Its a week after polling day~ but the heat is still on~ after all, its the 1st time in 50 years of independence history of Malaysia that 5 states got into the hands of the opposition, which is good in the sense that the people of Malaysia is no longer fear of the power that the government has, and make their decision and voice out their dissatisfactions towards the control of the Malaysian politics by "tut".
The dissatisfaction is not towards a race, or towards things and plans that have been said and done by the ex-government, but, its to voice our say in a very democratic way~ its all depends on how the ex-gov analyse and think of wat we, the people of Malaysia want to say in the ballots. However, to my disappointment, the people in the gov have misinterpret the voice of Malaysia, the current opposition have been opposing in a very childish way that even me, that doesn't know lot bout politics think that they are just having dilemma over the result of the GE2008.
Well, taking up the seat as an opposition after so many years being those who govern, its hard to take the fact in a very positive way, but then, as a politician, and being those who wants to work for the people of Malaysia and being the people that taking the position to govern the country or state, isn't that u guys have to have the mature enough brain to see things~ after all, being politician's main motive isn't it to bring the best for the people of Malaysia, and not only to see the advantage of ur own self and at the same way, being sooo~childish that u "发兰扎" over the loss o ur party???
I just can't get it~ its one thing that I hate so much bout politics~lost one's self after getting a position in political party, or forgot bout one's motive of being a politician after getting the seat he/she strive for, being sooo~dramatic over issues that is small enough not even to kill an ant~
Lets sit back for a minute or 2 just to think bout what politics' motive actually is about~
Soooo~ disappointed towards those ppl that we, the people of Malaysia have been supporting for the past 50 years~ lucky enough that the opposition win 5 states, but is it also unlucky for them? Its all we can do as a Malaysian~ thru the ballots and getting ppl to misunderstand our voice>.<
P/s: yea~ all bloggers are women and we eat too full that we can only move our fingers on the keyboard~ What can we do and where can we say wat we think so that ppl around the country and around the world could hear us? Blogs are the best place to be~
March 15, 2008
March 13, 2008
爱情与面包
当正在爱的水生火热的时候，两人要分割两地，或两人的差距越来越远， 或两人的思想上的成长变得不一致， 那时，就是考虑爱情或面包的时候。
一开始，两人总是会想，可以的，会有结果的~我们不会有改变的~但~我现在觉得，面包始终较实际， 因面包不会辜负你，不会骗你，你也不用顾虑这或那的~又能填饱肚子，让你继续向前冲刺~虽然，在爱情里是互相的，两者都付出同等的爱，但，就是。。。总之，就是现在，我抱着的是面包，爱情，眉尖都没看到~
可能，我对爱的观念已大大的改变，抱着面包，却又担心把面包抱得太紧~ So~继续冲刺！！
一开始，两人总是会想，可以的，会有结果的~我们不会有改变的~但~我现在觉得，面包始终较实际， 因面包不会辜负你，不会骗你，你也不用顾虑这或那的~又能填饱肚子，让你继续向前冲刺~虽然，在爱情里是互相的，两者都付出同等的爱，但，就是。。。总之，就是现在，我抱着的是面包，爱情，眉尖都没看到~
可能，我对爱的观念已大大的改变，抱着面包，却又担心把面包抱得太紧~ So~继续冲刺！！
March 10, 2008
Democracy
水可以载舟，亦可以覆舟（water can float a boat, can also over turn a boat)~
That's how democracy works~and this is how opposition takes over 5 states in this 12th election. Its all depends on how u act and wat u do as a government to govern the country and how many things that u let the people know and how much things u would want to cover under the bed sheets.
As ppl of Malaysia, I think that we, as part of the country, knows how to judge and have thoughts of our own, not only say yes and nod on everything u tell us~
Lies become part of our culture, that makes newspapers only have the date and day correct, other contents in it are 70-80% nonsense. Of coz, it's all based on how u see things and judge the whole image, and not to follow every word written and heard.
So~ with the new page of history of Malaysia, starting today, practice wat is rite~Bring the best out of ur pocket for the Malaysians for the good of us all~
Don't Play Play~"We know wat u did last Summer"^.^
That's how democracy works~and this is how opposition takes over 5 states in this 12th election. Its all depends on how u act and wat u do as a government to govern the country and how many things that u let the people know and how much things u would want to cover under the bed sheets.
As ppl of Malaysia, I think that we, as part of the country, knows how to judge and have thoughts of our own, not only say yes and nod on everything u tell us~
Lies become part of our culture, that makes newspapers only have the date and day correct, other contents in it are 70-80% nonsense. Of coz, it's all based on how u see things and judge the whole image, and not to follow every word written and heard.
So~ with the new page of history of Malaysia, starting today, practice wat is rite~Bring the best out of ur pocket for the Malaysians for the good of us all~
Don't Play Play~"We know wat u did last Summer"^.^
March 8, 2008
Election
It's the day to cast ur vote, and do something for Malaysia as a Malaysian^.^
This is my 1st time voting~ erm~ quite interesting....having the paper and pencil in ur hands that decides the future of Malaysians^.^
Well~ I voted for "tut" "tut" and "tut" "tut"....haha~ private and confidential ma~ nobody knows who voted for who exactly, and in that case, its well~ just lock in to malaysia kini for the latest news la~
hehe~ very excited bout the result....
Its all over d~ so~ I would like to share some pictures with u~
Its M** R**P** on the road~ trying to make the whole road theirs, blocking the whole 2 lane road, just to make way for all those "tut" "tut".
So~ think bout it just b4 polling day~ I rather make Malaysia a better place to live in instead of having all this kind of things happening in our beloved country~
Thats y......
This is my 1st time voting~ erm~ quite interesting....having the paper and pencil in ur hands that decides the future of Malaysians^.^
Well~ I voted for "tut" "tut" and "tut" "tut"....haha~ private and confidential ma~ nobody knows who voted for who exactly, and in that case, its well~ just lock in to malaysia kini for the latest news la~
hehe~ very excited bout the result....
Its all over d~ so~ I would like to share some pictures with u~
Its M** R**P** on the road~ trying to make the whole road theirs, blocking the whole 2 lane road, just to make way for all those "tut" "tut".So~ think bout it just b4 polling day~ I rather make Malaysia a better place to live in instead of having all this kind of things happening in our beloved country~
Thats y......
March 7, 2008
Today's special
Today's special on the menu is ~~ chiang chiang~~ Bibimbap^.^
Its something like "nasi campur", but the campur is very campur de~ meaning, u really have to use ur spoon to mix everything on the rice with the rice till thorough, then only start eating. Sounds very geli, but it is really delicious~
I tried to make it as Korean as possible, by having it with KimChi, and with a small plate of "ikan bilis" as side dishes.
It ended up quite beautifully~ but the taste~erm not quite that eaten in Korea, but similar, not too bad to swallow, since my mom who have quite a taste bud did not say that it is tasteless or that it is geli like wat my dad made the week before^.^ hehe~
Will post the pic of the dish I made in 2 day's time~ so~ just try to imagine it first~
p/s: big bro haven't have his dinner~ I wonder how he thinks of the dish+.+
March 6, 2008
CNY Bird
The sound of the "CNY Bird" can still be heard even though CNY has past d~
The bird is named "CNY bird" coz it only can be heard around the period of CNY~ It always sounded "wu wor~ wu wor~" ^.^
Hope they know their way back to where they have to be during summer~ if not, they will just die here coz of the weather and become extinct.
The bird is named "CNY bird" coz it only can be heard around the period of CNY~ It always sounded "wu wor~ wu wor~" ^.^
Hope they know their way back to where they have to be during summer~ if not, they will just die here coz of the weather and become extinct.
March 5, 2008
Feel bad~
I am a bit guilty of being soooo....determined to go home this weekend, I mean~ the middle of the week. Its not only the guilt to go home, but the guilt that makes the Lecturer, Dr. Hii to make the test on Thursday and have to be hated by the whole class just because of a few of us in class is even worse~
Well~ humans have to be selfish rite? have to think of themselves b4 thinking for others~ that's how to survive in this society rite? so~ its how I do it~ U all are selfish also rite? think that u urself can't make the time to study or watever excuses u made up for urself~ then wan me and the few of us to be considerate?? No Way~
Since the date was already set and notify since centuries ago, theres no excuse to make that u can't do this and that. I can, y can't u?
Watever is the only word~ if u want to shoot me, wan to hate me, go ahead~ BUT, just shoot me with words la~ not gun^.^Shoot me in my frenster comment or my blogger comment, and let the whole world knows that u hate me that much, if that can make u feel better^.^
Anyway~ its test tomolo anyway~ so~ good luck to u, and to myself^.^
Well~ humans have to be selfish rite? have to think of themselves b4 thinking for others~ that's how to survive in this society rite? so~ its how I do it~ U all are selfish also rite? think that u urself can't make the time to study or watever excuses u made up for urself~ then wan me and the few of us to be considerate?? No Way~
Since the date was already set and notify since centuries ago, theres no excuse to make that u can't do this and that. I can, y can't u?
Watever is the only word~ if u want to shoot me, wan to hate me, go ahead~ BUT, just shoot me with words la~ not gun^.^Shoot me in my frenster comment or my blogger comment, and let the whole world knows that u hate me that much, if that can make u feel better^.^
Anyway~ its test tomolo anyway~ so~ good luck to u, and to myself^.^
March 4, 2008
Photo link
Changed my photo album link to http://www.flickr.com/photos/queenieneoh/
Check it out when u r free^.^ plus~ add some comments if u want to~ thanks^.^
Check it out when u r free^.^ plus~ add some comments if u want to~ thanks^.^
March 2, 2008
-看.衰-
There are ppl out there that are very conscious bout how they are being look upon, and how they have to act in front of different different ppl. In their state of mind, they classify ppl into different classes with different status in the society, or I should say, the status in their own opinion, which is from the sense of money and name.
With this, this "kind" of ppl, they "need" and not "acquire" branded goods and stuff to make themselves look classy and not out dated, so as to not being "look down" by ppl surrounding them. Its like, I have to have a huge MPV newer version than urs so that u are so impressed that I am part of the classy and not in the lower level of status. Or, to dress up in branded "Gu**i", taking "L*" or to use some lastest model of "N*k*a" or best functioned "S*ny Err*cs*n" phone instead of using just 3310 still~
And there are times, that even they might feel that pasar malam clothes or clothes that are sold in shopping mall in a "dump" bin are comfortable to be worn, but, since they have no name on them, they just feel not rite to wear them to functions or just to meet up some frens or so~
For me and my family, we can just wear a sampah t-shirt, which is so worn out, that the rubber on the collar and sleeves go so loose, the colour of the shirt is half of that when it was first bought, or if the clothes are worn 3-5 years or even 10 years already, plus, a simple short and a sandal~ off we go to supermarkets or shopping malls~
There is nothing to be shy of when ppl asked me, where did I get my shirt~ Is just a simple answer~from a "dump" bin somewhere~ or its like I have been wearing my "uni-going" shirts since I first went to UM, and then switch to UTAR, but there is nothing to be afraid of anyone's look or questions.
Yet, even me and big bro is wearing that kind of clothes out of the house, we still are not being look down upon, saying that we didn't carry a branded bag or our clothes is far too "rubbish" to be worn out.
Ok, better e.g.~ y should I get the attention of the sales ppl in the shopping mall by wearing something sophisticated, when I can simply browse through shops unnoticed, unserved, and just shop at my own pace?
Hehe~p/s: don be so perasan that u think I am talking about u, its just that I saw someone that don want to "chai" me just becoz he/she's wearing something branded so that ppl won't "look down" on him/her
With this, this "kind" of ppl, they "need" and not "acquire" branded goods and stuff to make themselves look classy and not out dated, so as to not being "look down" by ppl surrounding them. Its like, I have to have a huge MPV newer version than urs so that u are so impressed that I am part of the classy and not in the lower level of status. Or, to dress up in branded "Gu**i", taking "L*" or to use some lastest model of "N*k*a" or best functioned "S*ny Err*cs*n" phone instead of using just 3310 still~
And there are times, that even they might feel that pasar malam clothes or clothes that are sold in shopping mall in a "dump" bin are comfortable to be worn, but, since they have no name on them, they just feel not rite to wear them to functions or just to meet up some frens or so~
For me and my family, we can just wear a sampah t-shirt, which is so worn out, that the rubber on the collar and sleeves go so loose, the colour of the shirt is half of that when it was first bought, or if the clothes are worn 3-5 years or even 10 years already, plus, a simple short and a sandal~ off we go to supermarkets or shopping malls~
There is nothing to be shy of when ppl asked me, where did I get my shirt~ Is just a simple answer~from a "dump" bin somewhere~ or its like I have been wearing my "uni-going" shirts since I first went to UM, and then switch to UTAR, but there is nothing to be afraid of anyone's look or questions.
Yet, even me and big bro is wearing that kind of clothes out of the house, we still are not being look down upon, saying that we didn't carry a branded bag or our clothes is far too "rubbish" to be worn out.
Ok, better e.g.~ y should I get the attention of the sales ppl in the shopping mall by wearing something sophisticated, when I can simply browse through shops unnoticed, unserved, and just shop at my own pace?
