Difficult to get out of bed??

Feeling sick that u wake up late everyday, late to class/work~ keep pressing snooze button become ur habit??
Here's an invention for u --> Clocky~
Though~ I think its only sold in US, but then...u may order it can get ship to ur house "GUA"~

I don't have that kind of prob, lazy to get up of bed....thinking don't want to go to class kind of thought as often as u might think it happen~
I just think a clock that running round the house may sound cute ^.^

Check it out at http://nandahome.com/products.clocky.html


Enjoy^.^

Exams

Know the consequences of having exams and preparation for exams??
Loads of junk food to keep u awake, face full of pimples, maggee is the time saving fren, speaker gets frustrated working long hours, walkman kept getting hungry, nightmares over the whole nights (even dreamt of Dr. Anthony haven't finish giving his lectures =.='''), easily get angry over tiny matters....even the stomach gets bloated (my weight increased by 2kg....OMG!!!) the whole day and the result of too much junk -->
And~ wat I have for my tea??
Notice the background of the sandwich?? NOTES!!! the sick, allergic, irritated, never ending notes.....ARRHHH!!!

Continue study~
DON'T ASK SILLY QUESTIONS THAT MAKES ME FELT IRRITATED!!!
But then~ pls forgive me if my intonation in communication sounds irrespectful~ its just not the time to talk to any1......

IQ

I did 2 IQ tests online today~Both shows the result that I have IQ of above 126, which means that I am included in the upper 10% of IQ of the human population....YAY!!!

IQ is tested to show that wat is the age of ur brain in relative to ur age...and after calculation, I found out that I have brain power of bout 27 years old....
So~ what can I do with that IQ of 126 and above??
Erm....simply nothing :p I will still be doing wat I love doing~ nv put full effort on things~ doing everything half way thru~ being a normal gal~ etc...etc....

So~ y care bout wat status of IQ I have anyway?? coz...coz....I want to prove to myself that I am not dumbo, and I am smart enough to survive on earth....haha~~
Do u know that in selection theory of evolution, one don't have to be super great. One only have to be good enough to survive ^.^ I am part of evolution, and that I just have to be good enough to survive ^.^

Erm...u might say that if I have a normal, simple life, and that I am not great, only good enough, and that in future, I won't have any story to tell ppl or my future offspring, and the following family tree....But then~ think bout that, every1 have their own individual, unique story bout their past~ its just that u take it as interesting or boring~
Even if u have wonderful, colourful life, and that u don't even know how to express urself in story or in words~ they will never become fairy tale ^.^

So, live with watever u have~
p/s: just very happy with my IQ of 126 and above ^.^
tell me that u have IQ of 130, 200 or watever~ I just am good enough to be me^.^
last~~did u ever know that Shakespeare have higher IQ than that or Einstein?? I am so shock with that.....Einstein have above 160 and Shakespeare' was above 174!!

study OR drama?? ^.^

finished the whole series of 宫 (princess)....so that I can really concentrate on my notes, not to be distracted by anything else....
Cried the whole way thru the last few chapters...feels like a dumbo, sitting alone, staring at the screen, then sob, cry, and tears rolling :p
Its really fun though~ really a great series...especially like those shots taken from different angle, the director really knows how to consider angles, making scenes not just story, but art~
Love those arrangements of bears...making them impose the characters in the drama...^.^
I'll be watching the series again after finals....^.^

Something to share with u guys....I find it interesting~
Know wats great bout Malaysians generally? They desperately NEED shade and protection from sun~ hahaha~~

jusco

Interesting thing of the day --> money

went secret recipe, jusco to meet Darren....doing some genetics stuff~
Eat, study, then pay (with cash), leaving RM14 with me....

Then, wat stupid thing I do??
go buy junk food in Jusco....cost....not enough to pay =.='''
Then, thought coz I have jusco card, so, no need to pay the parking.....but the screen show...50 cents...alamak!! where can I go find 50 cents??

So~ I tell the gal I go to my car to find 50 cents for her....luckily...and lucky for me that I love simply put money here and there...wahahah~~~

=.=''' see la...I so poor, 50 cents also don have
hahaha~~~

^......^

still stuck in study week, in the middle of no where~
I seems to be weird that my brain's empty of thoughts, emotion and crazy ideas for blogging stuff...as u know~ my brain is always filled with crazy, silly ideas that can make life colourful...or i should say~ with ice and snow falling above u head...haha^>^

the main point is that my brain is void of emo and thoughts...which can be a good thing OR a bad 1....seems like I am having another "period" of jumping from 1 particular stage to the other....

today is the day with notes, drama and chatting~ nothing much interest me...except the rain, outside the window....

By the way~ i just had my supper....
here's the geli geli thingy i ate^.^
nitez

Study week

Back in Penang~ very tired throughout, but enjoyed all the way. Of coz, includes study in my schedule, but its really frustrated when I have to study the same old thing over and over again, looking at the pages which seems to be like I just studied that yesterday.

Things got worse when there's a lecturer that doesn't seems to have mercy to us~ want us to study every single word in his notes, coz he say its all important and "interesting". Its sort of like~ I really enjoyed his class, and really love the subject, but then~ exam, to read thru notes over and over again, have to memorise all facts in the notes is just not my kind of stuff. It really makes me sick~ made me get nausea looking at those notes.

However~ luckily its just one subject that I am "allergic" with. All the others are "cute" and fun studying for finals, coz there's tips given, which makes our life simpler, and they have less facts to memorise, only understanding is important...that makes life even easier~

Talking bout tips~ Its not that I am lazy or wat~ its just that...study is bout enjoying the lectures, exploring and learning new stuff, gaining knowledge and making us realise that life is not just about ABC, making us have the basics of the basics to read up books, exploring the world other than notes and text books~

It really make me feel sick, make me hate exams and make my life miserable with kind of thinking that exam is to make us remember, memorise every single thingy in notes and text. Understanding is one thing~ remember or not is the other =.=''' Chek ark!!!

Anyway~~
CHARGE!!!!!

p/s: by the way~ I also got my room a new look~ Here's the picture attached:

Rush Hour 3

Watched Rush Hour 3 today~ its funny from the beginning till the end. Chris tucker is especially funny....Jacky Chan's movement and the way he does his action is still being in his own style~ getting his coat off, having things just missed by 2 cm from hurting his body, things like that....

Tonight, having 2 of my cousin sis sleeping in my room~
Imagine that??
but the good thing bout having them, is that I can push myself to the limit that I finish wat I should study for the day^.^ Also, have ppl to play with me, even past the midnight.

~Great day~

Day 1 back in Penang

Woke up early in the morning at 7~ donno y also...so silly~ coz I don have to go for class. Drove my dad to the airport, coz I need a car :p

Back home, clean my room, and change places of things, plus, get things into boxes, and then place it upstairs, coz they are all taking space in my room. The whole process of cleaning, plus, washing the toilet, is bout 3 hours plus~

Then...here comes the "thingy" of the day~ got my hair cut!! cut off all those curly and coloured hair~ got a short short hair~ which I don have to take much care on it, don have to think of how to make it look nice everyday I wake up....^.^

Bought vege back home, prepare them, then go Baskin for 2 quarts of ice-cream^.^ Cost: RM62+
Then rush back home, afraid that the ice cream melts, then prepare dinner for the day~

Quite an interesting day~ But, I still haven't touch much of my notes....

Getting tips from frens~ Ta for now^.^

I am not alone~^.^

The topic of the day was started by saying that "some1" says that when u have a partner, u will think of don want to be in that relationship. When u don have a partner, that's when u will think and wan to have some1 beside u....
I am not alone in the sense that, that "some1" is with me...having the same thought, even though the distance is far apart^.^

Humans~never contented with wat they have, never appreciate things just in front of their eyes, take things for granted in every sense, regret after every event become past tense.....
I am not alone~ regret, not contented, scolding myself every single day~ taking things for granted....

Its kind of another issue in life that I am learning, taking up and trying not to take for granted in every little thing happen around me~ trying to make feeling of regret become part of me so that I won't get emo easily....

