being in his own style~ getting his coat off, having things just missed by 2 cm from hurting his body, things like that....
Tonight, having 2 of my cousin sis sleeping in my room~
Imagine that??
but the good thing bout having them, is that I can push myself to the limit that I finish wat I should study for the day^.^ Also, have ppl to play with me, even past the midnight.
~Great day~
Tonight, having 2 of my cousin sis sleeping in my room~
Imagine that??
but the good thing bout having them, is that I can push myself to the limit that I finish wat I should study for the day^.^ Also, have ppl to play with me, even past the midnight.
~Great day~
August 30, 2007
Day 1 back in Penang
Woke up early in the morning at 7~ donno y also...so silly~ coz I don have to go for class. Drove my dad to the airport, coz I need a car :p
Back home, clean my room, and change places of things, plus, get things into boxes, and then place it upstairs, coz they are all taking space in my room. The whole process of cleaning, plus, washing the toilet, is bout 3 hours plus~
Then...here comes the "thingy" of the day~ got my hair cut!! cut off all those curly and coloured hair~ got a short short hair~ which I don have to take much care on it, don have to think of how to make it look nice everyday I wake up....^.^
Bought vege back home, prepare them, then go Baskin for 2 quarts of ice-cream^.^ Cost: RM62+
Then rush back home, afraid that the ice cream melts, then prepare dinner for the day~
Quite an interesting day~ But, I still haven't touch much of my notes....
Getting tips from frens~ Ta for now^.^
Back home, clean my room, and change places of things, plus, get things into boxes, and then place it upstairs, coz they are all taking space in my room. The whole process of cleaning, plus, washing the toilet, is bout 3 hours plus~
Then...here comes the "thingy" of the day~ got my hair cut!! cut off all those curly and coloured hair~ got a short short hair~ which I don have to take much care on it, don have to think of how to make it look nice everyday I wake up....^.^
Bought vege back home, prepare them, then go Baskin for 2 quarts of ice-cream^.^ Cost: RM62+
Then rush back home, afraid that the ice cream melts, then prepare dinner for the day~
Quite an interesting day~ But, I still haven't touch much of my notes....
Getting tips from frens~ Ta for now^.^
August 28, 2007
I am not alone~^.^
The topic of the day was started by saying that "some1" says that when u have a partner, u will think of don want to be in that relationship. When u don have a partner, that's when u will think and wan to have some1 beside u....
I am not alone in the sense that, that "some1" is with me...having the same thought, even though the distance is far apart^.^
Humans~never contented with wat they have, never appreciate things just in front of their eyes, take things for granted in every sense, regret after every event become past tense.....
I am not alone~ regret, not contented, scolding myself every single day~ taking things for granted....
Its kind of another issue in life that I am learning, taking up and trying not to take for granted in every little thing happen around me~ trying to make feeling of regret become part of me so that I won't get emo easily....
Appreciate, control and tough~
I am not alone in the sense that, that "some1" is with me...having the same thought, even though the distance is far apart^.^
Humans~never contented with wat they have, never appreciate things just in front of their eyes, take things for granted in every sense, regret after every event become past tense.....
I am not alone~ regret, not contented, scolding myself every single day~ taking things for granted....
Its kind of another issue in life that I am learning, taking up and trying not to take for granted in every little thing happen around me~ trying to make feeling of regret become part of me so that I won't get emo easily....
Appreciate, control and tough~
August 27, 2007
Shoo"ing" is not working
Bad luck is still with me....
Try connecting for 5 hours~ now only can online....=.='''
Learn something new today...erm...as usual, from dramas :p But...that's part of my life and how I learn things since small^.^
Erm...also~~ love tying beads on my hair~ maybe coz of all things turning me nuts....
Wat's this blog about anyway??
1. To shoo the bad luck away AGAIN
2. Have to express myself some where
3. Blog's like my darling, borrowing ear to listen to nuts stuff everyday
Ja~
Try connecting for 5 hours~ now only can online....=.='''
Learn something new today...erm...as usual, from dramas :p But...that's part of my life and how I learn things since small^.^
Erm...also~~ love tying beads on my hair~ maybe coz of all things turning me nuts....
Wat's this blog about anyway??
1. To shoo the bad luck away AGAIN
2. Have to express myself some where
3. Blog's like my darling, borrowing ear to listen to nuts stuff everyday
Ja~
August 26, 2007
Bad luck sunday
woke up in the morning~ found out that I can't get connected to the internet. Tried to connect till night, the connection is still searching =.='''
Is it the maxis connection down? or just because of the clouds in the sky or arial problem, or its my computer that have problem?
Just hate it....can't watch drama the whole day~ but luckily, even drama also, I have backups :p
But....can't connect to messenger its very "suffering"~coz it's like part of me....till my fren thought I disappear~
hehe~ very pai sei~ but I am really glad that I have such a fren^.^ Thanks la~
Shoo...shoo the bad luck away~
SHOO!!
Is it the maxis connection down? or just because of the clouds in the sky or arial problem, or its my computer that have problem?
Just hate it....can't watch drama the whole day~ but luckily, even drama also, I have backups :p
But....can't connect to messenger its very "suffering"~coz it's like part of me....till my fren thought I disappear~
hehe~ very pai sei~ but I am really glad that I have such a fren^.^ Thanks la~
Shoo...shoo the bad luck away~
SHOO!!
August 24, 2007
Lepak day~
It's friday~AGAIN ^.^
Time really flies~ this means, my life and everyday is great...or~ that I have....erm...too many tests and things that I want to go in a week...of coz, that includes time to relax and enjoy la~ coz that's always my moto ma :p
I have had genetics test at 8am in the morning~ but, I pull the lecture hall door open at bout 8.10am =.='''
Then...did lots of things that is very "loon chun", butter fingers, as u can say...Suddenly can't find the test paper, during the test itself~ didn't bring A4 paper to write the answer on, don have ruler for me to cancel of those lines I wrote wrongly and that my writings are "wonderful", artistic~~
After class ends at 10, went to plaza sentral, located just beside KL sentral to refund back the money for the Aerospace tickets. Its quite 'ma huan' actually, and sound stupid to go buy the tickets before hand, then have to purposely go and refund....but things happen~ and that I can see in those ppl's in the organizer are really sorry for the situation..they even give me pens ^.^ Ok~ its not something like a bungalow or a Porche, but at least, they show their apologies, not by words(coz its really hard to express in words), but by small gifts.