Hehe~p/s: don be so perasan that u think I am talking about u, its just that I saw someone that don want to "chai" me just becoz he/she's wearing something branded so that ppl won't "look down" on him/her
February 28, 2008
Phrase of the day
近日我惊人的句子：人必定要靠自己，因为，人不能肯定自己明天是否还在，那，就也不能确定他人明天仍在~
结论：自己能做到的事，都要靠自己~说不懂事世上最简单的。 没有不懂的， 只有要懂或不要懂的。
结论：自己能做到的事，都要靠自己~说不懂事世上最简单的。 没有不懂的， 只有要懂或不要懂的。
February 25, 2008
+.=
Found a very good phrase in the lab: Live like u are going to die tomolo, learn as if u are going to live forever~
February 24, 2008
Potato Salad
This is today's special^.^Recipe:
6 potatoes (Holland)
4 eggs
1 yellow onion
pepper
salt
mayonnaise
Boil potato with skin. Boil eggs to hard-boiled.
Cut potato, boiled eggs and onion into bite size.
Mixed gently with mayonnaise (until u syok :P).
Add pepper and salt to taste.
It turned up to be ok~ since I didn't follow everything that have to be added into a potato salad, since I hate celery and stuff~ so~ I only add those things I like eating^.^
p/s: I know u got ur mouth's watery d~hehe^.^
February 22, 2008
Life
Well~ I really can’t understand how “u” live
Uncertainties, that is of wat that happens every moments in
Not very convincing? Another example~ I drive to uni everyday~ if I am scared, then I will always be thinking, wat if I kena langgar? KL punya kereta very dangerous u know? Wat if I kena saman if I park at the lorong behind my uni? Wat if there are snatch thieves? TBR wor, very dark de place lai~ very dangerous de u know? >.<’’’
Wat can u actually do with all those uncertainty? Or said as risk? We measure them~ we plan~ we manage~ of coz, there is no such thing as eliminate all the risk to zero, but, weight them, not to avoid them!
If in the end, u get something not as wat u planned at the beginning, accept it~ embrace it as like that of wat u planned, after all, u gained wat others might not, and wat u get might be more than wat u planned in the beginning.
There are things that we can’t see, but I believe, if there is dream, there is hope, there is imagination, there is light in our live~
Asking me to be living in darkness? Very hard~
Asking me to have no stand in my life, or standing “everywhere” but “no where”? Very hard~
Think~ I just don want “u”, “u” and “u” to become wat I am seeing everyday^.^加油!!
P/s: I am also confronting my fear everyday~ its not suffering, but an enjoyable process~ I am pek chek at times, but then~ this feeling makes me feel that I am alive~ I lose control of myself at times, but~ this makes me have thought of how to make changes to little little things bout myself~ I am still learning also~ of coz~ wat do u expect? I am only 23 this year wat^.^
女生没有男朋友的16大好处!!!
Got this from frenster^.^
Well~ this passage is kind of some lie that gals made up to make themselves feel better~ but then~ some of those are true actually, but then~ come on la~ don need to always cover up all of ur feelings by making up all these phrases >.<'''
Well~ just as a reference^.^ I think that this is quite interesting, that's y i put this up^.^
Well~ this passage is kind of some lie that gals made up to make themselves feel better~ but then~ some of those are true actually, but then~ come on la~ don need to always cover up all of ur feelings by making up all these phrases >.<'''
Well~ just as a reference^.^ I think that this is quite interesting, that's y i put this up^.^
February 21, 2008
周杰伦大马世界巡回演唱会
Jay Chou's going to be Singing live in Merdeka stadium tomolo~ the venue, which is bout 10+km from my house only, but then~ I can't go for the concert~
1stly, no tickets, which is very expensive, that I don't have that kind of financial support of my own yet, and 2ndly, I don have 100% insured protection of my safety >.<'''
So~ if u still want to get me to the concert, which means~ want a date with me to the concert~ which also means, to fulfill my "date" with Jay Chou, and ur "date" with me~ there are a few things u need to do~
1st, get 2 tickets, which is 1 for me and one for u = RM800 ( I only want to VIP seats:p)
2nd, call me to confirm ur "date" with me (So perasan la me =.=''')
3rd, get a car/transportation in KL
4th, be in KL tomolo b4 the concert start
5th, fetch me from my home
6th, go enjoy the concert with me (no yawning pls)
lastly, sent me back home safely^.^
Perasan rite? Like I am the centre of the world, or the one and the only Queen~
Watever~ it can't be fulfill anyway~ just let me dream bout that, and imagine that I am in the concert for 48 hours by listening to all his songs from the 1st album to the 8th, plus all those soundtracks and stuff~
*Start Dreaming*
1stly, no tickets, which is very expensive, that I don't have that kind of financial support of my own yet, and 2ndly, I don have 100% insured protection of my safety >.<'''
So~ if u still want to get me to the concert, which means~ want a date with me to the concert~ which also means, to fulfill my "date" with Jay Chou, and ur "date" with me~ there are a few things u need to do~
1st, get 2 tickets, which is 1 for me and one for u = RM800 ( I only want to VIP seats:p)
2nd, call me to confirm ur "date" with me (So perasan la me =.=''')
3rd, get a car/transportation in KL
4th, be in KL tomolo b4 the concert start
5th, fetch me from my home
6th, go enjoy the concert with me (no yawning pls)
lastly, sent me back home safely^.^
Perasan rite? Like I am the centre of the world, or the one and the only Queen~
Watever~ it can't be fulfill anyway~ just let me dream bout that, and imagine that I am in the concert for 48 hours by listening to all his songs from the 1st album to the 8th, plus all those soundtracks and stuff~
*Start Dreaming*
Cerebellum
I think I have some problem with my connection of cerebellum with my body parts~
I choked today when I tried to swallow my saliva, and then coughed and coughed for 2 minutes or so after that choked. Then, the other day when I was having my dinner, I have the bolus of rice stucked in my throat that I have to make super effort of swallowing to make it go into my stomach. And, as most of u know, I have shaky hands, which I can't really control them properly....
Some nerves must be short-circuit"ing" some where in my brain~
Well~ want to get me into some tests??haha~~no need la~ its just some normal short-circuit, like electricity by past the wrong routes at times^.^
p/s: too much drama d~ wahahahaha~~~
I choked today when I tried to swallow my saliva, and then coughed and coughed for 2 minutes or so after that choked. Then, the other day when I was having my dinner, I have the bolus of rice stucked in my throat that I have to make super effort of swallowing to make it go into my stomach. And, as most of u know, I have shaky hands, which I can't really control them properly....
Some nerves must be short-circuit"ing" some where in my brain~
Well~ want to get me into some tests??haha~~no need la~ its just some normal short-circuit, like electricity by past the wrong routes at times^.^
p/s: too much drama d~ wahahahaha~~~
February 19, 2008
Natural Ability
Today, a fren asked me:" u said that I have natural ability to attract other ppl's attention. So, if u have the ability, what will u do with it?"
Well~ I will become a person who is very 嚣张（xiao1zhang1), coz~ I always wanted attention from ppl^.^However, I am not that kind that wan to attract attention till go to jump from a building, or shout out loud in public, or dance naked in public....sort of things like that :p Wat I'll do is things that I try to make effort on something~ do something quietly, expecting somebody will notice and appreciate my existence~ That's y, when I think that someone will have bad impression towards me, or that I will "black listed" somehow, I get very panicky and "pek chek"....
Talking bout my 嚣张 if I have the natural ability of attraction, I might be very proud, talking things like everyone is an idiot, chin and eyes always pointing towards the sky, always think that I am a born-to-be star, doing things without considering other's feelings, making myself as if I am the center of the world as if the world cannot turn without me born to this world....etc...etc...
Luckily, God is very fair to every1~
Ppl like me, who might misuse the attention, only get a bit here and there, and have to be humble(at times:p) and be proud of myself (without over do it at times), be emo at times, think a lot on tiny little stuff (which makes me have lots of craps in my blog ^.^), and will be super happy if there is somebody,which might not be a very important person in my list, appreciate wat I did (e.g. smile at ppl and ppl smile back to me >.<''')...etc...etc....
And~ ppl who know how to use the attention correctly gets the natural ability from God, which means~ they know how to control themselves, I mean control their brain, have the correct mind set at all times, having very clear mind on everything happen (well, u know who u are, but then~ CTRL urself pls!! :p)
To end~ this blog is written only becoz I am so sleepy and tired PLUS lazy to hold a pen~ anything that might clashes with things u saw somewhere, or u thought u knew that b4, its just an coincidence:p
Nitez la^.^
Well~ I will become a person who is very 嚣张（xiao1zhang1), coz~ I always wanted attention from ppl^.^However, I am not that kind that wan to attract attention till go to jump from a building, or shout out loud in public, or dance naked in public....sort of things like that :p Wat I'll do is things that I try to make effort on something~ do something quietly, expecting somebody will notice and appreciate my existence~ That's y, when I think that someone will have bad impression towards me, or that I will "black listed" somehow, I get very panicky and "pek chek"....
Talking bout my 嚣张 if I have the natural ability of attraction, I might be very proud, talking things like everyone is an idiot, chin and eyes always pointing towards the sky, always think that I am a born-to-be star, doing things without considering other's feelings, making myself as if I am the center of the world as if the world cannot turn without me born to this world....etc...etc...
Luckily, God is very fair to every1~
Ppl like me, who might misuse the attention, only get a bit here and there, and have to be humble(at times:p) and be proud of myself (without over do it at times), be emo at times, think a lot on tiny little stuff (which makes me have lots of craps in my blog ^.^), and will be super happy if there is somebody,which might not be a very important person in my list, appreciate wat I did (e.g. smile at ppl and ppl smile back to me >.<''')...etc...etc....
And~ ppl who know how to use the attention correctly gets the natural ability from God, which means~ they know how to control themselves, I mean control their brain, have the correct mind set at all times, having very clear mind on everything happen (well, u know who u are, but then~ CTRL urself pls!! :p)
To end~ this blog is written only becoz I am so sleepy and tired PLUS lazy to hold a pen~ anything that might clashes with things u saw somewhere, or u thought u knew that b4, its just an coincidence:p
Nitez la^.^
February 17, 2008
Sharing of Dreams
There is once that I shared my dreams bout what I’d become in future with my grandma~ But, the only thing she told me is that~ humans can’t be the most perfect one on earth, so, y not I just have a normal life, normal job and just be someone that won’t try to be a superman/woman that think that he/she save the world.
February 13, 2008
^Pinky^
Changed my blog into pinky pinky again~ The wordings are much more easier to be read (as long as I don't change the font to italics :p), and the colour~~haha~its according to my mood now~ after all, its Valentines day tomolo^.^
So~to celebrate Valentine's day with the lovely super blog of mine~ I declare its pinky pinky day until its no more everyday Valentine in me^.^ haha~~~
p/s: I am kind of getting my craziness in me progressing quite fast these days~ world is suppose to be crazy and "virtual" in reality in some sense in the end, rite? ^.^
Happy Valentines Day^.^
So~to celebrate Valentine's day with the lovely super blog of mine~ I declare its pinky pinky day until its no more everyday Valentine in me^.^ haha~~~
p/s: I am kind of getting my craziness in me progressing quite fast these days~ world is suppose to be crazy and "virtual" in reality in some sense in the end, rite? ^.^
Happy Valentines Day^.^
February 11, 2008
Namdaemun, South Korea
Namdaemun in Seoul, South Korea burnt down~
Namdaemun in Seoul is one of the largest night market, a tourist attraction in Seoul. Namdaemun, also means great south gate in Korean, is an ancient, 600 years old gate~
Lucky me, that I have a chance to see the gate b4 it was burnt down~ but sad and how unlucky for South Korea and the world that we actually lost one of the heritage building on earth~
Before,
After,
For more information, pls visit:
http://www.rte.ie/news/2008/0211/korea.html
http://www.koreatimes.co.kr/www/news/photo/photo_list.asp?categoryCode=115
p/s: Thanks papi for the info^.^
Namdaemun in Seoul is one of the largest night market, a tourist attraction in Seoul. Namdaemun, also means great south gate in Korean, is an ancient, 600 years old gate~
Lucky me, that I have a chance to see the gate b4 it was burnt down~ but sad and how unlucky for South Korea and the world that we actually lost one of the heritage building on earth~
Before,
After,
For more information, pls visit:http://www.rte.ie/news/2008/0211/korea.html
http://www.koreatimes.co.kr/www/news/photo/photo_list.asp?categoryCode=115
p/s: Thanks papi for the info^.^
February 9, 2008
皇后，太后
公主~当一个公主，到了适当的时候，公主要“嫁”了~找到了可以托付终生的“东东”~ “嫁”给世上最完美的“太子”，过不久，与后宫三千争斗，经过时间的磨练，学习，成长~ 老皇帝逝世~然后，台资成了皇帝~ 那公主，就成了皇后。 再经过掌控后宫三千与宫中的大小事务~岁月的催残~~那当皇后的公主，就成了太后~ 太后所管辖的事务不多，但掌握在手中的权威一人之下万人之上~
太后~如果我的世界是一个很大很大的宫~我的愿望，使成为慈禧太后~ 虽她现在被很对人说它不是个好人，让中国给外人入侵， 但，在某些方面，它是很值得仰慕，学习的~
我现还是个公主~即将踏入成为皇后的路途上，嫁给我的梦，成为我宫中的慈禧太后~
哇哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~
p/s: 我有点走火入魔，有点疯疯癫癫了~ yay!!!^.^
太后~如果我的世界是一个很大很大的宫~我的愿望，使成为慈禧太后~ 虽她现在被很对人说它不是个好人，让中国给外人入侵， 但，在某些方面，它是很值得仰慕，学习的~
我现还是个公主~即将踏入成为皇后的路途上，嫁给我的梦，成为我宫中的慈禧太后~
哇哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~
p/s: 我有点走火入魔，有点疯疯癫癫了~ yay!!!^.^
February 8, 2008
自己的肯定
去爱吧！就像没受过伤一样~
歌唱吧！就像每人聆听一样~
跳舞吧！就像没人观看一样~
工作吧！就像没有金钱一样~
生活吧！就像明天是世界末日一样~
人生，不一定要有人关注，只要有自己的肯定，活着，就有意义^.^
歌唱吧！就像每人聆听一样~
跳舞吧！就像没人观看一样~
工作吧！就像没有金钱一样~
生活吧！就像明天是世界末日一样~
人生，不一定要有人关注，只要有自己的肯定，活着，就有意义^.^
February 6, 2008
Help Me!!!