Appreciate, control and tough~

Shoo"ing" is not working

Bad luck is still with me....
Try connecting for 5 hours~ now only can online....=.='''

Learn something new today...erm...as usual, from dramas :p But...that's part of my life and how I learn things since small^.^
Erm...also~~ love tying beads on my hair~ maybe coz of all things turning me nuts....

Wat's this blog about anyway??
1. To shoo the bad luck away AGAIN
2. Have to express myself some where
3. Blog's like my darling, borrowing ear to listen to nuts stuff everyday

Ja~

Bad luck sunday

woke up in the morning~ found out that I can't get connected to the internet. Tried to connect till night, the connection is still searching =.='''
Is it the maxis connection down? or just because of the clouds in the sky or arial problem, or its my computer that have problem?

Just hate it....can't watch drama the whole day~ but luckily, even drama also, I have backups :p
But....can't connect to messenger its very "suffering"~coz it's like part of me....till my fren thought I disappear~
hehe~ very pai sei~ but I am really glad that I have such a fren^.^ Thanks la~

Shoo...shoo the bad luck away~
SHOO!!

Lepak day~

It's friday~AGAIN ^.^
Time really flies~ this means, my life and everyday is great...or~ that I have....erm...too many tests and things that I want to go in a week...of coz, that includes time to relax and enjoy la~ coz that's always my moto ma :p

I have had genetics test at 8am in the morning~ but, I pull the lecture hall door open at bout 8.10am =.='''
Then...did lots of things that is very "loon chun", butter fingers, as u can say...Suddenly can't find the test paper, during the test itself~ didn't bring A4 paper to write the answer on, don have ruler for me to cancel of those lines I wrote wrongly and that my writings are "wonderful", artistic~~

After class ends at 10, went to plaza sentral, located just beside KL sentral to refund back the money for the Aerospace tickets. Its quite 'ma huan' actually, and sound stupid to go buy the tickets before hand, then have to purposely go and refund....but things happen~ and that I can see in those ppl's in the organizer are really sorry for the situation..they even give me pens ^.^ Ok~ its not something like a bungalow or a Porche, but at least, they show their apologies, not by words(coz its really hard to express in words), but by small gifts.

Then, as u know~ I don't like to just go one place to do 1 thing if I go out, so, went to KLCC to lepak lepak~
At 1st, I only want to go Kinokuniya and for Genki, but ended up surveying around the cosmetics counter~ its actually quite paisei, when I asked bout something, then the salesgirl try to promote her things by "drawing" on my face. Pai sei in the sense that I not really want to buy, just want to look around, and survey a bit, increase my knowledge a bit on cosmetic stuff...but...it's really expensive to buy la~ RM64 for an eyebrow pencil =.=''' so...called my fren, expert in cosmetic stuff, asked her bout the price, if I should buy that pencil, she tell me, no need to pai sei, and its their job to do that....also, she say its too expensive for that price....
In the end...I ended up in Sasa, bought an eyebrow pencil for only RM9.90, some more got 20% discount, which makes it RM7.92~ OMG~ can u imagine the difference in the price??

Went to Kino, sit there for bout 2 hours, coz there's a lot of ppl queuing for Genki. Read a book called 一个人的相扑~ describing life of 樱桃小丸子, how she learn and handle every new things in daily life from having period in gals till she steps into the university...and into another stage of life. Quite an interesting book....funny, but very true in every word. Another book I read is bout 刘耕宏 and his theory and methods in keeping body fit and healthy.

Went to Genki alone, erm...not a single feeling of pai sei of eating alone in that place, where every1 go in gangs, talking happily while eating~ I sat there, doing wat I love doin, observing ppl~ every movement, every motion of ppl is so cute...humans are really very cute....every1 is cute ^.^
I love observing, that's y I love going places with lots of ppl...either alone, or with frens....it doesn't bother me if only I am alone....coz...I just love seeing ppl enjoying, and also observe every1 in different places at different time^.^ Its sort of part of my hobby :p

Imagine my class ends at 10am, but I go lepak lepak sendiri ooo....emphasis the word "sendiri" till when I reach home, it's already 3.30pm ^.^

p/s: its long since I count down for something, looking forward for some important day^.^ but now...its 6 days left towards the day I'll be back Penang again...hehe....

Trust

Days ago, there is a fren that ask me, y do I always trust ppl even though I was lied to for times already, but yet I still trust him?
Then~ I was thinking this afternoon, that I shouldn't trust ppl so easily even though that particular person is my fren. Coz, I was betrayed and lied to many times in my life, but yet, I still have trust in other ppl...I mean, ppl that are close to me~

I once trusted frens, which ended up making my results of my studies dropped~
I once trusted bro, but I ended up kena "con"~
I once trusted in "someone", but I ended up with a broken heart~
I once trusted.....

On the other hand, those frens that break me in my studies make me learned how to measure the weight of word and trust.
My bro, taught me how to think, analyse, and not just to accept.
That "someone" make me live life tough, and learn that life is not only about 1 thing.

There is also a situation that I listened to my parents, start to think that my best fren was bad to me, that she greed something that I have....which made me thought that, that fren of mine is not so good after all....
but it ended up, that fren is still my best fren till now.
This make me think that trust is very important in relationship with ppl around me, and it doesn't care who ever say anything about that trust, even its ur parents. Coz, trust have to come together with self analysis.

Trust, is something that most ppl can't achieve, because the world is said to be not as simple as ABC, and there is a thought that there is something is behind everything. Also, trust makes u and breaks u~

The lesson which I have learnt today...which was all started and ended by Aik Aun, which made me grab on more firmly on my believe that I must trust ppl around me, not blindly, but with analysis.

~Trust~
This is the word that will make the world a better place to live in.

Memories

Sometimes, when I wanted to delete stuff from my comp/ to clear things online, its just tough. Y? coz, I just can't do it....it's like I need lots of courage and have to be very "stone hearted" to simply just click on the delete icon.

Memories can't be erased, but can be forgotten. Its contradicting that sometimes, there are things that I wanted to delete from my memories, and therefore I throw them away, keep them out of sight, or simply just pretend and lie to myself that they don't exist. However, at times, I just can't make myself do the delete, the erase stuff. Coz, I am afraid that I might forget those memories I have....

So, what do I do??
I can't do anything productive or solve the situation or that I can't make myself happier in this particular situation....

I guess I will just have to bare with all the feeling that surround me when I see stuff that I am reluctant/just can't give up.

^Cheers_dude^

Greedy

I have almost everything I need in life, not the best of all, but its the best for me. However, I still seek and long for more that I doesn't have, but in some way, needed in life, as to "colourise" the whole picture, or that to produce a "whole" me.
Its kind of greedy~ coz...I already have so much, and that its good to give other ppl a chance.

I know in my mind clearly that I shouldn't have thought of things that I don't own, but the heart just kept seeking and long for the unknown. Its not time for me to even dream about the unknown, b'coz now is the time for me to focus on only 1 particular thing. But human brain~ too evolve, with too huge a frontal lobe, having too complex a network, making brain firing too much stimulus at a time, making me feel bad at times, thinking bout things I shouldn't, and never should.

That was some other thing that I mentioned above,BUT
There is this other thing: results.
Ppl just can't feel contented bout what they get/achieve. If I say I don care, or I am satisfied with wat I get this time~ its partially bullshit!
Y partially? coz 1 part is to tell myself its better than wat I hope to get. But on the other hand, the feeling of lose to some1, or to think y ppl can do much better, but I can't?

This second greed is good, in the sense that it motivates ppl~ even if after get motivated, work hard, but still get the same end result, just let it be~ and feel happy bout it~ wat to do?? that's ur standard....can't blame the sky or the sea~ at least u strived before~

Watever~
The lesson of the day~ learn to be contented~
Be happy, even if u try to lie to urself so as to make urself smile^.^
-->One can't always live life like Pepsi (moto: ask for more)<--

~Uni and Jusco~

Woke up at 8am today~felt contented, having to wake up late on weekdays~
When to mamak for roti telur and teh tarik as usual order at the mamak. Felt wonderful to get an actual breakfast, not only to rush to class with only milo.

Then, all I see in uni is notes, but of coz, there's little chat here and there btw the 三剑客 ^.^
Have cheap cheap, big big lunch at uni --> nasi lemak(mamak thing again:p)...

