Women or I should say~ females, are super conflict by herself. When shopping, she will be looking around, picking clothes~ when a clothes struck her eyes, she try it on, and then consider, then walk off by thinking that the clothes will still be in the shop~ However, when seeing others wearing the same clothes on the street, and she looks gorgeous in it, she feels slapping her face and broke down screaming: why~~why~~why I didn't buy that clothes that day!!!
Well, a bit exaggerate, but that's the feeling females have~ Its just the degree to which u can keep it undetected in ur heart, or u scream it out and release urself from the emo thingy.
Ok, I am now in the situation of window shopping and walking on the road, then scream in my heart for not buying that clothes....after that, I will be finding all excuses for myself, like~that clothes might not fit me, or its too expensive, or I just don't need it at all~
Watever, females~ creating emo for herself, having drama of her own, conflict within herself. Such an idiotic thing to do~ wat to do?? we'll just have to wait and see =.='''
June 18, 2008
June 17, 2008
缘分
该来的还是会来~该是你的跑不掉~缘分这东西真是太太太太太太。。。。太惊人了！！！
两个完全不同世界的人，兜了个大圈，错过了彼此的存在，到后来，当缘分到了，竟然会看上对方~~两只老虎真奇怪，两只恋人真奇怪~~
对啦~羡慕你们啦~ 对啦，对啦，你啦~ 就是你们啦~~
缘分啊~快点绛临在我身上吧~~
还是祝福你们~你们那些幸福到不行，甜蜜到惹蚂蚁的你们~ 加油! 希望你们会白头到老^.^
两个完全不同世界的人，兜了个大圈，错过了彼此的存在，到后来，当缘分到了，竟然会看上对方~~两只老虎真奇怪，两只恋人真奇怪~~
对啦~羡慕你们啦~ 对啦，对啦，你啦~ 就是你们啦~~
缘分啊~快点绛临在我身上吧~~
还是祝福你们~你们那些幸福到不行，甜蜜到惹蚂蚁的你们~ 加油! 希望你们会白头到老^.^
June 15, 2008
Proud of my MOM!!
Yesterday, heard my dad say that mom actually wake up at 5.30am in the morning these days just to do exercise together with my dad~ such a touching thing to get to know that~
She actually sacrifices her sleeping time to actually make an effort to make her life style better~ I mean~ in a way~ its almost the time in her life that she have to actually make some effort to boast her health, since her everyday life is with her work in her office, then with tv at home~ and weekends will be sitting at home or do some simple household task~ and they super not enough to get her body some workouts.
Another thing that I am proud of her is~ she knows how to prepare herself to move into another stage of her life~ for example, she was super internet and computer dumb dumb in the past, even end of last year, she was still dumb dumb with internet stuff~ but now....walao~ her comfort with internet and her patience with the net is even greater than me, e.g., I was looking for a name of a fish on the net, and after 2 hours, I gave up with the stupid thing, but she was working on the fish thing until even I slept already, she was still searching that for me~ in the end, she found the name of the fish for me using search engine the whole nite *SALUTE* to my special mom.
Her effort in learning and taking things up at this age of her is super make me proud of her~ Some ppl at younger than her don't even want to learn how to use a handphone, and say that technology stuff is not for the "old" ppl like them~ they don even have the initiative to learn and live their life to the max.
How touching~~moved by the effort, initiative and the energy of both my parent, especially my mom who changed a lot this few years for herself and for us, the family~
Happy Fathers Day!!! --> To make dad happy, is to give the praise to mom~ To make mom happy, is to give the praise to dad~ To make both me and my big bro happy is to have both our parents happy^.^We are so attached to the family^.^
Peace!! The cutest family on earth^.^
She actually sacrifices her sleeping time to actually make an effort to make her life style better~ I mean~ in a way~ its almost the time in her life that she have to actually make some effort to boast her health, since her everyday life is with her work in her office, then with tv at home~ and weekends will be sitting at home or do some simple household task~ and they super not enough to get her body some workouts.
Another thing that I am proud of her is~ she knows how to prepare herself to move into another stage of her life~ for example, she was super internet and computer dumb dumb in the past, even end of last year, she was still dumb dumb with internet stuff~ but now....walao~ her comfort with internet and her patience with the net is even greater than me, e.g., I was looking for a name of a fish on the net, and after 2 hours, I gave up with the stupid thing, but she was working on the fish thing until even I slept already, she was still searching that for me~ in the end, she found the name of the fish for me using search engine the whole nite *SALUTE* to my special mom.
Her effort in learning and taking things up at this age of her is super make me proud of her~ Some ppl at younger than her don't even want to learn how to use a handphone, and say that technology stuff is not for the "old" ppl like them~ they don even have the initiative to learn and live their life to the max.