Well~ its chinese new year!! yeah!!! so~ wat is it to complain about?? I have no voice!! Help~
Its not that I really need my voice that I earn my everyday life with my voice, but then~ its like~ one that is so talkative in nature, well~ at times, and at such a time that I really really need my voice to say "HAPPY NEW YEAR" out loud that ppl see me in person that I have a new hair style or wat so ever~ but I cant shout!! the only thing that I can make it is to talk soft, slow and steady, with no pitch and no tone >.< *ouch*
Its new year~ and I can celebrate it only with a slow steady voice. Does it means that I start off my new year without talking so much, and that the whole year to come, I won't be so kacau kacau, talking nonsense d?? Hopefully^.^
The main idea is that~~ I can't talk~ I have no voice, and I can't scold ppl~ that's very very irritating~ HELP!!!
Its not that I really need my voice that I earn my everyday life with my voice, but then~ its like~ one that is so talkative in nature, well~ at times, and at such a time that I really really need my voice to say "HAPPY NEW YEAR" out loud that ppl see me in person that I have a new hair style or wat so ever~ but I cant shout!! the only thing that I can make it is to talk soft, slow and steady, with no pitch and no tone >.< *ouch*
Its new year~ and I can celebrate it only with a slow steady voice. Does it means that I start off my new year without talking so much, and that the whole year to come, I won't be so kacau kacau, talking nonsense d?? Hopefully^.^
The main idea is that~~ I can't talk~ I have no voice, and I can't scold ppl~ that's very very irritating~ HELP!!!
January 26, 2008
Magical moment
Have had any magical moments in ur life? I have a memorable, touching and very unimaginable 1~ DISNEY~
DISNEY was always associated and linked to a ground which is filled with kids running around, with all the rides and with stuff and memories of bedtime stories, animation, cartoons, mickey, magical stuff an imaginary land of fairy tales.
Even I went to the smallest, most unequipted one on earth~ but yet, its such a wonderful experience and when talking about it with frens, its like so so superly excited bout it even its so so over d~
Every 1 seems to be excited and enjoying the whole Disney thing, as in she's like saying "later we go watch that show"~ and my dad, being soooo tired that his eyes was super red, and dad's supposed to be neutral and being ok with watever, accompany me for all those things in the park, but he accompanied me to one of a trilled rides, his exciting face when we are in the queue and how we screamed together during the ride and how he's talking non-stop with exciting tone to my mom describing the whole ride~ hehe~~ i know u enjoyed it :p
Actually~ my main point is~ u will nv know how touching is it to be personally inside DISNEY, having the feel and having that "I am in a fairy tale" kind of thought~ SUPERB!!!
*sob* *sob*~ tears feeling d~ even as I am only listening to the mandarin version of the HK Disney theme song~
Going back to my dreamland~ taz^.^
January 25, 2008
Jelly Fish
I said I love Jelly fish~ (or did I??:p) Its spectacular to see jelly fish in water, making graceful "dance" moves, moving in which ever direction they intend to~
Maybe~ its just that I admire the life of an jelly fish, or *** **** * ** * ***** **** ******~ Jellies move so gracefully in water that makes ppl being jealous of their movements; they get lots of freedom in water, but got caught and kept by researchers and underwater world; they are so fragile that they are composed of 90% water, but they release toxicants not toxic to them, but living things around them; they are lovely, but they aren't anything that u want to get close with.....
By the way~ they taste super awesome~ YUM YUM ^.^
like jellies? ^.^
January 24, 2008
Brain Power
Have u ever thought of how brain works? or ever wonder how u every component of our body "playing symphony", producing wonderful music every sub-seconds of our life?
Its wonderful to think of it~ e.g. y do we walk in a straight line? y can we differentiate our position even when our eyes close? how do we differentiate the size of grains in our mouth even we are chewing then with our eye's closed? how do we actually coordinate tapping of our fingers together with our toe with different rhythm when listening to a particular song?
Ok~ the thing is~ come to think bout the basics of human brain, a 2 or 3 year old kid can analyse things happen in their environment so well that sometimes, even better than adult analysis~ e.g., a kid with which her dad went overseas for more than a year and can't get home so often, she doesn't irritates her mom by asking her mom where dad is every now and then, coz she knows that her mom miss her dad more than she did~ She's just a kid, but she knows that~ y?
We walk without being taught how to walk, we speaks without being taught how to control sound production from our vocal cord, we chew food without being taught how to bite them into smaller pieces b4 swallowing them, we learn language without knowing how the letters are written.....
Brain is sure a wonderful creation~ I dare say that the best neurosurgent still have lots to explore and sometimes, he come to a situation that he starts thinking~ why his neuron is connected in such a way that he come up with that idea^.^
Its wonderful to think of it~ e.g. y do we walk in a straight line? y can we differentiate our position even when our eyes close? how do we differentiate the size of grains in our mouth even we are chewing then with our eye's closed? how do we actually coordinate tapping of our fingers together with our toe with different rhythm when listening to a particular song?
Ok~ the thing is~ come to think bout the basics of human brain, a 2 or 3 year old kid can analyse things happen in their environment so well that sometimes, even better than adult analysis~ e.g., a kid with which her dad went overseas for more than a year and can't get home so often, she doesn't irritates her mom by asking her mom where dad is every now and then, coz she knows that her mom miss her dad more than she did~ She's just a kid, but she knows that~ y?
We walk without being taught how to walk, we speaks without being taught how to control sound production from our vocal cord, we chew food without being taught how to bite them into smaller pieces b4 swallowing them, we learn language without knowing how the letters are written.....
Brain is sure a wonderful creation~ I dare say that the best neurosurgent still have lots to explore and sometimes, he come to a situation that he starts thinking~ why his neuron is connected in such a way that he come up with that idea^.^
January 12, 2008
Tomorrow
Humans seems to be hoping and expecting more than wat they should get. E.g. there’s this movie director that says: with his fame, getting a million as an income shouldn’t be wat he gets.
January 8, 2008
Chasing after fault in the past
There are people in this world that always looks for ppl that are responsible for the fault of something, but they missed getting things done~ always look and stay in the past, but they often forget the words "present" and "future".
Examples:
In UTAR, there are lecture halls with faulty microphones, projectors and even computers~ worse is, when a laptop is obtained from the department, the laptop is super lag and it waste time of lecturers and students. Most important thing is that we waste our money by wasting all our time waiting for this comp and that projector to get classes start.
When the student rep of UTAR (which is my classmate~she's like super girl^.^) went to the department to complain bout the laptops and computers that aren't working well enough, the fellow's' just say that those stuff are used by a lot of ppl and they can't track down who spoil them~*duh*
Wat is the "tut" have to do with who spoil the stuff? The complain is suppose to make things work, get classes going and make repairs wat-so-ever~ Even the toilet is "rosak" after the 3 month's long sem break~ Hey~ did we actually pay for the fees? where did all the money goes other than to all the staff and lecturers, plus some bills to pay? maintenance I suppose??
Ok~ maybe this is a small thing to be said in a blog~ since there are this "politician" stuff going on recently, and that they wanted to catch the one who is behind all those recordings~*duh*+*duh*+*tut*
Maybe~ yes, the fellow who did the recordings of the scene have to be caught, but then, if "u" did nothing wrong in the 1st place, that nobody can be there to make "news" out of anything u do~ wat is the big fuss of getting the fellow caught and punishment and all that? Thats living in the past, chasing fault that happened in the past, rite?
Hello~~ is anybody there to evaluate the present and the future?? or every1 is too bz doing all nonsense "postmortem"?
"swt" "swt" "swt"
Examples:
In UTAR, there are lecture halls with faulty microphones, projectors and even computers~ worse is, when a laptop is obtained from the department, the laptop is super lag and it waste time of lecturers and students. Most important thing is that we waste our money by wasting all our time waiting for this comp and that projector to get classes start.
When the student rep of UTAR (which is my classmate~she's like super girl^.^) went to the department to complain bout the laptops and computers that aren't working well enough, the fellow's' just say that those stuff are used by a lot of ppl and they can't track down who spoil them~*duh*
Wat is the "tut" have to do with who spoil the stuff? The complain is suppose to make things work, get classes going and make repairs wat-so-ever~ Even the toilet is "rosak" after the 3 month's long sem break~ Hey~ did we actually pay for the fees? where did all the money goes other than to all the staff and lecturers, plus some bills to pay? maintenance I suppose??
Ok~ maybe this is a small thing to be said in a blog~ since there are this "politician" stuff going on recently, and that they wanted to catch the one who is behind all those recordings~*duh*+*duh*+*tut*
Maybe~ yes, the fellow who did the recordings of the scene have to be caught, but then, if "u" did nothing wrong in the 1st place, that nobody can be there to make "news" out of anything u do~ wat is the big fuss of getting the fellow caught and punishment and all that? Thats living in the past, chasing fault that happened in the past, rite?
Hello~~ is anybody there to evaluate the present and the future?? or every1 is too bz doing all nonsense "postmortem"?
"swt" "swt" "swt"
January 3, 2008
Kite Flying
Ever fly a kite b4?
So~ like flying kite alone? or with a fren? or with a huge gang of frens?
I love a gang of frens, but it seems to be kind of "麻烦”~ i mean~ not the frens that are, but its like....if u took care of this fren, the other might not be happy with the decision made~ However, if I am not the 1 making decision, but a follower of a gang, I am really ok with anything~ where to fly a kite or where to have things set up and so~ (talk as if I flew a kite just yesterday *duh*)
Going with a fren, means both have to have something in common~ its like I scratch ur back, and u scratch mine~ but at the end of the scratching session, its kind of tired~ I mean~ its not that I don enjoy the whole process of kite flying, but....when it comes to 2 ppl, some argument occurs, and that I have to pretend that u are rite after a attempts of balancing things up, and at the same time, u have to bare with my this and that =.='''
Alone, its just simple~ u fly where every u wanted to~ how high or low is in ur own control. The only thing that troubles flying kite alone is that u have to think of a lot of influences to make things work, and that things are to be done in a much harder way(coz flying kite, suppose to be 2 ppl baru senang let it start, rite?). So~ its just harder, not impossible, rite?
The thing bout kite flying is that~ one should have real control of the line, whether to let it go a bit, or to pull back a bit~ not too strong, nor too weak~ also, wind and location is very important (if at road side, kena langgar oleh kereta =.='''). The most important is not to let the line cut ur finger or the kite kena ur head or the line ikat ur kaki that u stumble and hurt urself (erm~a bit 夸张 :p)
The message here is something unspeakable, unexplainable but expressable in my way :p (coz I love to make things rounded and all crumble into a woolen ball^.^)~ Maybe its just the brand new year that makes me thinks a lot, coz its the time that ppl evaluate themselves~
Happy Kite Flying^.^
So~ like flying kite alone? or with a fren? or with a huge gang of frens?
I love a gang of frens, but it seems to be kind of "麻烦”~ i mean~ not the frens that are, but its like....if u took care of this fren, the other might not be happy with the decision made~ However, if I am not the 1 making decision, but a follower of a gang, I am really ok with anything~ where to fly a kite or where to have things set up and so~ (talk as if I flew a kite just yesterday *duh*)
Going with a fren, means both have to have something in common~ its like I scratch ur back, and u scratch mine~ but at the end of the scratching session, its kind of tired~ I mean~ its not that I don enjoy the whole process of kite flying, but....when it comes to 2 ppl, some argument occurs, and that I have to pretend that u are rite after a attempts of balancing things up, and at the same time, u have to bare with my this and that =.='''
Alone, its just simple~ u fly where every u wanted to~ how high or low is in ur own control. The only thing that troubles flying kite alone is that u have to think of a lot of influences to make things work, and that things are to be done in a much harder way(coz flying kite, suppose to be 2 ppl baru senang let it start, rite?). So~ its just harder, not impossible, rite?