Then, as u know~ I don't like to just go one place to do 1 thing if I go out, so, went to KLCC to lepak lepak~
At 1st, I only want to go Kinokuniya and for Genki, but ended up surveying around the cosmetics counter~ its actually quite paisei, when I asked bout something, then the salesgirl try to promote her things by "drawing" on my face. Pai sei in the sense that I not really want to buy, just want to look around, and survey a bit, increase my knowledge a bit on cosmetic stuff...but...it's really expensive to buy la~ RM64 for an eyebrow pencil =.=''' so...called my fren, expert in cosmetic stuff, asked her bout the price, if I should buy that pencil, she tell me, no need to pai sei, and its their job to do that....also, she say its too expensive for that price....
In the end...I ended up in Sasa, bought an eyebrow pencil for only RM9.90, some more got 20% discount, which makes it RM7.92~ OMG~ can u imagine the difference in the price??
Went to Kino, sit there for bout 2 hours, coz there's a lot of ppl queuing for Genki. Read a book called 一个人的相扑~ describing life of 樱桃小丸子, how she learn and handle every new things in daily life from having period in gals till she steps into the university...and into another stage of life. Quite an interesting book....funny, but very true in every word. Another book I read is bout 刘耕宏 and his theory and methods in keeping body fit and healthy.
Went to Genki alone, erm...not a single feeling of pai sei of eating alone in that place, where every1 go in gangs, talking happily while eating~ I sat there, doing wat I love doin, observing ppl~ every movement, every motion of ppl is so cute...humans are really very cute....every1 is cute ^.^
I love observing, that's y I love going places with lots of ppl...either alone, or with frens....it doesn't bother me if only I am alone....coz...I just love seeing ppl enjoying, and also observe every1 in different places at different time^.^ Its sort of part of my hobby :p
Imagine my class ends at 10am, but I go lepak lepak sendiri ooo....emphasis the word "sendiri" till when I reach home, it's already 3.30pm ^.^
p/s: its long since I count down for something, looking forward for some important day^.^ but now...its 6 days left towards the day I'll be back Penang again...hehe....
Time really flies~ this means, my life and everyday is great...or~ that I have....erm...too many tests and things that I want to go in a week...of coz, that includes time to relax and enjoy la~ coz that's always my moto ma :p
I have had genetics test at 8am in the morning~ but, I pull the lecture hall door open at bout 8.10am =.='''
Then...did lots of things that is very "loon chun", butter fingers, as u can say...Suddenly can't find the test paper, during the test itself~ didn't bring A4 paper to write the answer on, don have ruler for me to cancel of those lines I wrote wrongly and that my writings are "wonderful", artistic~~
After class ends at 10, went to plaza sentral, located just beside KL sentral to refund back the money for the Aerospace tickets. Its quite 'ma huan' actually, and sound stupid to go buy the tickets before hand, then have to purposely go and refund....but things happen~ and that I can see in those ppl's in the organizer are really sorry for the situation..they even give me pens ^.^ Ok~ its not something like a bungalow or a Porche, but at least, they show their apologies, not by words(coz its really hard to express in words), but by small gifts.
Then, as u know~ I don't like to just go one place to do 1 thing if I go out, so, went to KLCC to lepak lepak~
At 1st, I only want to go Kinokuniya and for Genki, but ended up surveying around the cosmetics counter~ its actually quite paisei, when I asked bout something, then the salesgirl try to promote her things by "drawing" on my face. Pai sei in the sense that I not really want to buy, just want to look around, and survey a bit, increase my knowledge a bit on cosmetic stuff...but...it's really expensive to buy la~ RM64 for an eyebrow pencil =.=''' so...called my fren, expert in cosmetic stuff, asked her bout the price, if I should buy that pencil, she tell me, no need to pai sei, and its their job to do that....also, she say its too expensive for that price....
In the end...I ended up in Sasa, bought an eyebrow pencil for only RM9.90, some more got 20% discount, which makes it RM7.92~ OMG~ can u imagine the difference in the price??
Went to Kino, sit there for bout 2 hours, coz there's a lot of ppl queuing for Genki. Read a book called 一个人的相扑~ describing life of 樱桃小丸子, how she learn and handle every new things in daily life from having period in gals till she steps into the university...and into another stage of life. Quite an interesting book....funny, but very true in every word. Another book I read is bout 刘耕宏 and his theory and methods in keeping body fit and healthy.
Went to Genki alone, erm...not a single feeling of pai sei of eating alone in that place, where every1 go in gangs, talking happily while eating~ I sat there, doing wat I love doin, observing ppl~ every movement, every motion of ppl is so cute...humans are really very cute....every1 is cute ^.^
I love observing, that's y I love going places with lots of ppl...either alone, or with frens....it doesn't bother me if only I am alone....coz...I just love seeing ppl enjoying, and also observe every1 in different places at different time^.^ Its sort of part of my hobby :p
Imagine my class ends at 10am, but I go lepak lepak sendiri ooo....emphasis the word "sendiri" till when I reach home, it's already 3.30pm ^.^
p/s: its long since I count down for something, looking forward for some important day^.^ but now...its 6 days left towards the day I'll be back Penang again...hehe....
August 23, 2007
Trust
Days ago, there is a fren that ask me, y do I always trust ppl even though I was lied to for times already, but yet I still trust him?
Then~ I was thinking this afternoon, that I shouldn't trust ppl so easily even though that particular person is my fren. Coz, I was betrayed and lied to many times in my life, but yet, I still have trust in other ppl...I mean, ppl that are close to me~
I once trusted frens, which ended up making my results of my studies dropped~
I once trusted bro, but I ended up kena "con"~
I once trusted in "someone", but I ended up with a broken heart~
I once trusted.....
