Being a middle person is just not as easy as it sound~ a lot of patience is required~
The 2nd thing a middle person should have is trust on both parties~ To have to constantly make promise to both parties, a strong trust have to be built in the inner self of the middle man~
It's really quite frustrating sometimes, that I have to make promises I myself can't even convince myself that something I promise will sure to happen. The most frustrating and most annoying part is not having to make promises, but, is to be constantly being "reminded" again and again and being asked the same question again and again after I risked my "face", promising u something.
I know~ it's sometimes hard to 100% or even 80% believe in some1, but, the thing about frenship, and teamwork, is to have trust in every1~ no matter wat u personally think about the other party, u still have to have trust in them, as in cooperating as a team, reaching for the same goal.
I have all patience on earth~ but at times, its just very annoying being a middle man, having to please both parties, talking sweet to both sides, trust both sides, while keeping the team intact prevent it to fall apart.
It's really tiring, annoying and frustrating~
Nobody on earth is an island~ if u can trust no one but urself, how on earth are u going live a happy, contented life? I mean~ maybe that's not wat u are trying to achieve in ur whole life, but then~ isn't that sad that u are nv happy bout things, nv have trust, and is always tensed?
Another thing~ if we can do every simple thing on our own, y want to be the commander and king of the world, seeing ppl running around doing something, while u stand there commanding and giving orders?
July 29, 2008
July 20, 2008
Mirror
Humans~ they are nv satisfied in wat they have, and they always see that other ppl around them have better things than them~
As said~ everyone have their own story behind they appearance~ I have my own story behind mine also~ We will see, y ppl around me can live their life so peacefully, like all happiness drop on their head instead on mine? We see, y ppl can have all luxury in life, but mine sucks? We see, y some ppl are just talented, plus, they have the prettiest faces than ours? WHY???
There is a saying by my auntie:"don complain bout the ugly shoe u have, wait till u see ppl without leg" (erm...something like that...I forgot wat she said d :p pai sei)
My qoutation of the day: When humans meet other humans, they will see wat is good in them~ when humans see themselves in the mirror, they only see all those negative self. So~ wat do u do? buy a new mirror!!! Then, start off with the new mirror by seeing all the good sides of urself ^.^
I know~ its very hard to do that~
but~ life is all about a process and a journey of learning that never ends ^.^ peace V
p/s: 本故事纯属虚构， 如有类同，敬请多多包含^.^
As said~ everyone have their own story behind they appearance~ I have my own story behind mine also~ We will see, y ppl around me can live their life so peacefully, like all happiness drop on their head instead on mine? We see, y ppl can have all luxury in life, but mine sucks? We see, y some ppl are just talented, plus, they have the prettiest faces than ours? WHY???
There is a saying by my auntie:"don complain bout the ugly shoe u have, wait till u see ppl without leg" (erm...something like that...I forgot wat she said d :p pai sei)
My qoutation of the day: When humans meet other humans, they will see wat is good in them~ when humans see themselves in the mirror, they only see all those negative self. So~ wat do u do? buy a new mirror!!! Then, start off with the new mirror by seeing all the good sides of urself ^.^
I know~ its very hard to do that~
but~ life is all about a process and a journey of learning that never ends ^.^ peace V
p/s: 本故事纯属虚构， 如有类同，敬请多多包含^.^
July 18, 2008
Imagine
Imagine~
In a cool night, at 27-29 degrees celcius~ with breeze carrying aroma of leaves, trees and flowers~
Imagine yourself having a stroll in a garden, filled with greens of nature~
Imagine, walking in the garden, outlook the beautiful building with lights in the night~
Just.....imagine having a walk in such a beautiful night in the garden^.^
wat a waste, that I can't go out so late at night on my own~ enjoy the beauty of nature~
y is it that night everything become beautiful~ that air became fresh, and a simple thing as a walk in the garden became something so great? coz~ its so hot in the day, that everything under the heat of sun become ugly. :p
Maybe nobody understands my imagination well enough~ coz~ i know, my english sucks...but in summary~ it will be sooooo nice to have all those things, garden, lightings, and a small walk ^.^
In a cool night, at 27-29 degrees celcius~ with breeze carrying aroma of leaves, trees and flowers~
Imagine yourself having a stroll in a garden, filled with greens of nature~
Imagine, walking in the garden, outlook the beautiful building with lights in the night~
Just.....imagine having a walk in such a beautiful night in the garden^.^
wat a waste, that I can't go out so late at night on my own~ enjoy the beauty of nature~
y is it that night everything become beautiful~ that air became fresh, and a simple thing as a walk in the garden became something so great? coz~ its so hot in the day, that everything under the heat of sun become ugly. :p
Maybe nobody understands my imagination well enough~ coz~ i know, my english sucks...but in summary~ it will be sooooo nice to have all those things, garden, lightings, and a small walk ^.^
July 16, 2008
Who's fault?