The thing bout kite flying is that~ one should have real control of the line, whether to let it go a bit, or to pull back a bit~ not too strong, nor too weak~ also, wind and location is very important (if at road side, kena langgar oleh kereta =.='''). The most important is not to let the line cut ur finger or the kite kena ur head or the line ikat ur kaki that u stumble and hurt urself (erm~a bit 夸张 :p)
The message here is something unspeakable, unexplainable but expressable in my way :p (coz I love to make things rounded and all crumble into a woolen ball^.^)~ Maybe its just the brand new year that makes me thinks a lot, coz its the time that ppl evaluate themselves~
Happy Kite Flying^.^
January 2, 2008
wants and don'ts
Sometimes, we wish that we have something~ Sometimes, we wish something is just at the corner~ but, Sometimes, we just want to have nothing~ Sometimes, we are glad that nothing is there at the corner~
Humans~ always contradicting themselves (or its just me:p)
Its hard to explain how the mess is like in my brain~ but, its like tides in the ocean, calm at times, but rough in btw calm waves; its like weather in M'sia, hot and sunny, but theres sudden clouds come in btw....
Do I need it? Do I want it? Is it worth for me to take it? or it is nv there at the corner?
Nothing or something?
There's always questions and choices~ decision and ignorance~ but wat I am doing now most of the time is to make my brain peaceful, like~ “世，一切皆空”~ and the phrase I always used now is “阿弥陀佛”~
It shouldn't be time yet for me to think of "nothing"~ since I am still so superly young enough to be a baby~ but, things happened change my thoughts~
^P3@c3^
Humans~ always contradicting themselves (or its just me:p)
Its hard to explain how the mess is like in my brain~ but, its like tides in the ocean, calm at times, but rough in btw calm waves; its like weather in M'sia, hot and sunny, but theres sudden clouds come in btw....
Do I need it? Do I want it? Is it worth for me to take it? or it is nv there at the corner?
Nothing or something?
There's always questions and choices~ decision and ignorance~ but wat I am doing now most of the time is to make my brain peaceful, like~ “世，一切皆空”~ and the phrase I always used now is “阿弥陀佛”~
It shouldn't be time yet for me to think of "nothing"~ since I am still so superly young enough to be a baby~ but, things happened change my thoughts~
^P3@c3^
December 31, 2007
Happy New Year 2008!!
Aniyohaseyo~
Back online~ Back from Korea+Hong Kong~
As usual with the other trips, I learned lots of things that I can't explain or describe and I got lots of thins that I can't grab in my hands~ so~ the purpose of going for trips are.....fun, enjoyment, making my life wonderful, learning, making me clear that world is not just a dot, and of coz~ its all becoz I'm lovin' it ^.^
k~ Back to the topic --> New Year~
The new year of 2007 was just like yesterday, and CNY was like a tab n the finger, and...erm....everything was like glimpse away~ "meaning": I have had a packed, great year 2007, that I enjoyed so much that I miss looking at the clock and counting the dates~ "I M LIVING"!!
As usual~ the wish list for this coming new year in 2 hours time will be:
erm~~~can't think of anything more than wat I have ^.^
wat about.....world peace??? >.<'''
p/s: posts bout the trip will be posted back dated later when "I am free" :p
Back online~ Back from Korea+Hong Kong~
As usual with the other trips, I learned lots of things that I can't explain or describe and I got lots of thins that I can't grab in my hands~ so~ the purpose of going for trips are.....fun, enjoyment, making my life wonderful, learning, making me clear that world is not just a dot, and of coz~ its all becoz I'm lovin' it ^.^
k~ Back to the topic --> New Year~
The new year of 2007 was just like yesterday, and CNY was like a tab n the finger, and...erm....everything was like glimpse away~ "meaning": I have had a packed, great year 2007, that I enjoyed so much that I miss looking at the clock and counting the dates~ "I M LIVING"!!
As usual~ the wish list for this coming new year in 2 hours time will be:
erm~~~can't think of anything more than wat I have ^.^
wat about.....world peace??? >.<'''
p/s: posts bout the trip will be posted back dated later when "I am free" :p
December 16, 2007
Reason/Point
There's always reason/point that make me do a particular thing, its like~ I seems to be doing nothing, wasting my time, but actually, my presence some where, some time have a particular meaning.
Why I bring up this issue? coz, I am still repeating the same old scene in my brain since this morning~
I can't just take the "kena" on my like that~ Its like, do I look like I have nothing better to do than standing nowhere, listening to all those "hehe" and "haha"s? Ok, fine~ I know I look dumb and have a nothing-better-to-do face on me, but~ hello~~ I am tryin to be friendly, kind and respect the presence of u guys. Do I seems to be such a bz body to u? >.<''' Chek Ark!
Fine~ watever~ as long as u guys are happy, and that everything have nothing to do with me, keeping my parents face, my face and u, u and ur face~ no appreciation wat-so-ever~ great!
Final word: Watever~
Why I bring up this issue? coz, I am still repeating the same old scene in my brain since this morning~
I can't just take the "kena" on my like that~ Its like, do I look like I have nothing better to do than standing nowhere, listening to all those "hehe" and "haha"s? Ok, fine~ I know I look dumb and have a nothing-better-to-do face on me, but~ hello~~ I am tryin to be friendly, kind and respect the presence of u guys. Do I seems to be such a bz body to u? >.<''' Chek Ark!
Fine~ watever~ as long as u guys are happy, and that everything have nothing to do with me, keeping my parents face, my face and u, u and ur face~ no appreciation wat-so-ever~ great!
Final word: Watever~
December 15, 2007
公主
不久前，有位友人对我说我是个温室里的小花~ 她问我如果有一天我再也过不到我无忧无虑的生活，再也做不回“公主”了，那我该怎么办？
我发现我的生活有点像个公主~我是个温室里的小花~ 唯一不同的是，我没住在皇宫里，睡的不是公主床，吃的不是山珍海味，穿的不是公主服，没有公主的气质，没有公主般的倾城倾国。。。等等，等等。。。。
可能，我活在我自己的童话里~~ 有时，我是个灰姑娘；有时，我是三只小猪的猪猪；有时，我是卖火柴的女孩；有时，我是希望变成天鹅的丑小鸭；有时却像关在塔上端的公主。。。
December 11, 2007
Suppose
Hihi~ I said that I will only be back after a few weeks, but here I am again~ That's me~ always contradicting myself =.='''
Back to the topic~
There are things that I supposed to do and I should do~ but then, in real life its really hard to apply the suppose into action. Living a life is really hard, especially when it comes to making decision, controlling emo and controlling mind and thoughts~
Its really hard~ making me feeling sick, even with myself >< *vomit*
Maybe~ some day~ the "suppose" will be done
Maybe~ some day in future, living is better of
Maybe~ some day~ self-control can be said and done just a flip of the fingers away
Conclusion: Jia lat =.='''
Back to the topic~
There are things that I supposed to do and I should do~ but then, in real life its really hard to apply the suppose into action. Living a life is really hard, especially when it comes to making decision, controlling emo and controlling mind and thoughts~
Its really hard~ making me feeling sick, even with myself >< *vomit*
Maybe~ some day~ the "suppose" will be done
Maybe~ some day in future, living is better of
Maybe~ some day~ self-control can be said and done just a flip of the fingers away
Conclusion: Jia lat =.='''
December 10, 2007
Holiday
Its been 1 week since my last post~ y? coz~ its finally come to the time where real holiday comes^.^
Its not that in real holiday, I sat at home everyday, doing nothing, having nothing in mind and met nobody except my laptop and my bed:p; BUT, I do have loads and tonnes of things that I do everyday....seems to be that I am a bz person, however, they are just nothing to be proud of or that anything that is special to be said and write about =.='''
So, maybe I'll be back on blog only in a a few weeks' time....
Till then~ happy "holidays", Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year then :p
Its not that in real holiday, I sat at home everyday, doing nothing, having nothing in mind and met nobody except my laptop and my bed:p; BUT, I do have loads and tonnes of things that I do everyday....seems to be that I am a bz person, however, they are just nothing to be proud of or that anything that is special to be said and write about =.='''
So, maybe I'll be back on blog only in a a few weeks' time....
Till then~ happy "holidays", Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year then :p
December 1, 2007
mouth
When some1 asked for ur help in something, and u missed doing something as what the person wished for or that u made a mistake in some way that u think its ur responsible to get things to its right track again~ offering ur help, figuring ways of making things the way it should be so as to take things into ur responsibility.....
But, ppl kept saying that u are doing it the wrong way/not the rite way, and things get messy in the middle of the way of u doing it....again and again, trying to make things rite....and in the end, wat is the return? A loud anger, saying that the thing should be going into the dustbin instead of continue keeping it....wat the "tut"?
Its like, I did another bigger mistake than the 1st 1 that I did, and all the repetition of me doing things again and again, all my hard work belongs to the drain~
Ok, I can try another time to make things moving to the rite path...but then here comes again, all the rite and wrong come to take place, no thank, no appreciation and all anger knock hard at my head, slapping me in my face, killing me with knife stabbing me rite thru my heart!
Fine~ nothing ever happened, and I am totally cool with it!
For next time~ I will still help out, coz I will have respect for u, even I didn't get any respect in return.
Thanks anyway~
But, ppl kept saying that u are doing it the wrong way/not the rite way, and things get messy in the middle of the way of u doing it....again and again, trying to make things rite....and in the end, wat is the return? A loud anger, saying that the thing should be going into the dustbin instead of continue keeping it....wat the "tut"?
Its like, I did another bigger mistake than the 1st 1 that I did, and all the repetition of me doing things again and again, all my hard work belongs to the drain~
Ok, I can try another time to make things moving to the rite path...but then here comes again, all the rite and wrong come to take place, no thank, no appreciation and all anger knock hard at my head, slapping me in my face, killing me with knife stabbing me rite thru my heart!
Fine~ nothing ever happened, and I am totally cool with it!
For next time~ I will still help out, coz I will have respect for u, even I didn't get any respect in return.
Thanks anyway~
November 30, 2007
End of Training
Its the last day of training^.^
Seems to be I just started the whole journey in HLWE, but 2 months, 9 weeks had passed just like that~
What I have learned cannot be described in words...maybe becoz I am lacked of experienced and that everything is super interesting to me^.^
Politics, communication, relationship, responsibility and of coz~ study related knowledge are learned and upgraded to a higher level. Another main thing that I get from this whole 9 weeks is friendship^.^
Friendship earned is like building bridges~ There are staffs working in different department and have different thoughts and knowledge in different fields, trainees that have different attitude and thoughts towards their own future....bla bla bla~=.='''
Maybe I have earn a place in ur heart, become a trainee to be remembered~ =.='''
As always~ I lack security when I didn't get any feedback on who I am, or telling me where I stand. But, nobody will ever tell any1 the truthful, bottom of the heart opinion towards him/her. Even if did so~ that 2nd fellow won't trust the 1st fellow also~ =.=''' Complicated!
Maybe I became more matured and improved my relationship skills, also~ brightens my dimension of knowledge~ But~ I think I am still the same =.='''
The main point of the whole story??
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!
p/s: photos attached~ only got 3 =.=''' tak ada masa~ tak pergi ambil satu satu...pai sei la^.^
Mr. Leong and gang^.^
From Rt: Jeff, Aik Aun, Me, Steven, Mr.Leong, Huei Huei, Janet, Weng Foong, Kia Huey and Jasmine
From Right: Ms Cheng, Aik Aun, Me, Janet and Kia Huey
With the most Leng Chai in the lab~ Ah Soon :p
Seems to be I just started the whole journey in HLWE, but 2 months, 9 weeks had passed just like that~
What I have learned cannot be described in words...maybe becoz I am lacked of experienced and that everything is super interesting to me^.^
Politics, communication, relationship, responsibility and of coz~ study related knowledge are learned and upgraded to a higher level. Another main thing that I get from this whole 9 weeks is friendship^.^
Friendship earned is like building bridges~ There are staffs working in different department and have different thoughts and knowledge in different fields, trainees that have different attitude and thoughts towards their own future....bla bla bla~=.='''
Maybe I have earn a place in ur heart, become a trainee to be remembered~ =.='''
As always~ I lack security when I didn't get any feedback on who I am, or telling me where I stand. But, nobody will ever tell any1 the truthful, bottom of the heart opinion towards him/her. Even if did so~ that 2nd fellow won't trust the 1st fellow also~ =.=''' Complicated!
Maybe I became more matured and improved my relationship skills, also~ brightens my dimension of knowledge~ But~ I think I am still the same =.='''
The main point of the whole story??