After class, when I was at the traffic light, struggling either to U-turn to Jusco, or turn right back home...the force of Jusco wins~
Went in, look around in the hand bag corner coz its sales~ can't control the magnetic force... but ended up with nothing.
Then, to speedy video, searching for Haydn, my favourite symphony composer for the time being~ I thought the CD would cost 40+ or 50+, but ended up its only RM19.90. The tempt is so great that I bought it, fearing that the sound might not be as good~ coz it have chinese words on the cover~ as u know, made in china stuff, really have to test before buy in bulk.
(P/s: who's Haydn by the way?? pls link to: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joseph_Haydn
for more information^.^)

Then....Takoyaki^.^ y tako? coz its quite cheap, RM3.90, in which can make me feel contented with the taste and the crave for something~ its worth it^.^

The luckiest thing for the day is~~when I go wash my hands after back home, b4 taking of my lenses, a lizard dropped in front of me instead of on top of me....how lucky^.^

Worms in my stomach

The whole sunday~ what have I done other than my usual stuff, watch drama and study together??
EAT!!

I ate lots and lots of things today, but I still didn't have any little feeling of "fullness". Just kept eating and eating...even those stuffs that made me bloated in a small amount just can't make me do today. How sad~
I'll have to forget about diet, keeping distance from oily stuff and keeping myself slim and fit =.='''

Another bad thing is I feel sleepy even though I woke up at 10+ in the morning~ so~ no exercise for the whole week~ imagine that: sitting, studying whole week without any minor exercise~
The future me will look something like: with huge head, long fingers and arms, with small tiny legs, huge buttock, oily tummy and abnormal looking back =.=''' Hope it never happen...its really scary !!!

So...keep working on stuffs and....donno...maybe some more nuisance adding in~

Happy Sunday~
oh ya~ its 七夕~ sort of another "valentine's day" in chinese calendar~
so~ 七夕快乐!!! ^.^

Saturday~

Hihi~~ It's Saturday~ but....what have I done the whole day, when ppl supposed to rest, relax and unwind??

I have been clearing stuffs under my table --> notes!! =.='''
I have a specific target for myself, telling myself the whole day that I hav to finish preparing for tests for the coming week, then start going for finals d~

So....I didn't go out the whole day~ therefore, also clearing my food storage in my room and some stuffs in the fridge. Not really eat less for the whole day~ but at least, if I stay at home, away from all temptation, I wont eat more~ and I won't see food that are bad for health ^.^

Erm..to sum up the whole day~
I have achieved my target of the day, didn't waste much time, and the most important thing is that~ if one enjoys the moments, time really flies....and for me, the 1st day light was just like hours ago, and now, its midnight d....
So, no regrets for the day~ only that.....there still "one more thing"=.=''' really headache with that....
Nvm....will sure find a way to make every1 happy ....

Chek Ark....^.^

P/s: by the way~ my bro say that saturday night is suppose to go dancing, and drinking in clubs (jokingly)~ then come back home drunk, with guys that send me home...=.=''' LOL
The thing is that both of us have to strong concept in our brain that:
1. Its a waste of time
2. Its not productive....also nvm...its just....stupid and "wu liao"
3. y drink in clubs and expose urself to "uncertainty"?
4. Its smoky in clubs and bar~ and we hate ppl that smoke. So, y risk ur health in that stupid place?

k~ its too long a P/s :p

Nites^.^

Weekend

k~ approaching weekend, I got a bit gila with my life~ uncontrollable....

1st of all, yesterday, Thursday~ as usual, its pasar malam day...but what I did was not normal. I spent RM9 on fried food!!! OMG!!! can u imagine that?? then...erm...got a bit of consciousness of my health, so, bought a cup of herbal tea back with me.
Then, the worse thing is that I bought chicken nuggets in uni before going to times square, and then, got mcnuggets and fries for my lunch =.='''
Got a bit of heaty now~ so...wat am I having? Green tea to "wash"/"cleanse" my body...

Ok~ the movie of the day is Ratatouille~
Quite an interesting movie to catch for the weekend. Its not just humour, as wat I thought before going for the movie, but, it have lots of moral value and thoughts of life in the movie.
The movie was great and no "cold" period, in which, we laughed from the beginning to the end of it.

Oh ya~ another great thing, something different from the normal shopping.
Its that My FM is at the main door of sg wang!!! They are doing outdoor broadcasting for 50 hours from today....
So~ go and have a look and give support to those DJ if u r free this weekend la~~
or~ just go kaypo kaypo awhile, like me ^.^
Here's a pic of the outdoor broadcasting station:
And, here's the link to the description of the outdoor broadcasting event:
http://www.my.com.my/05/News/MYFM_updates/detail.asp?id=3966

Ja ne~

Gray Zone, comfort zone

I was talking to my fren~ saying that challenges in life~
I said I prefer life that I preferred a simple, normal and not so challenging life. My fren then say, what's the point of life then? what can I tell my kids/grandkids in future? So, I said~ that's y I have a blog.

My blog~ I note every single, minute thing in everyday life. Thoughts, emo, wat I saw, wat I did and how I see the world with my eyes in present. Though its simple, nothing great, nothing super bout such small small things that I seen, heard and think about, BUT, its still "my life" rite?
One may done something great, but he/she just can't express themselves well enough to make a story of their life. On the other hand, I have a normal and simple life, but then, I made every little moment counts, and That, makes a whole great different bout life^.^

I might have a routine life, but, I am growing everyday, think and process thoughts in minute difference everyday...that, accumulates to make huge progress every year, seeing myself grow, become more mature, having wider view of the world~
This might seems to be that I am lying to myself, but, life is just how u live it out. Not for others to draw lines, where u should reach or where u should stop.

I am living in a comfort zone, in which, I might make it a gray zone. Why? becoz, when one is living in a comfort zone, there is no need for huge decision to be made, no responsibility to be up taken, no matter of life and death in any choices done, no worries bout any1 else except me, and myself...etc...etc. Its a gray zone, becoz as stated, its just no true or false, no good or bad, no in or out, no yes or no....its just "living" with the most enjoyable, most happy state that I can get for myself.

I have my advantageous over others, but of coz there is the controversial part of it.
Life's like that....good or bad, positive or negative~ its just a matter of comparison. As stated by Einstein, big or small (as in good or bad, positive or negative) is just a relativity of each other.

Enough of making the Earth square~
Continue to bury myself in my notes and be bored till .....erm....till the test ends??
=.='''

Me

Having lots of ppl saying that I am crazy, stupid, 无聊~ BUT, I am quite happy, coz I am being myself.....Again~ ^.^

I am myself, the self that how ppl perceive as, but I also have that self that is living in reality. However, being living in a world surrounded by ppl that u can't really say things embedded in ur mind/heart, own parents, bro and my super closed cousin, I am still the person that is perceived.
The real me~ was once realised and was once accepted and that I was once being at the comfort zone of "me". But then, it was all just a dream...a wonderful dream, filled with memories that still can't be erased....
Its' great in a sense, but on the other hand, its just....sad~

Anyway~ I am still finding way to merge 2 together, even though I know its hard, coz I am very "face loving" and that I think a lot so as to bring the best self as in appearance to ppl....also~ it's b'coz if I appeared as who I am, ppl will throw me a bucket full of ice water, and then, I won't be able to do things that way I wanted to anymore,even "its for my own good", its just annoying =.= (p/s: can't find a better word d~)

I won't kill myself or anything...coz, as like wat I say the last few blogs, I don't do things that is not worth me doing~ I am selfish...and that is how I protect myself~

Long Live Queenie~

cockroach

Remember the cockroach last night~ it's still in the cup until my mom called....
Then, I go search in the internet for the life cycle of cockroach. Walao~ know wat I found?
Cockroach can live up to 45 minutes without breathing, and the normal life spend of a cockroach is 1 year. Without having any food, it can live up to 1 month....