Here's a very abstract post^.^
These days, or I should say, months, I was very fed up with news, and happenings around~ anything and everything doesn't really bothers me, and it doesn't really concerns me, even though I stay in this particular place at this particular time, wat happens in this area doesn't really involves me~ as long as I can get my things done, and do wat I need to do on time, on place.
Many might be on the same boat with me, blur about wat happened UNTIL, there is these ppl, "protecting our safety" and in the name of "security" come into action, then~ I come to know wat happens, and I am quite heart broken, or should say~ lost heart in "everything" and "everyone" which involves in that "P" thingy.
Y want to make things look complicated and serious, also~ to make everyone's life miserable?
I still remember, after wat happened in March 8, I came back to KL, taking a taxi driven by a Malay~ I asked him: Encik, ada kecoh kat sini tak? He replied: buat apa kecoh? kata betul~ kalau buat kecoh, bukan kamu orang susah, semua pun susah.
Well~ as ppl, we won't do things that break our advantage. So~ who are the ones that "protect benefits of the ppl"? Its we, as the citizen and the ppl~ y? and wat is the use of the "G" thingy's existance? Well, everyone have a part to play....
Seriously, did the "A" thingy made a fuss? or the "tut" "tut" the "tut"?
p/s: I am still young and pretty *vomit*, so~ there are a lot of censorship here :p
These days, or I should say, months, I was very fed up with news, and happenings around~ anything and everything doesn't really bothers me, and it doesn't really concerns me, even though I stay in this particular place at this particular time, wat happens in this area doesn't really involves me~ as long as I can get my things done, and do wat I need to do on time, on place.
Many might be on the same boat with me, blur about wat happened UNTIL, there is these ppl, "protecting our safety" and in the name of "security" come into action, then~ I come to know wat happens, and I am quite heart broken, or should say~ lost heart in "everything" and "everyone" which involves in that "P" thingy.
Y want to make things look complicated and serious, also~ to make everyone's life miserable?
I still remember, after wat happened in March 8, I came back to KL, taking a taxi driven by a Malay~ I asked him: Encik, ada kecoh kat sini tak? He replied: buat apa kecoh? kata betul~ kalau buat kecoh, bukan kamu orang susah, semua pun susah.
Well~ as ppl, we won't do things that break our advantage. So~ who are the ones that "protect benefits of the ppl"? Its we, as the citizen and the ppl~ y? and wat is the use of the "G" thingy's existance? Well, everyone have a part to play....
Seriously, did the "A" thingy made a fuss? or the "tut" "tut" the "tut"?
p/s: I am still young and pretty *vomit*, so~ there are a lot of censorship here :p
July 15, 2008
Organisation
There is a sharing of story in lecture today, quite interesting:
A 10-year-old boy ask his dad 1 day: "wat is politics?"
His dad replied:
"I am capitalist, as I brought money home"
"Mom is the government, as she controls the finance and things at home"
"grandpa looks over things, and he is the union"
"the maid is the working group"
"we look after u, hope to give all the best to u, hence, u are the people"
"ur little brother is the future"
The dad then ask the boy if he understands it, the boy says he will think about it over the night.
In the middle of the night, the little brother produces something on his nappy and cried, the boy doesn't know wat to do, so, he went to his parent's room, and found that his dad is not in the room, and his mom was so deep in sleep that his presence was not noticed.
He then decided to look for the maid, and he found his dad in the maid's room, enjoying himself, having fun with the maid. And his grandpa was peeping through the window, and didn't do anything. So, he went back to his room, cannot get the problem solved.
The next day, the dad ask the boy if he now understand wat is politics?
The boy answers: YES!
"The capitalist abuses the working group"
"The government was sleeping"
"The union was only looking, but did nothing"
"The people is ignored"
"and the future is in the shit"
The moral of the story?
My version is~ wat we have to do is to fulfill our own responsibility, at where we stand, and no other things actually bothers or is in our concern^.^
Make ur version of moral out of it^.^
A 10-year-old boy ask his dad 1 day: "wat is politics?"
His dad replied:
"I am capitalist, as I brought money home"
"Mom is the government, as she controls the finance and things at home"
"grandpa looks over things, and he is the union"
"the maid is the working group"
"we look after u, hope to give all the best to u, hence, u are the people"
"ur little brother is the future"
The dad then ask the boy if he understands it, the boy says he will think about it over the night.
In the middle of the night, the little brother produces something on his nappy and cried, the boy doesn't know wat to do, so, he went to his parent's room, and found that his dad is not in the room, and his mom was so deep in sleep that his presence was not noticed.
He then decided to look for the maid, and he found his dad in the maid's room, enjoying himself, having fun with the maid. And his grandpa was peeping through the window, and didn't do anything. So, he went back to his room, cannot get the problem solved.
The next day, the dad ask the boy if he now understand wat is politics?
The boy answers: YES!
"The capitalist abuses the working group"
"The government was sleeping"
"The union was only looking, but did nothing"
"The people is ignored"
"and the future is in the shit"
The moral of the story?