How touching~~moved by the effort, initiative and the energy of both my parent, especially my mom who changed a lot this few years for herself and for us, the family~
Happy Fathers Day!!! --> To make dad happy, is to give the praise to mom~ To make mom happy, is to give the praise to dad~ To make both me and my big bro happy is to have both our parents happy^.^We are so attached to the family^.^
Peace!! The cutest family on earth^.^
June 12, 2008
啊！！！~~~
哎~终于~最后一个学期了....但, 朋友都已开始各自做各自的事, 在一起上课的时间, 在一起吃东西, 一起哈拉的时间也少了~ 还真有点怀念那个又忙, 又乱, 不知所措, 忙得连睡觉的时间很少, 而且, 睡觉 刷牙 洗脸 冲凉 吃饭 的时间脑子里面的都是procedure, protocol, error, improvement.....但, 就是还蛮快乐的~
也对啦~ 都已最后一个学期了, 大家都快累坏了, 大家的脑子里有的, 不只是有得偷懒就偷懒, 有得休息就休息~ 还有~在悠闲的当儿, 烦恼着那个在眼前不远处的那交叉路口~
又是喜~ 又是忧~
嗯~ 其实我在"啊" 啥呢?
就是....就是..... 我要是再不跟人说话, 哈拉~我就快要疯了!!!!!
p/s: 看谁会是那个给我抓到的倒霉鬼~ 你耳朵一定会给我的一连串废话弄烂!!!哈哈哈哈哈!!!!!
也对啦~ 都已最后一个学期了, 大家都快累坏了, 大家的脑子里有的, 不只是有得偷懒就偷懒, 有得休息就休息~ 还有~在悠闲的当儿, 烦恼着那个在眼前不远处的那交叉路口~
又是喜~ 又是忧~
嗯~ 其实我在"啊" 啥呢?
就是....就是..... 我要是再不跟人说话, 哈拉~我就快要疯了!!!!!
p/s: 看谁会是那个给我抓到的倒霉鬼~ 你耳朵一定会给我的一连串废话弄烂!!!哈哈哈哈哈!!!!!
June 10, 2008
Racist
I really cannot understand y most ppl want to draw a line between u and me, between Malays and Chinese, between, Malays and Indians, between Chinese and Indians, between Malaysians and Non-Malaysians, between rich and poor, between.....
There is no difference between every humans living in this world actually~We are all the same!
In Buddha's teachings, Buddha say that everything in this world are just illusions(色既是空)~ even humans, are illusions.
In the concept of science, in physics, all things in the universe is an illusion~ we are nothing except electron, protons and neutrons, and we seem to exist just because energy level.
Why do one want to differentiate u and me??
I hate hearing ppl say things like: "That M*l** pig", or I hate to hear ppl say that they don like to mix around with ppl that have different culture with them.
Its kind of like....wat have they done wrong? they are the same with us, living on this world as humans.
Why care is ppl gets better status and get better rewards than us? Just live life as u like~ it doesn't really concerns u~ or maybe it can be a motivation for u to strive in ur life, but wat they get just doesn't really bothers u~ becoz, when u haven't get something, u live life like tomolo is another day to work and to live for~ and if u got better status or reward, u still have to live life the same way, rite?
Its all illusion~ one don't have to differentiate u and me~ one don have to be super "cannot stand" and being jealous on wat ppl get and we didn't~
Wat goes around, comes around~
Have a heart and a mind that is circle~ If u are living in a square, ur life will always be meeting with walls and corners.
There is no difference between every humans living in this world actually~We are all the same!
In Buddha's teachings, Buddha say that everything in this world are just illusions(色既是空)~ even humans, are illusions.
In the concept of science, in physics, all things in the universe is an illusion~ we are nothing except electron, protons and neutrons, and we seem to exist just because energy level.
Why do one want to differentiate u and me??
I hate hearing ppl say things like: "That M*l** pig", or I hate to hear ppl say that they don like to mix around with ppl that have different culture with them.
Its kind of like....wat have they done wrong? they are the same with us, living on this world as humans.
Why care is ppl gets better status and get better rewards than us? Just live life as u like~ it doesn't really concerns u~ or maybe it can be a motivation for u to strive in ur life, but wat they get just doesn't really bothers u~ becoz, when u haven't get something, u live life like tomolo is another day to work and to live for~ and if u got better status or reward, u still have to live life the same way, rite?
Its all illusion~ one don't have to differentiate u and me~ one don have to be super "cannot stand" and being jealous on wat ppl get and we didn't~
Wat goes around, comes around~
Have a heart and a mind that is circle~ If u are living in a square, ur life will always be meeting with walls and corners.
June 8, 2008
I don't care
I am neutral about anything not concerning me~ its "watever" in wat u tell me about u and wat makes u feel down~ I don't care!
OK~ this only applies to those ppl that always say things that are negative and I am really bored with them and their super emo, trying to get attention of ppl around them...watever~
It sometimes really get me into frustration about what they expect me to say/reply them.