On the other hand, those frens that break me in my studies make me learned how to measure the weight of word and trust.
My bro, taught me how to think, analyse, and not just to accept.
That "someone" make me live life tough, and learn that life is not only about 1 thing.
There is also a situation that I listened to my parents, start to think that my best fren was bad to me, that she greed something that I have....which made me thought that, that fren of mine is not so good after all....
but it ended up, that fren is still my best fren till now.
This make me think that trust is very important in relationship with ppl around me, and it doesn't care who ever say anything about that trust, even its ur parents. Coz, trust have to come together with self analysis.
Trust, is something that most ppl can't achieve, because the world is said to be not as simple as ABC, and there is a thought that there is something is behind everything. Also, trust makes u and breaks u~
The lesson which I have learnt today...which was all started and ended by Aik Aun, which made me grab on more firmly on my believe that I must trust ppl around me, not blindly, but with analysis.
~Trust~
This is the word that will make the world a better place to live in.
Then~ I was thinking this afternoon, that I shouldn't trust ppl so easily even though that particular person is my fren. Coz, I was betrayed and lied to many times in my life, but yet, I still have trust in other ppl...I mean, ppl that are close to me~
I once trusted frens, which ended up making my results of my studies dropped~
I once trusted bro, but I ended up kena "con"~
I once trusted in "someone", but I ended up with a broken heart~
I once trusted.....
On the other hand, those frens that break me in my studies make me learned how to measure the weight of word and trust.
My bro, taught me how to think, analyse, and not just to accept.
That "someone" make me live life tough, and learn that life is not only about 1 thing.
There is also a situation that I listened to my parents, start to think that my best fren was bad to me, that she greed something that I have....which made me thought that, that fren of mine is not so good after all....
but it ended up, that fren is still my best fren till now.
This make me think that trust is very important in relationship with ppl around me, and it doesn't care who ever say anything about that trust, even its ur parents. Coz, trust have to come together with self analysis.
Trust, is something that most ppl can't achieve, because the world is said to be not as simple as ABC, and there is a thought that there is something is behind everything. Also, trust makes u and breaks u~
The lesson which I have learnt today...which was all started and ended by Aik Aun, which made me grab on more firmly on my believe that I must trust ppl around me, not blindly, but with analysis.
~Trust~
This is the word that will make the world a better place to live in.
August 22, 2007
Memories
Sometimes, when I wanted to delete stuff from my comp/ to clear things online, its just tough. Y? coz, I just can't do it....it's like I need lots of courage and have to be very "stone hearted" to simply just click on the delete icon.
Memories can't be erased, but can be forgotten. Its contradicting that sometimes, there are things that I wanted to delete from my memories, and therefore I throw them away, keep them out of sight, or simply just pretend and lie to myself that they don't exist. However, at times, I just can't make myself do the delete, the erase stuff. Coz, I am afraid that I might forget those memories I have....
So, what do I do??
I can't do anything productive or solve the situation or that I can't make myself happier in this particular situation....
I guess I will just have to bare with all the feeling that surround me when I see stuff that I am reluctant/just can't give up.
^Cheers_dude^
Memories can't be erased, but can be forgotten. Its contradicting that sometimes, there are things that I wanted to delete from my memories, and therefore I throw them away, keep them out of sight, or simply just pretend and lie to myself that they don't exist. However, at times, I just can't make myself do the delete, the erase stuff. Coz, I am afraid that I might forget those memories I have....
So, what do I do??
I can't do anything productive or solve the situation or that I can't make myself happier in this particular situation....
I guess I will just have to bare with all the feeling that surround me when I see stuff that I am reluctant/just can't give up.
^Cheers_dude^
August 21, 2007
Greedy
I have almost everything I need in life, not the best of all, but its the best for me. However, I still seek and long for more that I doesn't have, but in some way, needed in life, as to "colourise" the whole picture, or that to produce a "whole" me.
Its kind of greedy~ coz...I already have so much, and that its good to give other ppl a chance.
I know in my mind clearly that I shouldn't have thought of things that I don't own, but the heart just kept seeking and long for the unknown. Its not time for me to even dream about the unknown, b'coz now is the time for me to focus on only 1 particular thing. But human brain~ too evolve, with too huge a frontal lobe, having too complex a network, making brain firing too much stimulus at a time, making me feel bad at times, thinking bout things I shouldn't, and never should.
That was some other thing that I mentioned above,BUT
There is this other thing: results.
Ppl just can't feel contented bout what they get/achieve. If I say I don care, or I am satisfied with wat I get this time~ its partially bullshit!
Y partially? coz 1 part is to tell myself its better than wat I hope to get. But on the other hand, the feeling of lose to some1, or to think y ppl can do much better, but I can't?
This second greed is good, in the sense that it motivates ppl~ even if after get motivated, work hard, but still get the same end result, just let it be~ and feel happy bout it~ wat to do?? that's ur standard....can't blame the sky or the sea~ at least u strived before~
Watever~
The lesson of the day~ learn to be contented~
Be happy, even if u try to lie to urself so as to make urself smile^.^
-->One can't always live life like Pepsi (moto: ask for more)<--
Its kind of greedy~ coz...I already have so much, and that its good to give other ppl a chance.
I know in my mind clearly that I shouldn't have thought of things that I don't own, but the heart just kept seeking and long for the unknown. Its not time for me to even dream about the unknown, b'coz now is the time for me to focus on only 1 particular thing. But human brain~ too evolve, with too huge a frontal lobe, having too complex a network, making brain firing too much stimulus at a time, making me feel bad at times, thinking bout things I shouldn't, and never should.
That was some other thing that I mentioned above,BUT
There is this other thing: results.
Ppl just can't feel contented bout what they get/achieve. If I say I don care, or I am satisfied with wat I get this time~ its partially bullshit!
Y partially? coz 1 part is to tell myself its better than wat I hope to get. But on the other hand, the feeling of lose to some1, or to think y ppl can do much better, but I can't?