My version is~ wat we have to do is to fulfill our own responsibility, at where we stand, and no other things actually bothers or is in our concern^.^
Make ur version of moral out of it^.^
July 14, 2008
July 13, 2008
Time Machine
There are 3 days in our life: yesterday, today and tomorrow~
It is said that yesterday is the past, tomorrow is future, and today is a gift, that's y it is called "present". But is some's eyes: yesterday is a lesson, today is how we apply we learned, and tomorrow is wat we are striving for.
To me, there is only 1 day in my life: u cannot change yesterday and u cannot predict if tomorrow still exist, so~ there left only Today! well, in some sense, there are still 3 days, but the other 2 are only virtually exist.
p/s: sorry~ once u gave me idea to write something, or to talk on a topic, I can't stop half way, even u tried to stop me~ so....here goes all thoughts in my brain~ sorry, "u know who"^.^
Here goes:
Things are like that, past are very hard to be forgotten just like that, because it already happen, and it is part of our history, and is imprinted in the book of our life. So, the main point is, wat have u learn? or just just use ur ego and "blindness" to cover it up, and pretended it never happened b4?
I pretended b4~ and its just even harder to make things work for life and stress just pour in like fountain. So, wat I did is to open up, become invisible, till even ppl that just know me for few weeks can tell that, my past still haunt me~ So wat? life still goes on, earth still turns and circulate around the sun. To go back to the past is impossible~ wat we have is yet to come.
As I always say, life is a miracle~
Well, and that now, my life is full of fun^.^ Every experience counts~ even a small insect has something to tell us, e.g. one day, as I was having a meal with my fren, there is this fly beside my plate~ i observe it a while, then I told my fren: wow~ the fly is cute, it just brushed its head like doing a dance, and my fren goes "swt" =.='''~
And to "ur" experience~
Luckily u are ok~ it really shocked me when u told me that......well~ sorry that I am not that kind that knows how to express how I feels, my sympathy, or my concern quite well~ that's not my thingy. But I am really glad that everything is OK~
As said, everything happens for some reasons^.^and from 1 situation that happens on 1 person, it actually taught that person a lesson, and for the listener, I also learn something from there^.^
Regards~ and best wishes for all my frens out there^.^
It is said that yesterday is the past, tomorrow is future, and today is a gift, that's y it is called "present". But is some's eyes: yesterday is a lesson, today is how we apply we learned, and tomorrow is wat we are striving for.
To me, there is only 1 day in my life: u cannot change yesterday and u cannot predict if tomorrow still exist, so~ there left only Today! well, in some sense, there are still 3 days, but the other 2 are only virtually exist.
p/s: sorry~ once u gave me idea to write something, or to talk on a topic, I can't stop half way, even u tried to stop me~ so....here goes all thoughts in my brain~ sorry, "u know who"^.^
Here goes:
Things are like that, past are very hard to be forgotten just like that, because it already happen, and it is part of our history, and is imprinted in the book of our life. So, the main point is, wat have u learn? or just just use ur ego and "blindness" to cover it up, and pretended it never happened b4?
I pretended b4~ and its just even harder to make things work for life and stress just pour in like fountain. So, wat I did is to open up, become invisible, till even ppl that just know me for few weeks can tell that, my past still haunt me~ So wat? life still goes on, earth still turns and circulate around the sun. To go back to the past is impossible~ wat we have is yet to come.
As I always say, life is a miracle~
Well, and that now, my life is full of fun^.^ Every experience counts~ even a small insect has something to tell us, e.g. one day, as I was having a meal with my fren, there is this fly beside my plate~ i observe it a while, then I told my fren: wow~ the fly is cute, it just brushed its head like doing a dance, and my fren goes "swt" =.='''~
And to "ur" experience~
Luckily u are ok~ it really shocked me when u told me that......well~ sorry that I am not that kind that knows how to express how I feels, my sympathy, or my concern quite well~ that's not my thingy. But I am really glad that everything is OK~
As said, everything happens for some reasons^.^and from 1 situation that happens on 1 person, it actually taught that person a lesson, and for the listener, I also learn something from there^.^
Regards~ and best wishes for all my frens out there^.^
July 12, 2008
No brain
Please~ be considerate~ or even have common sense on things.
Don't act or do something to other ppl that u don wan ppl to do the same to u!
If u wan to act no brain~ see who is more no brain~ me, or u?
If u do something that make me wake up at the wrong side of the bed, i will make ur sleep be as miserable as possible! After all~ I always sleep less than u~
Time to revenge!!! don make me reach my limit of patience!!
Wahahahaha!!!!
Don't act or do something to other ppl that u don wan ppl to do the same to u!
If u wan to act no brain~ see who is more no brain~ me, or u?
If u do something that make me wake up at the wrong side of the bed, i will make ur sleep be as miserable as possible! After all~ I always sleep less than u~
Time to revenge!!! don make me reach my limit of patience!!
Wahahahaha!!!!