As I said to my mom, its ur own life, there is nothing that u have to ask ppl's opinion bout wat u have to choose~ u might need to ask ppl's opinion bout the advantages and disadvantages on the options, but to choose, there is no 1 that can help u. (p/s: I didn't mean i don't care bout mom/ ppl in my family here~ its just an example/quotation)
Don't ever ask me stupid questions or tell me negative things that might make me feel bad/frustrated/get emo~ don ever~ever ask again!!
OK~ this only applies to those ppl that always say things that are negative and I am really bored with them and their super emo, trying to get attention of ppl around them...watever~
It sometimes really get me into frustration about what they expect me to say/reply them.
As I said to my mom, its ur own life, there is nothing that u have to ask ppl's opinion bout wat u have to choose~ u might need to ask ppl's opinion bout the advantages and disadvantages on the options, but to choose, there is no 1 that can help u. (p/s: I didn't mean i don't care bout mom/ ppl in my family here~ its just an example/quotation)
Don't ever ask me stupid questions or tell me negative things that might make me feel bad/frustrated/get emo~ don ever~ever ask again!!
June 5, 2008
In the name of Science
On Tuesday, I attend my 1st virology class~ my fren attended the 1st week's introductory lab, so, he told me that I will love this week 2 virology lab a lot, but I was not convinced, becoz all I have in mind about virology lab is how to culture viruses and the ways to do vaccines and stuff~ However~ to my amazement and excitement, the lab is about cutting chicken embryo out of the egg~Well~ its not that I am cruel or don't have sympathy on those little creature, and one of my coursemate even say that the chicken will feel pain when we cut its head off on the 1st cut, then the legs and the wings, but, its science, and the world of science to me is to see things with my own eyes things in this world and how great mother nature's creation is.
I never knew that the chicken embryo have the exact appearance of the adult chicken~ the wings are tiny, the limbs and the butt, all resembles the adult size of it~ u really cannot imagine the whole resemblance of a chicken exactly in a small egg~ I can't imagine that also when the lecturer do the demo, until I have my hands on the embryo myself~
Ok~the main point of getting the embryo into pieces is not for me to say "wow", but its all about learning cell culture preparation and observe the cells and stuff....I still can't get the main idea and full picture of the main objective yet :p
Poor little thing~ sacrifices for the sake of my knowledge and in the name of science~
"May u reborn and become the child of the rich!"
June 3, 2008
Money
These days, I know I spent a lot~and all that I spent is not my money that I earn with my own hands =.=''' regret.....but I have "bad" eyes, want all the things I don't really need, but I crave for them =.=''' So, here's where control, thought and analysis bout money come into play.
Money is very important~ This, I totally agree...It is a need to live happily ever after~ but, there's an extend/limit for urself, where it states where u, urself thinks it's the point of contentment for urself.
Balance is the word~ Control is another~
Money is very important~ This, I totally agree...It is a need to live happily ever after~ but, there's an extend/limit for urself, where it states where u, urself thinks it's the point of contentment for urself.
Balance is the word~ Control is another~
Aging
When we were once a baby, we don't know how to control ourselves, getting ourselves wet/smelling, when we are hungry, we only know how to cry~but our parents, mom, dad, grandma,or the ppl we were sent to for care, will nv have any complains to take good care of us and meet every of our needs~
When we were kids, we are learning to build up our brain~ hence, we always do things that are wrong, getting parents and elderly ppl angry on everything we do, but we don't know how to analyse wat we done wrong, so, we get mad at them, making them even dissapointed and feel that their care for us and all they have done for us are just nonsense and are not appreciated. However, they still, after a while, forgive us and our doings, and continue to give the best for us~
On the other hand, when our parents get old, we have all the things to be done, giving all excuses not to take care of our parents, complain even to the slightest thing they ask us to do~
How can we??
That's how our society taught us.....or our parents did not teach us how to pay them back?? Cause, they always gave the best to us, and did not say that they want any repay???
Well~ we just have to learn things our way....and tell our parents how we wan things to be/how we wan them to be....I mean~ to teach them how to be healthy or to take better care of themselves from our knowledge...BUT, it is a 2 way communication, means, our parents too have to learn how to accept new knowledge and thought^.^
When we were kids, we are learning to build up our brain~ hence, we always do things that are wrong, getting parents and elderly ppl angry on everything we do, but we don't know how to analyse wat we done wrong, so, we get mad at them, making them even dissapointed and feel that their care for us and all they have done for us are just nonsense and are not appreciated. However, they still, after a while, forgive us and our doings, and continue to give the best for us~
On the other hand, when our parents get old, we have all the things to be done, giving all excuses not to take care of our parents, complain even to the slightest thing they ask us to do~
How can we??
That's how our society taught us.....or our parents did not teach us how to pay them back?? Cause, they always gave the best to us, and did not say that they want any repay???
