Yesterday, heard my dad say that mom actually wake up at 5.30am in the morning these days just to do exercise together with my dad~ such a touching thing to get to know that~
She actually sacrifices her sleeping time to actually make an effort to make her life style better~ I mean~ in a way~ its almost the time in her life that she have to actually make some effort to boast her health, since her everyday life is with her work in her office, then with tv at home~ and weekends will be sitting at home or do some simple household task~ and they super not enough to get her body some workouts.
Another thing that I am proud of her is~ she knows how to prepare herself to move into another stage of her life~ for example, she was super internet and computer dumb dumb in the past, even end of last year, she was still dumb dumb with internet stuff~ but now....walao~ her comfort with internet and her patience with the net is even greater than me, e.g., I was looking for a name of a fish on the net, and after 2 hours, I gave up with the stupid thing, but she was working on the fish thing until even I slept already, she was still searching that for me~ in the end, she found the name of the fish for me using search engine the whole nite *SALUTE* to my special mom.
Her effort in learning and taking things up at this age of her is super make me proud of her~ Some ppl at younger than her don't even want to learn how to use a handphone, and say that technology stuff is not for the "old" ppl like them~ they don even have the initiative to learn and live their life to the max.
How touching~~moved by the effort, initiative and the energy of both my parent, especially my mom who changed a lot this few years for herself and for us, the family~
Happy Fathers Day!!! --> To make dad happy, is to give the praise to mom~ To make mom happy, is to give the praise to dad~ To make both me and my big bro happy is to have both our parents happy^.^We are so attached to the family^.^
Peace!! The cutest family on earth^.^
June 15, 2008
June 12, 2008
啊！！！~~~
哎~终于~最后一个学期了....但, 朋友都已开始各自做各自的事, 在一起上课的时间, 在一起吃东西, 一起哈拉的时间也少了~ 还真有点怀念那个又忙, 又乱, 不知所措, 忙得连睡觉的时间很少, 而且, 睡觉 刷牙 洗脸 冲凉 吃饭 的时间脑子里面的都是procedure, protocol, error, improvement.....但, 就是还蛮快乐的~
也对啦~ 都已最后一个学期了, 大家都快累坏了, 大家的脑子里有的, 不只是有得偷懒就偷懒, 有得休息就休息~ 还有~在悠闲的当儿, 烦恼着那个在眼前不远处的那交叉路口~
又是喜~ 又是忧~
嗯~ 其实我在"啊" 啥呢?
就是....就是..... 我要是再不跟人说话, 哈拉~我就快要疯了!!!!!
p/s: 看谁会是那个给我抓到的倒霉鬼~ 你耳朵一定会给我的一连串废话弄烂!!!哈哈哈哈哈!!!!!
也对啦~ 都已最后一个学期了, 大家都快累坏了, 大家的脑子里有的, 不只是有得偷懒就偷懒, 有得休息就休息~ 还有~在悠闲的当儿, 烦恼着那个在眼前不远处的那交叉路口~
又是喜~ 又是忧~
嗯~ 其实我在"啊" 啥呢?
就是....就是..... 我要是再不跟人说话, 哈拉~我就快要疯了!!!!!
p/s: 看谁会是那个给我抓到的倒霉鬼~ 你耳朵一定会给我的一连串废话弄烂!!!哈哈哈哈哈!!!!!
June 10, 2008
Racist
I really cannot understand y most ppl want to draw a line between u and me, between Malays and Chinese, between, Malays and Indians, between Chinese and Indians, between Malaysians and Non-Malaysians, between rich and poor, between.....
There is no difference between every humans living in this world actually~We are all the same!
In Buddha's teachings, Buddha say that everything in this world are just illusions(色既是空)~ even humans, are illusions.
In the concept of science, in physics, all things in the universe is an illusion~ we are nothing except electron, protons and neutrons, and we seem to exist just because energy level.
Why do one want to differentiate u and me??
I hate hearing ppl say things like: "That M*l** pig", or I hate to hear ppl say that they don like to mix around with ppl that have different culture with them.
Its kind of like....wat have they done wrong? they are the same with us, living on this world as humans.
Why care is ppl gets better status and get better rewards than us? Just live life as u like~ it doesn't really concerns u~ or maybe it can be a motivation for u to strive in ur life, but wat they get just doesn't really bothers u~ becoz, when u haven't get something, u live life like tomolo is another day to work and to live for~ and if u got better status or reward, u still have to live life the same way, rite?
Its all illusion~ one don't have to differentiate u and me~ one don have to be super "cannot stand" and being jealous on wat ppl get and we didn't~
Wat goes around, comes around~
Have a heart and a mind that is circle~ If u are living in a square, ur life will always be meeting with walls and corners.
There is no difference between every humans living in this world actually~We are all the same!
In Buddha's teachings, Buddha say that everything in this world are just illusions(色既是空)~ even humans, are illusions.
In the concept of science, in physics, all things in the universe is an illusion~ we are nothing except electron, protons and neutrons, and we seem to exist just because energy level.
Why do one want to differentiate u and me??
I hate hearing ppl say things like: "That M*l** pig", or I hate to hear ppl say that they don like to mix around with ppl that have different culture with them.
Its kind of like....wat have they done wrong? they are the same with us, living on this world as humans.
Why care is ppl gets better status and get better rewards than us? Just live life as u like~ it doesn't really concerns u~ or maybe it can be a motivation for u to strive in ur life, but wat they get just doesn't really bothers u~ becoz, when u haven't get something, u live life like tomolo is another day to work and to live for~ and if u got better status or reward, u still have to live life the same way, rite?
Its all illusion~ one don't have to differentiate u and me~ one don have to be super "cannot stand" and being jealous on wat ppl get and we didn't~
Wat goes around, comes around~
Have a heart and a mind that is circle~ If u are living in a square, ur life will always be meeting with walls and corners.
June 8, 2008
I don't care
I am neutral about anything not concerning me~ its "watever" in wat u tell me about u and wat makes u feel down~ I don't care!
OK~ this only applies to those ppl that always say things that are negative and I am really bored with them and their super emo, trying to get attention of ppl around them...watever~
It sometimes really get me into frustration about what they expect me to say/reply them.
As I said to my mom, its ur own life, there is nothing that u have to ask ppl's opinion bout wat u have to choose~ u might need to ask ppl's opinion bout the advantages and disadvantages on the options, but to choose, there is no 1 that can help u. (p/s: I didn't mean i don't care bout mom/ ppl in my family here~ its just an example/quotation)
Don't ever ask me stupid questions or tell me negative things that might make me feel bad/frustrated/get emo~ don ever~ever ask again!!
OK~ this only applies to those ppl that always say things that are negative and I am really bored with them and their super emo, trying to get attention of ppl around them...watever~
It sometimes really get me into frustration about what they expect me to say/reply them.
As I said to my mom, its ur own life, there is nothing that u have to ask ppl's opinion bout wat u have to choose~ u might need to ask ppl's opinion bout the advantages and disadvantages on the options, but to choose, there is no 1 that can help u. (p/s: I didn't mean i don't care bout mom/ ppl in my family here~ its just an example/quotation)
Don't ever ask me stupid questions or tell me negative things that might make me feel bad/frustrated/get emo~ don ever~ever ask again!!
June 5, 2008
In the name of Science
On Tuesday, I attend my 1st virology class~ my fren attended the 1st week's introductory lab, so, he told me that I will love this week 2 virology lab a lot, but I was not convinced, becoz all I have in mind about virology lab is how to culture viruses and the ways to do vaccines and stuff~ However~ to my amazement and excitement, the lab is about cutting chicken embryo out of the egg~Well~ its not that I am cruel or don't have sympathy on those little creature, and one of my coursemate even say that the chicken will feel pain when we cut its head off on the 1st cut, then the legs and the wings, but, its science, and the world of science to me is to see things with my own eyes things in this world and how great mother nature's creation is.
I never knew that the chicken embryo have the exact appearance of the adult chicken~ the wings are tiny, the limbs and the butt, all resembles the adult size of it~ u really cannot imagine the whole resemblance of a chicken exactly in a small egg~ I can't imagine that also when the lecturer do the demo, until I have my hands on the embryo myself~
Ok~the main point of getting the embryo into pieces is not for me to say "wow", but its all about learning cell culture preparation and observe the cells and stuff....I still can't get the main idea and full picture of the main objective yet :p
Poor little thing~ sacrifices for the sake of my knowledge and in the name of science~
"May u reborn and become the child of the rich!"
June 3, 2008
Money
These days, I know I spent a lot~and all that I spent is not my money that I earn with my own hands =.=''' regret.....but I have "bad" eyes, want all the things I don't really need, but I crave for them =.=''' So, here's where control, thought and analysis bout money come into play.
Money is very important~ This, I totally agree...It is a need to live happily ever after~ but, there's an extend/limit for urself, where it states where u, urself thinks it's the point of contentment for urself.
Balance is the word~ Control is another~
Money is very important~ This, I totally agree...It is a need to live happily ever after~ but, there's an extend/limit for urself, where it states where u, urself thinks it's the point of contentment for urself.
Balance is the word~ Control is another~
Aging
When we were once a baby, we don't know how to control ourselves, getting ourselves wet/smelling, when we are hungry, we only know how to cry~but our parents, mom, dad, grandma,or the ppl we were sent to for care, will nv have any complains to take good care of us and meet every of our needs~
When we were kids, we are learning to build up our brain~ hence, we always do things that are wrong, getting parents and elderly ppl angry on everything we do, but we don't know how to analyse wat we done wrong, so, we get mad at them, making them even dissapointed and feel that their care for us and all they have done for us are just nonsense and are not appreciated. However, they still, after a while, forgive us and our doings, and continue to give the best for us~
On the other hand, when our parents get old, we have all the things to be done, giving all excuses not to take care of our parents, complain even to the slightest thing they ask us to do~
How can we??
That's how our society taught us.....or our parents did not teach us how to pay them back?? Cause, they always gave the best to us, and did not say that they want any repay???
Well~ we just have to learn things our way....and tell our parents how we wan things to be/how we wan them to be....I mean~ to teach them how to be healthy or to take better care of themselves from our knowledge...BUT, it is a 2 way communication, means, our parents too have to learn how to accept new knowledge and thought^.^
When we were kids, we are learning to build up our brain~ hence, we always do things that are wrong, getting parents and elderly ppl angry on everything we do, but we don't know how to analyse wat we done wrong, so, we get mad at them, making them even dissapointed and feel that their care for us and all they have done for us are just nonsense and are not appreciated. However, they still, after a while, forgive us and our doings, and continue to give the best for us~
On the other hand, when our parents get old, we have all the things to be done, giving all excuses not to take care of our parents, complain even to the slightest thing they ask us to do~
How can we??
That's how our society taught us.....or our parents did not teach us how to pay them back?? Cause, they always gave the best to us, and did not say that they want any repay???
Well~ we just have to learn things our way....and tell our parents how we wan things to be/how we wan them to be....I mean~ to teach them how to be healthy or to take better care of themselves from our knowledge...BUT, it is a 2 way communication, means, our parents too have to learn how to accept new knowledge and thought^.^
May 31, 2008
Family gathering
Wat an interesting day~
Went for "window" shopping in 1U today with my aunties and cousin, help my cousin to move her things into her new apartment (which I don't really know if I did much that helps =.=''') and then have dinner with a dish I never ate b4 called 擂茶（Lei Cha), its a Hakka dish, which consist of herbs, rice and herbal tea~ kind of like nasi ulam, but a Chinese version of it.
Erm.....got a lot of things that I thought of, considering things that I've learn and saw today, but my mind goes blank for now....donno y =.='''
Oh ya~ got a ride in a BMW today~ the house owner of my cousins' is kind of super rich, have houses here and there, and the bed and the wardrobe is totally brand new, even the fridge is the latest model of Panasonic, Plus~ the fan is with remote control, the lightings looks like from Ikea, even the rug is from Ikea(but terpaksa shred into threads becoz it stupidly stuck between the main door and the whole door is jam~a shock of the century!!*.* Long story =.='''). The lesson learned:
1, The owner of the house, even he's rich, he do things in the calculated way~ I mean, its like, if the thing is simple, as in changing the door knob, he'll do it himself. He's like doesn't seem to be very proud, nose pointing to the air, but a very friendly, very easy going, down to earth kind of person....my salutation to u, Mr. Azmawi(if I didn't get u wrong :p)~ SALUTE!!
2, I know how the door knob works d~ I actually unscrew the whole thing, and I know how the knob works mechanically when u pressed on the "watever u call it" =.='''
3, Prove my stand, everything that happen have its cause/reason. E.g.: when my cousin says: Luckily I packed that box with the scissors and screw driver last, that I remember which box I put them in...and they are put into use, or I should say, put into "action" ^.^
Addtional point: Every problem have its solution, either 1 or many, its only depends on how calm and fast ur brain is when something happens.
Erm....nothing to lose, lots to gain in a day doing "kaypo" things, and "lao juak" with family members in KL~
P/s: For photos and caption, click on the link to "my photo album"~
Went for "window" shopping in 1U today with my aunties and cousin, help my cousin to move her things into her new apartment (which I don't really know if I did much that helps =.=''') and then have dinner with a dish I never ate b4 called 擂茶（Lei Cha), its a Hakka dish, which consist of herbs, rice and herbal tea~ kind of like nasi ulam, but a Chinese version of it.
Erm.....got a lot of things that I thought of, considering things that I've learn and saw today, but my mind goes blank for now....donno y =.='''
Oh ya~ got a ride in a BMW today~ the house owner of my cousins' is kind of super rich, have houses here and there, and the bed and the wardrobe is totally brand new, even the fridge is the latest model of Panasonic, Plus~ the fan is with remote control, the lightings looks like from Ikea, even the rug is from Ikea(but terpaksa shred into threads becoz it stupidly stuck between the main door and the whole door is jam~a shock of the century!!*.* Long story =.='''). The lesson learned:
1, The owner of the house, even he's rich, he do things in the calculated way~ I mean, its like, if the thing is simple, as in changing the door knob, he'll do it himself. He's like doesn't seem to be very proud, nose pointing to the air, but a very friendly, very easy going, down to earth kind of person....my salutation to u, Mr. Azmawi(if I didn't get u wrong :p)~ SALUTE!!
2, I know how the door knob works d~ I actually unscrew the whole thing, and I know how the knob works mechanically when u pressed on the "watever u call it" =.='''
3, Prove my stand, everything that happen have its cause/reason. E.g.: when my cousin says: Luckily I packed that box with the scissors and screw driver last, that I remember which box I put them in...and they are put into use, or I should say, put into "action" ^.^
Addtional point: Every problem have its solution, either 1 or many, its only depends on how calm and fast ur brain is when something happens.
Erm....nothing to lose, lots to gain in a day doing "kaypo" things, and "lao juak" with family members in KL~
P/s: For photos and caption, click on the link to "my photo album"~
May 29, 2008
Things that happen
Things don just happen like that~ I believe that every singly thing that happen have their reason and statement behind it. No matter things that happen with its good or bad according to wat u have in mind, there’s just something for u to learn from, and that’s one of the reason I happen.
Change is very important. Among all changes, change in mindset is the most important. To change how u see things that happen, not only on ur own point of view, but to stand out of ur thought circle and look at the bigger picture, think from every aspect, from every ppl point of view~
Evaluate urself, think and assess things in a circular way~ don always frown on things that happen, being emo or moody won’t change things that might happen again/in routine basis, to change the way u do things and how u think on the particular subject is the only thing u can uphold and control with ur own hands.