Sleepless nights~
I've been having 2 consecutive nights without deep sleep, with all sorts of nonsense dreams~ erm~ and y am I still awake after that 2 nights? coz, I have had 3 cups of tea today, and the caffeine is driving me crazy.
I have had tremors, feels hot the whole day, and my neurons are non-stop firing!!
Some thoughts have been running in my brain lately~
I kept saying ppl don't have a specific stand point, and they don't know wat they are doing or wat they want~ However, I am sort of that type myself also :p I'm so Sorry ^.^
Y? because I love doing a lot of things, and everything interest me....from astrology to mechanics to medicine to finance~ and I kept changing minds on wat I will pursue in my future~ and the choices seems to be infinite....
Well~ I know I dream a lot~ seeing things in its most perfect way...but in actual fact, I am just nothing, not standing on both extremes, not the best, nor the worse. Erm....seems good rite? standing in btw? NO!! coz I am going no where and I am not good in doing things of the both extremes, and my stands and thoughts keep on changing, going no where in the end.
In my eyes, I see other ppl's potential~ I admire them, and I wanted to learn things they are good at from them, but sometimes, I became jealous of their talent and suddenly felt deppressed. Its like~ y are ppl "gived" talents and I am like, good in nothing~
Hehe~ I know y~ Coz I am Miss "so so" (差不多小姐）^.^
Ok~ enough of nonsense~ back to work^.^
Nite Nite!!
I have had tremors, feels hot the whole day, and my neurons are non-stop firing!!
Some thoughts have been running in my brain lately~
I kept saying ppl don't have a specific stand point, and they don't know wat they are doing or wat they want~ However, I am sort of that type myself also :p I'm so Sorry ^.^
Y? because I love doing a lot of things, and everything interest me....from astrology to mechanics to medicine to finance~ and I kept changing minds on wat I will pursue in my future~ and the choices seems to be infinite....
Well~ I know I dream a lot~ seeing things in its most perfect way...but in actual fact, I am just nothing, not standing on both extremes, not the best, nor the worse. Erm....seems good rite? standing in btw? NO!! coz I am going no where and I am not good in doing things of the both extremes, and my stands and thoughts keep on changing, going no where in the end.
In my eyes, I see other ppl's potential~ I admire them, and I wanted to learn things they are good at from them, but sometimes, I became jealous of their talent and suddenly felt deppressed. Its like~ y are ppl "gived" talents and I am like, good in nothing~
Hehe~ I know y~ Coz I am Miss "so so" (差不多小姐）^.^
Ok~ enough of nonsense~ back to work^.^
Nite Nite!!
July 9, 2008
考试
很讨厌考试~但，有谁人会不讨厌？
我讨厌它的原因在于：我喜欢读书，但，我看的书，就是看了就算，学到东西，高兴就好~ 但是，就因为有考试的存在，所以，就要在准备的当儿，抱着那几张烂纸，翻了又翻，看了又看，读了又读，背了又背。。。只有一个字可以形容整个过程： 闷！
学海无涯~ 但，活在这世上，要生存下去，能融入社会，就是那一张又一张的纸~ *无奈* 要做一个普通的人，就要跟着社会的规则走。
所以啊~ 要做自己喜欢的，就要付出 + 牺牲！ 把一半的时间给社会的规则，在一半给自己~ 往往，我们都把那剩下的一半都睡去了~~可悲~
累~ 有时，真被那规则给打败了。 我们就是一直一直的付出，牺牲~ 但，时间久了，我们静下来， 分析了一下~ 我们做了这些，值得吗？我们搞得自己那么的累，值得吗？
很累~~但是，这一个星期的无聊与懒惰也该够了~
继续~ GO!
我讨厌它的原因在于：我喜欢读书，但，我看的书，就是看了就算，学到东西，高兴就好~ 但是，就因为有考试的存在，所以，就要在准备的当儿，抱着那几张烂纸，翻了又翻，看了又看，读了又读，背了又背。。。只有一个字可以形容整个过程： 闷！
学海无涯~ 但，活在这世上，要生存下去，能融入社会，就是那一张又一张的纸~ *无奈* 要做一个普通的人，就要跟着社会的规则走。
所以啊~ 要做自己喜欢的，就要付出 + 牺牲！ 把一半的时间给社会的规则，在一半给自己~ 往往，我们都把那剩下的一半都睡去了~~可悲~
累~ 有时，真被那规则给打败了。 我们就是一直一直的付出，牺牲~ 但，时间久了，我们静下来， 分析了一下~ 我们做了这些，值得吗？我们搞得自己那么的累，值得吗？
很累~~但是，这一个星期的无聊与懒惰也该够了~
继续~ GO!