Well~ we just have to learn things our way....and tell our parents how we wan things to be/how we wan them to be....I mean~ to teach them how to be healthy or to take better care of themselves from our knowledge...BUT, it is a 2 way communication, means, our parents too have to learn how to accept new knowledge and thought^.^
May 31, 2008
Family gathering
Wat an interesting day~
Went for "window" shopping in 1U today with my aunties and cousin, help my cousin to move her things into her new apartment (which I don't really know if I did much that helps =.=''') and then have dinner with a dish I never ate b4 called 擂茶（Lei Cha), its a Hakka dish, which consist of herbs, rice and herbal tea~ kind of like nasi ulam, but a Chinese version of it.
Erm.....got a lot of things that I thought of, considering things that I've learn and saw today, but my mind goes blank for now....donno y =.='''
Oh ya~ got a ride in a BMW today~ the house owner of my cousins' is kind of super rich, have houses here and there, and the bed and the wardrobe is totally brand new, even the fridge is the latest model of Panasonic, Plus~ the fan is with remote control, the lightings looks like from Ikea, even the rug is from Ikea(but terpaksa shred into threads becoz it stupidly stuck between the main door and the whole door is jam~a shock of the century!!*.* Long story =.='''). The lesson learned:
1, The owner of the house, even he's rich, he do things in the calculated way~ I mean, its like, if the thing is simple, as in changing the door knob, he'll do it himself. He's like doesn't seem to be very proud, nose pointing to the air, but a very friendly, very easy going, down to earth kind of person....my salutation to u, Mr. Azmawi(if I didn't get u wrong :p)~ SALUTE!!
2, I know how the door knob works d~ I actually unscrew the whole thing, and I know how the knob works mechanically when u pressed on the "watever u call it" =.='''
3, Prove my stand, everything that happen have its cause/reason. E.g.: when my cousin says: Luckily I packed that box with the scissors and screw driver last, that I remember which box I put them in...and they are put into use, or I should say, put into "action" ^.^
Addtional point: Every problem have its solution, either 1 or many, its only depends on how calm and fast ur brain is when something happens.
Erm....nothing to lose, lots to gain in a day doing "kaypo" things, and "lao juak" with family members in KL~
P/s: For photos and caption, click on the link to "my photo album"~
Went for "window" shopping in 1U today with my aunties and cousin, help my cousin to move her things into her new apartment (which I don't really know if I did much that helps =.=''') and then have dinner with a dish I never ate b4 called 擂茶（Lei Cha), its a Hakka dish, which consist of herbs, rice and herbal tea~ kind of like nasi ulam, but a Chinese version of it.
Erm.....got a lot of things that I thought of, considering things that I've learn and saw today, but my mind goes blank for now....donno y =.='''
Oh ya~ got a ride in a BMW today~ the house owner of my cousins' is kind of super rich, have houses here and there, and the bed and the wardrobe is totally brand new, even the fridge is the latest model of Panasonic, Plus~ the fan is with remote control, the lightings looks like from Ikea, even the rug is from Ikea(but terpaksa shred into threads becoz it stupidly stuck between the main door and the whole door is jam~a shock of the century!!*.* Long story =.='''). The lesson learned:
1, The owner of the house, even he's rich, he do things in the calculated way~ I mean, its like, if the thing is simple, as in changing the door knob, he'll do it himself. He's like doesn't seem to be very proud, nose pointing to the air, but a very friendly, very easy going, down to earth kind of person....my salutation to u, Mr. Azmawi(if I didn't get u wrong :p)~ SALUTE!!
2, I know how the door knob works d~ I actually unscrew the whole thing, and I know how the knob works mechanically when u pressed on the "watever u call it" =.='''
3, Prove my stand, everything that happen have its cause/reason. E.g.: when my cousin says: Luckily I packed that box with the scissors and screw driver last, that I remember which box I put them in...and they are put into use, or I should say, put into "action" ^.^
Addtional point: Every problem have its solution, either 1 or many, its only depends on how calm and fast ur brain is when something happens.
Erm....nothing to lose, lots to gain in a day doing "kaypo" things, and "lao juak" with family members in KL~
P/s: For photos and caption, click on the link to "my photo album"~
May 29, 2008
Things that happen
Things don just happen like that~ I believe that every singly thing that happen have their reason and statement behind it. No matter things that happen with its good or bad according to wat u have in mind, there’s just something for u to learn from, and that’s one of the reason I happen.
Change is very important. Among all changes, change in mindset is the most important. To change how u see things that happen, not only on ur own point of view, but to stand out of ur thought circle and look at the bigger picture, think from every aspect, from every ppl point of view~
Evaluate urself, think and assess things in a circular way~ don always frown on things that happen, being emo or moody won’t change things that might happen again/in routine basis, to change the way u do things and how u think on the particular subject is the only thing u can uphold and control with ur own hands.