This second greed is good, in the sense that it motivates ppl~ even if after get motivated, work hard, but still get the same end result, just let it be~ and feel happy bout it~ wat to do?? that's ur standard....can't blame the sky or the sea~ at least u strived before~
Watever~
The lesson of the day~ learn to be contented~
Be happy, even if u try to lie to urself so as to make urself smile^.^
-->One can't always live life like Pepsi (moto: ask for more)<--
August 20, 2007
~Uni and Jusco~
Woke up at 8am today~felt contented, having to wake up late on weekdays~
When to mamak for roti telur and teh tarik as usual order at the mamak. Felt wonderful to get an actual breakfast, not only to rush to class with only milo.
Then, all I see in uni is notes, but of coz, there's little chat here and there btw the 三剑客 ^.^
Have cheap cheap, big big lunch at uni --> nasi lemak(mamak thing again:p)...
After class, when I was at the traffic light, struggling either to U-turn to Jusco, or turn right back home...the force of Jusco wins~
Went in, look around in the hand bag corner coz its sales~ can't control the magnetic force... but ended up with nothing.
Then, to speedy video, searching for Haydn, my favourite symphony composer for the time being~ I thought the CD would cost 40+ or 50+, but ended up its only RM19.90. The tempt is so great that I bought it, fearing that the sound might not be as good~ coz it have chinese words on the cover~ as u know, made in china stuff, really have to test before buy in bulk.
(P/s: who's Haydn by the way?? pls link to: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joseph_Haydn
for more information^.^)
Then....Takoyaki^.^ y tako? coz its quite cheap, RM3.90, in which can make me feel contented with the taste and the crave for something~ its worth it^.^
The luckiest thing for the day is~~when I go wash my hands after back home, b4 taking of my lenses, a lizard dropped in front of me instead of on top of me....how lucky^.^
When to mamak for roti telur and teh tarik as usual order at the mamak. Felt wonderful to get an actual breakfast, not only to rush to class with only milo.
Then, all I see in uni is notes, but of coz, there's little chat here and there btw the 三剑客 ^.^
Have cheap cheap, big big lunch at uni --> nasi lemak(mamak thing again:p)...
After class, when I was at the traffic light, struggling either to U-turn to Jusco, or turn right back home...the force of Jusco wins~
Went in, look around in the hand bag corner coz its sales~ can't control the magnetic force... but ended up with nothing.
Then, to speedy video, searching for Haydn, my favourite symphony composer for the time being~ I thought the CD would cost 40+ or 50+, but ended up its only RM19.90. The tempt is so great that I bought it, fearing that the sound might not be as good~ coz it have chinese words on the cover~ as u know, made in china stuff, really have to test before buy in bulk.
(P/s: who's Haydn by the way?? pls link to: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joseph_Haydn
for more information^.^)
Then....Takoyaki^.^ y tako? coz its quite cheap, RM3.90, in which can make me feel contented with the taste and the crave for something~ its worth it^.^
The luckiest thing for the day is~~when I go wash my hands after back home, b4 taking of my lenses, a lizard dropped in front of me instead of on top of me....how lucky^.^
August 19, 2007
Worms in my stomach
The whole sunday~ what have I done other than my usual stuff, watch drama and study together??
EAT!!
I ate lots and lots of things today, but I still didn't have any little feeling of "fullness". Just kept eating and eating...even those stuffs that made me bloated in a small amount just can't make me do today. How sad~
I'll have to forget about diet, keeping distance from oily stuff and keeping myself slim and fit =.='''
Another bad thing is I feel sleepy even though I woke up at 10+ in the morning~ so~ no exercise for the whole week~ imagine that: sitting, studying whole week without any minor exercise~
The future me will look something like: with huge head, long fingers and arms, with small tiny legs, huge buttock, oily tummy and abnormal looking back =.=''' Hope it never happen...its really scary !!!
So...keep working on stuffs and....donno...maybe some more nuisance adding in~
Happy Sunday~
oh ya~ its 七夕~ sort of another "valentine's day" in chinese calendar~
so~ 七夕快乐!!! ^.^
EAT!!
I ate lots and lots of things today, but I still didn't have any little feeling of "fullness". Just kept eating and eating...even those stuffs that made me bloated in a small amount just can't make me do today. How sad~
I'll have to forget about diet, keeping distance from oily stuff and keeping myself slim and fit =.='''
Another bad thing is I feel sleepy even though I woke up at 10+ in the morning~ so~ no exercise for the whole week~ imagine that: sitting, studying whole week without any minor exercise~
The future me will look something like: with huge head, long fingers and arms, with small tiny legs, huge buttock, oily tummy and abnormal looking back =.=''' Hope it never happen...its really scary !!!
So...keep working on stuffs and....donno...maybe some more nuisance adding in~
Happy Sunday~
oh ya~ its 七夕~ sort of another "valentine's day" in chinese calendar~
so~ 七夕快乐!!! ^.^
August 18, 2007
Saturday~
Hihi~~ It's Saturday~ but....what have I done the whole day, when ppl supposed to rest, relax and unwind??
I have been clearing stuffs under my table --> notes!! =.='''
I have a specific target for myself, telling myself the whole day that I hav to finish preparing for tests for the coming week, then start going for finals d~
So....I didn't go out the whole day~ therefore, also clearing my food storage in my room and some stuffs in the fridge. Not really eat less for the whole day~ but at least, if I stay at home, away from all temptation, I wont eat more~ and I won't see food that are bad for health ^.^
Erm..to sum up the whole day~
I have achieved my target of the day, didn't waste much time, and the most important thing is that~ if one enjoys the moments, time really flies....and for me, the 1st day light was just like hours ago, and now, its midnight d....
So, no regrets for the day~ only that.....there still "one more thing"=.=''' really headache with that....
Nvm....will sure find a way to make every1 happy ....
Chek Ark....^.^
P/s: by the way~ my bro say that saturday night is suppose to go dancing, and drinking in clubs (jokingly)~ then come back home drunk, with guys that send me home...=.=''' LOL
The thing is that both of us have to strong concept in our brain that:
1. Its a waste of time
2. Its not productive....also nvm...its just....stupid and "wu liao"
3. y drink in clubs and expose urself to "uncertainty"?