July 6, 2008
My Birthday^.^
I was a bit disappointed when I 1st woke up in the morning because I have only 2 sms in my inbox....I was disappointed not to any1, but to myself~ coz, this is a sign that I only have 2 best frens that actually remembered my birthday~
Now that I know that feeling, I will try my best to remember my frens birthday, tag the dates on my hp, and get them to see my birthday wishes 1st thing in the morning^.^
But, after I got up from my bed, grandma called, and that's the thing that makes me feel better, knowing that somebody actually cares for u~ and u are surrounded by warmth in the air~ And then....wishes by wishes came in 1 by 1....which makes my day^.^ THANKS A LOT GUYS~ super appreciate that~ though I might missed u guys birthday, coz I even have to tag my own birthday on my hp to remind me~ so....forgive me, please~~
What did I do for the whole day?
erm~ treat myself by not using much of my brain analyzing capacity^.^ Its quite something...after all that mess going in my brain for the past half a year.
My birthday wish (asked by a fren of mine):
1. a new hand phone - with 3G and wifi
2. a bf ?? (as suggested, but not desperate bout that :p)
3. get a masters in some place I wanted to go
4. get a temporary job while waiting to get a masters
5. a good result~
6. More time...so that I can do something I love
7. Be with my family, blowing candles on top of the cake
8 Good health
9. just enough money for me to spend :p
Finally~ world peace :p
p/s: see...I am not so materialistic after all....^.^
Now that I know that feeling, I will try my best to remember my frens birthday, tag the dates on my hp, and get them to see my birthday wishes 1st thing in the morning^.^
But, after I got up from my bed, grandma called, and that's the thing that makes me feel better, knowing that somebody actually cares for u~ and u are surrounded by warmth in the air~ And then....wishes by wishes came in 1 by 1....which makes my day^.^ THANKS A LOT GUYS~ super appreciate that~ though I might missed u guys birthday, coz I even have to tag my own birthday on my hp to remind me~ so....forgive me, please~~
What did I do for the whole day?
erm~ treat myself by not using much of my brain analyzing capacity^.^ Its quite something...after all that mess going in my brain for the past half a year.
My birthday wish (asked by a fren of mine):
1. a new hand phone - with 3G and wifi
2. a bf ?? (as suggested, but not desperate bout that :p)
3. get a masters in some place I wanted to go
4. get a temporary job while waiting to get a masters
5. a good result~
6. More time...so that I can do something I love
7. Be with my family, blowing candles on top of the cake
8 Good health
9. just enough money for me to spend :p
Finally~ world peace :p
p/s: see...I am not so materialistic after all....^.^
July 5, 2008
Empire
I have this feeling of my "empire" in KL is building up, and if I go back to Penang, its kind of~ i will become lonely and feel empty. Maybe~ its just becoz now, I have frens all over me, and the number of relatives in KL suddenly grow~
Of coz, I still love Penang~ its my home and my super cute family is there, but then, if I am now in Penang, I really can't think of things that I will be doing~ I will be lying around, lepak"ing" and do all nuisance.
Well, I know~ I've changed a lot~ last time, not to be in Penang is super uncomfortable, and I will miss my bed at home from time to time~ Maybe, I am so used to life here that I can't imagine how, and where to go in Penang.
Don be mad at me~
coz, its something good that I am not independent and I can live on my own instead of hanging on my parent's neck.
Well.....we'll see how things go along~
I suddenly things and feels, being alone, going anywhere I want, meeting frens and family some where, some time~ this is more free...
We'll just have to see how time change me again^.^
Of coz, I still love Penang~ its my home and my super cute family is there, but then, if I am now in Penang, I really can't think of things that I will be doing~ I will be lying around, lepak"ing" and do all nuisance.
Well, I know~ I've changed a lot~ last time, not to be in Penang is super uncomfortable, and I will miss my bed at home from time to time~ Maybe, I am so used to life here that I can't imagine how, and where to go in Penang.
Don be mad at me~
coz, its something good that I am not independent and I can live on my own instead of hanging on my parent's neck.
Well.....we'll see how things go along~
I suddenly things and feels, being alone, going anywhere I want, meeting frens and family some where, some time~ this is more free...
We'll just have to see how time change me again^.^
July 3, 2008
To compare
Read my previous blog posted minutes ago? nvm~ I just edited it~ I shouldn't use that example. Donno wat I am talking about, just ignore everything u see in this paragraph :p
Ok~ we love to compare things around us~ me and u, u and them, this and that~ everything exist are compared, and if one compares, there will be better and not as good. Y don't we just stop comparing and appreciate the beauty of the uniqueness of creation of god? Even fingers have different length~ so wat do u expect? to cut every fingers and live only the middle fingers on both hands?
The thing here is~ everyone, everything is incomparable. Its just one knows or sees the unique and the essence of that particular thing~ if u just can't see that, can't appreciate that, fine, just say in ur opinion, and in ur point of view, its just not ur thingy, and not to "kill"/ end the road of that particular thingy and say, its not good.
Things are just incomparable~ so~ stop comparing and start living with love and heart of appreciation for beauty around us^.^
Ok~ we love to compare things around us~ me and u, u and them, this and that~ everything exist are compared, and if one compares, there will be better and not as good. Y don't we just stop comparing and appreciate the beauty of the uniqueness of creation of god? Even fingers have different length~ so wat do u expect? to cut every fingers and live only the middle fingers on both hands?