There are only 3 days in our life. Yesterday is a lesson, Today is wat u have in ur hands and take control, Tomorrow is the result of wat u have done today.
May 26, 2008
Luxury
Luxury to a lot of ppl is equivalent to Mercedes, BMW, Bungalow/mansion, gold, diamond and sort of stuff~
Luxury to me, its all about having simple things I wan, do things I want to do and be free to be myself whenever I want.
Having simple things I wan is like....a hotplate for me because I love to cook things I want to eat; To do things I want to do, is like....going for biomedical science, even my mom say that biotech is better off, or that a lot of ppl say that biomedic have no future and cannot earn money; To be free to be myself, is like....going shopping in shorts and slippers when I wanted to and dress up like going to a ball whenever I have to mood to do so (which is to be fluctuating from extreme to extreme as how I want to be :p).
Time, is another luxury a lot of ppl always dream to have, but as I have in mind, time is a factor that ppl made up for what they love doing more, e.g. going to a movie, rather than to visit his/her parents in old folks home on weekends. Or, to sit in front of the tv rather than to do something more productive (this is wat I always been doing, being pulled by the devil =.=''').
Things are simple~ luxury is also simple~ BUT, to have all these~ the main factor that contribute to all those simple things is MONEY. However, this "money" thing is widely depends on how much will satisfy all ur needs~ I know, all humans have greed in their mind, but, if u think simple, think back to the most basic and ur 1st intention of doing and getting all those u intend to get, u are already satisfied with wat u have now.....erm...how should I put it~~Its like...just make urself in ur comfort zone, not to care about how whoever see u or think about u...erm...something like that....
Luxury to me, its all about having simple things I wan, do things I want to do and be free to be myself whenever I want.
Having simple things I wan is like....a hotplate for me because I love to cook things I want to eat; To do things I want to do, is like....going for biomedical science, even my mom say that biotech is better off, or that a lot of ppl say that biomedic have no future and cannot earn money; To be free to be myself, is like....going shopping in shorts and slippers when I wanted to and dress up like going to a ball whenever I have to mood to do so (which is to be fluctuating from extreme to extreme as how I want to be :p).
Time, is another luxury a lot of ppl always dream to have, but as I have in mind, time is a factor that ppl made up for what they love doing more, e.g. going to a movie, rather than to visit his/her parents in old folks home on weekends. Or, to sit in front of the tv rather than to do something more productive (this is wat I always been doing, being pulled by the devil =.=''').
Things are simple~ luxury is also simple~ BUT, to have all these~ the main factor that contribute to all those simple things is MONEY. However, this "money" thing is widely depends on how much will satisfy all ur needs~ I know, all humans have greed in their mind, but, if u think simple, think back to the most basic and ur 1st intention of doing and getting all those u intend to get, u are already satisfied with wat u have now.....erm...how should I put it~~Its like...just make urself in ur comfort zone, not to care about how whoever see u or think about u...erm...something like that....
May 23, 2008
wants
Suddenly, it seems that I know and found wat I wan already~ I mean~ I got my own target of life already~ but then~ it also is like...when ppl ask me how my future will be like, or wat I want to be in future, I will be lost in words.
Y? donno lor~ maybe, wat I wan is too general and have too many roads to choose from~ I mean, I am that kind that holds the thoughts of:“既来之，则安之”。^.^