So, plan fail~
what to do next? slipped a piece of paper carefully under the cup, then whole the cup with the paper tightly, not to release the cockroach accidentally, then~ put the cup with the paper fixed in a plastic bag, then lastly, tie up the plastic bag and throw into the rubbish bin^.^

Don't play a fool with the cockroach~ it is still alive, when I slightly shift the cup and that there are shit inside the cup....it's like living happily every after in the cup for the whole 24 hours after all =.='''

"interesting" stuff ^.^

This is one of my favourite desert~ tau fu far~ but then, this is from Setapak, so, not as delicious as that of Penang...but when crave for the taste, anything that mimics the taste can be accepted.
This 1st picture is when 1st bought, 2nd pic is when its ready for me to eat:p

Look geli?? but its how I eat tau fu fah^.^

Next is something I will buy everytime I go pasar malam ~chao tau fu~ a.k.a "smelly tau fu", which its name implies, its smelly, but not reach super stage yet...so~ so so lor~ just for me to remember that taste I have had in Shanghai 5 years ago~


Lastly, is a weird upside down KFC cup~ What's inside??
Notice that there is cellophane tape on the bottom of the cup?
Its a temporary "cage" I use to catch cockroach that flew into my room. How long will temporary be?? Until I think the cockroach die inside the cup d ^.^ and the cellophane~ is to prevent the cockroach to crawl out.
U must be wondering y I wan it to die naturally and not to tekan it till die...coz~ I think its geli, having all the "juice" come out of the cockroach

God loves me

There are lots of ppl that have thoughts that their life is miserable and that y they are born to this world~ I thought of that once....but most of the time, I am happy with wat I have, becoz I have lots that ppl might not have^.^
God really love me...giving me all the best thing, even for time planning and time flow, god lead me to the best route out of thousands of route of life.

These words come out from my mouth is like not convincing, coz I don't really have a specific religion, but I believe that there exist god.

I don't really pray to god, but god is in my heart...kind of contradicting myself~ but its wat I have in mind.

I really love wat I have~ but to compare sometimes is to make wat I have move to a better placement ^.^
Sound silly rite?
Nvm~ I don't expect any1 to read this blog and not see me as from sun or moon~ Its just that I am now superly happy on something~ and that, I can't and don have any1 to talk to, so~ the only thing I can do is to write a blog, stating how happy I am^.^

Cheers!! --> Time to celebrate, even for a short period^.^

Time Flies

It's come to the end of 11th week of year 2 sem 2 of my life in university.

Recalled that I just have had learned the names of coursemates when I just started my university life in UTAR....it's like just not long ago, just about only months ago, but here~ we almost come to the end, getting a degree~

Time actually flies and every single seconds is like bitting u, ur heart kept pumping like mad, brain kept firing, and that sometimes I wished I have had 36 hours a day at least.
Coz, things kept flowing in, no time is for relax of brain and body. After finishing one particular thing, and started to get excited bout the relieve felt, something's following behind d~

I am not complaining here~ I actually enjoyed the moments of having piles and piles of stuff flowing in, but at the same time, I always force myself, packed everything and do things fast and efficiently, reduce my sleeping time(as u know~ sleep is super important in my life^.^), and of coz, with all those, I have to make myself eat more than normal, getting more energy and be extra careful not to fall sick, coz I really don have time for that.

Jia you Jia you la~
still have 2 months, then I will have a brand new life, coz, I can see that I will learn new stuff then, and have different experience and different thought of life by then...
Just...keep tracking my blog la^.^
I am super excited (which is also named "sexited" by one of my lecturer^.^)

Oyasumi nasai~

focus

I kept losing focus since today afternoon. Just can't fully concentrate on my notes...eyes go blur, mind flew to the past and then back again, making myself the director of my "unforeseen" future...etc...etc

I think this may be due to that I have been focusing too much on studies for too long a period. Or~ that its just "the down period" that I have every now and then? Or~ may be, I am just a lazy person, don want to do things that I should on the time I should? Or~ donno.... just can't get myself concentrate.

Even I have notes in front of me, and that I am staring at it...I doubt that anything goes in....I know wat I am studying, actually..but then...how much that I should know goes in is the point.

Don't Think Liao!!! IDIOT!!!

rational

I am too rational in my life, and this makes my life hard~

how to say I am too rational??
E.g. 1. I am very very down, then want to go eat sushi king as much as I can till I am bloated...but in the end, I came back with only full stomach and the price for the whole meal is just reasonable, only 20-30+
2. When I go emo, I love listening to music which is a bit of the rock of hard side....my dad say they are noise...but I love listen to that when I am emo. Anyway~ when listening to those, u ppl will think that the volume will be almost to the max, for me to release all my tension...but I am too rational~ thinking of that if I do that, I might spoil my eye drum and that is not worth for a short period well-beingness
3. Sometimes, I want to go shopping, shop for all the things I love when I don feel quite nice....but then...again, I am too rational~ I will think of that if wasteful and not worth for me to do so, just to release partial tension in me.
4. At times, I want to push myself to the end of my limit, thinking not to sleep for the whole night to make myself very tired, so that my brain can only focus on one particular thing --> study. But then again~ rational come to take place. Ppl that know me will know~ sleep is very my life~ I can't have "non-sleep" period in my life~ so~ again, I went to sleep in the end =.='''

Those are almost everything I can think of~ that I think its not worth for me to do for a small matter that disturb me for a short period of time.
And that's y, will all those rational in my brain working, there are not many ppl that seen me burst out shouting, crying or suddenly super not me. I will always think of all the consequences, results and if it is worth for me to do it or if that life is just about "it".
There's too much of stuff "planing" and "working" in my brain....wat to do?? I can only keep feelings in me, sob with my pillow wet in the morning, hugging my bolster and feel lonely, coz there's no1 that can help me, and only myself can do that...coz its me that is having all the problem, too rational~

chek ark....y there are so many blog all in 1 night??
k~ I am super EMO~ suddenly feel happy, having a great night, then thinking about how wonderful tomolo is, then suddenly dropped into the deep valley....

I AM INSANE!!!!
BEWARE!!!

Opps! I did it again~ =.='''

u know~ no 1 can make ur life miserable, unless ur own self~

Everytime, when I get great stuffs, I will suddenly get something awkward of something that makes me feel stupid and miserable~
Maybe that's the circle of life, turning round and round, not always giving u the best stuff~ coz if that is so, u might view it as normal and not to take note of the presence of those great things in life.

There's a saying: 低潮的出现，是为了显示高潮。如果一出戏，完完全全是高潮，那，就没什么好期待的了。人生如戏，戏如人生啊～

Hungry d~ go eat 1st.....think so much do wat??
eat par par, then oin oin....then~ tomolo will be another new beginning....coz everyday is a super wonderful beginning of life ^.^

Makan makan!!! hungry till hands start shaking d :p

k~ finish makan~ continue~
there's something very important in life. If u can't change something, the only thing that gone wrong should be u~ coz there's no so many things that can go wrong. The only thing that might be wrong is u~ so....wat to do?? change urself....a little change in thinking will change the world (its wat in LeeHom's new song). k~ its a bit over to say that it will change the world, but the main idea is changing ur view of the world...Everything will be fixed to the right point if u change wat u think.

Aih...still hungry...don want to type liao....makan makan some more~

Old folks day

What have I done today? Quite an interesting, done something quite "good hearted" stuff...

Did some studies in the morning as I know that afternoon, I will not have time of my own~
Brought grandaunt to see Calvin, my cousin in KLCC, coz u know~ ppl's mom or grandma especially care too much for their children and grandchildren. Can't say that their doings are right or wrong, coz, nv become any1's mom, so, the feeling and the care for "kids", we just can't judge with our eyes.
Then, grandaunt say that she want to go Carrefour to buy stuff~ so, drive her there, as I need to have the California roll from Carrefour at least once a week~
Her neighbour came out, asking where are we going just when we were about to leave the house~ so, I asked her if she wanted to go also~
So~ in the end, I was shopping with 3 old ppl, including the neighbour's husband ^.^

It doesn't really matters much, shopping and going around with old ppl~ coz, they are not easily irritated by words or actions, coz they have seen too much of the world, experienced too much of the society, and heard too much of silly stuff. So, I actually enjoyed the whole process, taking ppl around, talking to them, driving them around.

Its kind of like doing something great~ also, at the same time, getting myself to see things from the other way, not only from the point of view of just ppl around me, classmates and frens, which don't see too much of the world yet, and mind not as broad....
k~ I am not saying that I am broad minded here~ I am just saying that I can broaden my mind.