4. Its smoky in clubs and bar~ and we hate ppl that smoke. So, y risk ur health in that stupid place?
k~ its too long a P/s :p
Nites^.^
I have been clearing stuffs under my table --> notes!! =.='''
I have a specific target for myself, telling myself the whole day that I hav to finish preparing for tests for the coming week, then start going for finals d~
So....I didn't go out the whole day~ therefore, also clearing my food storage in my room and some stuffs in the fridge. Not really eat less for the whole day~ but at least, if I stay at home, away from all temptation, I wont eat more~ and I won't see food that are bad for health ^.^
Erm..to sum up the whole day~
I have achieved my target of the day, didn't waste much time, and the most important thing is that~ if one enjoys the moments, time really flies....and for me, the 1st day light was just like hours ago, and now, its midnight d....
So, no regrets for the day~ only that.....there still "one more thing"=.=''' really headache with that....
Nvm....will sure find a way to make every1 happy ....
Chek Ark....^.^
P/s: by the way~ my bro say that saturday night is suppose to go dancing, and drinking in clubs (jokingly)~ then come back home drunk, with guys that send me home...=.=''' LOL
The thing is that both of us have to strong concept in our brain that:
1. Its a waste of time
2. Its not productive....also nvm...its just....stupid and "wu liao"
3. y drink in clubs and expose urself to "uncertainty"?
4. Its smoky in clubs and bar~ and we hate ppl that smoke. So, y risk ur health in that stupid place?
k~ its too long a P/s :p
Nites^.^
August 17, 2007
Weekend
k~ approaching weekend, I got a bit gila with my life~ uncontrollable....
1st of all, yesterday, Thursday~ as usual, its pasar malam day...but what I did was not normal. I spent RM9 on fried food!!! OMG!!! can u imagine that?? then...erm...got a bit of consciousness of my health, so, bought a cup of herbal tea back with me.
Then, the worse thing is that I bought chicken nuggets in uni before going to times square, and then, got mcnuggets and fries for my lunch =.='''
Got a bit of heaty now~ so...wat am I having? Green tea to "wash"/"cleanse" my body...
Ok~ the movie of the day is Ratatouille~
Quite an interesting movie to catch for the weekend. Its not just humour, as wat I thought before going for the movie, but, it have lots of moral value and thoughts of life in the movie.
The movie was great and no "cold" period, in which, we laughed from the beginning to the end of it.
Oh ya~ another great thing, something different from the normal shopping.
Its that My FM is at the main door of sg wang!!! They are doing outdoor broadcasting for 50 hours from today....
So~ go and have a look and give support to those DJ if u r free this weekend la~~
or~ just go kaypo kaypo awhile, like me ^.^
Here's a pic of the outdoor broadcasting station:
And, here's the link to the description of the outdoor broadcasting event:
http://www.my.com.my/05/News/MYFM_updates/detail.asp?id=3966
Ja ne~
1st of all, yesterday, Thursday~ as usual, its pasar malam day...but what I did was not normal. I spent RM9 on fried food!!! OMG!!! can u imagine that?? then...erm...got a bit of consciousness of my health, so, bought a cup of herbal tea back with me.
Then, the worse thing is that I bought chicken nuggets in uni before going to times square, and then, got mcnuggets and fries for my lunch =.='''
Got a bit of heaty now~ so...wat am I having? Green tea to "wash"/"cleanse" my body...
Ok~ the movie of the day is Ratatouille~
Quite an interesting movie to catch for the weekend. Its not just humour, as wat I thought before going for the movie, but, it have lots of moral value and thoughts of life in the movie.
The movie was great and no "cold" period, in which, we laughed from the beginning to the end of it.
Oh ya~ another great thing, something different from the normal shopping.
Its that My FM is at the main door of sg wang!!! They are doing outdoor broadcasting for 50 hours from today....
So~ go and have a look and give support to those DJ if u r free this weekend la~~
or~ just go kaypo kaypo awhile, like me ^.^
Here's a pic of the outdoor broadcasting station:
And, here's the link to the description of the outdoor broadcasting event:http://www.my.com.my/05/News/MYFM_updates/detail.asp?id=3966
Ja ne~
August 14, 2007
Gray Zone, comfort zone
I was talking to my fren~ saying that challenges in life~
I said I prefer life that I preferred a simple, normal and not so challenging life. My fren then say, what's the point of life then? what can I tell my kids/grandkids in future? So, I said~ that's y I have a blog.
My blog~ I note every single, minute thing in everyday life. Thoughts, emo, wat I saw, wat I did and how I see the world with my eyes in present. Though its simple, nothing great, nothing super bout such small small things that I seen, heard and think about, BUT, its still "my life" rite?
One may done something great, but he/she just can't express themselves well enough to make a story of their life. On the other hand, I have a normal and simple life, but then, I made every little moment counts, and That, makes a whole great different bout life^.^
I might have a routine life, but, I am growing everyday, think and process thoughts in minute difference everyday...that, accumulates to make huge progress every year, seeing myself grow, become more mature, having wider view of the world~
This might seems to be that I am lying to myself, but, life is just how u live it out. Not for others to draw lines, where u should reach or where u should stop.
I am living in a comfort zone, in which, I might make it a gray zone. Why? becoz, when one is living in a comfort zone, there is no need for huge decision to be made, no responsibility to be up taken, no matter of life and death in any choices done, no worries bout any1 else except me, and myself...etc...etc. Its a gray zone, becoz as stated, its just no true or false, no good or bad, no in or out, no yes or no....its just "living" with the most enjoyable, most happy state that I can get for myself.
I have my advantageous over others, but of coz there is the controversial part of it.
Life's like that....good or bad, positive or negative~ its just a matter of comparison. As stated by Einstein, big or small (as in good or bad, positive or negative) is just a relativity of each other.
Enough of making the Earth square~
Continue to bury myself in my notes and be bored till .....erm....till the test ends??
=.='''
I said I prefer life that I preferred a simple, normal and not so challenging life. My fren then say, what's the point of life then? what can I tell my kids/grandkids in future? So, I said~ that's y I have a blog.