The thing here is~ everyone, everything is incomparable. Its just one knows or sees the unique and the essence of that particular thing~ if u just can't see that, can't appreciate that, fine, just say in ur opinion, and in ur point of view, its just not ur thingy, and not to "kill"/ end the road of that particular thingy and say, its not good.
Things are just incomparable~ so~ stop comparing and start living with love and heart of appreciation for beauty around us^.^
Thoughts, work done, plus a SURPRISE^.^
Today is The Day^.^
Have 3 huge, books read in 4 hours, but ended up getting only one A4 paper of info =.=’’’
And then, my dad gave me a surprise, by calling me suddenly and ask me to meet him in KL sentral b4 he depart back to Penang~ he then show up with 2 cute little cake for my birthday in advance^.^ so nice~ my dad seldom remembers birthdays or any dates~ he don want to tell me if its mom that reminded him, or its he himself remember that~ but since he don want to answer, and according to interpretation of the expression on his face, he remember my birthday himself and that’s how we show we care in our family^,^ Thanks Pipi^.^
Ok~ the thought part~ I told my dad, that even I have loads of work to be done, and my time is very packed and limited, if any1 calls me and say if we can just meet somewhere to catch up with each other, I will surely say I am good with that. My dad says that its ok if I just say no, and continue with my work, but then, in my thoughts, it’s just an kind of showing of appreciation of ppl around u, frens or family to appreciate
a scene~
There is this car stopping beside the road, with the driver on the driver’s seat~ AND~ the interesting part is, the driver is happily sitting on his seat, relaxing, with both his feet sticking out of the window, to the side mirror~ ^,^ *lame* :p
Feels like I have done a lot for a day, but~ it seems, I did nothing for the whole day at all~ WHY!! why does time flies??
July 1, 2008
Members day
Feeling that u are left out, and u are nobody on earth? Thinking bout u, having no position on earth? Feel that u have nothing to contribute to the society, and that u are not any member of any society or so?
Not anymore ^.^
We are members everywhere we go~ For example, my bro is kind of active, he's now part of the Toastmasters and my dad is member, chairman and watever I don't want to know :p
And for me??
hehe......Jusco, Tesco, Sushi King, Mobil, BHP, Redbox, McD, Body Glove, and still counting....BLEK!!
So lame~ just think that this is kind of funny ^.^
Not anymore ^.^
We are members everywhere we go~ For example, my bro is kind of active, he's now part of the Toastmasters and my dad is member, chairman and watever I don't want to know :p
And for me??
hehe......Jusco, Tesco, Sushi King, Mobil, BHP, Redbox, McD, Body Glove, and still counting....BLEK!!
So lame~ just think that this is kind of funny ^.^
June 27, 2008
Anxiety attack
Anxiety attacked me in the middle of the night~and after studying and knowing a lot bout brain function, CNS and neurotransmitters, I decided to just get up from bed and make good use of the "sleepless hours" rather than making myself feel even more tired in the morning.
Maybe I am too excited bout the sequencing I've sent out yesterday afternoon~ the image of the process of sequencing/purification procedures are all over me....the scene is like~ have to spin this 13,000rpm, 1 min; then the scene jumps into~ omg, i cut the gel too thick a piece, cannot get all buffer into the tubes, how, wat to do; then the scene jumps to~ please, let me have bands, if not I will have to do it again~ etc....etc....and the scenes keep on replay.
Went movie last night, title: WANTED~
Remember there's this scene in the movie, where the main character googled his name, and the result is "no match found". Hehe....then I googled mine minutes ago, my name apeared....as sis of my big bro:D happy happy.....though my name only appeared in one of the pages, in future, my name will be on publications, on journals, papers, and whole web...Hahahaha~~ *dreaming*
The movie was great! it makes ppl ask themselves questions and kind of sit back and think of who they are, where they stand, fate, god.....
Well....that's me analyzing movies~ coz my dad trained my brain since I was a kid...i think maybe I was still in kindy that time, to think and analyse, see a bigger picture, coz he always ask: "wat is the moral of the story" after a drama or a movie. ^.^
Ok~ enough with crap~ continue with my work^.^
Maybe I am too excited bout the sequencing I've sent out yesterday afternoon~ the image of the process of sequencing/purification procedures are all over me....the scene is like~ have to spin this 13,000rpm, 1 min; then the scene jumps into~ omg, i cut the gel too thick a piece, cannot get all buffer into the tubes, how, wat to do; then the scene jumps to~ please, let me have bands, if not I will have to do it again~ etc....etc....and the scenes keep on replay.
Went movie last night, title: WANTED~
Remember there's this scene in the movie, where the main character googled his name, and the result is "no match found". Hehe....then I googled mine minutes ago, my name apeared....as sis of my big bro:D happy happy.....though my name only appeared in one of the pages, in future, my name will be on publications, on journals, papers, and whole web...Hahahaha~~ *dreaming*
The movie was great! it makes ppl ask themselves questions and kind of sit back and think of who they are, where they stand, fate, god.....