I have had much of fun today^.^

Tired~

Sat in front of the computer whole day, not doin things I shouldn't but something serious--> notes, lab reports and stuff~

Now, leg muscle is contracting involuntarily, having backache, eyes dry...and start to see blurry images~ but I am still here, typing the 2nd blog of the day~
y? coz I don have ppl for me to throw out words, tiredness and stuff at....

But, I know, tonight, I will have a great sleep straight till tomolo morning~
Then, tomolo will be another long day, still can't get lab report done, and there are still notes to flip thru~

tired...but satisfied and enjoying the moment^.^

Sunny day

Finally, after so many days of rain, today is THE day at which there's no single drop of rain throughout the day~
The eye of Malaysia become alive again after so many days~ coz, if it rains, no fireworks can be displayed thru the sky of the night. Though most of the KL ppl might have already got bored with the fireworks displayed almost everyday, however, its still attracts my attention~makes me feel good looking at the fireworks "thru" the trees that partially blocks my view :p

k~ talking bout my email add....
I donno y~ I have had the correct password, I am very sure, because in my msn messenger, I saved the password, where it was always correct everytime I sign in until yesterday~
There's a window that pops up, saying that I can't sign in coz I have had incorrect password...wat the "tut" is that?
Then, I kept on trying and trying~ until I was blocked out from signing in into my own account~ how silly~ Imagine, u have keys to ur house, and u r very sure its the correct key, because u just left ur house in the morning, locked the door with that particular key, then when u went back, using the same key to open the door~ there's a slip comes out of the key hole: "intruder~incorrect key" =.='''

So~ I was forced to change my msn email address, coz I can't survive without msn....it's like part of my life, and even though no1's talking to me also, I have to have it on....if not, I will feel itchy and uncomfortable, like something's missing.

So guys~ just to notify all of u~ my new msn email address will be:
queenie_neoh@hotmail.com

Grateful

I bare no responsibility, think only about today and yesterday~ coz tomolo is nv any huge problem that lead to a matter of life and death.
U know~ppl like me, who don have a lot of life and death stuff to think/worry about, always easily evoke, easily dissapointed and easily heart broken~ Then the feeling of how unlucky ourselves are come to take place~

However, we really have to appreciate wat we have in us, rather than jealousing wat ppl have~
Life's is not just me and u, but there are whole world of things we nv seen b4.

I am so lucky, and grateful that my 22 years of life is in peace, having no huge trouble that bothers me, having nothing much that I can think of making me not "me" anymore....etc...etc....

Lucky~
Let us just close our eyes for a while, pray for the wellbeing of ppl that are facing huge obstruction in life....facing matters of life and death....
Amen~

Threat

I always have the confidence in me that even I am not among the best, but at least I am standing at the mid-upper level in watever I intend to do.
Maybe most ppl have that confidence in them, and that, I always am confident that I am still doing better than most ppl....
So~ I actually do know where I am standing and know my level of "intelligence", my level of "appearance", and kind of stuff...BUT, I let some1 kind of hit me in the face, telling me (and my fren) that we are nv a threat to "him"...erm...we actually do know that our standard of "intelligence"/ "mode in study" will nv even touch ur feet, but~ do u have to be such arrogant, snobbish, look down on ppl kind of person?
Ok~ say, u r such person in nature, but we are ur frens dude....
Nvm~ in my point, Frens, no kira 1~ watever la~ forgive u in watever way~ coz...u gave 2 souls motivation...even for a short period of time, its enough to make us feel better~

k~ here's the main idea~
God is very fair to every1. Nobody can have all the best things on earth~
What I have u, him, her or them might not have. What u have, I might not have in me, but I have something that God gave it to me that might be better than urs~
So, wat is it that every1 kept having the kia su syndrome, even I have got it in me~ what is wrong with every1??
Jealousy made the best policy? hm...I have to slowly get rid of that syndrome~

Anyway, while I still have the motivation, and the "burning desire" to study....just let me be la~ no matter how tired I am, I will still persist on wat I planned to do...just pray hard that I won't fall sick~

Gambateh kudasai!!

Girl Stuff

I nv notice that I am having the same mood condition, just like other normal girls~ Erm...this means I am normal~ YAY!!!

The thing that I didn't notice is that I get emo and moody when I am having period, just like other girls have...Maybe my emo pops out coz the period plus the not enough sleep....
Ok, Ok....I am trying to cover myself up to say that I am different...but then...after I realised that I shouldn't be moody, then I switch my thought and mind set to more positive d ar~~ Should forgive me for that gua~

See~ I still am discovering something new, not only bout the world, bout text books, bout life, also~ bout myself....
How interesting life is, rite? ^.^

Organised blog

I was flipping thru my blog, coz want to label my postings and organise my blog~

I found out that I was really so "wu liao" having life like non last year~ jia lat.....all my mind is only focused on 1 main thing and that's all my life is all about....chek ark!!
How silly I am, looking myself, review back wat I am thinking and have in my life....I kind of pity myself. Aih~ but luckily my life now is not as "wu liao" d~

The "Me" in this year have too much things to be completed, too much to do, too much to know, too much...too much....
I wonder~ how I survive thru those years where I have an empty brain~ so silly and pity~ no wonder I am such a nuisance to ppl, and I am such an annoying person.
I won't be such annoying and nuisance, also wont be "empty" minded at all times d~ Lucky for me that I found it still considered to be erm....early, I supposed.

Nvm~ every1 have to go thru this phase oh being stupid, then found out that he/she is such a silly, annoying, stupid, wu liao person in the past....

Have to go face the wall and think bout myself for a while.....ta~

Dunkin' Donuts

It's my 1st time to try Dunkin' Donuts~ its quite expensive though~ bout RM2.10 each~ but its just for a personal experience, nvm la~ can't always live in the 1900 age right~

Dunkin donuts is sort of donuts that are "dunk in" something~ e.g. chocolate, chocolate chips, sugar sprinkles, nuts, etc....
But wat I can imagine the flavour and that I am dare to try is only those with chocolate, coz if its yucky, then~ I still can tahan the taste with the lovely, super "orgasmic" chocolate :p (pai sei~ quote the word from "u know who" ^.^)

After eatin, its kind of addicted~ donno it's coz of the thick chocolate, or its the super combination of both....

Here's a pic of the donut, its kind of blurry, coz it's taken with my left hand, with the donut on my right hand, and chocolate sprinkle all over the place....haha~~~

For more info~ check out wikipedia....and the main web page of Dunkin' :
www.dunkindonuts.com

Health concerned

I was watching Taiwan entertainment program~ then there's an advertisement in between the fragments, where it is produced by the ministry in Taiwan~ they are just so concerned bout public health....
I think this advertisement is produced due to the bird flu~

The content is as follows:
卫生里报告
住在3号的鸡婆请我跟大家说
买鸡肉的新诀窍
如果想让儿子吃得饱饱孝顺乖巧
让我们都健康每天赚大钱
买鸡肉要注意
<防检局屠宰卫生合格>标志
这都是屠宰卫生检查兽医师严格把关的合格兽肉
请大家千万要认明哦～
“喂～你忘了说买鹅肉鸭肉也一样的～
我是住3号的鸡婆啦～“

I think its very hilarious~ which means attracting publics attention to the advertisement itself, and the younger generation may also memorise the whole thing and then the advertisement become popular and therefore, public's conciousness over the particular thing will be increase~

credit cards for summon

Heard bout paying bills online, for phone, electicity, water, internet...how bout summon??

Here comes the "In" thing~
The Malaysian traffic force is going to apply the payment of summon using credit cards, and its just a matter of time for the banks and credit card company to approve the process of payment.

In my opinion, this shouldn't be the case, as in paying summons with credit card...wat??? Its just not the right way to do things. Those ppl can just pay those papers like nothing have ever happen to their wallet, don't have any feeling of pain in the heart for paying for their mis-doings, and IF they just swipe their cards on the machine and later, they go bankrupt or they just can't pay back the money to the bank/company....so, the consequences is that they become the "victim" of credit card.
So, wat happens next?
newspaper and everything came out with the "bad"s of using credit cards, talking bout how many users never show up to pay the credit cards bills, how many ppl kill themselves with all those "payments that will nv be paid"...etc...etc... bla bla and blabla....
Then~ the government will "find solution" to solve the increasing credit card usage, limit the credit card users...etc...etc....