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!
p/s: photos attached~ only got 3 =.=''' tak ada masa~ tak pergi ambil satu satu...pai sei la^.^
Mr. Leong and gang^.^From Rt: Jeff, Aik Aun, Me, Steven, Mr.Leong, Huei Huei, Janet, Weng Foong, Kia Huey and Jasmine
From Right: Ms Cheng, Aik Aun, Me, Janet and Kia Huey
With the most Leng Chai in the lab~ Ah Soon :p
November 29, 2007
Down syndrome
There are always 2 main things in controversial of each other, always fighting with each other in our mind~ which are reality and imaginary~
Imaginary stuffs are as in dreams~ and reality are wat u are doing now, even its a total opposite of wat u dreamt for.
When reality overcomes imaginary side of u, and that u cannot cope with that emotional side of u, wat u get is "down" syndrome^.^
"Down" syndrome~ the combination of signs and symptoms as follows: u will feel very down, of coz~ feeling uneasy, hates wat u are doing now, hope for things that meets ur dream, angry over small little things that come ur way, donno whether u should move towards ur dream or take reality as it is...etc....etc....
The cure will be....almost none~ erm~ maybe force urself to be "happy go lucky", taking things easy, and just be who u are~
In my case, I am immune with the syndrome kind of thingy....as to the extend that autoimmune come to take place, where I myself make myself go crazy easily~ imagining things that are super unnatural^.^ but I love this autoimmune disease that attacks me without notice every now and then^.^
Note: Misused all those scientific words~ just for fun~ I don't think any1 can understand wat I am trying to convey here~ so~ some of u must be thinking~ wat the "tut" do I post up to blogger then? Its where I express myself~ choy meh :p
Imaginary stuffs are as in dreams~ and reality are wat u are doing now, even its a total opposite of wat u dreamt for.
When reality overcomes imaginary side of u, and that u cannot cope with that emotional side of u, wat u get is "down" syndrome^.^
"Down" syndrome~ the combination of signs and symptoms as follows: u will feel very down, of coz~ feeling uneasy, hates wat u are doing now, hope for things that meets ur dream, angry over small little things that come ur way, donno whether u should move towards ur dream or take reality as it is...etc....etc....
The cure will be....almost none~ erm~ maybe force urself to be "happy go lucky", taking things easy, and just be who u are~
In my case, I am immune with the syndrome kind of thingy....as to the extend that autoimmune come to take place, where I myself make myself go crazy easily~ imagining things that are super unnatural^.^ but I love this autoimmune disease that attacks me without notice every now and then^.^
Note: Misused all those scientific words~ just for fun~ I don't think any1 can understand wat I am trying to convey here~ so~ some of u must be thinking~ wat the "tut" do I post up to blogger then? Its where I express myself~ choy meh :p
November 25, 2007
sprained
Ever sprained ur ankle before? or~ ur hands??
The question is~ how do u sprain ur finger or worse.....ur toe =.='''
That~ happens to me =.='''
Where is there a person can be so clumsy as to sprain his/her toe even when climbing the staircase?? ridiculous, but yet, there is this clumsy little gal~ ME ^.^
At 1st, I thought its just a slight knock and the pain will go off in a bit, but here it is, after 24 hours and its still there~ wat more that the 爱美不要命(wan to be pretty and don't wan life) me~ wearing heels for 3-4 hours~ going gurney :p Then~ kind of make the thing worse~ i think...but no regrets wat-so-ever~
Hopefully the pain will go off in like~ a week's time?? hahahaha~~~
Just bare with the small tiny pain for now~ its nothing compared to cutting one's body with a knife rite ^.^
The question is~ how do u sprain ur finger or worse.....ur toe =.='''
That~ happens to me =.='''
Where is there a person can be so clumsy as to sprain his/her toe even when climbing the staircase?? ridiculous, but yet, there is this clumsy little gal~ ME ^.^
At 1st, I thought its just a slight knock and the pain will go off in a bit, but here it is, after 24 hours and its still there~ wat more that the 爱美不要命(wan to be pretty and don't wan life) me~ wearing heels for 3-4 hours~ going gurney :p Then~ kind of make the thing worse~ i think...but no regrets wat-so-ever~
Hopefully the pain will go off in like~ a week's time?? hahahaha~~~
Just bare with the small tiny pain for now~ its nothing compared to cutting one's body with a knife rite ^.^
November 24, 2007
--..--..--..
k~ its saturday "again"~ wat have I done?
nothing much~ bz"ing" the whole week....but even have time to do silly stuff =.='''
I have lots and lots of things to be expressed, but I can't do it in the blog~ I can't tell my family members~ my fren is away in msn~ and its like no body can share wat I have in mind with me =.='''
Maybe~ if "something" have happened~ IF~~
but everything is still in "tut"
nothing much~ bz"ing" the whole week....but even have time to do silly stuff =.='''
I have lots and lots of things to be expressed, but I can't do it in the blog~ I can't tell my family members~ my fren is away in msn~ and its like no body can share wat I have in mind with me =.='''
Maybe~ if "something" have happened~ IF~~
but everything is still in "tut"
November 18, 2007
Regret
Remember those things I found in 21st October? I found more of them today =.=''' Maybe its all becoz I have very short memory that I forgot "something" when I did that so called "smart" thing last year~ making me regret now =.='''
Memories are memories~ it will always be that even we have stepped furthur in life, having new thoughts and wat so ever~
Its not that I want anything from it, but~ they make me thought of wat I have went thru, remind me of wat I did in the past~ that's y~ after I throw a lots of things away, gave back some of them to "those" ppl~ so~ there left not much with me....and those left overs are now seems to be so precious, even a small "rubbish" paper seemed to be invaluable like diamond or gold of some sort.
Regret is wat I can say~ no wonder "u" want to keep everything untill ur room filled with all "rubbish"~
p/s: I wonder if I can...erm.....erm.....I'll tell "u" later :p
Memories are memories~ it will always be that even we have stepped furthur in life, having new thoughts and wat so ever~
Its not that I want anything from it, but~ they make me thought of wat I have went thru, remind me of wat I did in the past~ that's y~ after I throw a lots of things away, gave back some of them to "those" ppl~ so~ there left not much with me....and those left overs are now seems to be so precious, even a small "rubbish" paper seemed to be invaluable like diamond or gold of some sort.
Regret is wat I can say~ no wonder "u" want to keep everything untill ur room filled with all "rubbish"~
p/s: I wonder if I can...erm.....erm.....I'll tell "u" later :p
November 17, 2007
Allergic Reaction
hehe~ long time haven't seen my fren visiting me d~ Who are they?? the allergic reaction, making me get itchy anywhere in the body...haha~~
Why?? its all caused by the prawns~ too much for the day already i think....2 for lunch, 2 for tea and 2 for dinner^.^ Yum Yum!!
Hopefully, I can get rid of them by eating more and more "dose" of prawns.... :p Gambateh ne~
Why?? its all caused by the prawns~ too much for the day already i think....2 for lunch, 2 for tea and 2 for dinner^.^ Yum Yum!!
Hopefully, I can get rid of them by eating more and more "dose" of prawns.... :p Gambateh ne~
Its all about FOOD!!!!
It's been a great week for me~
Having to see types of real organs right in front of my eyes, and that I can learn lots of stuffs about them, the tumors, normal and abnormal tissues...etc....etc....
U guys out there must be curious~ y is it that I don't feel geli bout all those bloody, organ, tissues, pus, body kind of things~ Y?? coz I relate all of them to FOOD!!! wahahaha~~
Examples: uterus, which have to be cut open so that formalin can go inside the organ and fix all the cells and not only the surface cells, looks exactly like meat balls~
Uterine/liver scrapings for biopsy purposes looks super like "liong fun"~
Prostate scrapings are super like potato chips we munch~
Colon is super yummy-like pig stomach/intestine~
Etc....etc....
So...its kind of interesting for me, coz I love organs~ I think the most beautiful thing god actually created is human body and its component^.^
For today~ its also about food~
Went for the my 2nd favourite after chocolate~ cheese fondue!!! yum yum!!!
Having to see types of real organs right in front of my eyes, and that I can learn lots of stuffs about them, the tumors, normal and abnormal tissues...etc....etc....
U guys out there must be curious~ y is it that I don't feel geli bout all those bloody, organ, tissues, pus, body kind of things~ Y?? coz I relate all of them to FOOD!!! wahahaha~~
Examples: uterus, which have to be cut open so that formalin can go inside the organ and fix all the cells and not only the surface cells, looks exactly like meat balls~
Uterine/liver scrapings for biopsy purposes looks super like "liong fun"~
Prostate scrapings are super like potato chips we munch~
Colon is super yummy-like pig stomach/intestine~
Etc....etc....
So...its kind of interesting for me, coz I love organs~ I think the most beautiful thing god actually created is human body and its component^.^
For today~ its also about food~
Went for the my 2nd favourite after chocolate~ cheese fondue!!! yum yum!!!
November 11, 2007
Jay on the Run
finally~ Finally~FINALLY!!!
After multiple attempts I finally got the CD in my hands~ it all must be becoz of the "tut" censorship board =.=''' Donno wat idiotic stuff they are going to censor this time round =.='''
Later only write a blog bout the new album la~ now no time~ :p
mom don want to fren me liao~ coz I go "fill in petrol"...hahahaha~~~ crazy crazy stuff do happen in my house ^.^
And then~ my room looks even more jia lat then a cow barn~ hahahaha~~~
the toilet~~ =.=''' just don't wear glasses inside
My books~ are like mount everest
My clothes and closet....still considered neat and nice ^.^
My laptop ~ still have things to install and all the files to put into order
My frens ~ all still in exam....so~wish them luck
My training~ =.=''' I'll have to re write the report of the week, and then read up something for the coming week
Conclusion: JIA LAT!!!
After multiple attempts I finally got the CD in my hands~ it all must be becoz of the "tut" censorship board =.=''' Donno wat idiotic stuff they are going to censor this time round =.='''
Later only write a blog bout the new album la~ now no time~ :p
mom don want to fren me liao~ coz I go "fill in petrol"...hahahaha~~~ crazy crazy stuff do happen in my house ^.^
And then~ my room looks even more jia lat then a cow barn~ hahahaha~~~
the toilet~~ =.=''' just don't wear glasses inside
My books~ are like mount everest
My clothes and closet....still considered neat and nice ^.^
My laptop ~ still have things to install and all the files to put into order
My frens ~ all still in exam....so~wish them luck
My training~ =.=''' I'll have to re write the report of the week, and then read up something for the coming week
Conclusion: JIA LAT!!!
November 10, 2007
Alone
Sometimes, I miss those days I have in KL~ being alone, no one bothers bout wat I do, wat I eat, whether I slept enough, where I went, wat I am doing, whether I study or not, if I am emo or I am happy....etc....etc....
Maybe it's all becoz of this little "thingy" that bothers me, making me feel like want to shout at ppl no matter who they are; making talk nonsense to ppl around me, even ppl that are just brush shoulder punya colleague; seems to be easily irritated with questions that make me feel "irritated"; feels like....I am angry!!!!
Its a love-hate relationship btw me and the "thingy"; me and ppl around me; me and myself (at times); u~ u~ and U~~
Everything irritates me~ I am an angry person!!!
I want to be alone~ just don kacau me ok?
One more thing~ just open ur eyes, and close the other 5 holes on ur head~ serious!
Maybe it's all becoz of this little "thingy" that bothers me, making me feel like want to shout at ppl no matter who they are; making talk nonsense to ppl around me, even ppl that are just brush shoulder punya colleague; seems to be easily irritated with questions that make me feel "irritated"; feels like....I am angry!!!!
Its a love-hate relationship btw me and the "thingy"; me and ppl around me; me and myself (at times); u~ u~ and U~~
Everything irritates me~ I am an angry person!!!
I want to be alone~ just don kacau me ok?
One more thing~ just open ur eyes, and close the other 5 holes on ur head~ serious!
November 8, 2007
Finished "the" book, after 6 months =.='''
Phew!! after 6 months of on and off reading the same old book, I finally finished the whole thing. The title: History of Medicine, from Hypocrites to Gene Therapy~
Its a fun to read book, having quite easy to understand scientific terms and all the basics and the findings in medicinal science~
As it states: The disciples of Hypocrites~ I take it as to mean ppl that have the passion towards medicine and health science, making themselves as to continue to find out more about live, biological stuff and to make human life better in a way.....
So~ maybe, I can make myself, as a disciple of Hypocrites ^.^ and my religion will be stated Hypocritesm~
hahahaha~~~
Its a fun to read book, having quite easy to understand scientific terms and all the basics and the findings in medicinal science~
As it states: The disciples of Hypocrites~ I take it as to mean ppl that have the passion towards medicine and health science, making themselves as to continue to find out more about live, biological stuff and to make human life better in a way.....
So~ maybe, I can make myself, as a disciple of Hypocrites ^.^ and my religion will be stated Hypocritesm~
hahahaha~~~
November 4, 2007
Time
There are a lot of times, I think y ppl have so much time to do something I love doing, like read books~ and that I don have so much of them =.='''
Now I know....I am easily distracted by something very entertaining, like games, tv, drama, movies, shopping and chit chatting, for examples =.='''
There are too many things that I hope I can do, but at the same time, I am just wasting all the time in the world I have just like that~ Its such a sad sad thing~ how pity that I just don't have self control over myself.....