Well....that's me analyzing movies~ coz my dad trained my brain since I was a kid...i think maybe I was still in kindy that time, to think and analyse, see a bigger picture, coz he always ask: "wat is the moral of the story" after a drama or a movie. ^.^
Ok~ enough with crap~ continue with my work^.^
June 26, 2008
My one kind
Today, one of my best fren told me that another fren of mine said something bout me to him. He was told that I am that kind that won’t share anything or give u any info, or its without any hope to get any information from me.
Well, true~ I am that kind that I don’t say things straight forward. If u can get the message sent, then, fine, if u cannot get the message, u won’t lose a piece of ur flesh also. Its all based upon
If u know me for quite some time, after u get to know me well enough, u will know my style and way of telling things, or sending message across. If the info u want to get is not very important, and I start to go zig-zag along the way, u can ignore me, or just “shoo” me or “cheh” me, I am fine with it. If the info u want to get is something that benefits u, I won’t let u get it hand to hand, u will have to work a bit on
Its kind of how I love breaking message into pieces, and let others guess the meaning or the message~ Its just….well, nobody actually gets hurt thru the process. By the way, there is no one answer to every questions to the world, unless
Erm~ wat is the connection? There is ^.^
Well, u just have to bear with me~ I am that “anything” or “whatever” kind of person that is ok with almost everything. One of the most important thing I cannot tahan for “tut” sake is: don’t ever smile to me, and then cucuk me on my back!! If u r saying something that is so true, I am ok with it. If u r telling some1 that u already know that msg will be sent to me in a matter of time, I am also ok with it~ as long as, u don pretend and be a nuisance for “tut” sake.
June 20, 2008
Growing up
Everyday, we grew up a little physically, doesn't bother u want it or not, it happens~ but talking about growing up mentally, there is no where that it suppose to stop, that one day, u don't have to learn any new things in life, and that u can living just by hugging ur past, and the tradition, or routine~ well, I mean~ some can really live life with those thoughts, but then, that's really not to live life.
We, in the age that those old ppl say "young", or "just a kid", part of our responsibility is to learn, and to grow up mentally. However, those "old ppl", our parents, or grandparents, they too have to grow up, and keep up with time. Because, one just can't live life by always say: "u know~ last time ar~ I use to......" watever, it's the past already, I know one can learn and gain experience from the past, but, life is just more than those things u gain, or the things or memories u most proud of in the past~ they are just a part of ur memory.
The 1st thing for parents and grandparents or even close relatives to "grow up" in is, to let go of those responsibilities u held in the past, or even in present~ erm...i don't mean immediately, but to release bit by bit. For example, for "kids" like us, those beginning of 20+, we are suppose to learn how to be responsible of ourselves already. Its like~ we know that u guys are freaking worried bout us, ur children, but pure worries do no help~ Statistics and analysis, plus thinking without emotions interfering, is more important in getting solutions, or let things go.
For example, I told my cousin that suppose to come to KL to study starting next week~ so, it's like, I am some1 that she suppose to rely on in KL, coz she've nv been away from home~ so~ I was thinking that I might give her some moral support, and calm her feelings a bit by making an effort to go see her next week~ but her mom was like:"ask her not to go see u la~if not, if anything happens to her, who will be responsible?" Well~ auntie, if I think that I can go, means I analysed every situation d, and of coz, I will be careful and take good care of myself~ I will be the one responsible to myself~ if not, after so long staying alone and doing all those things in KL, u think some1 is suppose to track me down and put pause button on me? NO WAY~I will always find solution for any problem that come into place.
Like I told my cousin sis, our parents are not young already, they are like 50+ or even 60+ d~ so, from the numbers, they are suppose to start enjoying their life d. Its our time to be concerned bout them, not the other way round.
Another thing, like I said in my previous blog, every1 is growing up. Even my parents are growing up together with me and my bro. I teach my mom how to use MSN, and now, she's like can't live without MSN working :p And my dad, he's picking up modern thinking quite fast, like to save the environment, not to buy newpapers, and to read them online~well~ he's still "1900" in some sense, but~it have its advantage in having some traditional ppl around, just to pull the hand break in between, just in case we go overboard~
Life's like that~ if u doesn't want to learn from the start and all the way thru the end of ur life, and think that u are "know everything" person, u will just be always living in the past for the rest of ur life~ and make other ppl's life suffer, I mean~ ur kids~
p/s: do u ever really get to know how ur kids feel bout wat ur opinions are? or do u ever concerned bout how ur parents feel bout ur opinion? do u ever make 2 way communication, find the real problem and find the solution to them?
I feel very lucky that I am born in a family with parents that have an open mind^.^
We, in the age that those old ppl say "young", or "just a kid", part of our responsibility is to learn, and to grow up mentally. However, those "old ppl", our parents, or grandparents, they too have to grow up, and keep up with time. Because, one just can't live life by always say: "u know~ last time ar~ I use to......" watever, it's the past already, I know one can learn and gain experience from the past, but, life is just more than those things u gain, or the things or memories u most proud of in the past~ they are just a part of ur memory.