There are only 3 days in our life. Yesterday is a lesson, Today is wat u have in ur hands and take control, Tomorrow is the result of wat u have done today.
May 26, 2008
Luxury
Luxury to a lot of ppl is equivalent to Mercedes, BMW, Bungalow/mansion, gold, diamond and sort of stuff~
Luxury to me, its all about having simple things I wan, do things I want to do and be free to be myself whenever I want.
Having simple things I wan is like....a hotplate for me because I love to cook things I want to eat; To do things I want to do, is like....going for biomedical science, even my mom say that biotech is better off, or that a lot of ppl say that biomedic have no future and cannot earn money; To be free to be myself, is like....going shopping in shorts and slippers when I wanted to and dress up like going to a ball whenever I have to mood to do so (which is to be fluctuating from extreme to extreme as how I want to be :p).
Time, is another luxury a lot of ppl always dream to have, but as I have in mind, time is a factor that ppl made up for what they love doing more, e.g. going to a movie, rather than to visit his/her parents in old folks home on weekends. Or, to sit in front of the tv rather than to do something more productive (this is wat I always been doing, being pulled by the devil =.=''').
Things are simple~ luxury is also simple~ BUT, to have all these~ the main factor that contribute to all those simple things is MONEY. However, this "money" thing is widely depends on how much will satisfy all ur needs~ I know, all humans have greed in their mind, but, if u think simple, think back to the most basic and ur 1st intention of doing and getting all those u intend to get, u are already satisfied with wat u have now.....erm...how should I put it~~Its like...just make urself in ur comfort zone, not to care about how whoever see u or think about u...erm...something like that....
Luxury to me, its all about having simple things I wan, do things I want to do and be free to be myself whenever I want.
Having simple things I wan is like....a hotplate for me because I love to cook things I want to eat; To do things I want to do, is like....going for biomedical science, even my mom say that biotech is better off, or that a lot of ppl say that biomedic have no future and cannot earn money; To be free to be myself, is like....going shopping in shorts and slippers when I wanted to and dress up like going to a ball whenever I have to mood to do so (which is to be fluctuating from extreme to extreme as how I want to be :p).
Time, is another luxury a lot of ppl always dream to have, but as I have in mind, time is a factor that ppl made up for what they love doing more, e.g. going to a movie, rather than to visit his/her parents in old folks home on weekends. Or, to sit in front of the tv rather than to do something more productive (this is wat I always been doing, being pulled by the devil =.=''').
Things are simple~ luxury is also simple~ BUT, to have all these~ the main factor that contribute to all those simple things is MONEY. However, this "money" thing is widely depends on how much will satisfy all ur needs~ I know, all humans have greed in their mind, but, if u think simple, think back to the most basic and ur 1st intention of doing and getting all those u intend to get, u are already satisfied with wat u have now.....erm...how should I put it~~Its like...just make urself in ur comfort zone, not to care about how whoever see u or think about u...erm...something like that....
May 23, 2008
wants
Suddenly, it seems that I know and found wat I wan already~ I mean~ I got my own target of life already~ but then~ it also is like...when ppl ask me how my future will be like, or wat I want to be in future, I will be lost in words.
Y? donno lor~ maybe, wat I wan is too general and have too many roads to choose from~ I mean, I am that kind that holds the thoughts of:“既来之，则安之”。^.^
The point here is this~ we are suppose to accept wat comes to us and bring them to their best. So, we have to be prepared for everything that might come to us~
That, is wat I believe in~ which is "destiny", BUT, at the same time, we have to behold our own future~ quite contradicting rite? that's how life is like, always "fighting" with ourselves, or maybe its only me:p
Another thing~ I am now still very:今朝有酒，今朝醉~ I wonder~ how long does this kind of thoughts can stay with me?? I hope its forever, coz~ it just makes me feel good and comfortable with life:D
Y? donno lor~ maybe, wat I wan is too general and have too many roads to choose from~ I mean, I am that kind that holds the thoughts of:“既来之，则安之”。^.^
The point here is this~ we are suppose to accept wat comes to us and bring them to their best. So, we have to be prepared for everything that might come to us~
That, is wat I believe in~ which is "destiny", BUT, at the same time, we have to behold our own future~ quite contradicting rite? that's how life is like, always "fighting" with ourselves, or maybe its only me:p
Another thing~ I am now still very:今朝有酒，今朝醉~ I wonder~ how long does this kind of thoughts can stay with me?? I hope its forever, coz~ it just makes me feel good and comfortable with life:D
May 14, 2008
电脑/电子人
啥米？对！就是我国特产~~锵锵~~电子人！！
所谓的电脑/电子，就是没有感情，没有个自独特的思考能力，没有怨言，没有频率，只有那一字不减照着课本书本的那一字一句规划的栏图生活，做事。。。
我觉得成长，培养，生活，教育都在我的国家，我最应引以为傲的马来西亚（但不知道骄傲些什么）~总觉得，我，包括娜和我一样的“新一代”人民，子弟，都像是从工厂用同一个印做出来的“行动”电脑~
我觉得，这情况的发生，原因有几个：
1，教育制度- 我们从小培养出来的思想就是要考第一，考到第一就是好学生，世界就像在你脚下。 那些课外的，就好比打羽毛球，打乒乓，唱歌，弹琴，画画。。。都是属于多学的，要放弃也无妨，就当作消遣，娱乐，简称“玩”。考试，在我们这制度，算很简单，因为都有范围，有一定的政策，只读某指定课本，或只猛K教课讲义，包你不会“肥佬”，简称“死读书”，因为不用分析，不用了解，不用深入，就只靠记得，就OK~
2，家庭教育-父母都把课业看得很重，就比如：如果小孩靠得很差，或不到理想，就打，就骂~嗯，请问你又问过你的孩子为什么吗？在比例：我有一个小表妹，她才一年级，但就算他的一个笔画写歪了一点，她的母亲就用橡皮擦擦掉整页要她重写~嗯，何苦？？
3，社会- 在我们这国，我们对事情的看法往往是大众口味的才是对的，好的；那些独特的，较另类的，是令人斜眼，令人吐，令人看不起，令人排斥的~ 为何~为何我们不能用那同样的对待，用那另类的眼光，去欣赏那些独特的一群？
4，政策-我们的国家很独特，嗯~可能很多国家也有吧~不是很清楚:p 因为，我们有独特的法令~而我们这些良好的市民，为保护自己，省掉麻烦~也因为爱国，不要让我们各民族的和睦受威胁，所以，我们学会沉默，习惯沉默，不说，不发表，不表达。。。渐渐的，我们成了没感情，直接接受，不反抗，没怨言~ 我每尊敬每一个人，尊敬到自卑的程度，尊敬到你说一我就说好，从没有二话，只有“背后”话=.='''
嗯~其实，这样的电子人的形成，每个人，甚至我自己，也有责任~
我们需要的是改变~但~很恐惧的是，如果只有我改变，其他人还是一样，那~我就成了那被异样眼光包围的那个~
哎！！就这样~
所以啊~我觉得，是时候出去闯，去和其他国家的人切磋，认识他人，认识自己~自我提升！！加油！！
所谓的电脑/电子，就是没有感情，没有个自独特的思考能力，没有怨言，没有频率，只有那一字不减照着课本书本的那一字一句规划的栏图生活，做事。。。
我觉得成长，培养，生活，教育都在我的国家，我最应引以为傲的马来西亚（但不知道骄傲些什么）~总觉得，我，包括娜和我一样的“新一代”人民，子弟，都像是从工厂用同一个印做出来的“行动”电脑~
我觉得，这情况的发生，原因有几个：
1，教育制度- 我们从小培养出来的思想就是要考第一，考到第一就是好学生，世界就像在你脚下。 那些课外的，就好比打羽毛球，打乒乓，唱歌，弹琴，画画。。。都是属于多学的，要放弃也无妨，就当作消遣，娱乐，简称“玩”。考试，在我们这制度，算很简单，因为都有范围，有一定的政策，只读某指定课本，或只猛K教课讲义，包你不会“肥佬”，简称“死读书”，因为不用分析，不用了解，不用深入，就只靠记得，就OK~
2，家庭教育-父母都把课业看得很重，就比如：如果小孩靠得很差，或不到理想，就打，就骂~嗯，请问你又问过你的孩子为什么吗？在比例：我有一个小表妹，她才一年级，但就算他的一个笔画写歪了一点，她的母亲就用橡皮擦擦掉整页要她重写~嗯，何苦？？
3，社会- 在我们这国，我们对事情的看法往往是大众口味的才是对的，好的；那些独特的，较另类的，是令人斜眼，令人吐，令人看不起，令人排斥的~ 为何~为何我们不能用那同样的对待，用那另类的眼光，去欣赏那些独特的一群？
4，政策-我们的国家很独特，嗯~可能很多国家也有吧~不是很清楚:p 因为，我们有独特的法令~而我们这些良好的市民，为保护自己，省掉麻烦~也因为爱国，不要让我们各民族的和睦受威胁，所以，我们学会沉默，习惯沉默，不说，不发表，不表达。。。渐渐的，我们成了没感情，直接接受，不反抗，没怨言~ 我每尊敬每一个人，尊敬到自卑的程度，尊敬到你说一我就说好，从没有二话，只有“背后”话=.='''
嗯~其实，这样的电子人的形成，每个人，甚至我自己，也有责任~
我们需要的是改变~但~很恐惧的是，如果只有我改变，其他人还是一样，那~我就成了那被异样眼光包围的那个~
哎！！就这样~
所以啊~我觉得，是时候出去闯，去和其他国家的人切磋，认识他人，认识自己~自我提升！！加油！！
May 11, 2008
Sex border
Its strange that I, as a "normal" person, having a normal point of view about sex (as in males and females), erm...a quite conservative one, which can accept "modernised" thoughts and view points in the very extreme~
I always have the idea that y the world and those ppl out there can't just brush off the borders of sex, that they just accept each other and put both sex on the equal level~
Today, as I went into a world that is without sex borders, where males and females are on equal baseline, there is no such "conservative" thoughts, that males and females are just be put together, known as "humans" in overall and nothing else as sex other than "humans".
Its cool actually~ bringing myself into the balanced world, exposed myself to different kind of world which actually made me think that "normal" ppl are so damn stupid, holding onto the "conservative" thoughts, can't even bring their heart out under the sun.
Well~ everything have its start off point~ u just have to change how u see this world~
As I always say~ y do ppl have to actually draw all lines btw me and u? mine and urs? Its a world without borders that the era of internet comes into play^.^
I always have the idea that y the world and those ppl out there can't just brush off the borders of sex, that they just accept each other and put both sex on the equal level~
Today, as I went into a world that is without sex borders, where males and females are on equal baseline, there is no such "conservative" thoughts, that males and females are just be put together, known as "humans" in overall and nothing else as sex other than "humans".
Its cool actually~ bringing myself into the balanced world, exposed myself to different kind of world which actually made me think that "normal" ppl are so damn stupid, holding onto the "conservative" thoughts, can't even bring their heart out under the sun.
Well~ everything have its start off point~ u just have to change how u see this world~
As I always say~ y do ppl have to actually draw all lines btw me and u? mine and urs? Its a world without borders that the era of internet comes into play^.^
May 9, 2008
第一次
第一次~往往都会烙印在心理的最深处，虽然不怎么特别区记得它，但是，要忘也忘不掉~
还记得，
那第一次踏进幼稚园的门口，是我父母（忘记是哪个）带我去参观学校，跟我们讲解学校课程的是我的班由主任~
第一次在幼稚园交朋友，是个印度男生，Jaya~
第一次学会写S，实用化钠是最流行的爆炸发型~ 第一次吃花粉，是在幼稚园的大门等校车时~
我小时候，走路都会小心翼翼的，未跌倒到流血， 第一次的大跌实在姑婆家外的大马路~
第一天进入小学的班, 很高兴，因为被派到和我表妹上同样的班~
第一天人是我最要好的朋友，是当我们一起巡楼时~
第一天上Form6 的情景，还像是昨天刚发生的事情~
第一天离家，要去大学上课，很舍不得父母，但还是要装作一副无所谓，我很好的样子~
第一次~~第一次~~
很多很多的第一次。。。很多很多的回忆~
可见~我虽然看起来很年轻，但，人生这条路我已经做过了1/3~
加油吧！！让我创造根多更多得第一次~
还记得，
那第一次踏进幼稚园的门口，是我父母（忘记是哪个）带我去参观学校，跟我们讲解学校课程的是我的班由主任~
第一次在幼稚园交朋友，是个印度男生，Jaya~
第一次学会写S，实用化钠是最流行的爆炸发型~ 第一次吃花粉，是在幼稚园的大门等校车时~
我小时候，走路都会小心翼翼的，未跌倒到流血， 第一次的大跌实在姑婆家外的大马路~
第一天进入小学的班, 很高兴，因为被派到和我表妹上同样的班~
第一天人是我最要好的朋友，是当我们一起巡楼时~
第一天上Form6 的情景，还像是昨天刚发生的事情~
第一天离家，要去大学上课，很舍不得父母，但还是要装作一副无所谓，我很好的样子~
第一次~~第一次~~
很多很多的第一次。。。很多很多的回忆~
可见~我虽然看起来很年轻，但，人生这条路我已经做过了1/3~
加油吧！！让我创造根多更多得第一次~
May 8, 2008
自不量力
人~难免会有自不量力的时候~ 然后，兴奋得开始了人生某个阶段的幻想，想象事情会顺顺利利的迈向成功，但~到最后，如果经不起一次次的考验与失败，放弃是唯一一条路。
然而~皇天不负有心人，经过一次次的失败，从新开始，在失败，再从来后~终于~~终于~~我可以进入另一个步骤！哈哈哈哈哈！！
嗯~希望是如此啦~因，这是另一个妄想的开始~ 加油！！
希望一切顺顺利利完成~顺顺利利进入另一关！！
然而~皇天不负有心人，经过一次次的失败，从新开始，在失败，再从来后~终于~~终于~~我可以进入另一个步骤！哈哈哈哈哈！！
嗯~希望是如此啦~因，这是另一个妄想的开始~ 加油！！
希望一切顺顺利利完成~顺顺利利进入另一关！！
May 7, 2008
Sem Break
What kind of holiday is this?
Having to go Uni everyday~plus, wake up every morning at like 6+~I rather have exam or live in exam week~ but, ok la~ no stress apply now, just have to do everything that I suppose to do for my project, running like mad in the lab whole morning, doing like 2 or 3 things at a time....
Overall, life like that is still acceptable, just that I can't just lie on the bed, read some leisure, watch drama, lepak~
At least, everyday is productive and the most important thing is: I am almost on the way to get results....wahahahaha!!!! I can see something, but donno if its pure enough or not =.='''
Keep it up la~
p/s: almost becoming drama addict~ where drama is a need....haha~~~
Having to go Uni everyday~plus, wake up every morning at like 6+~I rather have exam or live in exam week~ but, ok la~ no stress apply now, just have to do everything that I suppose to do for my project, running like mad in the lab whole morning, doing like 2 or 3 things at a time....