Now I know....I am easily distracted by something very entertaining, like games, tv, drama, movies, shopping and chit chatting, for examples =.='''
There are too many things that I hope I can do, but at the same time, I am just wasting all the time in the world I have just like that~ Its such a sad sad thing~ how pity that I just don't have self control over myself.....
f*cking fake of me :p
Its syok to go shopping alone today~ though I love the companion of my super great cousin, but being with myself is undescribably enjoyable.
Why lea???
Coz, if I am with some1, which doesn't really knows me in deep, and have some expectation out of me....its like...I have to act the way how they think of me, wat they expect from me.....etc....etc.....
When I am with myself, I can change my attitude towards things from seconds to seconds without any consideration of anything wat so ever.... also, with that I can observe ppl around me, and have fun with that^.^
ei?? am I still repeating myself?? maybe~ but I don care.....I just want to talk~ BLEK:p
Why lea???
Coz, if I am with some1, which doesn't really knows me in deep, and have some expectation out of me....its like...I have to act the way how they think of me, wat they expect from me.....etc....etc.....
When I am with myself, I can change my attitude towards things from seconds to seconds without any consideration of anything wat so ever.... also, with that I can observe ppl around me, and have fun with that^.^
ei?? am I still repeating myself?? maybe~ but I don care.....I just want to talk~ BLEK:p
October 27, 2007
Lantern Festival
Went to Juru's auto city for the 1st time...Its like~going out of the kampung the 1st time, donno wat to do there, and being amused and attracted by the lights and shops =.='''
The lantern festival is comparable with that of ice carving in Harbin, though 1 is ice and 1 is lantern, and 1 have a huge area and amazing, the other have a smaller area and a bit of finish the whole field in 1 sight...
So~ wat attracted me to the festival?
This
The theme of the lantern festival is Hari Raya~ so, they have a bit of Malay stuff, like:
Ok~ enough of nonsense....Here's more picture:
The lantern festival is comparable with that of ice carving in Harbin, though 1 is ice and 1 is lantern, and 1 have a huge area and amazing, the other have a smaller area and a bit of finish the whole field in 1 sight...
So~ wat attracted me to the festival?
This
The theme of the lantern festival is Hari Raya~ so, they have a bit of Malay stuff, like:
Ok~ enough of nonsense....Here's more picture:
Life's short
Even though I am just 22, doesn't really achieve much, doesn't really do anything that can be seen and touched, but it seems like I my life is *tut*...(censored for pantang purposes :p)
Life's actually very short~
Its like, I just came back from Harbin 2 weeks ago, and then now, I am doing another planning for the up coming year end trip.
Its like, Chinese new year was like weeks ago, and now, we are here looking forward for Deepavali and then for Christmas already.
Its like, 2007 is just here and new, yet, 2008 is just around the corner waiting for the hailing of "Happy New Year".
Years passes there and then~
Its now new year, and then, in like a few weeks later, it become past tense already.
But, there are ppl that doesn't really live life, but the life is living them =.=''' Sound confusing~ I also don't really know wat I am talking about....haha~~~
Anyway, wat I really want to convey here is that..."Living in regret is better that regret after u don live any more".
No matter wat happens, its life~ And, that to suffer is part of it^.^
Lets work out our life^.^
Life's actually very short~
Its like, I just came back from Harbin 2 weeks ago, and then now, I am doing another planning for the up coming year end trip.
Its like, Chinese new year was like weeks ago, and now, we are here looking forward for Deepavali and then for Christmas already.
Its like, 2007 is just here and new, yet, 2008 is just around the corner waiting for the hailing of "Happy New Year".
Years passes there and then~
Its now new year, and then, in like a few weeks later, it become past tense already.
But, there are ppl that doesn't really live life, but the life is living them =.=''' Sound confusing~ I also don't really know wat I am talking about....haha~~~
Anyway, wat I really want to convey here is that..."Living in regret is better that regret after u don live any more".
No matter wat happens, its life~ And, that to suffer is part of it^.^
Lets work out our life^.^
October 26, 2007
Lines
It always seems to me that there's distance btw me and other ppl, frens and family is quite far, that I feel myself being tiny and unimportant, but then, i think the lines in btw is drawn by me myself =.='''
Lines~ its drawn and applied by me to my surroundings, "protecting" me some how from "harm" and unwanted nuisance...erm....maybe that's wat I do, coz I really don't know y I draw lines.
Its makes me feel safe, living inside the line drawn, but sometimes makes me wonder if I ever existed in this world/reality of life.
Maybe, sometimes I should step out of "my territory", looking back at myself~
Maybe, I actually exist, but its only me that think too much~ always thought that I am unimportant...
Maybe its all just becoz I am just not confident enough bout myself.
Its some "u know who" makes me thought of that I emphasized too much bout "this something".
Lines~ its drawn and applied by me to my surroundings, "protecting" me some how from "harm" and unwanted nuisance...erm....maybe that's wat I do, coz I really don't know y I draw lines.
Its makes me feel safe, living inside the line drawn, but sometimes makes me wonder if I ever existed in this world/reality of life.
Maybe, sometimes I should step out of "my territory", looking back at myself~
Maybe, I actually exist, but its only me that think too much~ always thought that I am unimportant...
Maybe its all just becoz I am just not confident enough bout myself.
Its some "u know who" makes me thought of that I emphasized too much bout "this something".
October 25, 2007
Relationship with ppl
There's no where in the world that one can find every1 standing at the same view point as us, and there is no where to find ppl that will always be frenly, good and easy to get along with. There is always ppl that stand on our nerve, make us feel uneasy or even make us feel like vomiting =.='''
Humans, there are many kinds~ me and u, me and them, u and "all of us" are one of a kind. So, just bare with all those ppl around us, accepting every1 as a "unique" human being, possessing different brain and heart, treating every1 in equal status and level.
My fren sms me saying that "some1" is very fake~ but then, turn the table over and see things, if that "some1" is fake or we see them as "vomit" stimulating human, BUT, we still smile when we see them and we still talk and mix with them like there's nothing happen, then....who's more fake in the end?? ^.^
In relationship with ppl around us, or ppl that just passes us, just brush our shoulder, its nothing that can be called "easy". There are our own different ways of treating different kinds of ppl. It all depends on who we classify ourselves as and how we classify others.
~Lesson learnt~
Humans, there are many kinds~ me and u, me and them, u and "all of us" are one of a kind. So, just bare with all those ppl around us, accepting every1 as a "unique" human being, possessing different brain and heart, treating every1 in equal status and level.
My fren sms me saying that "some1" is very fake~ but then, turn the table over and see things, if that "some1" is fake or we see them as "vomit" stimulating human, BUT, we still smile when we see them and we still talk and mix with them like there's nothing happen, then....who's more fake in the end?? ^.^
In relationship with ppl around us, or ppl that just passes us, just brush our shoulder, its nothing that can be called "easy". There are our own different ways of treating different kinds of ppl. It all depends on who we classify ourselves as and how we classify others.
~Lesson learnt~
October 21, 2007
Memories
Cleaning cupboards and drawers in my room last night, throwing rubbish papers and nonsense collections away....then, found some old memories in those boxes~
Such as~
- The 1st paper that "u" wrote for me, teaching me chemistry when preparing for STPM
- Some papers and drawings that I make it myself, thinking that I have done something meaningful when I scribble them, but thinking bout it, I so 无聊 haha~~
- Found the 1 and only prize I go for my life
- look thru those cards and letters my "frens" wrote for me, still felt touched after reading them over and over again^.^ I have frens after all~ but then, its just that I don't make the effort myself to maintain them =.=''' What a silly gal
- Refreshed my memories thru all little gifts, presents and miniature things in those boxes. Reminds me a lot about wat I have went thru in the past 10-20 years ^.^ (coz 20 is the most I have...haha~~)
However, thinking bout wanting to throw away lots of "rubbish" away, but they are so precious, that even the worse memories are worth to kept in heart and mind.
Humans~~ gals~~~ the unpredicted, unknown, never being understood living creature^.^
Note: "u" = the known and u know who
"frens" = those real frens, best frens, some donno if they are fren, some over the std of fren line punya fren, some btw fren line punya fren, relatives that seems to be like frens and frens that seems to be sort of brother ^.^
p/s: complex fren circle :p
Such as~
- The 1st paper that "u" wrote for me, teaching me chemistry when preparing for STPM
- Some papers and drawings that I make it myself, thinking that I have done something meaningful when I scribble them, but thinking bout it, I so 无聊 haha~~
- Found the 1 and only prize I go for my life
- look thru those cards and letters my "frens" wrote for me, still felt touched after reading them over and over again^.^ I have frens after all~ but then, its just that I don't make the effort myself to maintain them =.=''' What a silly gal
- Refreshed my memories thru all little gifts, presents and miniature things in those boxes. Reminds me a lot about wat I have went thru in the past 10-20 years ^.^ (coz 20 is the most I have...haha~~)
However, thinking bout wanting to throw away lots of "rubbish" away, but they are so precious, that even the worse memories are worth to kept in heart and mind.
Humans~~ gals~~~ the unpredicted, unknown, never being understood living creature^.^
Note: "u" = the known and u know who
"frens" = those real frens, best frens, some donno if they are fren, some over the std of fren line punya fren, some btw fren line punya fren, relatives that seems to be like frens and frens that seems to be sort of brother ^.^
p/s: complex fren circle :p
October 15, 2007
Hari Raya Holiday
Having long weekends, 3 days in a row~ don't have to go to work, its super happy^.^ But then, this kind of happiness and excitement, only occur if one have to go to sch, work or to do something that he/she can't have control of her own time, then suddenly, there's holiday and free to do anything he/she wants^.^
Wat have I done??
Erm~~just laze around, relaxed, read books, watch a bit of drama (I really read more than I am with drama, ok!!!).... then, having flu, I have to rest quite a lot, taking medicine, and drink tonnes of water, plus, non stop eating anything I see, coz there's a saying: "starve the fever, and feed the cold". So, I make it like, if I eat more, then I will heal faster ^.^
Have to go work again tomolo =.='''
Its not that I hate working/training, but then, its like the whole day is finished just on 1 thing, and that its supposed to be my holiday...year end holiday!!!
wat to do??
sleep early tonight lor~~
Aahhhh CHIEEEWWWW!!
Wat have I done??
Erm~~just laze around, relaxed, read books, watch a bit of drama (I really read more than I am with drama, ok!!!).... then, having flu, I have to rest quite a lot, taking medicine, and drink tonnes of water, plus, non stop eating anything I see, coz there's a saying: "starve the fever, and feed the cold". So, I make it like, if I eat more, then I will heal faster ^.^
Have to go work again tomolo =.='''
Its not that I hate working/training, but then, its like the whole day is finished just on 1 thing, and that its supposed to be my holiday...year end holiday!!!
wat to do??
sleep early tonight lor~~
Aahhhh CHIEEEWWWW!!
October 13, 2007
Summary of the week
Its been a very tiring week, working from 8.30 to 5 everyday without income~ makes me don want to do anything at all after coming back home everyday, even to on the computer seems like going to space to me~
Monday~ Got 2 juniors from UTAR go to HLWE for training today, quite easy talk to gals. Went for belly dancing at night^.^ I know it sounds weird that I go for dancing class, but then, I take it as an exercise class, which, help me to learn to coordinate my body, to slim my body, to avoid accumulation of fat on my waist, also, its fun^.^
Tuesday~ nothing much of interesting stuff, well~~ quite much learnt in HLWE everyday, but then, to share with ppl of wat I've learnt its like talking in alien language, coz it will contain too many scientific terms and also....sometimes, I think some are really catch my attention, but then, it just don stimulate any brain cells of u guys. So, I'll just keep everything to myself^.^
Wednesday~ went to pasar rahmadan to buy dinner, coz I am lazy to cook, also, its almost Hari Raya d~ and that no more pasar rahmadan will be going to be seen any where d~
Watch Malaysian's 1st astronaut sent to space live on tv~ its quite touched....erm...emotional looking at the screen, seeing the rocket being shot up the sky. But then, after that, when I know all those facts bout him being sent to "space" have some story behind =.=''' AIH!!!!
Thursday~ nothing much interesting
Friday~ Feel a bit of sore throat, but then, still ajak my cousin sis to go for western food at night^.^ coz just feel like eating :p
Saturday, today~~ having sore throat finally *duh*. Got myself medicine for sore throat, then trying to finish my comic the whole day, but.....erm...still working on it... want to go clean my room 1st~
Ja~~
Monday~ Got 2 juniors from UTAR go to HLWE for training today, quite easy talk to gals. Went for belly dancing at night^.^ I know it sounds weird that I go for dancing class, but then, I take it as an exercise class, which, help me to learn to coordinate my body, to slim my body, to avoid accumulation of fat on my waist, also, its fun^.^
Tuesday~ nothing much of interesting stuff, well~~ quite much learnt in HLWE everyday, but then, to share with ppl of wat I've learnt its like talking in alien language, coz it will contain too many scientific terms and also....sometimes, I think some are really catch my attention, but then, it just don stimulate any brain cells of u guys. So, I'll just keep everything to myself^.^
Wednesday~ went to pasar rahmadan to buy dinner, coz I am lazy to cook, also, its almost Hari Raya d~ and that no more pasar rahmadan will be going to be seen any where d~
Watch Malaysian's 1st astronaut sent to space live on tv~ its quite touched....erm...emotional looking at the screen, seeing the rocket being shot up the sky. But then, after that, when I know all those facts bout him being sent to "space" have some story behind =.=''' AIH!!!!