The point here is this~ we are suppose to accept wat comes to us and bring them to their best. So, we have to be prepared for everything that might come to us~
That, is wat I believe in~ which is "destiny", BUT, at the same time, we have to behold our own future~ quite contradicting rite? that's how life is like, always "fighting" with ourselves, or maybe its only me:p
Another thing~ I am now still very:今朝有酒，今朝醉~ I wonder~ how long does this kind of thoughts can stay with me?? I hope its forever, coz~ it just makes me feel good and comfortable with life:D
Y? donno lor~ maybe, wat I wan is too general and have too many roads to choose from~ I mean, I am that kind that holds the thoughts of:“既来之，则安之”。^.^
The point here is this~ we are suppose to accept wat comes to us and bring them to their best. So, we have to be prepared for everything that might come to us~
That, is wat I believe in~ which is "destiny", BUT, at the same time, we have to behold our own future~ quite contradicting rite? that's how life is like, always "fighting" with ourselves, or maybe its only me:p
Another thing~ I am now still very:今朝有酒，今朝醉~ I wonder~ how long does this kind of thoughts can stay with me?? I hope its forever, coz~ it just makes me feel good and comfortable with life:D
May 14, 2008
电脑/电子人
啥米？对！就是我国特产~~锵锵~~电子人！！
所谓的电脑/电子，就是没有感情，没有个自独特的思考能力，没有怨言，没有频率，只有那一字不减照着课本书本的那一字一句规划的栏图生活，做事。。。
我觉得成长，培养，生活，教育都在我的国家，我最应引以为傲的马来西亚（但不知道骄傲些什么）~总觉得，我，包括娜和我一样的“新一代”人民，子弟，都像是从工厂用同一个印做出来的“行动”电脑~
我觉得，这情况的发生，原因有几个：
1，教育制度- 我们从小培养出来的思想就是要考第一，考到第一就是好学生，世界就像在你脚下。 那些课外的，就好比打羽毛球，打乒乓，唱歌，弹琴，画画。。。都是属于多学的，要放弃也无妨，就当作消遣，娱乐，简称“玩”。考试，在我们这制度，算很简单，因为都有范围，有一定的政策，只读某指定课本，或只猛K教课讲义，包你不会“肥佬”，简称“死读书”，因为不用分析，不用了解，不用深入，就只靠记得，就OK~
2，家庭教育-父母都把课业看得很重，就比如：如果小孩靠得很差，或不到理想，就打，就骂~嗯，请问你又问过你的孩子为什么吗？在比例：我有一个小表妹，她才一年级，但就算他的一个笔画写歪了一点，她的母亲就用橡皮擦擦掉整页要她重写~嗯，何苦？？
3，社会- 在我们这国，我们对事情的看法往往是大众口味的才是对的，好的；那些独特的，较另类的，是令人斜眼，令人吐，令人看不起，令人排斥的~ 为何~为何我们不能用那同样的对待，用那另类的眼光，去欣赏那些独特的一群？
4，政策-我们的国家很独特，嗯~可能很多国家也有吧~不是很清楚:p 因为，我们有独特的法令~而我们这些良好的市民，为保护自己，省掉麻烦~也因为爱国，不要让我们各民族的和睦受威胁，所以，我们学会沉默，习惯沉默，不说，不发表，不表达。。。渐渐的，我们成了没感情，直接接受，不反抗，没怨言~ 我每尊敬每一个人，尊敬到自卑的程度，尊敬到你说一我就说好，从没有二话，只有“背后”话=.='''
嗯~其实，这样的电子人的形成，每个人，甚至我自己，也有责任~
我们需要的是改变~但~很恐惧的是，如果只有我改变，其他人还是一样，那~我就成了那被异样眼光包围的那个~
哎！！就这样~
所以啊~我觉得，是时候出去闯，去和其他国家的人切磋，认识他人，认识自己~自我提升！！加油！！
所谓的电脑/电子，就是没有感情，没有个自独特的思考能力，没有怨言，没有频率，只有那一字不减照着课本书本的那一字一句规划的栏图生活，做事。。。
我觉得成长，培养，生活，教育都在我的国家，我最应引以为傲的马来西亚（但不知道骄傲些什么）~总觉得，我，包括娜和我一样的“新一代”人民，子弟，都像是从工厂用同一个印做出来的“行动”电脑~
我觉得，这情况的发生，原因有几个：
1，教育制度- 我们从小培养出来的思想就是要考第一，考到第一就是好学生，世界就像在你脚下。 那些课外的，就好比打羽毛球，打乒乓，唱歌，弹琴，画画。。。都是属于多学的，要放弃也无妨，就当作消遣，娱乐，简称“玩”。考试，在我们这制度，算很简单，因为都有范围，有一定的政策，只读某指定课本，或只猛K教课讲义，包你不会“肥佬”，简称“死读书”，因为不用分析，不用了解，不用深入，就只靠记得，就OK~
2，家庭教育-父母都把课业看得很重，就比如：如果小孩靠得很差，或不到理想，就打，就骂~嗯，请问你又问过你的孩子为什么吗？在比例：我有一个小表妹，她才一年级，但就算他的一个笔画写歪了一点，她的母亲就用橡皮擦擦掉整页要她重写~嗯，何苦？？
3，社会- 在我们这国，我们对事情的看法往往是大众口味的才是对的，好的；那些独特的，较另类的，是令人斜眼，令人吐，令人看不起，令人排斥的~ 为何~为何我们不能用那同样的对待，用那另类的眼光，去欣赏那些独特的一群？
4，政策-我们的国家很独特，嗯~可能很多国家也有吧~不是很清楚:p 因为，我们有独特的法令~而我们这些良好的市民，为保护自己，省掉麻烦~也因为爱国，不要让我们各民族的和睦受威胁，所以，我们学会沉默，习惯沉默，不说，不发表，不表达。。。渐渐的，我们成了没感情，直接接受，不反抗，没怨言~ 我每尊敬每一个人，尊敬到自卑的程度，尊敬到你说一我就说好，从没有二话，只有“背后”话=.='''
嗯~其实，这样的电子人的形成，每个人，甚至我自己，也有责任~
我们需要的是改变~但~很恐惧的是，如果只有我改变，其他人还是一样，那~我就成了那被异样眼光包围的那个~
哎！！就这样~
所以啊~我觉得，是时候出去闯，去和其他国家的人切磋，认识他人，认识自己~自我提升！！加油！！
May 11, 2008
Sex border
Its strange that I, as a "normal" person, having a normal point of view about sex (as in males and females), erm...a quite conservative one, which can accept "modernised" thoughts and view points in the very extreme~
I always have the idea that y the world and those ppl out there can't just brush off the borders of sex, that they just accept each other and put both sex on the equal level~
Today, as I went into a world that is without sex borders, where males and females are on equal baseline, there is no such "conservative" thoughts, that males and females are just be put together, known as "humans" in overall and nothing else as sex other than "humans".