Overall, life like that is still acceptable, just that I can't just lie on the bed, read some leisure, watch drama, lepak~
At least, everyday is productive and the most important thing is: I am almost on the way to get results....wahahahaha!!!! I can see something, but donno if its pure enough or not =.='''
Keep it up la~
p/s: almost becoming drama addict~ where drama is a need....haha~~~
May 3, 2008
Genting
今天，终于有人说我为什么那么逍遥自在~他还说希望它也可以像我那样~我还是老话一句：事在人为罢了！Well~ 只是要表达，我的目标之一已在默默地实行中。。。哈哈！！
Went Genting today~ just to relax my mind a bit, get away from my room, my bed, my table and out of KL~ just to free my mind and help me forget my stress a bit before I get into another page of my stuff....
The reward~ erm~ play bout 10 rounds of street basketball machine, learn some casino stuff, reward myself with a few small little things exchanged with the points I earn, have a superb lunch with only RM1.90, shout my stress out a bit with a ride....and spend RM70 for everything including transport~ thanks to the "invisible" support from my cute dad^.^ :p
Oh ya~ went to the Genting visitor galery~erm~ get to know genting a bit from there~plus~ i wrote something on the visitor book: A very good effort in making a place, where happiness can be bought with money^.^~
Here's some pic:
Some Exhibit in the galery (curi -curi take de :p)
May 1, 2008
社交圈
发现~我的社交圈并不大。。。两三只手指就能完全掌握~
当很沉很沉的时候，能打电话哈拉，sms的并不多~可能，因为我的人很难跟他人有很深的信任，而且，我会像很多，怕打扰人家，怕对方会觉得：你又不是我的谁，你的事干我屁事啊？
为什么我的圈圈就那么小？
因为~我喜欢做的事，往往不是一个人就可以搞定，就是多一个人陪我就可以了~比如，看连续剧，看电影，无聊闲逛，看书，观察人群，吃好吃的。。。就算运动也是一人搞定的-跑步，走走。。。
更何况，我除了学校就是房间，打工简直距我于千里之外~ 逛街还有门禁，同学聚会也看性格和不合~交朋友也有规定~(我都了~这些都是为我好，担心我~所以啊~我就从以前到现在，我宁愿在家，遵守每一个条例，因为我不要多事，也不要解释。。。安全，没事，不用解释，也不用听那些有的没有的~)
嗯~其实，也无所谓啦~这么多年，也习惯了~反正温室里的小花也没什么不好当的，世界也还是那么大~
该来的总是会来，该是朋友的永远是个朋友，不然就只能说：我命犯孤星=.=''' 好像没那么严重呼~
是时候进入DIGI的世界~因为~是时候改变^.^
当很沉很沉的时候，能打电话哈拉，sms的并不多~可能，因为我的人很难跟他人有很深的信任，而且，我会像很多，怕打扰人家，怕对方会觉得：你又不是我的谁，你的事干我屁事啊？
为什么我的圈圈就那么小？
因为~我喜欢做的事，往往不是一个人就可以搞定，就是多一个人陪我就可以了~比如，看连续剧，看电影，无聊闲逛，看书，观察人群，吃好吃的。。。就算运动也是一人搞定的-跑步，走走。。。
更何况，我除了学校就是房间，打工简直距我于千里之外~ 逛街还有门禁，同学聚会也看性格和不合~交朋友也有规定~(我都了~这些都是为我好，担心我~所以啊~我就从以前到现在，我宁愿在家，遵守每一个条例，因为我不要多事，也不要解释。。。安全，没事，不用解释，也不用听那些有的没有的~)
嗯~其实，也无所谓啦~这么多年，也习惯了~反正温室里的小花也没什么不好当的，世界也还是那么大~
该来的总是会来，该是朋友的永远是个朋友，不然就只能说：我命犯孤星=.=''' 好像没那么严重呼~
是时候进入DIGI的世界~因为~是时候改变^.^
April 30, 2008
Its all in ur brain!
Sometimes, things just go strange around u~ how u feel, how u think, how ur heart beat goes, how ur body react with all those strange stuff~
But the question here is~ y does such things go about?
I mean~ how does those strange things in u started off, progress, and make u feel unconfortable, but relief without any clinical diagnosis/treatment?
Most of those ppl, even highly, scientifically educated, will put all the blame on ghostly, unseen and unfelt power.
For myself, I insists that such feelings, thoughts and "symptoms" are due to mental, neurological connections. Hence, an in-depth knowledge of nerves, brain, and psycology plays an important part for us, humans, to get to know urself better.
On the other hand, I believe that there is something called "qi"/"chi" or power/energy, in everything on earth. Hence, a balance of all "qi"/"chi", is important in having physical and mental healthiness (a "yin" and "yang" sort of~)
But the question here is~ y does such things go about?
I mean~ how does those strange things in u started off, progress, and make u feel unconfortable, but relief without any clinical diagnosis/treatment?
Most of those ppl, even highly, scientifically educated, will put all the blame on ghostly, unseen and unfelt power.
For myself, I insists that such feelings, thoughts and "symptoms" are due to mental, neurological connections. Hence, an in-depth knowledge of nerves, brain, and psycology plays an important part for us, humans, to get to know urself better.
On the other hand, I believe that there is something called "qi"/"chi" or power/energy, in everything on earth. Hence, a balance of all "qi"/"chi", is important in having physical and mental healthiness (a "yin" and "yang" sort of~)
终点 vs. 起点
世事的终点，总是另一事的起始点~
世界上，没有一条路是死路~因为，地球是圆的，在死路另一边，一定会有另一个更美好的世界让我们去开发，去认识，去发掘~
上帝创造世界是，牠创下来的每一点每一滴，都是美好的~就只是你，我，他，如何去看待这世界~
换个角度看世界吧~世界会因为有你而更美丽！
记得哦~上帝是疼我们的~就算他把你眼前的所有门都关了，他一定会为你留一扇窗，只是~你有没有用“心”去聆听而已^.^
p/s: 我讲到好像我进了啥教似的:p 但~事情就是这样~你，你，或你~你们到的，想到的，觉得的东东~都是你们脑子里的~ 不要自以为很了解我, 要猜我在想什么~ 哼! 窗都没有！:p
世界上，没有一条路是死路~因为，地球是圆的，在死路另一边，一定会有另一个更美好的世界让我们去开发，去认识，去发掘~
人，总是会有梦想，目标~但，就算是目标达成了，或是失败了~也不能就这样没有了方向啊！因为，这时才是生命的开始，梦想的启发点！人生就像这样: 
总是起起落落的~另一个高峰，不一定要比前一个高峰来得高~但~就是要有勇气去开始^.^
总是起起落落的~另一个高峰，不一定要比前一个高峰来得高~但~就是要有勇气去开始^.^上帝创造世界是，牠创下来的每一点每一滴，都是美好的~就只是你，我，他，如何去看待这世界~
换个角度看世界吧~世界会因为有你而更美丽！
记得哦~上帝是疼我们的~就算他把你眼前的所有门都关了，他一定会为你留一扇窗，只是~你有没有用“心”去聆听而已^.^
p/s: 我讲到好像我进了啥教似的:p 但~事情就是这样~你，你，或你~你们到的，想到的，觉得的东东~都是你们脑子里的~ 不要自以为很了解我, 要猜我在想什么~ 哼! 窗都没有！:p
用“心”~其实，我只是很单纯，很单纯的分享而已^.^
April 28, 2008
忌妒心作怪
啊！！！每当我看到某些事，或物，或情况~我的嫉妒心就会开始做怪~让我抓狂~
或许，我的嫉妒已超过了该处于的平衡点~或许，我有点神经上脑~或许，我就是不能看人家好~好像有点变态^.^但就是这样~难怪~我就只能坐在这，然后八那些有的没的...就不能自己下场进入所嫉妒的世界。。。。
或许，我嫉妒的太多了吧~或许，我只是不甘心，不够感恩~
干嘛？作反啊？读书呗傻子！！
或许，我的嫉妒已超过了该处于的平衡点~或许，我有点神经上脑~或许，我就是不能看人家好~好像有点变态^.^但就是这样~难怪~我就只能坐在这，然后八那些有的没的...就不能自己下场进入所嫉妒的世界。。。。
或许，我嫉妒的太多了吧~或许，我只是不甘心，不够感恩~
干嘛？作反啊？读书呗傻子！！
April 27, 2008
国界
世界，每个国家，每个团体，每个人，都有一个迈向国际，为国争光的理想，但，有没有人想过，何谓你？何谓我？和为国？何谓世界？何谓国际？
我，出生，成长，生活，都在马来西亚~所以，我的身份是马来西亚的人民。
同样的，就拿王力宏举例：他出生于美国，成长过程也在美国，但，因他的血统是台籍，所以就成了台湾之光。再举例：记得那最近成了妓女的大马神童苏菲亚？就因他母亲是大马人，他就算是大马的神童？他爸是巴基斯坦籍，为何不说它是巴基斯坦神童？（p/s:我不是因他现有的身份才硬说他不该是大马人，只是要举例为何人要拿他人的身份当是自己的。）
就这样，国界，成了一个迷糊点。国籍成了因有成就，就让人抢这是我或是他的，而那可怜的有成就的人，就成了个“无国籍”人~
国籍，只是一张纸上的证明；身份，只是一张卡上的代名；我，你，他~如果世上没有纸，没有卡，没有电脑，没有电子，没有文字，没有语言，我是谁？你，他，有事何物？
世界，国际，就是没有你，没有我，没有他~没有谁的和谁的~也没有这国，那国的~
However,如果不分你我，没有了竞争，何来进步？何来世界？何来国际？
一切变得再也没有意义~
心，要宽，要阔，要看得远，想得开，放得下！ (但又有几个真的可以做到？）
都是虚荣心作怪~
争啥？
我，出生，成长，生活，都在马来西亚~所以，我的身份是马来西亚的人民。
同样的，就拿王力宏举例：他出生于美国，成长过程也在美国，但，因他的血统是台籍，所以就成了台湾之光。再举例：记得那最近成了妓女的大马神童苏菲亚？就因他母亲是大马人，他就算是大马的神童？他爸是巴基斯坦籍，为何不说它是巴基斯坦神童？（p/s:我不是因他现有的身份才硬说他不该是大马人，只是要举例为何人要拿他人的身份当是自己的。）
就这样，国界，成了一个迷糊点。国籍成了因有成就，就让人抢这是我或是他的，而那可怜的有成就的人，就成了个“无国籍”人~
国籍，只是一张纸上的证明；身份，只是一张卡上的代名；我，你，他~如果世上没有纸，没有卡，没有电脑，没有电子，没有文字，没有语言，我是谁？你，他，有事何物？
世界，国际，就是没有你，没有我，没有他~没有谁的和谁的~也没有这国，那国的~
However,如果不分你我，没有了竞争，何来进步？何来世界？何来国际？
一切变得再也没有意义~
心，要宽，要阔，要看得远，想得开，放得下！ (但又有几个真的可以做到？）
都是虚荣心作怪~
争啥？
April 22, 2008
炫耀
世界不一样了~炫耀成了一种普偏的行为，没得炫才叫做out！
我爸常说。。。不要处处炫耀你自己~可，我真的没有啊~我还会控制自己，炫该炫的，不做作，不违反我自己的良心，不制造麻烦^.^
Don't worry~我炫的，是我自豪的事~我如觉得不是该自豪的，或是觉得还不到自豪的阶段，我是不会乱来的~反正~要炫，就是跟那些看到的人宣战~我才没那么笨，明知输九条街了还要跟人家抢。
炫吧kuso的一群!!^.^
p/s: 告诉你哦~当你把大家都是你的朋友时，世界是那么的美，那么的宽阔~当你觉得你的朋友只有一个时，你就会感到孤单，无助哦~ 还好~我已成了前者^.^
我爸常说。。。不要处处炫耀你自己~可，我真的没有啊~我还会控制自己，炫该炫的，不做作，不违反我自己的良心，不制造麻烦^.^
Don't worry~我炫的，是我自豪的事~我如觉得不是该自豪的，或是觉得还不到自豪的阶段，我是不会乱来的~反正~要炫，就是跟那些看到的人宣战~我才没那么笨，明知输九条街了还要跟人家抢。
炫吧kuso的一群!!^.^
p/s: 告诉你哦~当你把大家都是你的朋友时，世界是那么的美，那么的宽阔~当你觉得你的朋友只有一个时，你就会感到孤单，无助哦~ 还好~我已成了前者^.^
Caffeine
Caffeine Content:-(From: http://coffeetea.about.com/library/blcaffeine.htm)
Double espresso (2oz) : 45-100 mg
Brewed coffee (8 oz): 60-120 mg
Instant coffee (8 oz): 70 mg
Decaf coffee (8 oz): 1-5 mg
Tea - black (8 oz): 45 mg
Tea - green (8 oz): 20 mg
Tea - white (8 oz):15 mg
Coca Cola (12 oz can): 34 mg
Pepsi (12 oz can): 38 mg
Barq's Root Beer (12 oz can): 22 mg
7-up (12 oz): 0 mg
Chocolate milk (8 oz): 4 mg
Dark chocolate (1 oz): 20 mg
Milk chocolate (1 oz): 6 mg
Ben & Jerry's Coffee Fudge Frozen Yogurt (8 oz): 85 mg
I was curious y I need longer time to clear off caffeine from my body that even I love coffee, I can't take coffee, coz it will produce a higher stimulatory response than normal ppl...even have tremor and after 12-13 hours, I still can't get into sleep well.
y?
coz~according to wiki: In healthy adults, caffeine's half-life is approximately 3–4 hours. In women taking oral contraceptives this is increased to 5–10 hours, and in pregnant women the half-life is roughly 9–11 hours.
And in my body,I think I have higher estrogen level than normal women of my age, which is equivalent to "taking contraceptives"(I mean~the estrogen level is equivalent), which equals to the caffeine half life in my body should be between 5-10 hours, hence, clearance rate is super slow in my body.
Well~ its all just a hypothesis....
can't get a better way of explaining things...(but will try to get a better explaination^.^)
Check out: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Caffeine
Caffeine database: http://www.cspinet.org/new/cafchart.htm
Double espresso (2oz) : 45-100 mg
Brewed coffee (8 oz): 60-120 mg
Instant coffee (8 oz): 70 mg
Decaf coffee (8 oz): 1-5 mg
Tea - black (8 oz): 45 mg
Tea - green (8 oz): 20 mg
Tea - white (8 oz):15 mg
Coca Cola (12 oz can): 34 mg
Pepsi (12 oz can): 38 mg
Barq's Root Beer (12 oz can): 22 mg
7-up (12 oz): 0 mg
Chocolate milk (8 oz): 4 mg
Dark chocolate (1 oz): 20 mg
Milk chocolate (1 oz): 6 mg
Ben & Jerry's Coffee Fudge Frozen Yogurt (8 oz): 85 mg
I was curious y I need longer time to clear off caffeine from my body that even I love coffee, I can't take coffee, coz it will produce a higher stimulatory response than normal ppl...even have tremor and after 12-13 hours, I still can't get into sleep well.
y?
coz~according to wiki: In healthy adults, caffeine's half-life is approximately 3–4 hours. In women taking oral contraceptives this is increased to 5–10 hours, and in pregnant women the half-life is roughly 9–11 hours.
And in my body,I think I have higher estrogen level than normal women of my age, which is equivalent to "taking contraceptives"(I mean~the estrogen level is equivalent), which equals to the caffeine half life in my body should be between 5-10 hours, hence, clearance rate is super slow in my body.