The 1st thing for parents and grandparents or even close relatives to "grow up" in is, to let go of those responsibilities u held in the past, or even in present~ erm...i don't mean immediately, but to release bit by bit. For example, for "kids" like us, those beginning of 20+, we are suppose to learn how to be responsible of ourselves already. Its like~ we know that u guys are freaking worried bout us, ur children, but pure worries do no help~ Statistics and analysis, plus thinking without emotions interfering, is more important in getting solutions, or let things go.
For example, I told my cousin that suppose to come to KL to study starting next week~ so, it's like, I am some1 that she suppose to rely on in KL, coz she've nv been away from home~ so~ I was thinking that I might give her some moral support, and calm her feelings a bit by making an effort to go see her next week~ but her mom was like:"ask her not to go see u la~if not, if anything happens to her, who will be responsible?" Well~ auntie, if I think that I can go, means I analysed every situation d, and of coz, I will be careful and take good care of myself~ I will be the one responsible to myself~ if not, after so long staying alone and doing all those things in KL, u think some1 is suppose to track me down and put pause button on me? NO WAY~I will always find solution for any problem that come into place.
Like I told my cousin sis, our parents are not young already, they are like 50+ or even 60+ d~ so, from the numbers, they are suppose to start enjoying their life d. Its our time to be concerned bout them, not the other way round.
Another thing, like I said in my previous blog, every1 is growing up. Even my parents are growing up together with me and my bro. I teach my mom how to use MSN, and now, she's like can't live without MSN working :p And my dad, he's picking up modern thinking quite fast, like to save the environment, not to buy newpapers, and to read them online~well~ he's still "1900" in some sense, but~it have its advantage in having some traditional ppl around, just to pull the hand break in between, just in case we go overboard~
Life's like that~ if u doesn't want to learn from the start and all the way thru the end of ur life, and think that u are "know everything" person, u will just be always living in the past for the rest of ur life~ and make other ppl's life suffer, I mean~ ur kids~
p/s: do u ever really get to know how ur kids feel bout wat ur opinions are? or do u ever concerned bout how ur parents feel bout ur opinion? do u ever make 2 way communication, find the real problem and find the solution to them?
I feel very lucky that I am born in a family with parents that have an open mind^.^
June 18, 2008
women vs. clothes
Women or I should say~ females, are super conflict by herself. When shopping, she will be looking around, picking clothes~ when a clothes struck her eyes, she try it on, and then consider, then walk off by thinking that the clothes will still be in the shop~ However, when seeing others wearing the same clothes on the street, and she looks gorgeous in it, she feels slapping her face and broke down screaming: why~~why~~why I didn't buy that clothes that day!!!
Well, a bit exaggerate, but that's the feeling females have~ Its just the degree to which u can keep it undetected in ur heart, or u scream it out and release urself from the emo thingy.
Ok, I am now in the situation of window shopping and walking on the road, then scream in my heart for not buying that clothes....after that, I will be finding all excuses for myself, like~that clothes might not fit me, or its too expensive, or I just don't need it at all~
Watever, females~ creating emo for herself, having drama of her own, conflict within herself. Such an idiotic thing to do~ wat to do?? we'll just have to wait and see =.='''
Well, a bit exaggerate, but that's the feeling females have~ Its just the degree to which u can keep it undetected in ur heart, or u scream it out and release urself from the emo thingy.
Ok, I am now in the situation of window shopping and walking on the road, then scream in my heart for not buying that clothes....after that, I will be finding all excuses for myself, like~that clothes might not fit me, or its too expensive, or I just don't need it at all~
Watever, females~ creating emo for herself, having drama of her own, conflict within herself. Such an idiotic thing to do~ wat to do?? we'll just have to wait and see =.='''
June 17, 2008
缘分
该来的还是会来~该是你的跑不掉~缘分这东西真是太太太太太太。。。。太惊人了！！！
两个完全不同世界的人，兜了个大圈，错过了彼此的存在，到后来，当缘分到了，竟然会看上对方~~两只老虎真奇怪，两只恋人真奇怪~~
对啦~羡慕你们啦~ 对啦，对啦，你啦~ 就是你们啦~~
缘分啊~快点绛临在我身上吧~~
还是祝福你们~你们那些幸福到不行，甜蜜到惹蚂蚁的你们~ 加油! 希望你们会白头到老^.^
两个完全不同世界的人，兜了个大圈，错过了彼此的存在，到后来，当缘分到了，竟然会看上对方~~两只老虎真奇怪，两只恋人真奇怪~~
对啦~羡慕你们啦~ 对啦，对啦，你啦~ 就是你们啦~~
缘分啊~快点绛临在我身上吧~~
还是祝福你们~你们那些幸福到不行，甜蜜到惹蚂蚁的你们~ 加油! 希望你们会白头到老^.^
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