Ok~ here's the point....since its not yet a "problem" and therefore it doesn't need any "solution", so~ y want to find trouble with urself?? *duh*

Also, increasing usage of credit card without 1st measuring "how big is own head", its just not the right mentality to own a credit card....its just normal 3rd world mentality, with "vision" to move towards becoming "1st world" country....*duh* x2

Have "fun" with ur card ^.^
P/s: then regret later....if u don have the right mentality....

Mata~

那討人厌的爱

爱，以成过去, 但心仍抽痛～ 爱，以不在，但仍在心里～ 爱，以中断，但感情仍在～ 是爱吗？是自私吗？是无聊吗？只是回忆吗？是习惯吗？是孤独吗？
我无怨无悔，因我已做完我所該做的～

我把父母，家人对我的关心，担心，都看在眼里，记在心里～我懂他们对我担心的原由, 因我太坚强了～自那天，我不曾在任何人面前为这事掉过一滴眼泪～ 也不曾说过我心底的感觉～ 我连我自己也受骗了～

有就有， 怕什么人知道？ 无聊！！！白痴！！！
我不需同情，我不需知道的人特别来关心我。。。都不需要！！！

最坏的打算？？？零～
就是佛理内所说的～ 没事～ 就是，什么事都没事～ 我两袖清风的来，不带走风，不带走啥～
我生活的原理不变～就是平静，安稳，普通，悠闲，还有最重要的， 快乐！！！
羡慕我？ 是的， 我也开始羡慕我自己了～

我还年轻，不懂世俗～ 不懂人生～ 啥都不懂～ 所以，我做任何事，都不去考虑或担心未来～ 可以说我笨，没责任感，逃避, 但，我就是我！

Still living happily, enjoying my life, living in the present and every seconds, every feeling counts as MY LIFE!
p/s: really no joke, no lies in this last phrase.....
此地无银三百两？？ watever~ ^.^

My day~ sleepy

I got less sleep these days...having myself to torture myself, in which I feel good in doing that....yea~ I have something wrong in me~
So...I have done some silly things coz of my "not enough sleep" ness, yesterday and today.
Yesterday, after I parked my car, stepped out, and then yucks!! I step on shit AGAIN!!! but then, i just wipe it away cleanly...went to class, then go home....
Today, when I parked my car, langgar the pavement twice, then engine died once....seems to u like its a very small place, or a difficult place to go in~ NOPE, its super easy place to park...OK, nvm~ then went to Mc D, drive thru, then langgar pavement AGAIN....so dumb....Before that, in the morning, when I drove my car out from the lot, I almost hit a car which just drive over behind my car while I am reversing~ I already checked the mirror b4 reversing, donno its that fellow's fault or mine -.-'''

Anyway~ here's a page bout life to share with all of u....enjoy~ and hope it start to change ur life from then~ Coz, that's wat I always have in mind, just that I doesn't quite apply all those...:p
http://abrahamhicksvideo.wordpress.com/2007/06/29/self-empowering-message/

going to get some sleep d~ =.= Zzzzzzz

Lately~

Lately, I am very easily frustrated bout things....some small, tiny, minute, unnoticed thingy can make me feel irritated~

Is it that I have not enough sleep? or that I have too many things inside my brain...too many things to settle; too much to remember(and that is wat I hate...i don like to remember things); too much to do, but too little done; time flies...etc...etc...
Or it's that the weather change too fast, sometimes sun is in sight, but the next minute, rain drops starts to fall...

Oh ya~ and I found out a way to make my life easier, not to offend ppl with my words...that is~ process less words in my brain, having an empty brain with nothing in it, keeping myself focus on one particular thing, then just listen and smile to the ppl that talk to u~ to do that, sleep less, so that u are too tired and ur brain just can't function properly. The next is not to get urself into trouble with words that carry responsibility~ e.g.: when some1, which u know is the suka kira punya ppl, ask me bout the date of test/to pass up lab report, I just say the date once, then if he/she have doubt/suspect in his/her action, face or words, I will just say that "if u believe, then just take it lor, if not nvm, it doesnt really concerns me"....great rite? but~ it's kind of rough in talking that way...but wat to do??
Also~ if u just don want to tell any "fact" that u supposed it's rite to u to that particular "doubt" fellow~ just make ur face blur and say that ur brain is not functioning....so great :p

conclusion: I am just not in the mood for things irritates me, even in the tiniest way. In which the above sentence means that I am a hedgehog!! don irritate me or I will cucuk u to death!!

Part of Phobia

Every1 have some phobia imprinted in them, its either u choose to accept the fact that u have the phobia or u simply trying to always bluff urself that u r perfect~

Today~I have accepted the fact that I have another phobia that I knew it for a long time, but its that I don really go and think about it~

----->>AGE<<-----

It's kind of hilarious~ maybe I have had too much of the family/parental thought that I have learnt since I am small, that is to respect ppl that is older than u~ It's be'coz I have a huge extended family...in which my dad is kind of the youngest among all~ and that me and my big bro is always kind of seen as "child" -.-'''
Since small, my idea is that any1 that is older than me, I can't talk directly or straight or normal conversation with them~ coz, all I have in mind is respect. If you think that I sort of normal, and that you are seeing the real side of me~ erm...it's probably not me, coz I donno wat I am saying literally, and I actually don't quite express the real thought in my mind to you. Coz, if I did, you might think that I offended u or, if you don feel that way, I will feel very embarrass after that, and the scene will kept replaying in my brain~~

Even it's my bro's fren, or even his gf, or even seniors in secondary or in university, all I have in mind is respect and they are my senior....
-.-'''
how sad~
I one state of view, it's great that I know how to respect others; but on the other way round, I am just not such a sociable person....*sob* *sob*

Maybe, when time goes by, and that I seen more ppl in life or that I myself stepped into the society, I might be able to overcome this particular phobia of mine~
Or~ maybe its just that I don have enough self-confidence in me, that I am always too humble....
Or~ maybe it's only me and myself, that I am born an anti-sociable nerd

How sad, but its still me^.^

My Pooh Collection

I just realised that I have some of a collection of Pooh....

It's mostly coz my frens knows that I am a huge fan of Pooh...anything that is related to pooh, and also, the most important contributer is my big bro~ He bought me everything that I don't have in my collection yet...and then, every year during my b'day, I will get a "surprise", which I always love wat he gave to me^.^

I have uploaded the photos of my collection of Pooh in my photo~ just click the icon at the list on the right hand side of the page~

Enjoy~

Hurray Pooh!!!

Floating~Drifting

Lets make things clear 1st~ It's not bout driving or speeding...it's bout thought, ok:p

Have u had the feeling that everything is going the way as you planned, and everything is like at ur fingertips and u are like sitting in the control room of ur own life or part of ur life?? Then, suddenly, u fell deep into the valley, and things starts to go the "wrong" way, and your life goes out of order, uncontrollable, unpredictable, you don't know wat you are doin and who you r, you r confused....totally confused~??

It's how I always felt.

I can't have ppl always speak highly of me or to have expectations out of me~ if so, then I will be floating in the air, and forgot to stand firm on earth~ and suddenly, I figure out it's just a dream, everything breaks into pieces....and so does my heart, and my "self".
I need ppl to step on me, say that I sucks, I am ugly, that I am useless, that I am etc, etc....but, not always la~ sometimes it's me myself that know how much "status"/ what is my stand and where do I stand in a herd....so~ I don mind ppl tell me that~ really don't mind...coz it helps me think real and grab the reality. BUT, don over do it la~ I also have a fragile heart ^.^

I have failed a number of times with that me not being able to capture the mid-point of floating in the air/dream and standing/grabbing the reality~
I did done things that are extreme, which makes my life after it sucks, fail and losses myself~ lost balance of life and hated myself as much as I hated that particular "thing".

Now that I know, I added a new item for me to fulfil in my list~ that is to learn to control the grab of being floating/drifting, but at the same time, being able to stay in reality.

Aza Aza!!!