Well~ its all just a hypothesis....
can't get a better way of explaining things...(but will try to get a better explaination^.^)
Check out: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Caffeine
Caffeine database: http://www.cspinet.org/new/cafchart.htm
April 20, 2008
战术
生活在世上，战术，是个必备的条件~ 就像是种人与人之间的一种沟通吧！
每个人心里对事的战术都不一样~所以才会有：“人群分类”。
有些人使用美人计，有的是调虎离山，有的是笑里藏刀，有的却像在战场上的军人一样是也防不是也防。。。
我的~却是直肠直肚，又哪句说哪句~再加上我的无敌厚脸皮，刚认识我的人都会觉得，好像我脑子里会有一对的学问，一托拉库不为人知的知识~到后来，那些人的眼镜都破到不堪。。嘻嘻！！ 我不是故意的啦~只是，这是我的心里战术，也方便我做人不用那么累^.^ 还有些人啊~就算曾给我的面貌给骗了，但，就还是觉得我还是那未被发掘的天才~歹势啦~我就是脸皮厚:p 就这样，拿着我的脸骗人家的称赞，但我还是挺得意的。。。哇哈哈哈哈哈！！！让我飘飘然 :p
嗯~我觉得我这样还不赖啊~起码我还是我，不用隐藏自己~不像有些人，明明就家境不赖，功课很好做啥都像从天降下来的好运。。。但还在那儿给我念~那是他的战术，要缭乱人心~朋友~要感恩！！我认识你，我知道你有几两重，不会摇动我的思绪的！！
感恩啊！！
每个人心里对事的战术都不一样~所以才会有：“人群分类”。
有些人使用美人计，有的是调虎离山，有的是笑里藏刀，有的却像在战场上的军人一样是也防不是也防。。。
我的~却是直肠直肚，又哪句说哪句~再加上我的无敌厚脸皮，刚认识我的人都会觉得，好像我脑子里会有一对的学问，一托拉库不为人知的知识~到后来，那些人的眼镜都破到不堪。。嘻嘻！！ 我不是故意的啦~只是，这是我的心里战术，也方便我做人不用那么累^.^ 还有些人啊~就算曾给我的面貌给骗了，但，就还是觉得我还是那未被发掘的天才~歹势啦~我就是脸皮厚:p 就这样，拿着我的脸骗人家的称赞，但我还是挺得意的。。。哇哈哈哈哈哈！！！让我飘飘然 :p
嗯~我觉得我这样还不赖啊~起码我还是我，不用隐藏自己~不像有些人，明明就家境不赖，功课很好做啥都像从天降下来的好运。。。但还在那儿给我念~那是他的战术，要缭乱人心~朋友~要感恩！！我认识你，我知道你有几两重，不会摇动我的思绪的！！
感恩啊！！
April 18, 2008
Back in Penang
螳螂 in the garden
Lunch cooked for myself^.^(grilled salmon, sausage and egg)
Dinner in TBowl (sitting on the toilet bowl =.=''')
Having Breakfast with dad in the garden (Sausage, egg and banana)
For more pic, click on "my photo album" icon^.^
April 16, 2008
good for nothing
Aih~ another wave of emo striking....who asked me to be so kaypo with other ppl's life now and then? then now~ I am so freak out bout myself that I don have anything that I am capable of doing to its best....all I know is those things that spend money and not getting even 1 sen in return. I know how to do things most females do...but not even that I know all of them~ I don even have B**** =.=''' how sad....
All I know is to study~and then spend money buying things that satisfy my needs. I am like a frog under the well....
erm~ maybe, wat I hold onto now is just my determination on things I wan in life and the No Fear.
Hope that I will become someone rather than a good for nothing someday....*dream* *dream* *dream*
All I know is to study~and then spend money buying things that satisfy my needs. I am like a frog under the well....
erm~ maybe, wat I hold onto now is just my determination on things I wan in life and the No Fear.
Hope that I will become someone rather than a good for nothing someday....*dream* *dream* *dream*
April 14, 2008
acceptance range/level
ppl tend to have lower and lower range of accepting things when one gets older day by day~ its like~ my dad can't stand those music me and my bro is listening and even those in Light FM, saying that they are very noisy, having no content in the songs, no motive in listening those songs~also, my grandaunt, who say that the My FM commercial have no motive whenever she sees it playing in Astro....
I was thinking....is it that when ppl gets older, they become in need of reasons to do every single thing, and that they have lower range of getting themselves to suit to the environment...like... old ppl like to ask me things like: y do u want to do this kind of thing if u can get the same results in the easier way. Erm~ I always don have any answer to that, its all just because that I want to try something that I never did b4 and experience in taking the other way is just not that of the easier way.
Maybe, its the fear and seeing things furthur, taking lots of things into consideration that older ppl, think that reason makes a huge part in their life, because~ erm~ maybe they have experienced more than I do, and hence, seeing things in a bigger picture.
My range of accepting things is very wide, I think~ coz to me, everything have their good and bad~ like....I love Baskin more coz of its creamy, milky flavour of it, but Haagen is great, coz of its smooth, mouth melting feeling...even New Zealand Natural have their own unique taste^.^ Another example...who say that the tap head have to be intact so that I can operate? The place I am staying in KL, the auntie donno y, its her house, but then~ its like "haunted", where nobody is staying....the tap head is spoilt, but she just don want to repair it. If its u who stays there, u won't have that kind of patience to bear with this kind of thing, telling the auntie over and over again that the tap head have to be repaired, BUT, I just change myself to accept the fact and suit myself to the situation. Maybe, this shows more of my patience, but this also show how I accept things better^.^
Well~different ppl have different ability and unique properties in them~so~ watever they do, we just have to see things in a different angle, and u will get a better picture out of it.
Accepting things seems to be easy, but aren't we complaining everyday bout minor stuff?
Widen ur range, making the world a creative one^.^
I was thinking....is it that when ppl gets older, they become in need of reasons to do every single thing, and that they have lower range of getting themselves to suit to the environment...like... old ppl like to ask me things like: y do u want to do this kind of thing if u can get the same results in the easier way. Erm~ I always don have any answer to that, its all just because that I want to try something that I never did b4 and experience in taking the other way is just not that of the easier way.
Maybe, its the fear and seeing things furthur, taking lots of things into consideration that older ppl, think that reason makes a huge part in their life, because~ erm~ maybe they have experienced more than I do, and hence, seeing things in a bigger picture.
My range of accepting things is very wide, I think~ coz to me, everything have their good and bad~ like....I love Baskin more coz of its creamy, milky flavour of it, but Haagen is great, coz of its smooth, mouth melting feeling...even New Zealand Natural have their own unique taste^.^ Another example...who say that the tap head have to be intact so that I can operate? The place I am staying in KL, the auntie donno y, its her house, but then~ its like "haunted", where nobody is staying....the tap head is spoilt, but she just don want to repair it. If its u who stays there, u won't have that kind of patience to bear with this kind of thing, telling the auntie over and over again that the tap head have to be repaired, BUT, I just change myself to accept the fact and suit myself to the situation. Maybe, this shows more of my patience, but this also show how I accept things better^.^
Well~different ppl have different ability and unique properties in them~so~ watever they do, we just have to see things in a different angle, and u will get a better picture out of it.
Accepting things seems to be easy, but aren't we complaining everyday bout minor stuff?
Widen ur range, making the world a creative one^.^
April 12, 2008
Dinner @ Rasa Sayang
Its family Birthday month~ So, the whole family, of coz, with my big bro's gf, Irene go for a grand dinner (I am the only 1 who doesn't have any income yet, so~ my job is just to eat and enjoy :p)
The dinner was superb! The food that entered my stomach are as follows: Lobster, fresh oyster, fresh mussle, fresh tuna and salmon, crab, blue cheeze, lamb satay, abolone, jelly fish, octopus, scallop, fish roe, sushi, appricot custard, chocolate dessert and of coz, some juice ^.^ (maybe I missed something, just can't remember wat I just ate :p)
Having a bloated stomach, I intend to sleep late tonight, erm~ so....exercise have to be delay 1 more day =.='''
Oh ya~ forgot to thank my big bro for that ^.^ u become more and more like a man d...hehe^.^ Thank You!!
p/s: photos uploaded in my flickr album. Just click on "my photo album" link on the right of the screen.
Photos are contributions of Nesohu.com!
The dinner was superb! The food that entered my stomach are as follows: Lobster, fresh oyster, fresh mussle, fresh tuna and salmon, crab, blue cheeze, lamb satay, abolone, jelly fish, octopus, scallop, fish roe, sushi, appricot custard, chocolate dessert and of coz, some juice ^.^ (maybe I missed something, just can't remember wat I just ate :p)
Having a bloated stomach, I intend to sleep late tonight, erm~ so....exercise have to be delay 1 more day =.='''
Oh ya~ forgot to thank my big bro for that ^.^ u become more and more like a man d...hehe^.^ Thank You!!
p/s: photos uploaded in my flickr album. Just click on "my photo album" link on the right of the screen.
Photos are contributions of Nesohu.com!
April 11, 2008
blog
My blog is like part of me, that its something that stands at a very high position in my life. Its a place where I can boast bout myself, say anything without having to see ppl's face and to share and virtually discuss thoughts with ppl around me.
I know my language level is very very shallow that even kindie can read wat I am writing but the interesting thing is that u will often stare at my blog blank or get question mark above ur head after u off ur comp (perasan :p)
Erm~ seemingly, ppl that often read my blog updates kind of miss them even its just like a week or 2. This means~ my blog is kind of a success in a way that ppl actually miss my silly thought...haha...
Well~ thanks for all ur support. Even the comment space is always blank (except my bro), but I know u, u and u are all reading my blog^.^
Keep an eye on the updates on my blog^.^-v
Here's a spot the abnormality:
Doesn't that picture on the cover of that Colour pen applicable to those boxes beside it? Hehe~ just think that its interesting~ but my hands are too shaky that day, thanks to the stupid coffee @#$(@#)$@!
I know my language level is very very shallow that even kindie can read wat I am writing but the interesting thing is that u will often stare at my blog blank or get question mark above ur head after u off ur comp (perasan :p)
Erm~ seemingly, ppl that often read my blog updates kind of miss them even its just like a week or 2. This means~ my blog is kind of a success in a way that ppl actually miss my silly thought...haha...
Well~ thanks for all ur support. Even the comment space is always blank (except my bro), but I know u, u and u are all reading my blog^.^
Keep an eye on the updates on my blog^.^-v
Here's a spot the abnormality:
Doesn't that picture on the cover of that Colour pen applicable to those boxes beside it? Hehe~ just think that its interesting~ but my hands are too shaky that day, thanks to the stupid coffee @#$(@#)$@!
April 8, 2008
History Replay
Notice that in grandma of mom's side is like very dependent on auntie and the 1st uncle that stays with grandma, grandma just don't want to ask him to do anything.
The thing is, both of them are grandma's children, but in the end, asking auntie to do things seems to be so easy and to ask the 1st uncle to do things is super hard. Y? I don't quite understand.
Now that the history about to replay in my family, getting mom to ask me to help her is just a call away, but asking my bro is like~ don wan la~ he will complain and say a lot of thing...bla bla bla~ thinking bout that, mom will be getting onto the seat of grandma, I will be with the combination of mom and her sis, and my bro will be a combination of 60-40 of 1st and 3rd uncle.
Well, we are ur kids, asking us to do anything, help out, even we complain or say anything, its just reasonable to do anything, even to taste ur shit(yucks! that only occur in chinese cultural story book "二十四孝" :p)
Old ppl~ its like asking grandchildren or children to do little little things are very hard~ but in the past, when u guys wipe our buttocks, bathe us, feed us....erm...I don think there's any complain.
Conclusion: Me, myself need to learn to have more patience towards older ppl, but seriously, if I think u are on the right position, I can do anything u asked me to, but if I think u are just super wrong, I will still voice out anything. For my bro...well~ i know u are a super great child, grandchild and a super bro, but sometimes, u are just more concerned bout ur own self than parents and stuff. To my lovely dad and cute mom, well, the right concept take both of u to a better sweet old days in future^.^
p/s: I know u are reading, and that's y :p
The thing is, both of them are grandma's children, but in the end, asking auntie to do things seems to be so easy and to ask the 1st uncle to do things is super hard. Y? I don't quite understand.
Now that the history about to replay in my family, getting mom to ask me to help her is just a call away, but asking my bro is like~ don wan la~ he will complain and say a lot of thing...bla bla bla~ thinking bout that, mom will be getting onto the seat of grandma, I will be with the combination of mom and her sis, and my bro will be a combination of 60-40 of 1st and 3rd uncle.
Well, we are ur kids, asking us to do anything, help out, even we complain or say anything, its just reasonable to do anything, even to taste ur shit(yucks! that only occur in chinese cultural story book "二十四孝" :p)
Old ppl~ its like asking grandchildren or children to do little little things are very hard~ but in the past, when u guys wipe our buttocks, bathe us, feed us....erm...I don think there's any complain.
Conclusion: Me, myself need to learn to have more patience towards older ppl, but seriously, if I think u are on the right position, I can do anything u asked me to, but if I think u are just super wrong, I will still voice out anything. For my bro...well~ i know u are a super great child, grandchild and a super bro, but sometimes, u are just more concerned bout ur own self than parents and stuff. To my lovely dad and cute mom, well, the right concept take both of u to a better sweet old days in future^.^
p/s: I know u are reading, and that's y :p
April 7, 2008
Present
It's about mom's birthday~ which is about 3 days away, but she has been very upset and complaining bout her hp, and wanted to buy a "chapalang" hp from Tesco =.=''' I have been trying to make her think that I will get her 1, since dad say he is going to give her surprise~ but then~ she really keat~ tell my dad she want to go Tesco to get that hp, so~ my dad also takut sama dia(coz me got the siao gene from her:p, so I know how siao can the "determination" to get something can go), so~ he tell her that he's going to get her 1 new hp....so~ no more surprise :(
Ok~ talking bout presents, its not a usual thing that runs in our family~ even angpow is only given on chinese new year(erm~as long as I can recall la). So, its kind of weird to give some1 present on some "special" day like Birthday....and hence, saying thank you is kind of a pai sei thing if suddenly some1 in the family give a present to the others^.^ Erm....i am kind of pai sei to say thank you to them also~ coz...weird la~ sendiri punya family, sendiri punya parents and abang~ say thank you do wat? So, here comes a magic word: appreciate~ or using sms or msn or email --> senang, cepat dan berkesan^.^
Y lea? Y we don't have that kind of present giving running in our house?
maybe~ its coz we get everything we need not only on special occasion, but on anytime of the year when things come into our mind....also~maybe we have been given everything in advance until...err....I donno advance till wat year my "birthday" present went d....haha~~
As long as I can recall, the last formal birthday present is my 1st hp in 2002, nokia 3310 (y I can remember? coz that year is world cup year, and I use my hp to talk football with my frens:p)
So~ erm~ Happy belated Birthday to my "world class" big bro (2nd April) and my lovely dad (6th April, yesterday) and Birthday in advance to my cute mom (10th April)....make cake for the 3 of u when i go back pg^.^
Ok~ talking bout presents, its not a usual thing that runs in our family~ even angpow is only given on chinese new year(erm~as long as I can recall la). So, its kind of weird to give some1 present on some "special" day like Birthday....and hence, saying thank you is kind of a pai sei thing if suddenly some1 in the family give a present to the others^.^ Erm....i am kind of pai sei to say thank you to them also~ coz...weird la~ sendiri punya family, sendiri punya parents and abang~ say thank you do wat? So, here comes a magic word: appreciate~ or using sms or msn or email --> senang, cepat dan berkesan^.^
Y lea? Y we don't have that kind of present giving running in our house?
maybe~ its coz we get everything we need not only on special occasion, but on anytime of the year when things come into our mind....also~maybe we have been given everything in advance until...err....I donno advance till wat year my "birthday" present went d....haha~~
As long as I can recall, the last formal birthday present is my 1st hp in 2002, nokia 3310 (y I can remember? coz that year is world cup year, and I use my hp to talk football with my frens:p)
So~ erm~ Happy belated Birthday to my "world class" big bro (2nd April) and my lovely dad (6th April, yesterday) and Birthday in advance to my cute mom (10th April)....make cake for the 3 of u when i go back pg^.^
April 5, 2008
Balance
Nutritionist always say that a balance diet is very important in every meal~ But my way of making things balance is by doing the week to week or mood to mood balance^.^
Its like~ i have had 3 days in a week with fast food, oily fast food, then try to make my way thru, getting healthy food for the next coming weeks, which is less oil, more vege, and very very moderate meals...so~ balance up all those food and "nutrient" absorbed into my body, which kind of like intestine clearance every weekend^.^
Not very healthy though =.=''' I am now making my way towards heart attack and brain damage, plus, kidney failure =.='''
Hopefully I can tahan longer on foods that are healthy.