Thursday~ nothing much interesting
Friday~ Feel a bit of sore throat, but then, still ajak my cousin sis to go for western food at night^.^ coz just feel like eating :p
Saturday, today~~ having sore throat finally *duh*. Got myself medicine for sore throat, then trying to finish my comic the whole day, but.....erm...still working on it... want to go clean my room 1st~
Ja~~
October 7, 2007
Grandmother story
Looking a few blogs back, I seems to be telling grandmother's story, elaborating something over and over again.....
Maybe its because that something just kept bothering my mind a lot =.='''
Bare with me guys~ I have to express everything out in blogs coz that's the only place I let my feelings out
Maybe its because that something just kept bothering my mind a lot =.='''
Bare with me guys~ I have to express everything out in blogs coz that's the only place I let my feelings out
October 6, 2007
Training part 2
yay!!! I'm done with the 1st week....
Wat question do I get most in this whole week? Erm....Do u get any pay for the training period? The answer...NO~
"har" will be the reply =.='''
Money, pay and tired doesn't really bothers me much as usual, its just that life and everyday have to be interesting and enjoyable~ The most important thing is continuous learning. Learning bout life, having different and more in depth thought, more knowledge gained than that I have had in text books and classes, release my mind more towards freedom than constrained in the circle of having to do this and that...etc...etc...
I really don't care much bout wat others have and I don't, or even the levels that others have and that I haven't reach that level...its just that envy and jealousy always come to overcome my conscious mind, which makes me imagine and dream more than I should.
Life's just have to be interesting, enjoyable, happy and healthy~
Do u know?
When one have lots of things that he/she can do, he/she will lost their way towards their target, thinking too much than he/she should, hoping to get more, hoping for the imaginary, loss their self and lost their purpose of living.
When one have only 1 target and 1 purpose of living, he/she will strive hard, nv hope for the unknown, nv imagine more than wat he/she can get.
For me, my purpose of living....erm...learning?? and enjoying??
Wat question do I get most in this whole week? Erm....Do u get any pay for the training period? The answer...NO~
"har" will be the reply =.='''
Money, pay and tired doesn't really bothers me much as usual, its just that life and everyday have to be interesting and enjoyable~ The most important thing is continuous learning. Learning bout life, having different and more in depth thought, more knowledge gained than that I have had in text books and classes, release my mind more towards freedom than constrained in the circle of having to do this and that...etc...etc...
I really don't care much bout wat others have and I don't, or even the levels that others have and that I haven't reach that level...its just that envy and jealousy always come to overcome my conscious mind, which makes me imagine and dream more than I should.
Life's just have to be interesting, enjoyable, happy and healthy~
Do u know?
When one have lots of things that he/she can do, he/she will lost their way towards their target, thinking too much than he/she should, hoping to get more, hoping for the imaginary, loss their self and lost their purpose of living.
When one have only 1 target and 1 purpose of living, he/she will strive hard, nv hope for the unknown, nv imagine more than wat he/she can get.
For me, my purpose of living....erm...learning?? and enjoying??
October 3, 2007
To learn and to be taught
Lesson of today:
To learn is our responsibility as a trainee in labs or anywhere, but to teach is not others' responsibility. We have to have the initiative ourselves to be taught by others and for others to teach us~ Sounds complicated?? I don't think so~
Maybe it's because I have great colleagues who are very helpful and eager to teach me stuffs, even to find things for me to do to fill up my free time, so that I won't be bored^.^
Thanks to Miss Koay, teaching me how to use new machines and how to run new tests today...Love ya~
And to...erm...sorry I still can't get ur name, Miss X, thanks for letting me do the filing for u~ it get me more time to sit on the chair^.^
To learn is our responsibility as a trainee in labs or anywhere, but to teach is not others' responsibility. We have to have the initiative ourselves to be taught by others and for others to teach us~ Sounds complicated?? I don't think so~
Maybe it's because I have great colleagues who are very helpful and eager to teach me stuffs, even to find things for me to do to fill up my free time, so that I won't be bored^.^
Thanks to Miss Koay, teaching me how to use new machines and how to run new tests today...Love ya~
And to...erm...sorry I still can't get ur name, Miss X, thanks for letting me do the filing for u~ it get me more time to sit on the chair^.^
October 2, 2007
Training~
Yesterday was my 1st day in Lam Wah Ee hospital for my training~
I was tired, ached on both the sole of both legs~ but then~ its interesting....Not bored, not sleepy, and blood in my hands^.^ Love that:p
Wat interest my is that...its my 1st experience working in the society...erm~ don be jealous and say that I am a mama's gal or that I am dumbo or something... u r just super jealous of me...BLEK:P
Learn quite a lot there, maybe its coz my colleague are great~ taught me quite a lot in details and even trust me in doing some test on my own...super thanks to Kak Sue, especially ^.^
Can't say much here....if u wan to know more bout wat I have learnt so far...erm~ view my training report at the end of my training :p But, I don't think u guys have any chance in doing so.
Conclusion: great day, great experience, enjoying it, its fun and I might get bored with it some day to come, but then~ I am still learning^.^(for the time being:p)
I was tired, ached on both the sole of both legs~ but then~ its interesting....Not bored, not sleepy, and blood in my hands^.^ Love that:p
Wat interest my is that...its my 1st experience working in the society...erm~ don be jealous and say that I am a mama's gal or that I am dumbo or something... u r just super jealous of me...BLEK:P
Learn quite a lot there, maybe its coz my colleague are great~ taught me quite a lot in details and even trust me in doing some test on my own...super thanks to Kak Sue, especially ^.^
Can't say much here....if u wan to know more bout wat I have learnt so far...erm~ view my training report at the end of my training :p But, I don't think u guys have any chance in doing so.
Conclusion: great day, great experience, enjoying it, its fun and I might get bored with it some day to come, but then~ I am still learning^.^(for the time being:p)
September 29, 2007
距离
在网陆上看到这文章， 还附加了这诗。。。简直符合了我心里百般的思念，心里的痛楚~
~给那还在我心中的你~
诗如下：
世界上最遥远的距离
不是, 生与死
而是,我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
世界上最遥远的距离
不是, 我就站在你面前,你却不知道我爱你
而是,明明知道彼此相爱
却不能在一起
世界上最遥远的距离
不是, 明明知道彼此相爱,却不能在一起,
而是,明明无法抵挡这股思念,
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
世界上最遥远的距离
不是,明明无法抵挡这股思念，却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是,用自己冷漠的心
对爱你的人,掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠
“。。。这诗中的情感和苦痛，却是我自己切身的体会。我想对自己说，也告诉我思念中的一个人，无需说，无需求证，这世界上有一种情感叫做遥望。
我要写的就是遥望。无言的遥望，无望的遥望，不能分说的遥望，不可明言的遥望。
这样一首近乎于直白的诗-我甚至不认为它是诗。。。
。。。思念，人同此心的思念。
网络时代的思念，是世界上最遥远的距离。
现实有界，人生有涯，而人的思想是无限的。因而我说，所有的拥有都有限，只有思念无 限。那么思念又是什么呢？是否可以说，思念是一种由于时空阻隔而产生的渴望圆满而心神不宁的痛楚：你远在天涯，我不知道你在哪里，也不知道你变成了什么样 子。或者，思念是记忆留下的无法抹平的辙痕，时空产生的牵肠挂肚的追索。好比泰戈尔的吟咏：夏日的南风里有一股奇异的芳踪，让我想望得心痛。思念既由距离 所产生，又将距离进一步延伸。这个距离，便是心的皈依。爱到极限，思念就变成无穷。
蜡炬成灰，死而后已，所谓爱是不能忘记的。这既是情爱的慰籍，也是人生的无奈。这首诗，写了生之无奈，爱之无望。
事过经年，又到栀子花开满坡的季节；事过经年，多少良辰美景虚设。然而有些事无法放下，有些人不能忘记。当时的雨，当时的心境，依旧清晰可见。
于是我写了这篇文章，纪念一件爱却不能拥有的往事。”
~给那还在我心中的你~
Holiday vs Blogging
Holiday supposed to have lots of programs, and that should have a lot of stories to write about, lots of happy things to share with u guys, but then~for gals, happy things are really hard to be expressed in words, and sad frustrating things are very easy to slip out of our mouth...(erm~ I am classifying humans into gals and guys again~ sorry, but I think there's experimental support for that, including difference in brain of males and females^.^)
Days passes like lightning...its like, I just woke up not long ago, and then, here I am again, in my room, doing things that I should to end the day....I love that, but....not when I have so many things to do=.='''
Anyway, nothing much to complain bout the sky, the sea and the air that I breathe...coz...my life is really great, not like 2 years back, in which, everyday was really hard to pass, coz I only have 1 and only 1 thought filling my brain. WAIT~ pull hand break and reverse a bit! Its not that I don like my life for the past 2 years or that I suffer a lot in those days, its just that...my heart now is not as rough as the wave in the sea, but calm as breeze~ too calm sometimes that I fear that I might be too cold in every aspect, which might then bring me to a world, which is too winter, without something to cheer me or surprise me anymore~
Life's like that......
I laugh and smile not from the bottom of my heart, coz I can't see anything that attracts me that much.
Tears and sorrow doesn't come as often, as I now have better control of them.
Thoughts are my best fren, making emotion come and go as they like, not to let them interfere my life; round everything up in a very reasonable way; making my thought direct to the point, don have to consider anything "else".
Hm...seems like I have gone way too far from the topic :p & that I am still complaining bout this and that the whole way thru.... :p
Pai Sei la~
Days passes like lightning...its like, I just woke up not long ago, and then, here I am again, in my room, doing things that I should to end the day....I love that, but....not when I have so many things to do=.='''
Anyway, nothing much to complain bout the sky, the sea and the air that I breathe...coz...my life is really great, not like 2 years back, in which, everyday was really hard to pass, coz I only have 1 and only 1 thought filling my brain. WAIT~ pull hand break and reverse a bit! Its not that I don like my life for the past 2 years or that I suffer a lot in those days, its just that...my heart now is not as rough as the wave in the sea, but calm as breeze~ too calm sometimes that I fear that I might be too cold in every aspect, which might then bring me to a world, which is too winter, without something to cheer me or surprise me anymore~
Life's like that......
I laugh and smile not from the bottom of my heart, coz I can't see anything that attracts me that much.
Tears and sorrow doesn't come as often, as I now have better control of them.
Thoughts are my best fren, making emotion come and go as they like, not to let them interfere my life; round everything up in a very reasonable way; making my thought direct to the point, don have to consider anything "else".
Hm...seems like I have gone way too far from the topic :p & that I am still complaining bout this and that the whole way thru.... :p
Pai Sei la~
September 26, 2007
starting the day~
Starting my day at 8am~ erm~ don't really want to get up so early...but then~ maybe I have got enough sleep already =.='''
wat have i done this morning??
Make clothes in my closet in to order...its actually shift things here and there, so as to make it look more neat...no one's going to look into my closet, its only me, so...its just for my own "syok"ness :p
Done 2 machine loads of clothes, which is like, the whole washing area is full of my clothes hanging^.^
Then, cleaned my car....which every1 say its super "clean". I don't wash my car as often as u guys coz if I want to wash my car, it have to be hand washed by myself, which makes me proud of it to claim that I love my car, instead of "u", make other ppl wash it for u (BLEK:P)
Have to take a bath d~
My whole body is WET!
wat have i done this morning??
Make clothes in my closet in to order...its actually shift things here and there, so as to make it look more neat...no one's going to look into my closet, its only me, so...its just for my own "syok"ness :p
Done 2 machine loads of clothes, which is like, the whole washing area is full of my clothes hanging^.^
Then, cleaned my car....which every1 say its super "clean". I don't wash my car as often as u guys coz if I want to wash my car, it have to be hand washed by myself, which makes me proud of it to claim that I love my car, instead of "u", make other ppl wash it for u (BLEK:P)
Have to take a bath d~
My whole body is WET!
September 23, 2007
Time
Time seems to be fly fast~ but yet, it makes me feel very frustrated~~Why is it that the paper for microbe will be on Tuesday????Why~~~~
I kept hugging my own made notes~ drawing, scribble and highlight important points over and over again~ but then~~ its still Sunday =.=''' Why isn't today monday? why the paper is not on monday? why is it that the exam have to stretch from the 1st day to the last?? WHY~~~
Feel to tired, brain freeze, too many things learnt and processed...yet~ points still have to be packed into my brain....sien~tired~bored~and felt sleepy once notes is in my hands =.='''
Life's like that~ one day, I might look back and say:" wow~ I have had a great life back then...wished I am a student and have the feeling of sitting for exam again"....