Its cool actually~ bringing myself into the balanced world, exposed myself to different kind of world which actually made me think that "normal" ppl are so damn stupid, holding onto the "conservative" thoughts, can't even bring their heart out under the sun.
Well~ everything have its start off point~ u just have to change how u see this world~
As I always say~ y do ppl have to actually draw all lines btw me and u? mine and urs? Its a world without borders that the era of internet comes into play^.^
I always have the idea that y the world and those ppl out there can't just brush off the borders of sex, that they just accept each other and put both sex on the equal level~
Today, as I went into a world that is without sex borders, where males and females are on equal baseline, there is no such "conservative" thoughts, that males and females are just be put together, known as "humans" in overall and nothing else as sex other than "humans".
Its cool actually~ bringing myself into the balanced world, exposed myself to different kind of world which actually made me think that "normal" ppl are so damn stupid, holding onto the "conservative" thoughts, can't even bring their heart out under the sun.
Well~ everything have its start off point~ u just have to change how u see this world~
As I always say~ y do ppl have to actually draw all lines btw me and u? mine and urs? Its a world without borders that the era of internet comes into play^.^
May 9, 2008
第一次
第一次~往往都会烙印在心理的最深处，虽然不怎么特别区记得它，但是，要忘也忘不掉~
还记得，
那第一次踏进幼稚园的门口，是我父母（忘记是哪个）带我去参观学校，跟我们讲解学校课程的是我的班由主任~
第一次在幼稚园交朋友，是个印度男生，Jaya~
第一次学会写S，实用化钠是最流行的爆炸发型~ 第一次吃花粉，是在幼稚园的大门等校车时~
我小时候，走路都会小心翼翼的，未跌倒到流血， 第一次的大跌实在姑婆家外的大马路~
第一天进入小学的班, 很高兴，因为被派到和我表妹上同样的班~
第一天人是我最要好的朋友，是当我们一起巡楼时~
第一天上Form6 的情景，还像是昨天刚发生的事情~
第一天离家，要去大学上课，很舍不得父母，但还是要装作一副无所谓，我很好的样子~
第一次~~第一次~~
很多很多的第一次。。。很多很多的回忆~
可见~我虽然看起来很年轻，但，人生这条路我已经做过了1/3~
加油吧！！让我创造根多更多得第一次~
还记得，
那第一次踏进幼稚园的门口，是我父母（忘记是哪个）带我去参观学校，跟我们讲解学校课程的是我的班由主任~
第一次在幼稚园交朋友，是个印度男生，Jaya~
第一次学会写S，实用化钠是最流行的爆炸发型~ 第一次吃花粉，是在幼稚园的大门等校车时~
我小时候，走路都会小心翼翼的，未跌倒到流血， 第一次的大跌实在姑婆家外的大马路~
第一天进入小学的班, 很高兴，因为被派到和我表妹上同样的班~
第一天人是我最要好的朋友，是当我们一起巡楼时~
第一天上Form6 的情景，还像是昨天刚发生的事情~
第一天离家，要去大学上课，很舍不得父母，但还是要装作一副无所谓，我很好的样子~
第一次~~第一次~~
很多很多的第一次。。。很多很多的回忆~
可见~我虽然看起来很年轻，但，人生这条路我已经做过了1/3~
加油吧！！让我创造根多更多得第一次~
May 8, 2008
自不量力
人~难免会有自不量力的时候~ 然后，兴奋得开始了人生某个阶段的幻想，想象事情会顺顺利利的迈向成功，但~到最后，如果经不起一次次的考验与失败，放弃是唯一一条路。
然而~皇天不负有心人，经过一次次的失败，从新开始，在失败，再从来后~终于~~终于~~我可以进入另一个步骤！哈哈哈哈哈！！
嗯~希望是如此啦~因，这是另一个妄想的开始~ 加油！！
希望一切顺顺利利完成~顺顺利利进入另一关！！
然而~皇天不负有心人，经过一次次的失败，从新开始，在失败，再从来后~终于~~终于~~我可以进入另一个步骤！哈哈哈哈哈！！
嗯~希望是如此啦~因，这是另一个妄想的开始~ 加油！！
希望一切顺顺利利完成~顺顺利利进入另一关！！
May 7, 2008
Sem Break
What kind of holiday is this?