P3@c3 -.^ _v
Its like~ i have had 3 days in a week with fast food, oily fast food, then try to make my way thru, getting healthy food for the next coming weeks, which is less oil, more vege, and very very moderate meals...so~ balance up all those food and "nutrient" absorbed into my body, which kind of like intestine clearance every weekend^.^
Not very healthy though =.=''' I am now making my way towards heart attack and brain damage, plus, kidney failure =.='''
Hopefully I can tahan longer on foods that are healthy.
P3@c3 -.^ _v
March 31, 2008
Face
Face is something very important in Chinese/Asian culture~ it is so important that even if we fell in public, the first thing that come into our mind is: are there ppl watching me while I fall or how do I hide myself immediately, than did I injure myself.
To boost bout ourselves is another thing that show others that we have "face". There are lots of examples as in different locations:
-In classical coffee shops, ppl "talk empty"(cakap kosong) bout something as in: analysis of political issue in their own way. Sometimes, when I over heard their conversation, its so funny but, from there, I take up a bit from the ppl's point of view and then analyse my thoughts in a better way, seeing a bigger picture.
-In traditional market, this auntie will tell that auntie how many marks her child got in sch, or the position of her child in sch, then compare hers and the other aunties. Even to compare price of a bunch of vege she bought yesterday some where else, which is like 10cents cheaper than the other auntie bought.
-In office, talking bout econ in the share market way. Saying bout how much my share went up yesterday and stuff.
Its all bout the good things ppl boost about, but when it comes to the bad things, they will still boost, but by turning points that looks bad to be seemingly as if nothing actually knock on his/her head.
HUMBLE~ is the word that all of us have to learn, BUT, not to the extreme that we keep everything to ourselves, thinking that sharing is showing off.
Its hard to get a balance, I know~ but then, just try not to make urself stand up, without even estimating ur own capability, or who are u/where r u standing comparing to the ppl u are talking to.
To boost bout ourselves is another thing that show others that we have "face". There are lots of examples as in different locations:
-In classical coffee shops, ppl "talk empty"(cakap kosong) bout something as in: analysis of political issue in their own way. Sometimes, when I over heard their conversation, its so funny but, from there, I take up a bit from the ppl's point of view and then analyse my thoughts in a better way, seeing a bigger picture.
-In traditional market, this auntie will tell that auntie how many marks her child got in sch, or the position of her child in sch, then compare hers and the other aunties. Even to compare price of a bunch of vege she bought yesterday some where else, which is like 10cents cheaper than the other auntie bought.
-In office, talking bout econ in the share market way. Saying bout how much my share went up yesterday and stuff.
Its all bout the good things ppl boost about, but when it comes to the bad things, they will still boost, but by turning points that looks bad to be seemingly as if nothing actually knock on his/her head.
HUMBLE~ is the word that all of us have to learn, BUT, not to the extreme that we keep everything to ourselves, thinking that sharing is showing off.
Its hard to get a balance, I know~ but then, just try not to make urself stand up, without even estimating ur own capability, or who are u/where r u standing comparing to the ppl u are talking to.
March 29, 2008
爱
我刚刚想到了一样东西~ 我常在心中，行动上的伟大，或表示的爱，就只不过是如此~就如此的表面化，只想到我自己，从来就没考虑到你。
可能，当温室里的小花惯了~什么叫为他人着想，我看，我一点都不懂。
我只想对你说：对不起！
OK~继续当我温室里的小花~就因为在没有负担，所以可以继续任性！
可能，当温室里的小花惯了~什么叫为他人着想，我看，我一点都不懂。
我只想对你说：对不起！
OK~继续当我温室里的小花~就因为在没有负担，所以可以继续任性！
March 24, 2008
Trio
What will it become if a trio that makes up of a perfectionist, a late and a whatever?
Well, things get into place quite Ok since donno when, its because even though the 3 of them have different kind of attitude and different down-side and up-side of them, they have some little force that put the 3 of them together~ its kind of unexplainable, but the force just exist O.o Of coz, there are times that they get onto each others nerves, but things are sorted out quickly^.^
This it the latest outcome after emotionally struggle through the "cooperation" :p
Simple, yet successful in a way ^.^
Well, things get into place quite Ok since donno when, its because even though the 3 of them have different kind of attitude and different down-side and up-side of them, they have some little force that put the 3 of them together~ its kind of unexplainable, but the force just exist O.o Of coz, there are times that they get onto each others nerves, but things are sorted out quickly^.^
This it the latest outcome after emotionally struggle through the "cooperation" :p
Simple, yet successful in a way ^.^
March 23, 2008
Countries
Did u know that how many countries are there on earth?
244!!!!
There are 244 of them and at the age of 22, I have been to 10 of them, which is 4.1% of them~ including the 1 I am staying in....erm is this considered an achivement??
It doesn't really matters much and does not differs much if I go to some where near, like Taiwan or Hong Kong, or even Singapore, or Malaysia itself, the things that matters is wat I've learn in each trip.
BUT~~I wan to go Sweden!!!! O.o
K la~ its fated that I have to go next time~so~for the both of u~ enjoy urself la>.<'''
244!!!!
There are 244 of them and at the age of 22, I have been to 10 of them, which is 4.1% of them~ including the 1 I am staying in....erm is this considered an achivement??
It doesn't really matters much and does not differs much if I go to some where near, like Taiwan or Hong Kong, or even Singapore, or Malaysia itself, the things that matters is wat I've learn in each trip.
BUT~~I wan to go Sweden!!!! O.o
K la~ its fated that I have to go next time~so~for the both of u~ enjoy urself la>.<'''
有早知，没乞丐
有早知，没乞丐(if there is "If i knew", there won't be beggar")
Well, I quite take that whole phrase into application, coz, its better to know things earlier, even though it doesn't help much, and I don't even understand a single word of anything told to me.
Remember that during year 2 sem 1, during A&P lecture, Dr. Kim taught us bout the ICAM and VCAM in the endothelium attachment~that time, she say~ this is too complicated, u all don't have to know the mechanism yet, u just have to remember the role of ICAM and VCAM in endothelium attachment.
but then, till now, looking at the notes with the mechanism of ICAM and VCAM, its still the same, = it donno me, I donno it.
So~ wat's the meaning of~ "u don't have to know the mechanism yet"? Its still the same if we know the mechanism from the beginning wat~ (p/s: I am not saying that she is wrong, maybe she did told us the mechanism, but I didn't remember >.<)
The same principle apply to teaching kids or telling kids things~ its like~ old ppl always say that the kids are too small to understand things we adults know, but, I still stand firm that even though they don't get the exact idea, they can adapt to the changes better than us adult, coz in their world, things are as simple as ABC~
e.g. when I was still in primary, my dad always tell me things that he learn in his world, when talking to his client~ he once told me that one of his client asked him, "u tell me that things are like this, this and this and move like this~ wat if we move back a few step and look around, will things work out better?"
Well, how can a primary sch gal me know how to interpret that whole situation? I just remember the whole story he told me, and remember that he say he learned something from there~ so~after that, when I encounter some situation that I can apply this, I then truely understands the whole idea.
There are a lot more e.g., but this is one that I can now think of^.^
Conclusion, its not a must to understand, but to apply and to adapt that one gains.
Well, I quite take that whole phrase into application, coz, its better to know things earlier, even though it doesn't help much, and I don't even understand a single word of anything told to me.
Remember that during year 2 sem 1, during A&P lecture, Dr. Kim taught us bout the ICAM and VCAM in the endothelium attachment~that time, she say~ this is too complicated, u all don't have to know the mechanism yet, u just have to remember the role of ICAM and VCAM in endothelium attachment.
but then, till now, looking at the notes with the mechanism of ICAM and VCAM, its still the same, = it donno me, I donno it.
So~ wat's the meaning of~ "u don't have to know the mechanism yet"? Its still the same if we know the mechanism from the beginning wat~ (p/s: I am not saying that she is wrong, maybe she did told us the mechanism, but I didn't remember >.<)
The same principle apply to teaching kids or telling kids things~ its like~ old ppl always say that the kids are too small to understand things we adults know, but, I still stand firm that even though they don't get the exact idea, they can adapt to the changes better than us adult, coz in their world, things are as simple as ABC~
e.g. when I was still in primary, my dad always tell me things that he learn in his world, when talking to his client~ he once told me that one of his client asked him, "u tell me that things are like this, this and this and move like this~ wat if we move back a few step and look around, will things work out better?"
Well, how can a primary sch gal me know how to interpret that whole situation? I just remember the whole story he told me, and remember that he say he learned something from there~ so~after that, when I encounter some situation that I can apply this, I then truely understands the whole idea.
There are a lot more e.g., but this is one that I can now think of^.^
Conclusion, its not a must to understand, but to apply and to adapt that one gains.
累
最近~都很累~心灵上，脑袋上，就连身体都累得不得了~
心灵上的累~嗯~好像没什么有...哈哈~
脑袋上的~就是FYP啊~考试~加上这又那的~个个都要用脑力,个个都要记得~而且,我的记性又不好>.<'''
身体上的~就是自找的~明明可以多睡一会就是要爬起来跑跑,明明可以早点睡就是要做动做西的,明明可以偷懒但就是要多坐一会~>.<'''
但~累得开心就好啦~^.^
心灵上的累~嗯~好像没什么有...哈哈~
脑袋上的~就是FYP啊~考试~加上这又那的~个个都要用脑力,个个都要记得~而且,我的记性又不好>.<'''
身体上的~就是自找的~明明可以多睡一会就是要爬起来跑跑,明明可以早点睡就是要做动做西的,明明可以偷懒但就是要多坐一会~>.<'''
但~累得开心就好啦~^.^
March 21, 2008
March 15, 2008
Post-election Teh tarik
Its a week after polling day~ but the heat is still on~ after all, its the 1st time in 50 years of independence history of Malaysia that 5 states got into the hands of the opposition, which is good in the sense that the people of Malaysia is no longer fear of the power that the government has, and make their decision and voice out their dissatisfactions towards the control of the Malaysian politics by "tut".
The dissatisfaction is not towards a race, or towards things and plans that have been said and done by the ex-government, but, its to voice our say in a very democratic way~ its all depends on how the ex-gov analyse and think of wat we, the people of Malaysia want to say in the ballots. However, to my disappointment, the people in the gov have misinterpret the voice of Malaysia, the current opposition have been opposing in a very childish way that even me, that doesn't know lot bout politics think that they are just having dilemma over the result of the GE2008.
Well, taking up the seat as an opposition after so many years being those who govern, its hard to take the fact in a very positive way, but then, as a politician, and being those who wants to work for the people of Malaysia and being the people that taking the position to govern the country or state, isn't that u guys have to have the mature enough brain to see things~ after all, being politician's main motive isn't it to bring the best for the people of Malaysia, and not only to see the advantage of ur own self and at the same way, being sooo~childish that u "发兰扎" over the loss o ur party???
I just can't get it~ its one thing that I hate so much bout politics~lost one's self after getting a position in political party, or forgot bout one's motive of being a politician after getting the seat he/she strive for, being sooo~dramatic over issues that is small enough not even to kill an ant~
Lets sit back for a minute or 2 just to think bout what politics' motive actually is about~
Soooo~ disappointed towards those ppl that we, the people of Malaysia have been supporting for the past 50 years~ lucky enough that the opposition win 5 states, but is it also unlucky for them? Its all we can do as a Malaysian~ thru the ballots and getting ppl to misunderstand our voice>.<
P/s: yea~ all bloggers are women and we eat too full that we can only move our fingers on the keyboard~ What can we do and where can we say wat we think so that ppl around the country and around the world could hear us? Blogs are the best place to be~
The dissatisfaction is not towards a race, or towards things and plans that have been said and done by the ex-government, but, its to voice our say in a very democratic way~ its all depends on how the ex-gov analyse and think of wat we, the people of Malaysia want to say in the ballots. However, to my disappointment, the people in the gov have misinterpret the voice of Malaysia, the current opposition have been opposing in a very childish way that even me, that doesn't know lot bout politics think that they are just having dilemma over the result of the GE2008.
Well, taking up the seat as an opposition after so many years being those who govern, its hard to take the fact in a very positive way, but then, as a politician, and being those who wants to work for the people of Malaysia and being the people that taking the position to govern the country or state, isn't that u guys have to have the mature enough brain to see things~ after all, being politician's main motive isn't it to bring the best for the people of Malaysia, and not only to see the advantage of ur own self and at the same way, being sooo~childish that u "发兰扎" over the loss o ur party???
I just can't get it~ its one thing that I hate so much bout politics~lost one's self after getting a position in political party, or forgot bout one's motive of being a politician after getting the seat he/she strive for, being sooo~dramatic over issues that is small enough not even to kill an ant~
Lets sit back for a minute or 2 just to think bout what politics' motive actually is about~
Soooo~ disappointed towards those ppl that we, the people of Malaysia have been supporting for the past 50 years~ lucky enough that the opposition win 5 states, but is it also unlucky for them? Its all we can do as a Malaysian~ thru the ballots and getting ppl to misunderstand our voice>.<
P/s: yea~ all bloggers are women and we eat too full that we can only move our fingers on the keyboard~ What can we do and where can we say wat we think so that ppl around the country and around the world could hear us? Blogs are the best place to be~
March 13, 2008
爱情与面包
当正在爱的水生火热的时候，两人要分割两地，或两人的差距越来越远， 或两人的思想上的成长变得不一致， 那时，就是考虑爱情或面包的时候。
一开始，两人总是会想，可以的，会有结果的~我们不会有改变的~但~我现在觉得，面包始终较实际， 因面包不会辜负你，不会骗你，你也不用顾虑这或那的~又能填饱肚子，让你继续向前冲刺~虽然，在爱情里是互相的，两者都付出同等的爱，但，就是。。。总之，就是现在，我抱着的是面包，爱情，眉尖都没看到~
可能，我对爱的观念已大大的改变，抱着面包，却又担心把面包抱得太紧~ So~继续冲刺！！
一开始，两人总是会想，可以的，会有结果的~我们不会有改变的~但~我现在觉得，面包始终较实际， 因面包不会辜负你，不会骗你，你也不用顾虑这或那的~又能填饱肚子，让你继续向前冲刺~虽然，在爱情里是互相的，两者都付出同等的爱，但，就是。。。总之，就是现在，我抱着的是面包，爱情，眉尖都没看到~
可能，我对爱的观念已大大的改变，抱着面包，却又担心把面包抱得太紧~ So~继续冲刺！！
March 10, 2008
Democracy
水可以载舟，亦可以覆舟（water can float a boat, can also over turn a boat)~
That's how democracy works~and this is how opposition takes over 5 states in this 12th election. Its all depends on how u act and wat u do as a government to govern the country and how many things that u let the people know and how much things u would want to cover under the bed sheets.