My blog~ I note every single, minute thing in everyday life. Thoughts, emo, wat I saw, wat I did and how I see the world with my eyes in present. Though its simple, nothing great, nothing super bout such small small things that I seen, heard and think about, BUT, its still "my life" rite?
One may done something great, but he/she just can't express themselves well enough to make a story of their life. On the other hand, I have a normal and simple life, but then, I made every little moment counts, and That, makes a whole great different bout life^.^
I might have a routine life, but, I am growing everyday, think and process thoughts in minute difference everyday...that, accumulates to make huge progress every year, seeing myself grow, become more mature, having wider view of the world~
This might seems to be that I am lying to myself, but, life is just how u live it out. Not for others to draw lines, where u should reach or where u should stop.
I am living in a comfort zone, in which, I might make it a gray zone. Why? becoz, when one is living in a comfort zone, there is no need for huge decision to be made, no responsibility to be up taken, no matter of life and death in any choices done, no worries bout any1 else except me, and myself...etc...etc. Its a gray zone, becoz as stated, its just no true or false, no good or bad, no in or out, no yes or no....its just "living" with the most enjoyable, most happy state that I can get for myself.
I have my advantageous over others, but of coz there is the controversial part of it.
Life's like that....good or bad, positive or negative~ its just a matter of comparison. As stated by Einstein, big or small (as in good or bad, positive or negative) is just a relativity of each other.
Enough of making the Earth square~
Continue to bury myself in my notes and be bored till .....erm....till the test ends??
=.='''
August 13, 2007
Me
Having lots of ppl saying that I am crazy, stupid, 无聊~ BUT, I am quite happy, coz I am being myself.....Again~ ^.^
I am myself, the self that how ppl perceive as, but I also have that self that is living in reality. However, being living in a world surrounded by ppl that u can't really say things embedded in ur mind/heart, own parents, bro and my super closed cousin, I am still the person that is perceived.
The real me~ was once realised and was once accepted and that I was once being at the comfort zone of "me". But then, it was all just a dream...a wonderful dream, filled with memories that still can't be erased....
Its' great in a sense, but on the other hand, its just....sad~
Anyway~ I am still finding way to merge 2 together, even though I know its hard, coz I am very "face loving" and that I think a lot so as to bring the best self as in appearance to ppl....also~ it's b'coz if I appeared as who I am, ppl will throw me a bucket full of ice water, and then, I won't be able to do things that way I wanted to anymore,even "its for my own good", its just annoying =.= (p/s: can't find a better word d~)
I won't kill myself or anything...coz, as like wat I say the last few blogs, I don't do things that is not worth me doing~ I am selfish...and that is how I protect myself~
Long Live Queenie~
I am myself, the self that how ppl perceive as, but I also have that self that is living in reality. However, being living in a world surrounded by ppl that u can't really say things embedded in ur mind/heart, own parents, bro and my super closed cousin, I am still the person that is perceived.
The real me~ was once realised and was once accepted and that I was once being at the comfort zone of "me". But then, it was all just a dream...a wonderful dream, filled with memories that still can't be erased....
Its' great in a sense, but on the other hand, its just....sad~
Anyway~ I am still finding way to merge 2 together, even though I know its hard, coz I am very "face loving" and that I think a lot so as to bring the best self as in appearance to ppl....also~ it's b'coz if I appeared as who I am, ppl will throw me a bucket full of ice water, and then, I won't be able to do things that way I wanted to anymore,even "its for my own good", its just annoying =.= (p/s: can't find a better word d~)
I won't kill myself or anything...coz, as like wat I say the last few blogs, I don't do things that is not worth me doing~ I am selfish...and that is how I protect myself~
Long Live Queenie~
August 12, 2007
cockroach
Remember the cockroach last night~ it's still in the cup until my mom called....
Then, I go search in the internet for the life cycle of cockroach. Walao~ know wat I found?
Cockroach can live up to 45 minutes without breathing, and the normal life spend of a cockroach is 1 year. Without having any food, it can live up to 1 month....
So, plan fail~
what to do next? slipped a piece of paper carefully under the cup, then whole the cup with the paper tightly, not to release the cockroach accidentally, then~ put the cup with the paper fixed in a plastic bag, then lastly, tie up the plastic bag and throw into the rubbish bin^.^
Don't play a fool with the cockroach~ it is still alive, when I slightly shift the cup and that there are shit inside the cup....it's like living happily every after in the cup for the whole 24 hours after all =.='''
Then, I go search in the internet for the life cycle of cockroach. Walao~ know wat I found?
Cockroach can live up to 45 minutes without breathing, and the normal life spend of a cockroach is 1 year. Without having any food, it can live up to 1 month....
So, plan fail~
what to do next? slipped a piece of paper carefully under the cup, then whole the cup with the paper tightly, not to release the cockroach accidentally, then~ put the cup with the paper fixed in a plastic bag, then lastly, tie up the plastic bag and throw into the rubbish bin^.^
Don't play a fool with the cockroach~ it is still alive, when I slightly shift the cup and that there are shit inside the cup....it's like living happily every after in the cup for the whole 24 hours after all =.='''
August 11, 2007
"interesting" stuff ^.^
This is one of my favourite desert~ tau fu far~ but then, this is from Setapak, so, not as delicious as that of Penang...but when crave for the taste, anything that mimics the taste can be accepted.
This 1st picture is when 1st bought, 2nd pic is when its ready for me to eat:p
Look geli?? but its how I eat tau fu fah^.^
Next is something I will buy everytime I go pasar malam ~chao tau fu~ a.k.a "smelly tau fu", which its name implies, its smelly, but not reach super stage yet...so~ so so lor~ just for me to remember that taste I have had in Shanghai 5 years ago~
Lastly, is a weird upside down KFC cup~ What's inside??
Notice that there is cellophane tape on the bottom of the cup?
Its a temporary "cage" I use to catch cockroach that flew into my room. How long will temporary be?? Until I think the cockroach die inside the cup d ^.^ and the cellophane~ is to prevent the cockroach to crawl out.