Right~ wished that would happen :p
I kept hugging my own made notes~ drawing, scribble and highlight important points over and over again~ but then~~ its still Sunday =.=''' Why isn't today monday? why the paper is not on monday? why is it that the exam have to stretch from the 1st day to the last?? WHY~~~
Feel to tired, brain freeze, too many things learnt and processed...yet~ points still have to be packed into my brain....sien~tired~bored~and felt sleepy once notes is in my hands =.='''
Life's like that~ one day, I might look back and say:" wow~ I have had a great life back then...wished I am a student and have the feeling of sitting for exam again"....
Right~ wished that would happen :p
September 22, 2007
天使与恶魔的决斗
明明，理智已经把一切都分析好了； 时间已经可以用年来计算；脑筋非常的清楚~ 但是，感觉还是赢了。
自己与自己的决斗，不是一两天可以解决的~ 天使VS恶魔。。。
天使，为我开了新的一条路。。。前途光明，好像梦境一样。。。
恶魔，却一直把我那要踏进梦境的那脚拉回来~ 让我一直被捆绑在现实里。。。
那~到底恶魔是好人，还是天使是好人？
我~常想把自己带到梦境，无忧无虑，自由自在~ 但往往，身边有太多太多的恶魔~把我拉回现实。
我不要！！！
我喜欢骗自己，喜欢梦境，不要清醒， 不要记得。。。都不要~~~
理智啊~ 请你不要把我的梦粉碎~
我好想好想。。。就这样~就这样或在骗局里~
自己与自己的决斗，不是一两天可以解决的~ 天使VS恶魔。。。
天使，为我开了新的一条路。。。前途光明，好像梦境一样。。。
恶魔，却一直把我那要踏进梦境的那脚拉回来~ 让我一直被捆绑在现实里。。。
那~到底恶魔是好人，还是天使是好人？
我~常想把自己带到梦境，无忧无虑，自由自在~ 但往往，身边有太多太多的恶魔~把我拉回现实。
我不要！！！
我喜欢骗自己，喜欢梦境，不要清醒， 不要记得。。。都不要~~~
理智啊~ 请你不要把我的梦粉碎~
我好想好想。。。就这样~就这样或在骗局里~
如果
如果，我用我的一生来吃喝玩乐~
如果，我的一生是没有高峰低潮的~
如果，我的一生是平淡的~
如果，我没有出世~
如果，我一直都活在过去~
如果，我变成不是我了~
如果，我出过社会打工~
如果，我失意了~
如果，我是个美女~
如果，我很聪明~
如果，我从来不知道~
如果，我没有感觉~
如果，我叫体贴世相~
如果，我不承认是你~
如果，我早一点认识你~
如果， 我有得从新再来~
如果~如果~
如果，世上是有如果~那么，人生就不会那么精彩~
有如果，就不会有现在的我~
如果，我的一生是没有高峰低潮的~
如果，我的一生是平淡的~
如果，我没有出世~
如果，我一直都活在过去~
如果，我变成不是我了~
如果，我出过社会打工~
如果，我失意了~
如果，我是个美女~
如果，我很聪明~
如果，我从来不知道~
如果，我没有感觉~
如果，我叫体贴世相~
如果，我不承认是你~
如果，我早一点认识你~
如果， 我有得从新再来~
如果~如果~
如果，世上是有如果~那么，人生就不会那么精彩~
有如果，就不会有现在的我~
September 20, 2007
-void-
Have had exam on proteins and proteomics today~ the paper is ok~ I can do most of them, but then, damn the last question....I know how to do eh~ but time ends when I know how to do that question =.='''
After the paper~ went IKEA~ coz I want to buy some stuff to make my room look better, neat is the word~ but then...I think it will never happen~ at least, the word "neat" can still describe my room even for like....2 days?? :p money spent~ RM36.60 plus 14.50 for lunch and 3.80 for toll, plus fill in 1 full tank of petrol, and then pasar malam some more 10.50...total for today RM115.4 =.='''
went to kor kor's house...erm...can say~ for a visit. But then~ a bit pai sei lor~ no buy anything~ then go there, sit sit a while, then come back~ jia lat~
What stupid thing have I done today?
Erm~ went to pasar malam, want to buy something for tomolo's lunch, paid, but then forgot to take the food bought =.=''' luckily that auntie remind me~
What's interesting thing of the day?
- learning how to go Ikea, and my auntie's house.
- saw a boy in pasar malam, singing Lee Hom's song in the new album...erm~ pai sei to say that, that kid sing better than me, even know every word in the lyrics
- "over" heard ppl talking in Pasar malam~ thinking that I still love going places that I can observe ppl~ humans really make me amused and love living on earth with them around me^.^
Result of the day~
sleepy, tired, blurred pain eyes, empty brain and lazy body
Conclusion~
I am happy and enjoying living^.^
After the paper~ went IKEA~ coz I want to buy some stuff to make my room look better, neat is the word~ but then...I think it will never happen~ at least, the word "neat" can still describe my room even for like....2 days?? :p money spent~ RM36.60 plus 14.50 for lunch and 3.80 for toll, plus fill in 1 full tank of petrol, and then pasar malam some more 10.50...total for today RM115.4 =.='''
went to kor kor's house...erm...can say~ for a visit. But then~ a bit pai sei lor~ no buy anything~ then go there, sit sit a while, then come back~ jia lat~
What stupid thing have I done today?
Erm~ went to pasar malam, want to buy something for tomolo's lunch, paid, but then forgot to take the food bought =.=''' luckily that auntie remind me~
What's interesting thing of the day?
- learning how to go Ikea, and my auntie's house.
- saw a boy in pasar malam, singing Lee Hom's song in the new album...erm~ pai sei to say that, that kid sing better than me, even know every word in the lyrics
- "over" heard ppl talking in Pasar malam~ thinking that I still love going places that I can observe ppl~ humans really make me amused and love living on earth with them around me^.^
Result of the day~
sleepy, tired, blurred pain eyes, empty brain and lazy body
Conclusion~
I am happy and enjoying living^.^
September 19, 2007
男女平等
这个话题~已经快越年代，经过几十年的辩论，成为男女争论的原点。。。
曾经听过：“你们男人都是这样的”，或 “这就是女人的天性” 等的话吗？该是常有的事吧~ 因我嘴里也常会出现这话：P （歹势啦~）
男女平等，是女人说要争取的~但~女人们就是从未想过男生并没有对女生有歧视的意识阿~ 可能，歧视是有，但~都已经什么年代了， 歧视的心理应该也平复了吧~
女人就是这样~ 我自己是女的也不帮自己了~ 想要平等， 但偏偏就是会有那：“男人本来就应该这或那的~ 然后，一回头又说，要争取女人的权利，要男女平等的~
世界，本来就是圆的，不是四方或平面的~ 所以，根本就没有所谓的公平存在。
说真的~要公平，要平等，就不要把世界分成男女，或是中性人。因为，人，本来就不是女的，就是男的（撇开中性不说）~所以，只要部分种类，不分你我，就该世界和平了吧~
说得容易，但，人的思想就是很难去改正过来的~
结论：男或女，只是基因的塑造成的。。。所以，那差别，就只在那X 和Y~ 人，本就是同个祖先进化而成的~
所以，本是同根生，相煎何太急呢？
曾经听过：“你们男人都是这样的”，或 “这就是女人的天性” 等的话吗？该是常有的事吧~ 因我嘴里也常会出现这话：P （歹势啦~）
男女平等，是女人说要争取的~但~女人们就是从未想过男生并没有对女生有歧视的意识阿~ 可能，歧视是有，但~都已经什么年代了， 歧视的心理应该也平复了吧~
女人就是这样~ 我自己是女的也不帮自己了~ 想要平等， 但偏偏就是会有那：“男人本来就应该这或那的~ 然后，一回头又说，要争取女人的权利，要男女平等的~
世界，本来就是圆的，不是四方或平面的~ 所以，根本就没有所谓的公平存在。
说真的~要公平，要平等，就不要把世界分成男女，或是中性人。因为，人，本来就不是女的，就是男的（撇开中性不说）~所以，只要部分种类，不分你我，就该世界和平了吧~
说得容易，但，人的思想就是很难去改正过来的~
结论：男或女，只是基因的塑造成的。。。所以，那差别，就只在那X 和Y~ 人，本就是同个祖先进化而成的~
所以，本是同根生，相煎何太急呢？
September 17, 2007
Finally finish revision~
Finally~ after torture my brain for 2 days straight, I manage to look thru the notes twice as planned....whew!!! its such a relieve.
However, finish studying and knowing everything is just not the same thing~
As I said, finish the 3rd, forgot the 1st~ its really frustrating....very frustrating, even chocolate can't help to increase dopamine release in my brain to make me feel better~
I've already did my best in studying and revising....it's true and I can swear that I really did the best d~
The rest....have to wait till tomolo after the exam, then only I can tell if the 2 days of torturing is worth it or not =.='''
Felt so tired....its like the whole brain is going to collapse anytime....
p/s: don't blame me if I really can't get the CGPA u guys expected me to get....coz~ I have my own target also~ but then, reality and imaginary is always not the same thing....
However, finish studying and knowing everything is just not the same thing~
As I said, finish the 3rd, forgot the 1st~ its really frustrating....very frustrating, even chocolate can't help to increase dopamine release in my brain to make me feel better~
I've already did my best in studying and revising....it's true and I can swear that I really did the best d~
The rest....have to wait till tomolo after the exam, then only I can tell if the 2 days of torturing is worth it or not =.='''
Felt so tired....its like the whole brain is going to collapse anytime....
p/s: don't blame me if I really can't get the CGPA u guys expected me to get....coz~ I have my own target also~ but then, reality and imaginary is always not the same thing....
Neuro
Now~ brain is super packed with facts from notes....its like have to know every word from cover to cover, no tips, no area of importance, no past years, no nothing~
Its like assuming that our brain have full capacity of 20GB or something~
HOW CAN U DO THIS TO US???
Its really torturing~ afraid to drop anything out, continuing load things into brain even felt very tired~ then~ after finish the 3rd notes, forgot the 1st 1....
Wat's the point actually to make us study like that?? Then some more pura-pura say that: I am here to help u~ not to burden u".
Damn him!! Shit him!!! Curse him!!!
Thinking of want to hack his computer with the trojan horse I have in my computer~
wahahahaha~~~~~
P/s: this sem sure teruk....very, superly, surely teruk..... =.='''
Its like assuming that our brain have full capacity of 20GB or something~
HOW CAN U DO THIS TO US???
Its really torturing~ afraid to drop anything out, continuing load things into brain even felt very tired~ then~ after finish the 3rd notes, forgot the 1st 1....
Wat's the point actually to make us study like that?? Then some more pura-pura say that: I am here to help u~ not to burden u".
Damn him!! Shit him!!! Curse him!!!
Thinking of want to hack his computer with the trojan horse I have in my computer~
wahahahaha~~~~~
P/s: this sem sure teruk....very, superly, surely teruk..... =.='''
September 15, 2007
Grandpa still fresh in mind
I think grandpa is smart~ when he was alive, he just sat there at "his place", watching tv, sleep or think on his own....he doesn't kacau ppl unless he need help to do something, like buying things to eat, or to go to take something for him. He's like...exist, but we don't really go to talk to him when seeing him everyday~ only, when enter the house, call him, then say bye when going back home~
Erm....like I said last time~ I still remembered the last phrase he told me, and the last angpow he gave me....insisted to give it to me himself, even the angpow is with grandma~ aih....tears start filling up d~
Anyway~ wat he's smart about is that....he existed like he doesn't and he doesn't exist anymore now, but then~ feels like he is still sitting at his corner in his house....
In Buddhist saying: 色既是空，空既是色~ I think he some how made it in that way....
Though he might not remember and recall wat good things he did when my dad once asked him~ but...hehe....wat he replied is interesting~ he say~ he donno wat good things he did, but he say he certainly never did anything that he should not^.^
My dad then say something that I don't quite agree...but then~ nvm...my dad is that kind of person that is wat I am exactly the same as...that is~ we will nv accept other ppl's thought and advice if we have our own stand in our mind :p
k~ back to the topic.....
As I recall a lot of things....I can feel grandpa is just beside "us", all family members~ inside our heart....
I can feel u grandpa ^.^
Erm....like I said last time~ I still remembered the last phrase he told me, and the last angpow he gave me....insisted to give it to me himself, even the angpow is with grandma~ aih....tears start filling up d~
Anyway~ wat he's smart about is that....he existed like he doesn't and he doesn't exist anymore now, but then~ feels like he is still sitting at his corner in his house....
In Buddhist saying: 色既是空，空既是色~ I think he some how made it in that way....
Though he might not remember and recall wat good things he did when my dad once asked him~ but...hehe....wat he replied is interesting~ he say~ he donno wat good things he did, but he say he certainly never did anything that he should not^.^
My dad then say something that I don't quite agree...but then~ nvm...my dad is that kind of person that is wat I am exactly the same as...that is~ we will nv accept other ppl's thought and advice if we have our own stand in our mind :p
k~ back to the topic.....
As I recall a lot of things....I can feel grandpa is just beside "us", all family members~ inside our heart....
I can feel u grandpa ^.^
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)