As ppl of Malaysia, I think that we, as part of the country, knows how to judge and have thoughts of our own, not only say yes and nod on everything u tell us~
Lies become part of our culture, that makes newspapers only have the date and day correct, other contents in it are 70-80% nonsense. Of coz, it's all based on how u see things and judge the whole image, and not to follow every word written and heard.
So~ with the new page of history of Malaysia, starting today, practice wat is rite~Bring the best out of ur pocket for the Malaysians for the good of us all~
Don't Play Play~"We know wat u did last Summer"^.^
That's how democracy works~and this is how opposition takes over 5 states in this 12th election. Its all depends on how u act and wat u do as a government to govern the country and how many things that u let the people know and how much things u would want to cover under the bed sheets.
As ppl of Malaysia, I think that we, as part of the country, knows how to judge and have thoughts of our own, not only say yes and nod on everything u tell us~
Lies become part of our culture, that makes newspapers only have the date and day correct, other contents in it are 70-80% nonsense. Of coz, it's all based on how u see things and judge the whole image, and not to follow every word written and heard.
So~ with the new page of history of Malaysia, starting today, practice wat is rite~Bring the best out of ur pocket for the Malaysians for the good of us all~
Don't Play Play~"We know wat u did last Summer"^.^
March 8, 2008
Election
It's the day to cast ur vote, and do something for Malaysia as a Malaysian^.^
This is my 1st time voting~ erm~ quite interesting....having the paper and pencil in ur hands that decides the future of Malaysians^.^
Well~ I voted for "tut" "tut" and "tut" "tut"....haha~ private and confidential ma~ nobody knows who voted for who exactly, and in that case, its well~ just lock in to malaysia kini for the latest news la~
hehe~ very excited bout the result....
Its all over d~ so~ I would like to share some pictures with u~
Its M** R**P** on the road~ trying to make the whole road theirs, blocking the whole 2 lane road, just to make way for all those "tut" "tut".
So~ think bout it just b4 polling day~ I rather make Malaysia a better place to live in instead of having all this kind of things happening in our beloved country~
Thats y......
This is my 1st time voting~ erm~ quite interesting....having the paper and pencil in ur hands that decides the future of Malaysians^.^
Well~ I voted for "tut" "tut" and "tut" "tut"....haha~ private and confidential ma~ nobody knows who voted for who exactly, and in that case, its well~ just lock in to malaysia kini for the latest news la~
hehe~ very excited bout the result....
Its all over d~ so~ I would like to share some pictures with u~
Its M** R**P** on the road~ trying to make the whole road theirs, blocking the whole 2 lane road, just to make way for all those "tut" "tut".So~ think bout it just b4 polling day~ I rather make Malaysia a better place to live in instead of having all this kind of things happening in our beloved country~
Thats y......
March 7, 2008
Today's special
Today's special on the menu is ~~ chiang chiang~~ Bibimbap^.^
Its something like "nasi campur", but the campur is very campur de~ meaning, u really have to use ur spoon to mix everything on the rice with the rice till thorough, then only start eating. Sounds very geli, but it is really delicious~
I tried to make it as Korean as possible, by having it with KimChi, and with a small plate of "ikan bilis" as side dishes.
It ended up quite beautifully~ but the taste~erm not quite that eaten in Korea, but similar, not too bad to swallow, since my mom who have quite a taste bud did not say that it is tasteless or that it is geli like wat my dad made the week before^.^ hehe~
Will post the pic of the dish I made in 2 day's time~ so~ just try to imagine it first~
p/s: big bro haven't have his dinner~ I wonder how he thinks of the dish+.+
March 6, 2008
CNY Bird
The sound of the "CNY Bird" can still be heard even though CNY has past d~
The bird is named "CNY bird" coz it only can be heard around the period of CNY~ It always sounded "wu wor~ wu wor~" ^.^
Hope they know their way back to where they have to be during summer~ if not, they will just die here coz of the weather and become extinct.
The bird is named "CNY bird" coz it only can be heard around the period of CNY~ It always sounded "wu wor~ wu wor~" ^.^
Hope they know their way back to where they have to be during summer~ if not, they will just die here coz of the weather and become extinct.
March 5, 2008
Feel bad~
I am a bit guilty of being soooo....determined to go home this weekend, I mean~ the middle of the week. Its not only the guilt to go home, but the guilt that makes the Lecturer, Dr. Hii to make the test on Thursday and have to be hated by the whole class just because of a few of us in class is even worse~
Well~ humans have to be selfish rite? have to think of themselves b4 thinking for others~ that's how to survive in this society rite? so~ its how I do it~ U all are selfish also rite? think that u urself can't make the time to study or watever excuses u made up for urself~ then wan me and the few of us to be considerate?? No Way~
Since the date was already set and notify since centuries ago, theres no excuse to make that u can't do this and that. I can, y can't u?
Watever is the only word~ if u want to shoot me, wan to hate me, go ahead~ BUT, just shoot me with words la~ not gun^.^Shoot me in my frenster comment or my blogger comment, and let the whole world knows that u hate me that much, if that can make u feel better^.^
Anyway~ its test tomolo anyway~ so~ good luck to u, and to myself^.^
Well~ humans have to be selfish rite? have to think of themselves b4 thinking for others~ that's how to survive in this society rite? so~ its how I do it~ U all are selfish also rite? think that u urself can't make the time to study or watever excuses u made up for urself~ then wan me and the few of us to be considerate?? No Way~
Since the date was already set and notify since centuries ago, theres no excuse to make that u can't do this and that. I can, y can't u?
Watever is the only word~ if u want to shoot me, wan to hate me, go ahead~ BUT, just shoot me with words la~ not gun^.^Shoot me in my frenster comment or my blogger comment, and let the whole world knows that u hate me that much, if that can make u feel better^.^
Anyway~ its test tomolo anyway~ so~ good luck to u, and to myself^.^
March 4, 2008
Photo link
Changed my photo album link to http://www.flickr.com/photos/queenieneoh/
Check it out when u r free^.^ plus~ add some comments if u want to~ thanks^.^
Check it out when u r free^.^ plus~ add some comments if u want to~ thanks^.^
March 2, 2008
-看.衰-
There are ppl out there that are very conscious bout how they are being look upon, and how they have to act in front of different different ppl. In their state of mind, they classify ppl into different classes with different status in the society, or I should say, the status in their own opinion, which is from the sense of money and name.
With this, this "kind" of ppl, they "need" and not "acquire" branded goods and stuff to make themselves look classy and not out dated, so as to not being "look down" by ppl surrounding them. Its like, I have to have a huge MPV newer version than urs so that u are so impressed that I am part of the classy and not in the lower level of status. Or, to dress up in branded "Gu**i", taking "L*" or to use some lastest model of "N*k*a" or best functioned "S*ny Err*cs*n" phone instead of using just 3310 still~
And there are times, that even they might feel that pasar malam clothes or clothes that are sold in shopping mall in a "dump" bin are comfortable to be worn, but, since they have no name on them, they just feel not rite to wear them to functions or just to meet up some frens or so~
For me and my family, we can just wear a sampah t-shirt, which is so worn out, that the rubber on the collar and sleeves go so loose, the colour of the shirt is half of that when it was first bought, or if the clothes are worn 3-5 years or even 10 years already, plus, a simple short and a sandal~ off we go to supermarkets or shopping malls~
There is nothing to be shy of when ppl asked me, where did I get my shirt~ Is just a simple answer~from a "dump" bin somewhere~ or its like I have been wearing my "uni-going" shirts since I first went to UM, and then switch to UTAR, but there is nothing to be afraid of anyone's look or questions.
Yet, even me and big bro is wearing that kind of clothes out of the house, we still are not being look down upon, saying that we didn't carry a branded bag or our clothes is far too "rubbish" to be worn out.
Ok, better e.g.~ y should I get the attention of the sales ppl in the shopping mall by wearing something sophisticated, when I can simply browse through shops unnoticed, unserved, and just shop at my own pace?
Hehe~p/s: don be so perasan that u think I am talking about u, its just that I saw someone that don want to "chai" me just becoz he/she's wearing something branded so that ppl won't "look down" on him/her
With this, this "kind" of ppl, they "need" and not "acquire" branded goods and stuff to make themselves look classy and not out dated, so as to not being "look down" by ppl surrounding them. Its like, I have to have a huge MPV newer version than urs so that u are so impressed that I am part of the classy and not in the lower level of status. Or, to dress up in branded "Gu**i", taking "L*" or to use some lastest model of "N*k*a" or best functioned "S*ny Err*cs*n" phone instead of using just 3310 still~
And there are times, that even they might feel that pasar malam clothes or clothes that are sold in shopping mall in a "dump" bin are comfortable to be worn, but, since they have no name on them, they just feel not rite to wear them to functions or just to meet up some frens or so~
For me and my family, we can just wear a sampah t-shirt, which is so worn out, that the rubber on the collar and sleeves go so loose, the colour of the shirt is half of that when it was first bought, or if the clothes are worn 3-5 years or even 10 years already, plus, a simple short and a sandal~ off we go to supermarkets or shopping malls~
There is nothing to be shy of when ppl asked me, where did I get my shirt~ Is just a simple answer~from a "dump" bin somewhere~ or its like I have been wearing my "uni-going" shirts since I first went to UM, and then switch to UTAR, but there is nothing to be afraid of anyone's look or questions.
Yet, even me and big bro is wearing that kind of clothes out of the house, we still are not being look down upon, saying that we didn't carry a branded bag or our clothes is far too "rubbish" to be worn out.
Ok, better e.g.~ y should I get the attention of the sales ppl in the shopping mall by wearing something sophisticated, when I can simply browse through shops unnoticed, unserved, and just shop at my own pace?
Hehe~p/s: don be so perasan that u think I am talking about u, its just that I saw someone that don want to "chai" me just becoz he/she's wearing something branded so that ppl won't "look down" on him/her
February 28, 2008
Phrase of the day
近日我惊人的句子：人必定要靠自己，因为，人不能肯定自己明天是否还在，那，就也不能确定他人明天仍在~
结论：自己能做到的事，都要靠自己~说不懂事世上最简单的。 没有不懂的， 只有要懂或不要懂的。
结论：自己能做到的事，都要靠自己~说不懂事世上最简单的。 没有不懂的， 只有要懂或不要懂的。
February 25, 2008
+.=
Found a very good phrase in the lab: Live like u are going to die tomolo, learn as if u are going to live forever~
February 24, 2008
Potato Salad
This is today's special^.^Recipe:
6 potatoes (Holland)
4 eggs
1 yellow onion
pepper
salt
mayonnaise
Boil potato with skin. Boil eggs to hard-boiled.
Cut potato, boiled eggs and onion into bite size.
Mixed gently with mayonnaise (until u syok :P).
Add pepper and salt to taste.
It turned up to be ok~ since I didn't follow everything that have to be added into a potato salad, since I hate celery and stuff~ so~ I only add those things I like eating^.^
p/s: I know u got ur mouth's watery d~hehe^.^
February 22, 2008
Life
Well~ I really can’t understand how “u” live
Uncertainties, that is of wat that happens every moments in
Not very convincing? Another example~ I drive to uni everyday~ if I am scared, then I will always be thinking, wat if I kena langgar? KL punya kereta very dangerous u know? Wat if I kena saman if I park at the lorong behind my uni? Wat if there are snatch thieves? TBR wor, very dark de place lai~ very dangerous de u know? >.<’’’
Wat can u actually do with all those uncertainty? Or said as risk? We measure them~ we plan~ we manage~ of coz, there is no such thing as eliminate all the risk to zero, but, weight them, not to avoid them!
If in the end, u get something not as wat u planned at the beginning, accept it~ embrace it as like that of wat u planned, after all, u gained wat others might not, and wat u get might be more than wat u planned in the beginning.
There are things that we can’t see, but I believe, if there is dream, there is hope, there is imagination, there is light in our live~
Asking me to be living in darkness? Very hard~
Asking me to have no stand in my life, or standing “everywhere” but “no where”? Very hard~
Think~ I just don want “u”, “u” and “u” to become wat I am seeing everyday^.^加油!!
P/s: I am also confronting my fear everyday~ its not suffering, but an enjoyable process~ I am pek chek at times, but then~ this feeling makes me feel that I am alive~ I lose control of myself at times, but~ this makes me have thought of how to make changes to little little things bout myself~ I am still learning also~ of coz~ wat do u expect? I am only 23 this year wat^.^
女生没有男朋友的16大好处!!!
Got this from frenster^.^
Well~ this passage is kind of some lie that gals made up to make themselves feel better~ but then~ some of those are true actually, but then~ come on la~ don need to always cover up all of ur feelings by making up all these phrases >.<'''
Well~ just as a reference^.^ I think that this is quite interesting, that's y i put this up^.^
Well~ this passage is kind of some lie that gals made up to make themselves feel better~ but then~ some of those are true actually, but then~ come on la~ don need to always cover up all of ur feelings by making up all these phrases >.<'''
Well~ just as a reference^.^ I think that this is quite interesting, that's y i put this up^.^
February 21, 2008
周杰伦大马世界巡回演唱会
Jay Chou's going to be Singing live in Merdeka stadium tomolo~ the venue, which is bout 10+km from my house only, but then~ I can't go for the concert~
1stly, no tickets, which is very expensive, that I don't have that kind of financial support of my own yet, and 2ndly, I don have 100% insured protection of my safety >.<'''
So~ if u still want to get me to the concert, which means~ want a date with me to the concert~ which also means, to fulfill my "date" with Jay Chou, and ur "date" with me~ there are a few things u need to do~
1st, get 2 tickets, which is 1 for me and one for u = RM800 ( I only want to VIP seats:p)
2nd, call me to confirm ur "date" with me (So perasan la me =.=''')
3rd, get a car/transportation in KL
4th, be in KL tomolo b4 the concert start
5th, fetch me from my home
6th, go enjoy the concert with me (no yawning pls)
lastly, sent me back home safely^.^
Perasan rite? Like I am the centre of the world, or the one and the only Queen~
Watever~ it can't be fulfill anyway~ just let me dream bout that, and imagine that I am in the concert for 48 hours by listening to all his songs from the 1st album to the 8th, plus all those soundtracks and stuff~
*Start Dreaming*
1stly, no tickets, which is very expensive, that I don't have that kind of financial support of my own yet, and 2ndly, I don have 100% insured protection of my safety >.<'''
So~ if u still want to get me to the concert, which means~ want a date with me to the concert~ which also means, to fulfill my "date" with Jay Chou, and ur "date" with me~ there are a few things u need to do~
1st, get 2 tickets, which is 1 for me and one for u = RM800 ( I only want to VIP seats:p)
2nd, call me to confirm ur "date" with me (So perasan la me =.=''')
3rd, get a car/transportation in KL
4th, be in KL tomolo b4 the concert start
5th, fetch me from my home
6th, go enjoy the concert with me (no yawning pls)
lastly, sent me back home safely^.^
Perasan rite? Like I am the centre of the world, or the one and the only Queen~
Watever~ it can't be fulfill anyway~ just let me dream bout that, and imagine that I am in the concert for 48 hours by listening to all his songs from the 1st album to the 8th, plus all those soundtracks and stuff~
*Start Dreaming*
Cerebellum
I think I have some problem with my connection of cerebellum with my body parts~
I choked today when I tried to swallow my saliva, and then coughed and coughed for 2 minutes or so after that choked. Then, the other day when I was having my dinner, I have the bolus of rice stucked in my throat that I have to make super effort of swallowing to make it go into my stomach. And, as most of u know, I have shaky hands, which I can't really control them properly....