Rashes

Talking bout rashes~ I have had rashes that is sort of systemic running in my body for bout 2 months d~ didn't see doctor nor take any medicine, coz me myself can't think of any reason I have such thing on my body and IF I went to see doctor, he will sure say the same thing, it's allergic reaction, that I have to take antihistamine, or worse, some stupid doctor will give me antibiotics~ where....i don't know y in the hell a Doctor will simply give anything in which it's not bacterial causing for sure~ *duh*

Here's a shot taken with rashes on my knee....coz...when it's goes some other places...well...such as buttocks, I can't take a pic of it and put online rite -.-''' hehe....

Self

I just came back from Penang~ as usual, it's not holiday and nothing special, just that I have some weirdo goin inside my head:p
And, have some little talk with every1 in the house~
My bro said that I wat I have written in my blog is those that he have had in his when he is in my age, 3 years ago~

Erm...I was thinking~ maybe it's becoz that in this age like mine, I am searching for who I am, searching for acceptance by others, searching for affirmation from other's eyes....But, at the same time, we deny ourselves, deny the fact that we are who we obtained from the search, deny that we are lying to ourselves, deny that we are like who we are~~ then...we try to search for a new self~ that's y, we always have switch personality, switch thought, switch preference over time....sometimes, we every contradict the self in the past ^.^

It's quite normal actually, to have this kind of mind, thought and stage of point...it's a set point of life that every1 have to go through~ just that it comes earlier that others or later.
Anyway~ I am still considered young and have lots of time in life, though I always fear that my life is too short, and that I am getting older each and every seconds and that I don have time to fulfill every item in my wish list~
*sob* *sob* *sob*

Life's like that~ -.-'''

Roast Goose

Dad bought a roast goose from Hong Kong for me "at my request" :p
It's because the roast goose is a delicacy in Hong Kong, in which I find it very delicious...Can't stop thinking bout the taste after I 1st tasted it 2 years before.

So~ can u ever imagine such beautiful, eligant, graceful creature
become~
*Ouch*

It's chinese culture~ we eat almost everything on earth :p

Mind in present, heart in the past~

What would u do if u keep on walking towards the future~Trying very hard to live in present life, but u just can't~ ur mind kept moving forward, but ur heart is still left in the past~

Imagine, after working so hard for today and tomolo, then the next morning, u woke up, open ur eyes and u still live in the past~ ur house is not the house u stayed in last night; ur purse is not the same as that of of yesterday's; ur diary is not that of yesterday's; ur hp is not as that of yesterday's.....BUT, memories is still there~
Scary rite? feeling of wanting to cry out loud?

This is how I feel every now and then, once in a month or a few weeks~ is it sort of the gal thingy, or that I am having minor schizophrenia?
Donno~ all I know is that...I have to be strong, be tough and not to be that gal I used to be already....coz....life is not that easy~ everything happen is to hurt u, to make u loss confidence, to make u believe~
BUT, trust me....everything is a lie~ nothing is so straight forward, nothing is just there becoz of u....

I don believe in anything!! except for myself!!

Being me, having me in the center of my thought.....whether it is the past, present or future...everything will be me and myself. Nothing will take me down again....and don ever even try to make me!

complicated?

There are ppl that think life is complicated...of coz~ I have had that in my mind for seconds in the past~ BUT, there is nobody other than urself that can make ur own life complicated as it seems to be to u.

It just simple~ It's just all in ur mind. Keep thinking the same thing, then build up circumstances, making urself a director, making drama of ur own...all scramble, jumble up in ur mind...

In Neuro class~it said something like....thoughts are just neurotransmitters, action potential firing....maybe that's the coz of complications in our thoughts of things.
So...y not keep things simple, think of things that is more important/valuable, then, we could maybe save some energy and neurotransmitters....so that we could have better, healthier brain when we get old...haha~~
It's just some of my imaginary stuff...wasting my neurotransmitters, coz I have tonnes of them:p

Conclusion:- 1) Life is just simple, and everything is just in ur mind.
2) Nobody can make ur life complicated other than urself
Free ur mind!!

Bandaged leg

Bought myself a calf bandage after a few "attack" of cramps on my right calf~ Counterpain just don work for my skin anymore, maybe coz I have too thick a layer of it~ Hope I will feel better with the protection of the bandage~

Nice leg right?? even with the bandage on :p

4 seasons

Spring, is when flowers starts to bloom~
Everything is a brand new start, every little thing is fresh, exciting and beautiful. World seems to be such a wonderful place to be~ having full spirit in doing things, setting goals and drawing plans....felt happy bout everything around u...everything seems to be going the rite track towards the target set.

Summer, is when sun is shining bright, with heat and colours of the flame on earth~
Everything is pushes to the very limit. It's so damn hot and stressed up. Time seems to be not enough for everything~ plans starts to swing from its set course, target seems to be getting away from plan....felt tensed and uneasy~

Autumn, is when leave starts to dry up for the cold winter, then drop off from the branches~
Everything seems dry and monotonous~ Things and urge starts to slow down, preparing for the ease and relax life. Plans become not so important, targets become impossible to achieve. Excuses stack things up~ life become colder, mood swings easily like the uncertain wind and rain.

Winter, is when snow starts falling, and cold starts crawling up ur spine~
Everything seems to be cold, and all u wanted is a cup of hot coffee or hot choc. Life is with no flame and push to do anything. The only thing in mind is relaxation and filled with enjoyment. Plans and target are nothing. Everything and anything can be wait till spring comes, where weather become soothing and temperature rises abit.

Life~ in each and every year, is like passing a few 4 seasons, having ups and downs; heart with burning desire and an ice-cold heart~
I am glad that life is such a beautiful process, having colourful spring, flaming summer, moody autumn and last but not least, the cold, simple winter.

For me~ I am bout in between summer and autumn now...
Having flaming urge to complete stuff in hand, but, on the other hand, being always emo and having a bit of going downhill mood :p

What season r u in?

Hello Kitty Collection Spree

Some of u might felt weird~ isn't that I love Pooh?? y suddenly hello kitty??
Actually~ I got a bit bored bout Pooh d~:p Also, that now I am super in love with anything pink! and the main colour of Hello Kitty is Pink, in which, I can't resist them -.-'''
Remember that in the previous blog, I say that I want t full collection of either Pooh, Doraemon of Hello Kitty? Think that it's impossible and that I am dreaming? Think that there are no such things that can all be made with hello kitty's pink and cute icon? Here's some examples~
Digital Camera

Mini Fridge
Thermos Set

Laptop

Just in case some of u want to buy my some Hello Kitty stuff, here's some links:
http://shop.sanrio.com/on/demandware.store/Sites-eStore-Site
http://www.giftapolis.com/hellokitty.html
http://www.dreamkitty.com/

And~ for more information bout Hello Kitty, click on the site below:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hello_kitty

Hehe~~Happy Pinky Pinky ^.^

070707

Today is a memorable day, this series of number, 070707, represents today's date, which only appear once in a millennium...should be a day to be celebrated like celebrating the comings of a millennium. But, who cares wat day is it?

Erm..maybe it's a date that is easy to be remembered, and that's y many tends to get their marriage on this particular day; to open a new shop; to.....etc...etc....
It's a mirror for humans, where it reflects humans are so lazy even to remember a particular date~ so~they try to choose a date which is easy to remember ^.^

What have I done in this particular "special" day?
Normal~ not much ups and downs....
Have to go to uni even it's saturday, and the worse thing is that the class starts at 8am AND, the lecture is super torture, which the lecturer talking in "fragmented" english but we all still have to focus and get the points of wat he is talking about~ I know it's hard to talk in front of a huge class~ but...but.....its really torturing.