U must be wondering y I wan it to die naturally and not to tekan it till die...coz~ I think its geli, having all the "juice" come out of the cockroach
This 1st picture is when 1st bought, 2nd pic is when its ready for me to eat:p
Look geli?? but its how I eat tau fu fah^.^Next is something I will buy everytime I go pasar malam ~chao tau fu~ a.k.a "smelly tau fu", which its name implies, its smelly, but not reach super stage yet...so~ so so lor~ just for me to remember that taste I have had in Shanghai 5 years ago~
Lastly, is a weird upside down KFC cup~ What's inside??
Notice that there is cellophane tape on the bottom of the cup?Its a temporary "cage" I use to catch cockroach that flew into my room. How long will temporary be?? Until I think the cockroach die inside the cup d ^.^ and the cellophane~ is to prevent the cockroach to crawl out.
U must be wondering y I wan it to die naturally and not to tekan it till die...coz~ I think its geli, having all the "juice" come out of the cockroach
God loves me
There are lots of ppl that have thoughts that their life is miserable and that y they are born to this world~ I thought of that once....but most of the time, I am happy with wat I have, becoz I have lots that ppl might not have^.^
God really love me...giving me all the best thing, even for time planning and time flow, god lead me to the best route out of thousands of route of life.
These words come out from my mouth is like not convincing, coz I don't really have a specific religion, but I believe that there exist god.
I don't really pray to god, but god is in my heart...kind of contradicting myself~ but its wat I have in mind.
I really love wat I have~ but to compare sometimes is to make wat I have move to a better placement ^.^
Sound silly rite?
Nvm~ I don't expect any1 to read this blog and not see me as from sun or moon~ Its just that I am now superly happy on something~ and that, I can't and don have any1 to talk to, so~ the only thing I can do is to write a blog, stating how happy I am^.^
Cheers!! --> Time to celebrate, even for a short period^.^
God really love me...giving me all the best thing, even for time planning and time flow, god lead me to the best route out of thousands of route of life.
These words come out from my mouth is like not convincing, coz I don't really have a specific religion, but I believe that there exist god.
I don't really pray to god, but god is in my heart...kind of contradicting myself~ but its wat I have in mind.
I really love wat I have~ but to compare sometimes is to make wat I have move to a better placement ^.^
Sound silly rite?
Nvm~ I don't expect any1 to read this blog and not see me as from sun or moon~ Its just that I am now superly happy on something~ and that, I can't and don have any1 to talk to, so~ the only thing I can do is to write a blog, stating how happy I am^.^
Cheers!! --> Time to celebrate, even for a short period^.^
August 10, 2007
Time Flies
It's come to the end of 11th week of year 2 sem 2 of my life in university.
Recalled that I just have had learned the names of coursemates when I just started my university life in UTAR....it's like just not long ago, just about only months ago, but here~ we almost come to the end, getting a degree~
Time actually flies and every single seconds is like bitting u, ur heart kept pumping like mad, brain kept firing, and that sometimes I wished I have had 36 hours a day at least.
Coz, things kept flowing in, no time is for relax of brain and body. After finishing one particular thing, and started to get excited bout the relieve felt, something's following behind d~
I am not complaining here~ I actually enjoyed the moments of having piles and piles of stuff flowing in, but at the same time, I always force myself, packed everything and do things fast and efficiently, reduce my sleeping time(as u know~ sleep is super important in my life^.^), and of coz, with all those, I have to make myself eat more than normal, getting more energy and be extra careful not to fall sick, coz I really don have time for that.
Jia you Jia you la~
still have 2 months, then I will have a brand new life, coz, I can see that I will learn new stuff then, and have different experience and different thought of life by then...
Just...keep tracking my blog la^.^
I am super excited (which is also named "sexited" by one of my lecturer^.^)
Oyasumi nasai~
Recalled that I just have had learned the names of coursemates when I just started my university life in UTAR....it's like just not long ago, just about only months ago, but here~ we almost come to the end, getting a degree~
Time actually flies and every single seconds is like bitting u, ur heart kept pumping like mad, brain kept firing, and that sometimes I wished I have had 36 hours a day at least.
Coz, things kept flowing in, no time is for relax of brain and body. After finishing one particular thing, and started to get excited bout the relieve felt, something's following behind d~
I am not complaining here~ I actually enjoyed the moments of having piles and piles of stuff flowing in, but at the same time, I always force myself, packed everything and do things fast and efficiently, reduce my sleeping time(as u know~ sleep is super important in my life^.^), and of coz, with all those, I have to make myself eat more than normal, getting more energy and be extra careful not to fall sick, coz I really don have time for that.
Jia you Jia you la~
still have 2 months, then I will have a brand new life, coz, I can see that I will learn new stuff then, and have different experience and different thought of life by then...
Just...keep tracking my blog la^.^
I am super excited (which is also named "sexited" by one of my lecturer^.^)
Oyasumi nasai~
August 7, 2007
focus
I kept losing focus since today afternoon. Just can't fully concentrate on my notes...eyes go blur, mind flew to the past and then back again, making myself the director of my "unforeseen" future...etc...etc
I think this may be due to that I have been focusing too much on studies for too long a period. Or~ that its just "the down period" that I have every now and then? Or~ may be, I am just a lazy person, don want to do things that I should on the time I should? Or~ donno.... just can't get myself concentrate.
Even I have notes in front of me, and that I am staring at it...I doubt that anything goes in....I know wat I am studying, actually..but then...how much that I should know goes in is the point.
Don't Think Liao!!! IDIOT!!!
I think this may be due to that I have been focusing too much on studies for too long a period. Or~ that its just "the down period" that I have every now and then? Or~ may be, I am just a lazy person, don want to do things that I should on the time I should? Or~ donno.... just can't get myself concentrate.
Even I have notes in front of me, and that I am staring at it...I doubt that anything goes in....I know wat I am studying, actually..but then...how much that I should know goes in is the point.
Don't Think Liao!!! IDIOT!!!
August 5, 2007
rational
I am too rational in my life, and this makes my life hard~
how to say I am too rational??