Some nerves must be short-circuit"ing" some where in my brain~
Well~ want to get me into some tests??haha~~no need la~ its just some normal short-circuit, like electricity by past the wrong routes at times^.^
p/s: too much drama d~ wahahahaha~~~
I choked today when I tried to swallow my saliva, and then coughed and coughed for 2 minutes or so after that choked. Then, the other day when I was having my dinner, I have the bolus of rice stucked in my throat that I have to make super effort of swallowing to make it go into my stomach. And, as most of u know, I have shaky hands, which I can't really control them properly....
Some nerves must be short-circuit"ing" some where in my brain~
Well~ want to get me into some tests??haha~~no need la~ its just some normal short-circuit, like electricity by past the wrong routes at times^.^
p/s: too much drama d~ wahahahaha~~~
February 19, 2008
Natural Ability
Today, a fren asked me:" u said that I have natural ability to attract other ppl's attention. So, if u have the ability, what will u do with it?"
Well~ I will become a person who is very 嚣张（xiao1zhang1), coz~ I always wanted attention from ppl^.^However, I am not that kind that wan to attract attention till go to jump from a building, or shout out loud in public, or dance naked in public....sort of things like that :p Wat I'll do is things that I try to make effort on something~ do something quietly, expecting somebody will notice and appreciate my existence~ That's y, when I think that someone will have bad impression towards me, or that I will "black listed" somehow, I get very panicky and "pek chek"....
Talking bout my 嚣张 if I have the natural ability of attraction, I might be very proud, talking things like everyone is an idiot, chin and eyes always pointing towards the sky, always think that I am a born-to-be star, doing things without considering other's feelings, making myself as if I am the center of the world as if the world cannot turn without me born to this world....etc...etc...
Luckily, God is very fair to every1~
Ppl like me, who might misuse the attention, only get a bit here and there, and have to be humble(at times:p) and be proud of myself (without over do it at times), be emo at times, think a lot on tiny little stuff (which makes me have lots of craps in my blog ^.^), and will be super happy if there is somebody,which might not be a very important person in my list, appreciate wat I did (e.g. smile at ppl and ppl smile back to me >.<''')...etc...etc....
And~ ppl who know how to use the attention correctly gets the natural ability from God, which means~ they know how to control themselves, I mean control their brain, have the correct mind set at all times, having very clear mind on everything happen (well, u know who u are, but then~ CTRL urself pls!! :p)
To end~ this blog is written only becoz I am so sleepy and tired PLUS lazy to hold a pen~ anything that might clashes with things u saw somewhere, or u thought u knew that b4, its just an coincidence:p
Nitez la^.^
Well~ I will become a person who is very 嚣张（xiao1zhang1), coz~ I always wanted attention from ppl^.^However, I am not that kind that wan to attract attention till go to jump from a building, or shout out loud in public, or dance naked in public....sort of things like that :p Wat I'll do is things that I try to make effort on something~ do something quietly, expecting somebody will notice and appreciate my existence~ That's y, when I think that someone will have bad impression towards me, or that I will "black listed" somehow, I get very panicky and "pek chek"....
Talking bout my 嚣张 if I have the natural ability of attraction, I might be very proud, talking things like everyone is an idiot, chin and eyes always pointing towards the sky, always think that I am a born-to-be star, doing things without considering other's feelings, making myself as if I am the center of the world as if the world cannot turn without me born to this world....etc...etc...
Luckily, God is very fair to every1~
Ppl like me, who might misuse the attention, only get a bit here and there, and have to be humble(at times:p) and be proud of myself (without over do it at times), be emo at times, think a lot on tiny little stuff (which makes me have lots of craps in my blog ^.^), and will be super happy if there is somebody,which might not be a very important person in my list, appreciate wat I did (e.g. smile at ppl and ppl smile back to me >.<''')...etc...etc....
And~ ppl who know how to use the attention correctly gets the natural ability from God, which means~ they know how to control themselves, I mean control their brain, have the correct mind set at all times, having very clear mind on everything happen (well, u know who u are, but then~ CTRL urself pls!! :p)
To end~ this blog is written only becoz I am so sleepy and tired PLUS lazy to hold a pen~ anything that might clashes with things u saw somewhere, or u thought u knew that b4, its just an coincidence:p
Nitez la^.^
February 17, 2008
Sharing of Dreams
There is once that I shared my dreams bout what I’d become in future with my grandma~ But, the only thing she told me is that~ humans can’t be the most perfect one on earth, so, y not I just have a normal life, normal job and just be someone that won’t try to be a superman/woman that think that he/she save the world.
February 13, 2008
^Pinky^
Changed my blog into pinky pinky again~ The wordings are much more easier to be read (as long as I don't change the font to italics :p), and the colour~~haha~its according to my mood now~ after all, its Valentines day tomolo^.^
So~to celebrate Valentine's day with the lovely super blog of mine~ I declare its pinky pinky day until its no more everyday Valentine in me^.^ haha~~~
p/s: I am kind of getting my craziness in me progressing quite fast these days~ world is suppose to be crazy and "virtual" in reality in some sense in the end, rite? ^.^
Happy Valentines Day^.^
So~to celebrate Valentine's day with the lovely super blog of mine~ I declare its pinky pinky day until its no more everyday Valentine in me^.^ haha~~~
p/s: I am kind of getting my craziness in me progressing quite fast these days~ world is suppose to be crazy and "virtual" in reality in some sense in the end, rite? ^.^
Happy Valentines Day^.^
February 11, 2008
Namdaemun, South Korea
Namdaemun in Seoul, South Korea burnt down~
Namdaemun in Seoul is one of the largest night market, a tourist attraction in Seoul. Namdaemun, also means great south gate in Korean, is an ancient, 600 years old gate~
Lucky me, that I have a chance to see the gate b4 it was burnt down~ but sad and how unlucky for South Korea and the world that we actually lost one of the heritage building on earth~
Before,
After,
For more information, pls visit:
http://www.rte.ie/news/2008/0211/korea.html
http://www.koreatimes.co.kr/www/news/photo/photo_list.asp?categoryCode=115
p/s: Thanks papi for the info^.^
Namdaemun in Seoul is one of the largest night market, a tourist attraction in Seoul. Namdaemun, also means great south gate in Korean, is an ancient, 600 years old gate~
Lucky me, that I have a chance to see the gate b4 it was burnt down~ but sad and how unlucky for South Korea and the world that we actually lost one of the heritage building on earth~
Before,
After,
For more information, pls visit:http://www.rte.ie/news/2008/0211/korea.html
http://www.koreatimes.co.kr/www/news/photo/photo_list.asp?categoryCode=115
p/s: Thanks papi for the info^.^
February 9, 2008
皇后，太后
公主~当一个公主，到了适当的时候，公主要“嫁”了~找到了可以托付终生的“东东”~ “嫁”给世上最完美的“太子”，过不久，与后宫三千争斗，经过时间的磨练，学习，成长~ 老皇帝逝世~然后，台资成了皇帝~ 那公主，就成了皇后。 再经过掌控后宫三千与宫中的大小事务~岁月的催残~~那当皇后的公主，就成了太后~ 太后所管辖的事务不多，但掌握在手中的权威一人之下万人之上~
太后~如果我的世界是一个很大很大的宫~我的愿望，使成为慈禧太后~ 虽她现在被很对人说它不是个好人，让中国给外人入侵， 但，在某些方面，它是很值得仰慕，学习的~
我现还是个公主~即将踏入成为皇后的路途上，嫁给我的梦，成为我宫中的慈禧太后~
哇哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~
p/s: 我有点走火入魔，有点疯疯癫癫了~ yay!!!^.^
太后~如果我的世界是一个很大很大的宫~我的愿望，使成为慈禧太后~ 虽她现在被很对人说它不是个好人，让中国给外人入侵， 但，在某些方面，它是很值得仰慕，学习的~
我现还是个公主~即将踏入成为皇后的路途上，嫁给我的梦，成为我宫中的慈禧太后~
哇哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~
p/s: 我有点走火入魔，有点疯疯癫癫了~ yay!!!^.^
February 8, 2008
自己的肯定
去爱吧！就像没受过伤一样~
歌唱吧！就像每人聆听一样~
跳舞吧！就像没人观看一样~
工作吧！就像没有金钱一样~
生活吧！就像明天是世界末日一样~
人生，不一定要有人关注，只要有自己的肯定，活着，就有意义^.^
歌唱吧！就像每人聆听一样~
跳舞吧！就像没人观看一样~
工作吧！就像没有金钱一样~
生活吧！就像明天是世界末日一样~
人生，不一定要有人关注，只要有自己的肯定，活着，就有意义^.^
February 6, 2008
Help Me!!!
Well~ its chinese new year!! yeah!!! so~ wat is it to complain about?? I have no voice!! Help~
Its not that I really need my voice that I earn my everyday life with my voice, but then~ its like~ one that is so talkative in nature, well~ at times, and at such a time that I really really need my voice to say "HAPPY NEW YEAR" out loud that ppl see me in person that I have a new hair style or wat so ever~ but I cant shout!! the only thing that I can make it is to talk soft, slow and steady, with no pitch and no tone >.< *ouch*
Its new year~ and I can celebrate it only with a slow steady voice. Does it means that I start off my new year without talking so much, and that the whole year to come, I won't be so kacau kacau, talking nonsense d?? Hopefully^.^
The main idea is that~~ I can't talk~ I have no voice, and I can't scold ppl~ that's very very irritating~ HELP!!!
Its not that I really need my voice that I earn my everyday life with my voice, but then~ its like~ one that is so talkative in nature, well~ at times, and at such a time that I really really need my voice to say "HAPPY NEW YEAR" out loud that ppl see me in person that I have a new hair style or wat so ever~ but I cant shout!! the only thing that I can make it is to talk soft, slow and steady, with no pitch and no tone >.< *ouch*
Its new year~ and I can celebrate it only with a slow steady voice. Does it means that I start off my new year without talking so much, and that the whole year to come, I won't be so kacau kacau, talking nonsense d?? Hopefully^.^
The main idea is that~~ I can't talk~ I have no voice, and I can't scold ppl~ that's very very irritating~ HELP!!!
January 26, 2008
Magical moment
Have had any magical moments in ur life? I have a memorable, touching and very unimaginable 1~ DISNEY~
DISNEY was always associated and linked to a ground which is filled with kids running around, with all the rides and with stuff and memories of bedtime stories, animation, cartoons, mickey, magical stuff an imaginary land of fairy tales.
Even I went to the smallest, most unequipted one on earth~ but yet, its such a wonderful experience and when talking about it with frens, its like so so superly excited bout it even its so so over d~
Every 1 seems to be excited and enjoying the whole Disney thing, as in she's like saying "later we go watch that show"~ and my dad, being soooo tired that his eyes was super red, and dad's supposed to be neutral and being ok with watever, accompany me for all those things in the park, but he accompanied me to one of a trilled rides, his exciting face when we are in the queue and how we screamed together during the ride and how he's talking non-stop with exciting tone to my mom describing the whole ride~ hehe~~ i know u enjoyed it :p
Actually~ my main point is~ u will nv know how touching is it to be personally inside DISNEY, having the feel and having that "I am in a fairy tale" kind of thought~ SUPERB!!!
*sob* *sob*~ tears feeling d~ even as I am only listening to the mandarin version of the HK Disney theme song~
Going back to my dreamland~ taz^.^
January 25, 2008
Jelly Fish
I said I love Jelly fish~ (or did I??:p) Its spectacular to see jelly fish in water, making graceful "dance" moves, moving in which ever direction they intend to~
Maybe~ its just that I admire the life of an jelly fish, or *** **** * ** * ***** **** ******~ Jellies move so gracefully in water that makes ppl being jealous of their movements; they get lots of freedom in water, but got caught and kept by researchers and underwater world; they are so fragile that they are composed of 90% water, but they release toxicants not toxic to them, but living things around them; they are lovely, but they aren't anything that u want to get close with.....
By the way~ they taste super awesome~ YUM YUM ^.^
like jellies? ^.^
January 24, 2008
Brain Power
Have u ever thought of how brain works? or ever wonder how u every component of our body "playing symphony", producing wonderful music every sub-seconds of our life?
Its wonderful to think of it~ e.g. y do we walk in a straight line? y can we differentiate our position even when our eyes close? how do we differentiate the size of grains in our mouth even we are chewing then with our eye's closed? how do we actually coordinate tapping of our fingers together with our toe with different rhythm when listening to a particular song?
Ok~ the thing is~ come to think bout the basics of human brain, a 2 or 3 year old kid can analyse things happen in their environment so well that sometimes, even better than adult analysis~ e.g., a kid with which her dad went overseas for more than a year and can't get home so often, she doesn't irritates her mom by asking her mom where dad is every now and then, coz she knows that her mom miss her dad more than she did~ She's just a kid, but she knows that~ y?
We walk without being taught how to walk, we speaks without being taught how to control sound production from our vocal cord, we chew food without being taught how to bite them into smaller pieces b4 swallowing them, we learn language without knowing how the letters are written.....
Brain is sure a wonderful creation~ I dare say that the best neurosurgent still have lots to explore and sometimes, he come to a situation that he starts thinking~ why his neuron is connected in such a way that he come up with that idea^.^
Its wonderful to think of it~ e.g. y do we walk in a straight line? y can we differentiate our position even when our eyes close? how do we differentiate the size of grains in our mouth even we are chewing then with our eye's closed? how do we actually coordinate tapping of our fingers together with our toe with different rhythm when listening to a particular song?
Ok~ the thing is~ come to think bout the basics of human brain, a 2 or 3 year old kid can analyse things happen in their environment so well that sometimes, even better than adult analysis~ e.g., a kid with which her dad went overseas for more than a year and can't get home so often, she doesn't irritates her mom by asking her mom where dad is every now and then, coz she knows that her mom miss her dad more than she did~ She's just a kid, but she knows that~ y?
We walk without being taught how to walk, we speaks without being taught how to control sound production from our vocal cord, we chew food without being taught how to bite them into smaller pieces b4 swallowing them, we learn language without knowing how the letters are written.....
Brain is sure a wonderful creation~ I dare say that the best neurosurgent still have lots to explore and sometimes, he come to a situation that he starts thinking~ why his neuron is connected in such a way that he come up with that idea^.^
January 12, 2008
Tomorrow
Humans seems to be hoping and expecting more than wat they should get. E.g. there’s this movie director that says: with his fame, getting a million as an income shouldn’t be wat he gets.
January 8, 2008
Chasing after fault in the past
There are people in this world that always looks for ppl that are responsible for the fault of something, but they missed getting things done~ always look and stay in the past, but they often forget the words "present" and "future".
Examples:
In UTAR, there are lecture halls with faulty microphones, projectors and even computers~ worse is, when a laptop is obtained from the department, the laptop is super lag and it waste time of lecturers and students. Most important thing is that we waste our money by wasting all our time waiting for this comp and that projector to get classes start.