Then went to pay my Maxis Broadband bills and then....have a 1 and a half hour sleep.....SATISFIED!!!
Have to finish 2 reports today~continue blogging next time^.^

My birthday~

It's my birthday today~~erm...nothing so great about it...coz life is still continuing, still have to go to class...have to eat, shit and bath....it's just another day~ but the great thing about this day is that u get wished by lots of ppl, get presents if lucky(but I don get any~coz....the things I wanted is too expensive, or that it's things that only me myself can give to me:p

I sort of "celebrated" my birthday with 2 of my best frens in KL~ Darren and Aik Aun...coz they just like accompany for a lunch and a movie for the afternoon...anyway~ thanks to them~ if not...I will have to find some crazy things to do to past my "special" day as I always do since I know how to drive myself^.^

hm....want to know my birthday wish list??
1. A personal jet with license for it
2. An unlimited flight ticket, valid for any country for life long
3. Erm...as for gatget, a brand new digital camera, with high quality images; and a brand new handphone, with functions as in nokia N series (best if the functions are as superb as that in N95/nokia navigator)
4. A complete set of Pooh, Hello Kitty or Doraemon stuff to decorate my whole bed room~ which includes~bed sheet cover, pillow case, clock, tooth brush and bathroom set, book shelf, mouse, soft toy, pen/pencil case, bag, bowl and cutlery, fan, kettle, oven, water bottle, table mat, floor mat, phone, cup....anything that u can think of naming^.^
5. More time for a day, for me to do stuff that I love doin~
6. Erm...*a censored wish*~
7. Money flowing into my bank?
8. Good health and good body shape~
9. Getting better results for exams?
and lastly, as said by every miss universe~World Peace...wahahaha~~

Erm~quite crazy..I know~ but~ it's better to have dream than none rite??^.^
Love and Hugs to all frens that wished me~this gain my luck.....THANKS!!

It's just a matter of choice

Do u know~ that there are ppl out there that always try to motivate ppl, but in the actually fact, they are trying to motivate themselves? That there are ppl out there that ask ppl to live in the present, not in the future, but they themselves live in total fear of wat might happen in the future? That there are ppl out there that isolated themselves in fear and tremble every single day they are living in? That there are ppl that nv even want to take one simple step out nearer to the risk, not even IN the risk itself?

Aih....maybe I am still young and that I haven't see much of the world~ where ppl say初生之度，不怕虎~ I would like to take risks, but with consideration of wat might happen after that~ which means, I consider the consequences b4 doing things, but if the risk is not that huge, it's worthwhile taking it. Anyway~ it's life, and in life, wat is so great about it, wat's the experience that we can gain, or wat's the true meaning of life if everything is nothing with risk?
Life will be super flat, monotonous, no interesting stuffs, and not much experience gained, coz no pain, no gain rite?

By the way~ I doesn't mean that my life have to be super packed with risks and interesting stuff~coz, in my case, I love risks, but there are still limitations to my life, in which, I am "still a child", not independent and that my choice is mostly dependent on elderly's thought and concept. Of coz, I have my own point of view bout things that I am still trying to get my parents, and my bro to accept them~coz, my family stands firm in the 1st class state in my life, and that everything have to be approved, be accepted and to be known as rite, b4 I do anything~
Coz...coz....I have great respect to both my parents and my brother, and it's not bout chickening or that I just don want to bare any responsibility or that I live in fear~

Life is just a matter of choice, whether u want to live it today, or fear for tomolo and always being living in the fear that u forgot how to live life today. So~ I have one simple question here~ What is the use of living in the fear of tomolo and that u have nv been living today?Do u think that living is still worthwhile? erm...if u think, u believe that fear is part of life that everyday is to have fear and then the day will be full, then...just go ahead~
Life is about choice....even that when u are to be born, ur brain have started to make decision either to be divided into epidermal cells of to be developed into u brain, where u used to decide wat u think. Every morning, when u wake up, the 1st decision u make, consiously or unconsiously is to open ur eyes or not to~ then, to go to class/work, or not to~

So~~I am going too far~
Coming back~ the conclusion.....in my point of view bout life, there is nothing that is impossible, and it is not a thing that cannot be done, only to be choose btw want to, or don want to~

HUMANS~ weird, confused, controversial, an animal which "feels"......they are just a piece of shit, being a handful of sand in christianity point of view, an in buddism, its just a soul+body, which comes to earth coz of reasons缘 accumulated from past life~

One only live life once, and that, every single moment of life is to be treasure, and risks have to be taken~

Experiment of the day

Today, we finally finished up our molecular biology experiment, which is the extraction and purification of DNA, then PCR, then electrophoresis~ It takes 3 labs sessions to finish the whole thing.

It's kind of stupid, adding this and that, then put into ice, then put into machines, then try to figure out how to measure the molecular weight of the DNA fragments...but, it's very interesting, learning all the techniques and stuff on how to actually play with such a small, unindentified by the rough eyes, and it's all over our body^.^

Here's some pics of the lab today~ running gel electrophoresis, then developed the gel which is stained by EtBr:-

Coffee in Oldtown

Today's lunch...or I should say tea is at old town...coz when I have that, it's already bout 3pm~

The funniest thing is that I didn't bring my purse to uni today, BUT, I still wan go makan with my frens:p The more jia lat thing is~ I still want to shopping...with my gatal hands -.-'''
I've got no money to pay for my food, didn't bring my jusco card, so have to pinjam from fren also to pay the parking...then~ still, went to Watson to buy the girly stuff -.-'''
I am really no help and is qualified to die d:p

Ok~ this is the photo of a cup of coffee in oldtown, which in my dad's point of view, a standard cup of coffee have to be like this:
The old town coffee really superb! The taste even without adding sugar is very smooth like silk on the tongue, then the taste and smell goes smoothly through the throat, passing the aroma into the nasal passage.
Erm....did old town gave me any advertisement fee?? :p
Anyway~ it's just a superb cup of coffee with the silky taste, smooth feeling on the tongue, the excellent sensation that excite ur nerves....wow~keat!

KFC- X meal

This is wat I got when I bought an X- meal from KFC~ a fantastic4 CD file


and~ can anyone guess wat this yucky, shit-like thing is??it's....erm.....cheesy wedges~ wahahaha~~^.^

Feelings

Do u know wat humans have in priority of other organisms? Brains, which consists of nerves, neurons, axons, dendrites, glial cells etc... in humans brain, it is where feelings are from.
Happy, sad, fear, nervousness, jealousy, excitement, disgusting, emo...etc....all are from our brain.

To have a human brain can be one of our advantage living as a human, BUT, it is also a disadvantage.
It makes us remember things that we should forget, fear for things that we shouldn't, being emo for no reasons, easily excited over small things, being happy though we should felt sad, felt nervous even it's nothing to tremble us in anyway~
So, is having brain still an advantage? the answer is yes and no

Yes, as in the point that I can feel, being emo for no reason, then being myself, crying my heart out in the middle of the night when felt down, laugh out loud in a crowd like nobody is around me, felt excited when ppl asked me out....felt guilty when I do some little small thing like lie to my family (sorry...I just want some excitement in life:p), being super happy and enlighten my seeing a small little butterfly fly across my way and then settle on a flower petal in a sunny morning~ etc....etc....

No, in the sense that if I can feel, I will think too much, having all troubles and uneasiness surrounding me~though I don't feel down"ness", uneasiness, and emo often for a long time d~ but I just don want the pessimistic me to come back again....NEVER AGAIN~

I love my brain~ for I can express myself better than others in words...I can feel the beautiful"ness" of the world~and the most important thing is~ nyak nyak nyak~ i don want to tell u :p also, another important thing is,my brain makes my life wonderful, fill with colours and no time for boredom!

I LOVE MY BRAIN!!
also~
I love myself, my soul that came back to me already....nyak nyak nyak~ life will be superly excited, filled with roller coaster ride in the coming days....nyak nyak!! ^-^

Enjoyable weekend

I've just had a wonderful weekend~ thought super tiring, not enough sleep and it felt as though I don even have a weekend at all. However, I'm lovin it~~ starts to really fall in love with my life and with myself. I've nv imagine myself can have such days.

Time is really fully packed and there's no time to think logically, to study as I planned, to relax as I always do, to stare at the ceiling doing nothing.... and it really does feels great. THIS, is wat I call knocking myself with a hammer, and it really feels great when u stop knocking urself even that I don actually knock myself hard enough or long enough. Maybe, I have to gradually get to the stage that I knock so hard that I can hardly felt a thing^.^
It's really great when I came back home late at night, seeing my bed and my laptop, I actually missed them so much that I just collapse on my bed after checking on my laptop for bout 5 minutes.

Erm~~I really should study as hard as I play though~:p