Having to go Uni everyday~plus, wake up every morning at like 6+~I rather have exam or live in exam week~ but, ok la~ no stress apply now, just have to do everything that I suppose to do for my project, running like mad in the lab whole morning, doing like 2 or 3 things at a time....
Overall, life like that is still acceptable, just that I can't just lie on the bed, read some leisure, watch drama, lepak~
At least, everyday is productive and the most important thing is: I am almost on the way to get results....wahahahaha!!!! I can see something, but donno if its pure enough or not =.='''
Keep it up la~
p/s: almost becoming drama addict~ where drama is a need....haha~~~
Having to go Uni everyday~plus, wake up every morning at like 6+~I rather have exam or live in exam week~ but, ok la~ no stress apply now, just have to do everything that I suppose to do for my project, running like mad in the lab whole morning, doing like 2 or 3 things at a time....
Overall, life like that is still acceptable, just that I can't just lie on the bed, read some leisure, watch drama, lepak~
At least, everyday is productive and the most important thing is: I am almost on the way to get results....wahahahaha!!!! I can see something, but donno if its pure enough or not =.='''
Keep it up la~
p/s: almost becoming drama addict~ where drama is a need....haha~~~
May 3, 2008
Genting
今天，终于有人说我为什么那么逍遥自在~他还说希望它也可以像我那样~我还是老话一句：事在人为罢了！Well~ 只是要表达，我的目标之一已在默默地实行中。。。哈哈！！
Went Genting today~ just to relax my mind a bit, get away from my room, my bed, my table and out of KL~ just to free my mind and help me forget my stress a bit before I get into another page of my stuff....
The reward~ erm~ play bout 10 rounds of street basketball machine, learn some casino stuff, reward myself with a few small little things exchanged with the points I earn, have a superb lunch with only RM1.90, shout my stress out a bit with a ride....and spend RM70 for everything including transport~ thanks to the "invisible" support from my cute dad^.^ :p
Oh ya~ went to the Genting visitor galery~erm~ get to know genting a bit from there~plus~ i wrote something on the visitor book: A very good effort in making a place, where happiness can be bought with money^.^~
Here's some pic:
Some Exhibit in the galery (curi -curi take de :p)
May 1, 2008
社交圈
发现~我的社交圈并不大。。。两三只手指就能完全掌握~
当很沉很沉的时候，能打电话哈拉，sms的并不多~可能，因为我的人很难跟他人有很深的信任，而且，我会像很多，怕打扰人家，怕对方会觉得：你又不是我的谁，你的事干我屁事啊？
为什么我的圈圈就那么小？
因为~我喜欢做的事，往往不是一个人就可以搞定，就是多一个人陪我就可以了~比如，看连续剧，看电影，无聊闲逛，看书，观察人群，吃好吃的。。。就算运动也是一人搞定的-跑步，走走。。。
更何况，我除了学校就是房间，打工简直距我于千里之外~ 逛街还有门禁，同学聚会也看性格和不合~交朋友也有规定~(我都了~这些都是为我好，担心我~所以啊~我就从以前到现在，我宁愿在家，遵守每一个条例，因为我不要多事，也不要解释。。。安全，没事，不用解释，也不用听那些有的没有的~)
嗯~其实，也无所谓啦~这么多年，也习惯了~反正温室里的小花也没什么不好当的，世界也还是那么大~
该来的总是会来，该是朋友的永远是个朋友，不然就只能说：我命犯孤星=.=''' 好像没那么严重呼~
是时候进入DIGI的世界~因为~是时候改变^.^
当很沉很沉的时候，能打电话哈拉，sms的并不多~可能，因为我的人很难跟他人有很深的信任，而且，我会像很多，怕打扰人家，怕对方会觉得：你又不是我的谁，你的事干我屁事啊？
为什么我的圈圈就那么小？
因为~我喜欢做的事，往往不是一个人就可以搞定，就是多一个人陪我就可以了~比如，看连续剧，看电影，无聊闲逛，看书，观察人群，吃好吃的。。。就算运动也是一人搞定的-跑步，走走。。。
更何况，我除了学校就是房间，打工简直距我于千里之外~ 逛街还有门禁，同学聚会也看性格和不合~交朋友也有规定~(我都了~这些都是为我好，担心我~所以啊~我就从以前到现在，我宁愿在家，遵守每一个条例，因为我不要多事，也不要解释。。。安全，没事，不用解释，也不用听那些有的没有的~)
嗯~其实，也无所谓啦~这么多年，也习惯了~反正温室里的小花也没什么不好当的，世界也还是那么大~
该来的总是会来，该是朋友的永远是个朋友，不然就只能说：我命犯孤星=.=''' 好像没那么严重呼~
是时候进入DIGI的世界~因为~是时候改变^.^
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