E.g. 1. I am very very down, then want to go eat sushi king as much as I can till I am bloated...but in the end, I came back with only full stomach and the price for the whole meal is just reasonable, only 20-30+
2. When I go emo, I love listening to music which is a bit of the rock of hard side....my dad say they are noise...but I love listen to that when I am emo. Anyway~ when listening to those, u ppl will think that the volume will be almost to the max, for me to release all my tension...but I am too rational~ thinking of that if I do that, I might spoil my eye drum and that is not worth for a short period well-beingness
3. Sometimes, I want to go shopping, shop for all the things I love when I don feel quite nice....but then...again, I am too rational~ I will think of that if wasteful and not worth for me to do so, just to release partial tension in me.
4. At times, I want to push myself to the end of my limit, thinking not to sleep for the whole night to make myself very tired, so that my brain can only focus on one particular thing --> study. But then again~ rational come to take place. Ppl that know me will know~ sleep is very my life~ I can't have "non-sleep" period in my life~ so~ again, I went to sleep in the end =.='''
Those are almost everything I can think of~ that I think its not worth for me to do for a small matter that disturb me for a short period of time.
And that's y, will all those rational in my brain working, there are not many ppl that seen me burst out shouting, crying or suddenly super not me. I will always think of all the consequences, results and if it is worth for me to do it or if that life is just about "it".
There's too much of stuff "planing" and "working" in my brain....wat to do?? I can only keep feelings in me, sob with my pillow wet in the morning, hugging my bolster and feel lonely, coz there's no1 that can help me, and only myself can do that...coz its me that is having all the problem, too rational~
chek ark....y there are so many blog all in 1 night??
k~ I am super EMO~ suddenly feel happy, having a great night, then thinking about how wonderful tomolo is, then suddenly dropped into the deep valley....
I AM INSANE!!!!
BEWARE!!!
how to say I am too rational??
E.g. 1. I am very very down, then want to go eat sushi king as much as I can till I am bloated...but in the end, I came back with only full stomach and the price for the whole meal is just reasonable, only 20-30+
2. When I go emo, I love listening to music which is a bit of the rock of hard side....my dad say they are noise...but I love listen to that when I am emo. Anyway~ when listening to those, u ppl will think that the volume will be almost to the max, for me to release all my tension...but I am too rational~ thinking of that if I do that, I might spoil my eye drum and that is not worth for a short period well-beingness
3. Sometimes, I want to go shopping, shop for all the things I love when I don feel quite nice....but then...again, I am too rational~ I will think of that if wasteful and not worth for me to do so, just to release partial tension in me.
4. At times, I want to push myself to the end of my limit, thinking not to sleep for the whole night to make myself very tired, so that my brain can only focus on one particular thing --> study. But then again~ rational come to take place. Ppl that know me will know~ sleep is very my life~ I can't have "non-sleep" period in my life~ so~ again, I went to sleep in the end =.='''
Those are almost everything I can think of~ that I think its not worth for me to do for a small matter that disturb me for a short period of time.
And that's y, will all those rational in my brain working, there are not many ppl that seen me burst out shouting, crying or suddenly super not me. I will always think of all the consequences, results and if it is worth for me to do it or if that life is just about "it".
There's too much of stuff "planing" and "working" in my brain....wat to do?? I can only keep feelings in me, sob with my pillow wet in the morning, hugging my bolster and feel lonely, coz there's no1 that can help me, and only myself can do that...coz its me that is having all the problem, too rational~
chek ark....y there are so many blog all in 1 night??
k~ I am super EMO~ suddenly feel happy, having a great night, then thinking about how wonderful tomolo is, then suddenly dropped into the deep valley....
I AM INSANE!!!!
BEWARE!!!
Opps! I did it again~ =.='''
u know~ no 1 can make ur life miserable, unless ur own self~
Everytime, when I get great stuffs, I will suddenly get something awkward of something that makes me feel stupid and miserable~
Maybe that's the circle of life, turning round and round, not always giving u the best stuff~ coz if that is so, u might view it as normal and not to take note of the presence of those great things in life.
There's a saying: 低潮的出现，是为了显示高潮。如果一出戏，完完全全是高潮，那，就没什么好期待的了。人生如戏，戏如人生啊～
Hungry d~ go eat 1st.....think so much do wat??
eat par par, then oin oin....then~ tomolo will be another new beginning....coz everyday is a super wonderful beginning of life ^.^
Makan makan!!! hungry till hands start shaking d :p
k~ finish makan~ continue~
there's something very important in life. If u can't change something, the only thing that gone wrong should be u~ coz there's no so many things that can go wrong. The only thing that might be wrong is u~ so....wat to do?? change urself....a little change in thinking will change the world (its wat in LeeHom's new song). k~ its a bit over to say that it will change the world, but the main idea is changing ur view of the world...Everything will be fixed to the right point if u change wat u think.
Aih...still hungry...don want to type liao....makan makan some more~
Everytime, when I get great stuffs, I will suddenly get something awkward of something that makes me feel stupid and miserable~
Maybe that's the circle of life, turning round and round, not always giving u the best stuff~ coz if that is so, u might view it as normal and not to take note of the presence of those great things in life.
There's a saying: 低潮的出现，是为了显示高潮。如果一出戏，完完全全是高潮，那，就没什么好期待的了。人生如戏，戏如人生啊～
Hungry d~ go eat 1st.....think so much do wat??
eat par par, then oin oin....then~ tomolo will be another new beginning....coz everyday is a super wonderful beginning of life ^.^
Makan makan!!! hungry till hands start shaking d :p
k~ finish makan~ continue~
there's something very important in life. If u can't change something, the only thing that gone wrong should be u~ coz there's no so many things that can go wrong. The only thing that might be wrong is u~ so....wat to do?? change urself....a little change in thinking will change the world (its wat in LeeHom's new song). k~ its a bit over to say that it will change the world, but the main idea is changing ur view of the world...Everything will be fixed to the right point if u change wat u think.
Aih...still hungry...don want to type liao....makan makan some more~
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