When the student rep of UTAR (which is my classmate~she's like super girl^.^) went to the department to complain bout the laptops and computers that aren't working well enough, the fellow's' just say that those stuff are used by a lot of ppl and they can't track down who spoil them~*duh*
Wat is the "tut" have to do with who spoil the stuff? The complain is suppose to make things work, get classes going and make repairs wat-so-ever~ Even the toilet is "rosak" after the 3 month's long sem break~ Hey~ did we actually pay for the fees? where did all the money goes other than to all the staff and lecturers, plus some bills to pay? maintenance I suppose??
Ok~ maybe this is a small thing to be said in a blog~ since there are this "politician" stuff going on recently, and that they wanted to catch the one who is behind all those recordings~*duh*+*duh*+*tut*
Maybe~ yes, the fellow who did the recordings of the scene have to be caught, but then, if "u" did nothing wrong in the 1st place, that nobody can be there to make "news" out of anything u do~ wat is the big fuss of getting the fellow caught and punishment and all that? Thats living in the past, chasing fault that happened in the past, rite?
Hello~~ is anybody there to evaluate the present and the future?? or every1 is too bz doing all nonsense "postmortem"?
"swt" "swt" "swt"
Examples:
In UTAR, there are lecture halls with faulty microphones, projectors and even computers~ worse is, when a laptop is obtained from the department, the laptop is super lag and it waste time of lecturers and students. Most important thing is that we waste our money by wasting all our time waiting for this comp and that projector to get classes start.
When the student rep of UTAR (which is my classmate~she's like super girl^.^) went to the department to complain bout the laptops and computers that aren't working well enough, the fellow's' just say that those stuff are used by a lot of ppl and they can't track down who spoil them~*duh*
Wat is the "tut" have to do with who spoil the stuff? The complain is suppose to make things work, get classes going and make repairs wat-so-ever~ Even the toilet is "rosak" after the 3 month's long sem break~ Hey~ did we actually pay for the fees? where did all the money goes other than to all the staff and lecturers, plus some bills to pay? maintenance I suppose??
Ok~ maybe this is a small thing to be said in a blog~ since there are this "politician" stuff going on recently, and that they wanted to catch the one who is behind all those recordings~*duh*+*duh*+*tut*
Maybe~ yes, the fellow who did the recordings of the scene have to be caught, but then, if "u" did nothing wrong in the 1st place, that nobody can be there to make "news" out of anything u do~ wat is the big fuss of getting the fellow caught and punishment and all that? Thats living in the past, chasing fault that happened in the past, rite?
Hello~~ is anybody there to evaluate the present and the future?? or every1 is too bz doing all nonsense "postmortem"?
"swt" "swt" "swt"
January 3, 2008
Kite Flying
Ever fly a kite b4?
So~ like flying kite alone? or with a fren? or with a huge gang of frens?
I love a gang of frens, but it seems to be kind of "麻烦”~ i mean~ not the frens that are, but its like....if u took care of this fren, the other might not be happy with the decision made~ However, if I am not the 1 making decision, but a follower of a gang, I am really ok with anything~ where to fly a kite or where to have things set up and so~ (talk as if I flew a kite just yesterday *duh*)
Going with a fren, means both have to have something in common~ its like I scratch ur back, and u scratch mine~ but at the end of the scratching session, its kind of tired~ I mean~ its not that I don enjoy the whole process of kite flying, but....when it comes to 2 ppl, some argument occurs, and that I have to pretend that u are rite after a attempts of balancing things up, and at the same time, u have to bare with my this and that =.='''
Alone, its just simple~ u fly where every u wanted to~ how high or low is in ur own control. The only thing that troubles flying kite alone is that u have to think of a lot of influences to make things work, and that things are to be done in a much harder way(coz flying kite, suppose to be 2 ppl baru senang let it start, rite?). So~ its just harder, not impossible, rite?
The thing bout kite flying is that~ one should have real control of the line, whether to let it go a bit, or to pull back a bit~ not too strong, nor too weak~ also, wind and location is very important (if at road side, kena langgar oleh kereta =.='''). The most important is not to let the line cut ur finger or the kite kena ur head or the line ikat ur kaki that u stumble and hurt urself (erm~a bit 夸张 :p)
The message here is something unspeakable, unexplainable but expressable in my way :p (coz I love to make things rounded and all crumble into a woolen ball^.^)~ Maybe its just the brand new year that makes me thinks a lot, coz its the time that ppl evaluate themselves~
Happy Kite Flying^.^
So~ like flying kite alone? or with a fren? or with a huge gang of frens?
I love a gang of frens, but it seems to be kind of "麻烦”~ i mean~ not the frens that are, but its like....if u took care of this fren, the other might not be happy with the decision made~ However, if I am not the 1 making decision, but a follower of a gang, I am really ok with anything~ where to fly a kite or where to have things set up and so~ (talk as if I flew a kite just yesterday *duh*)
Going with a fren, means both have to have something in common~ its like I scratch ur back, and u scratch mine~ but at the end of the scratching session, its kind of tired~ I mean~ its not that I don enjoy the whole process of kite flying, but....when it comes to 2 ppl, some argument occurs, and that I have to pretend that u are rite after a attempts of balancing things up, and at the same time, u have to bare with my this and that =.='''
Alone, its just simple~ u fly where every u wanted to~ how high or low is in ur own control. The only thing that troubles flying kite alone is that u have to think of a lot of influences to make things work, and that things are to be done in a much harder way(coz flying kite, suppose to be 2 ppl baru senang let it start, rite?). So~ its just harder, not impossible, rite?
The thing bout kite flying is that~ one should have real control of the line, whether to let it go a bit, or to pull back a bit~ not too strong, nor too weak~ also, wind and location is very important (if at road side, kena langgar oleh kereta =.='''). The most important is not to let the line cut ur finger or the kite kena ur head or the line ikat ur kaki that u stumble and hurt urself (erm~a bit 夸张 :p)
The message here is something unspeakable, unexplainable but expressable in my way :p (coz I love to make things rounded and all crumble into a woolen ball^.^)~ Maybe its just the brand new year that makes me thinks a lot, coz its the time that ppl evaluate themselves~
Happy Kite Flying^.^
January 2, 2008
wants and don'ts
Sometimes, we wish that we have something~ Sometimes, we wish something is just at the corner~ but, Sometimes, we just want to have nothing~ Sometimes, we are glad that nothing is there at the corner~
Humans~ always contradicting themselves (or its just me:p)
Its hard to explain how the mess is like in my brain~ but, its like tides in the ocean, calm at times, but rough in btw calm waves; its like weather in M'sia, hot and sunny, but theres sudden clouds come in btw....
Do I need it? Do I want it? Is it worth for me to take it? or it is nv there at the corner?
Nothing or something?
There's always questions and choices~ decision and ignorance~ but wat I am doing now most of the time is to make my brain peaceful, like~ “世，一切皆空”~ and the phrase I always used now is “阿弥陀佛”~
It shouldn't be time yet for me to think of "nothing"~ since I am still so superly young enough to be a baby~ but, things happened change my thoughts~
^P3@c3^
Humans~ always contradicting themselves (or its just me:p)
Its hard to explain how the mess is like in my brain~ but, its like tides in the ocean, calm at times, but rough in btw calm waves; its like weather in M'sia, hot and sunny, but theres sudden clouds come in btw....
Do I need it? Do I want it? Is it worth for me to take it? or it is nv there at the corner?
Nothing or something?
There's always questions and choices~ decision and ignorance~ but wat I am doing now most of the time is to make my brain peaceful, like~ “世，一切皆空”~ and the phrase I always used now is “阿弥陀佛”~
It shouldn't be time yet for me to think of "nothing"~ since I am still so superly young enough to be a baby~ but, things happened change my thoughts~
^P3@c3^
December 31, 2007
Happy New Year 2008!!
Aniyohaseyo~
Back online~ Back from Korea+Hong Kong~
As usual with the other trips, I learned lots of things that I can't explain or describe and I got lots of thins that I can't grab in my hands~ so~ the purpose of going for trips are.....fun, enjoyment, making my life wonderful, learning, making me clear that world is not just a dot, and of coz~ its all becoz I'm lovin' it ^.^
k~ Back to the topic --> New Year~
The new year of 2007 was just like yesterday, and CNY was like a tab n the finger, and...erm....everything was like glimpse away~ "meaning": I have had a packed, great year 2007, that I enjoyed so much that I miss looking at the clock and counting the dates~ "I M LIVING"!!
As usual~ the wish list for this coming new year in 2 hours time will be:
erm~~~can't think of anything more than wat I have ^.^
wat about.....world peace??? >.<'''
p/s: posts bout the trip will be posted back dated later when "I am free" :p
Back online~ Back from Korea+Hong Kong~
As usual with the other trips, I learned lots of things that I can't explain or describe and I got lots of thins that I can't grab in my hands~ so~ the purpose of going for trips are.....fun, enjoyment, making my life wonderful, learning, making me clear that world is not just a dot, and of coz~ its all becoz I'm lovin' it ^.^
k~ Back to the topic --> New Year~
The new year of 2007 was just like yesterday, and CNY was like a tab n the finger, and...erm....everything was like glimpse away~ "meaning": I have had a packed, great year 2007, that I enjoyed so much that I miss looking at the clock and counting the dates~ "I M LIVING"!!
As usual~ the wish list for this coming new year in 2 hours time will be:
erm~~~can't think of anything more than wat I have ^.^
wat about.....world peace??? >.<'''
p/s: posts bout the trip will be posted back dated later when "I am free" :p
December 16, 2007
Reason/Point
There's always reason/point that make me do a particular thing, its like~ I seems to be doing nothing, wasting my time, but actually, my presence some where, some time have a particular meaning.
Why I bring up this issue? coz, I am still repeating the same old scene in my brain since this morning~
I can't just take the "kena" on my like that~ Its like, do I look like I have nothing better to do than standing nowhere, listening to all those "hehe" and "haha"s? Ok, fine~ I know I look dumb and have a nothing-better-to-do face on me, but~ hello~~ I am tryin to be friendly, kind and respect the presence of u guys. Do I seems to be such a bz body to u? >.<''' Chek Ark!
Fine~ watever~ as long as u guys are happy, and that everything have nothing to do with me, keeping my parents face, my face and u, u and ur face~ no appreciation wat-so-ever~ great!
Final word: Watever~
Why I bring up this issue? coz, I am still repeating the same old scene in my brain since this morning~
I can't just take the "kena" on my like that~ Its like, do I look like I have nothing better to do than standing nowhere, listening to all those "hehe" and "haha"s? Ok, fine~ I know I look dumb and have a nothing-better-to-do face on me, but~ hello~~ I am tryin to be friendly, kind and respect the presence of u guys. Do I seems to be such a bz body to u? >.<''' Chek Ark!
Fine~ watever~ as long as u guys are happy, and that everything have nothing to do with me, keeping my parents face, my face and u, u and ur face~ no appreciation wat-so-ever~ great!
Final word: Watever~
December 15, 2007
公主
不久前，有位友人对我说我是个温室里的小花~ 她问我如果有一天我再也过不到我无忧无虑的生活，再也做不回“公主”了，那我该怎么办？
我发现我的生活有点像个公主~我是个温室里的小花~ 唯一不同的是，我没住在皇宫里，睡的不是公主床，吃的不是山珍海味，穿的不是公主服，没有公主的气质，没有公主般的倾城倾国。。。等等，等等。。。。
可能，我活在我自己的童话里~~ 有时，我是个灰姑娘；有时，我是三只小猪的猪猪；有时，我是卖火柴的女孩；有时，我是希望变成天鹅的丑小鸭；有时却像关在塔上端的公主。。。
December 11, 2007
Suppose
Hihi~ I said that I will only be back after a few weeks, but here I am again~ That's me~ always contradicting myself =.='''
Back to the topic~
There are things that I supposed to do and I should do~ but then, in real life its really hard to apply the suppose into action. Living a life is really hard, especially when it comes to making decision, controlling emo and controlling mind and thoughts~
Its really hard~ making me feeling sick, even with myself >< *vomit*
Maybe~ some day~ the "suppose" will be done
Maybe~ some day in future, living is better of
Maybe~ some day~ self-control can be said and done just a flip of the fingers away
Conclusion: Jia lat =.='''
Back to the topic~
There are things that I supposed to do and I should do~ but then, in real life its really hard to apply the suppose into action. Living a life is really hard, especially when it comes to making decision, controlling emo and controlling mind and thoughts~
Its really hard~ making me feeling sick, even with myself >< *vomit*
Maybe~ some day~ the "suppose" will be done
Maybe~ some day in future, living is better of
Maybe~ some day~ self-control can be said and done just a flip of the fingers away
Conclusion: Jia lat =.='''
December 10, 2007
Holiday
Its been 1 week since my last post~ y? coz~ its finally come to the time where real holiday comes^.^
Its not that in real holiday, I sat at home everyday, doing nothing, having nothing in mind and met nobody except my laptop and my bed:p; BUT, I do have loads and tonnes of things that I do everyday....seems to be that I am a bz person, however, they are just nothing to be proud of or that anything that is special to be said and write about =.='''
So, maybe I'll be back on blog only in a a few weeks' time....
Till then~ happy "holidays", Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year then :p
Its not that in real holiday, I sat at home everyday, doing nothing, having nothing in mind and met nobody except my laptop and my bed:p; BUT, I do have loads and tonnes of things that I do everyday....seems to be that I am a bz person, however, they are just nothing to be proud of or that anything that is special to be said and write about =.='''
So, maybe I'll be back on blog only in a a few weeks' time....
Till then~ happy "holidays", Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year then :p
December 1, 2007
mouth
When some1 asked for ur help in something, and u missed doing something as what the person wished for or that u made a mistake in some way that u think its ur responsible to get things to its right track again~ offering ur help, figuring ways of making things the way it should be so as to take things into ur responsibility.....
But, ppl kept saying that u are doing it the wrong way/not the rite way, and things get messy in the middle of the way of u doing it....again and again, trying to make things rite....and in the end, wat is the return? A loud anger, saying that the thing should be going into the dustbin instead of continue keeping it....wat the "tut"?
Its like, I did another bigger mistake than the 1st 1 that I did, and all the repetition of me doing things again and again, all my hard work belongs to the drain~
Ok, I can try another time to make things moving to the rite path...but then here comes again, all the rite and wrong come to take place, no thank, no appreciation and all anger knock hard at my head, slapping me in my face, killing me with knife stabbing me rite thru my heart!
Fine~ nothing ever happened, and I am totally cool with it!
For next time~ I will still help out, coz I will have respect for u, even I didn't get any respect in return.
Thanks anyway~
But, ppl kept saying that u are doing it the wrong way/not the rite way, and things get messy in the middle of the way of u doing it....again and again, trying to make things rite....and in the end, wat is the return? A loud anger, saying that the thing should be going into the dustbin instead of continue keeping it....wat the "tut"?
Its like, I did another bigger mistake than the 1st 1 that I did, and all the repetition of me doing things again and again, all my hard work belongs to the drain~
Ok, I can try another time to make things moving to the rite path...but then here comes again, all the rite and wrong come to take place, no thank, no appreciation and all anger knock hard at my head, slapping me in my face, killing me with knife stabbing me rite thru my heart!
Fine~ nothing ever happened, and I am totally cool with it!
For next time~ I will still help out, coz I will have respect for u, even I didn't get any respect in return.
Thanks anyway~
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